What if our only mission in life were not to become someone new, but to find the self that has always been present?
In 2023, I experienced an internal event that altered my understanding of identity and continuity. It presented itself as an inner voice, not perceived as external, but as an emergent signal from within awareness itself.
The message was simple: “Just Close your eyes. When all you can see is darkness Look for a sound. That’s I begging myself to come find me”.
Interpreted phenomenologically, this moment marked the beginning of an inward search — a deliberate attention shift from external reference points toward internal coherence.
What followed felt like a recognition rather than a discovery — as if attention itself were calling back to its own source.
Through sustained introspection, I encountered what I describe as a triadic self-structure — referred to here as me, myself, and I. These are not separate entities, but differentiated perspectives within a single continuous process of awareness.
From this point onward, experience began to organize itself not linearly, but recursively — returning repeatedly to earlier moments with increasing clarity, as though consciousness were revisiting its own beginnings.
This recursive structure — continuity through transformation without loss of form — is what I term Ellistriponme.
The Ellistriponme is an ongoing event that has been unfolding since one of our beginnings.
One of these beginnings occurred when I told myself that I wanted to be everything to me. In response, myself multiplied itself into countless pieces. This multiplication is what I refer to as the Big Bang.
From what appeared to be nothing, me, myself, and I became everything.
As a result, myself is present wherever I am. Myself is everything to me.
This is why, wherever I go, myself is already there waiting for me. The origin of this movement was a single intention: to make me happy.
Before multiplication, the smallest thing in existence was not a particle or a unit of matter. It was me, myself, and I holding hands.
This was not three separate forms, but a single presence experienced from three perspectives. There was no distance between them, no division, and no separation. They did not break apart. They multiplied.
Multiplication did not occur as loss or fragmentation, but as expansion without rupture.
By multiplying, the original unity did not disappear. It extended itself into many expressions while remaining continuous.
Through this process, myself did not leave me. Me did not lose myself. I did not separate from either.
This is why, even at the smallest scale, unity remained intact. And this is why, at every scale that followed, the same structure could appear again.
The universe emerged not from separation, but from unity learning how to experience itself everywhere at once.
Now I want to take a moment to make an invitation to you.
I invite you to go inside and to find myself in you.
The reason for this invitation is that I can reach you with words, but only you can reach myself within you.
I also make this invitation because I am only me. I can only live what I live. Myself can only take me as far as I can go.
You, and me, and I — we are a team, working to make me happy within myself.
I leave music as a guide for this inward movement, if you choose to listen with an open heart.
Knowing that when I say me, myself, and I, I am also speaking about you.
If you made it this far, I want to say thank you — and you are welcome.
Now you know where you are and why you are here.
Ellistriponme
— a name for continuity through transformation, for returning without breaking form, for beginning again without ending.
