Discarded Keystrokes

just to let people know I'm alive and stuff

life is... *gestures vaguely at the general situation* an experience 

I haven't really done any writing, and I failed to build a website on neocities

but I've been shitposting on bluesky @ blep.site

I really miss cohost

The rocks are quiet because the trees are listening.

Did a bit of an upload story to try and shake some of the cobwebs out.

It isn’t to say that older folks uploading is a particularly rare occurrence, but just that they are not nearly as common as younger folks. Generally, or so at as least the statistics tend, if a person was the sort to be interested in uploading they tended to do it as soon as possible. Even after the attack, after the climate began to stabilize, people generally uploaded early or not at all. Especially once it became nearly free to do so, or at least funded in such a way to be widely available to the masses regardless of wealth.

 

In that way it was fair for the upload technicians to be surprised by the presence of a man in his sixties. Time and the environment had not been kind to him, he walked slowly and slightly pigeon-toed, the trademark swelling and unevenness of arthritis was plain to see in his scarred hands. His arms and shoulders were pockmarked with tattoos of various styles, of various meanings. The technicians did not ask and he did not volunteer anything, but the old industrial worker’s union symbol etched into his upper arm marked him as a friend. He laid down upon the upload table, jacked in one last time, and willfully met his end upon the planet. A hell of a retirement party, he called it, moments before his motor control was cut off and his heart stopped.

 

 

and darn it I am good at it

I have been very, very sidetracked.
Aside from cohost shutting down, work has been kind of haywire. Then this afternoon the host of my mastodon instance announced that the node is going down at the end of the month and everyone needs to move. So I've been working on that today. In conclusion, I'm exhausted and everything is on fire.
Business as usual.

another one posted over in post_self

 

entry three in what is becoming an accidental series about a cladist called Laika

too tired to fool with pretty linkbacks

I'll write myself a standard format for it at some point

but not today

that all the people from the old websites who had long since cross blocked each other, will not have the blocks carry over to the new website.

I suppose it is a matter of choice, should we pass these blocks around again, shall we take the effort to seek these people out by their user handles, by their known names, and block them again? I don't think I'm going to. Somewhat because I'm lazy, somewhat because I don't remember who I had blocked for what when or why, and mainly because it shouldn't be necessary. A lot of people can look back at old problems, personal clashes, whatever, and decide it isn't worth the strife.
Sometimes it isn't worth leaving people unblocked no matter where you go. Sometimes it is worth the effort to hunt them down and shut them off from your space before they ever knew they'd been found.
I don't think I'm going to do that, though. I choose to believe that reasonable people can leave well enough alone, and if they can't abide peacefully, then by all means block on first contact.
And some of the shit people got cross about was truly, astonishingly stupid. I include myself in the list of people, to be clear.

I guess I haven't really recovered from having yet another community fall apart around me. I watched instant messaging programs die, I watched IRC die, I watched all the forums I ever joined die as twitter and facebook took over. I watched the archives fall apart as the PHPBB architecture was left derelict and gradually rotted from the inside. I was helpless as the MUSHes and MUCKs slowly bled out and all my friends became ghost names with three and four digit "last logged in X days ago" timers. I watched as Livejournal died from abandonment to new media and the Russian overtake. I eventually left too. Then everywhere I went from there died. Facebook was never safe. Twitter slowly festered from the inside until it was eventually husked and stripped, now we get to watch the zombie shamble around in search of legitimacy. I watched Tumblr die three or four different deaths, coming back every time only to get killed again by something else. I joined two different communities in search of like minds and fertile grounds to explore and express my ideas. I slid away from both of them because the eventuality of doing worldbuilding in fairly single-minded kink spaces caught up with me and ushered me out. It is an eternal cycle of finding a new place, the new place is unsafe, find a new place, the new place has been destroyed, find a new place, you will never fit in there, find a new place, the new place is not safe... What few places I do still acknowledge that I am allowed to be, I feel as though I am not even a footnote. An error in the margins. A matter of time before it is decided that my contributions were a fluke, a bug to be written out of the code.

I have realized that any more I only feel comfortable when I am disconnected. That is a problem.
I will remain here, I will try as long as I can find the energy. I am tired, and I wish to lay down, to rest, to close the noise from my ears and the chaos from my mind, to sleep until perhaps once again use is found for me. But I only have use when I am able to make something of myself, and that is very hard to do when you are asleep.

Okay so it just occurred to me how this works.
If you post to your own page you post to your own page.
If you post to a community you are a member of, it posts to that community.
If you go to your read page, it shows you posts of the people and communities you are subscribed to.
If you go to a community's reading page, it shows you a conglomeration of all the posts (that you have access to) by all the people in that community on their personal blogs.

Does that make sense?

I think that makes sense.

Also I think I just found out what shift+enter does.
enter is line break.

Shift plus enter is double line break. I am gradually remembering how to work LJ fork code. It's been literally almost twenty years, be patient with me please. I haven't worked out line indentation and margin formatting but I know it exists. It's in the HTML somewhere.

oh I made it into the eggbug_writes community already, I should have posted the story there. I wonder if you can cross post to your blog and into a group at the same time.
I'll look into that.
maybe tomorrow
or at least after a nap

cat, you know