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amphobet: Portrait of Ralsei from Deltarune. He has a pentagram on his forehead. (Default)
Ralsei Baphomet Mashup, uncredited at artist's request

About Me

Hi, I'm Amphobet. I'm a leftist in my 30s and I love fantasy, science fiction, cartoons/anime, comics/manga, and video games/bideogēmu.

My primary fandom is Undertale/Deltarune.

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Groundhog World

Sunday, January 4th, 2026 02:00 pm
amphobet: Doobie Ralsei fanart with a pentagram shopped onto his forehead (daaanink)
For some reason my brain came up with an idea of a society that's stuck in a time loop. Like Bill Murray, from Groundhog Day. Except everyone remembers the day before, not just one person. But each day, everything is set to the exact state it was in on the day the time loop started.
And I mean, like, mass chaos at first, right?
Real purge shit. But like, it'd get old, yeah?
And so eventually everyone settles down and basically re-establish the social contract
And murdering and shit is just considered like, a total dick move.
Eventually, every single person on earth will have lived out every permutation of the same 24 hour period. Everyone would have literally done everything.
It would be extra fucked up if the time loop ended, and we had just a planet full of people who had lived millennia in a world with no consequences, suddenly snapping back to the "real" world
This weed is some good shit
amphobet: A grayscale version of my usual portrait (gray)
US Box Art

Mega Man: Dr. Wily's Revenge (Game Boy, 1991): A Mini Review

It's like Mega Man, but smaller.

Smaller 'cause it's on a Game Boy, but also smaller because it doesn't have as many levels as a typical Mega Man Game.

Starts almost as an adaptation of the original Mega Man, except only 4 robot masters are available to fight: Cut Man, Ice Man, Elec Man, and Fire Man. Get through their stage, defeat them, get their powers, and then it's on to Dr. Wily's fortress. Yep, just 4 normal stages! You do fight four robot masters from Mega Man 2--Heat Man, Quick Man, Flash Man and Bubble Man--but they're all in one of those teleporter rooms located at the end of one of the Wily stages.

Mixing robot masters from two games is kinda fun, and there are original levels, enemies, and other elements that don't show up in the home console versions, so kudos to the handheld version for having the ambition to add to the series, rather than just adapting it.

The smaller screen size means you have a tighter field of view than the NES versions, which may make this game even harder than the original Mega Man on NES.

I don't regret playing it, but I think my favorite part was at the end credits, where you get to see goofy portraits of all the robot masters go by. They look happy and silly for some reason! I haven't seen these portraits anywhere else, and I kinda love them.

I played it on the 3DS and tried to avoid using save states, but my willpower crumbled on the last two levels.

Worth checking out if you're a fan of Mega Man and Mega Man 2.

amphobet: Portrait of Ralsei from Deltarune. He has a pentagram on his forehead. (Default)

Notes on Self-Care for Autistic People by Dr. Megan Anna Neff

Mental Self-Care

Internalized Ableism

Some signs of internalized ableism include:

  • Doubting your abilities due to being autistic
  • Apologizing for acting neurodivergent
  • Masking
  • Internalized Stereotypes

Try to notice and challenge these thoughts as they come up.

Embrace Stimming

Stimming has many benefits.

  • Helps you focus
  • Provides control, homeostasis, comfort, and security
  • Feels soothing due to brain chemistry
  • Satisfies sensory seekers

Regulate Emotions Through Movement

Rhythmic movement like dancing, pacing, jumping, or skating helps to release pent-up energy, put you in touch with your body, and feel more grounded.

Identify your values

List your top five values, or search for an online "values card sort" such as this one. Living in sync with your values promotes positive mental health.

Engage in Your Special Interests

Some positive effects:

  • Reduces stress
  • Helps with emotional regulation
  • Helps you to feel more energetic and grounded
  • Can help you bond with others over shared interests

Professional Help

Building Your Health Care Team

  • Find professionals experienced with autistic patients.
  • Get recommendations from local autistic communities
  • When receiving healthcare, be open about your sensory sensitivities, pain, medication history, and any side effects
  • Write down a list of concerns before your appointments and refer to them during, so you don't forget anything
  • Ask to record audio of your appointments if you need help remembering
  • Make sure you are scheduling regular health check-ins and medication management appointments
  • Learn about treatment risks and benefits and work with your providers to make informed decisions

Seeking Therapy

Neurodivergent-Affirming Providers

The following are "green flags" (good signs) which may help you identify the right care provider:

  • Identity-first language. "Autistic Person" rather than "Person with Autism"
  • Statements affirming neurodiversity and respecting neurodiverse identities
  • Mentions of using an intersectional framework
  • Emphasizing your autonomy, choice, and agency in treatment
  • Offering accessability options such as flexible scheduling, sensory accomodations, and alternative communication methods

Red Flags

Here are some signs that indicate a provider may not be for you.

  • ABA - Applied Behavioral Analysis
  • Pathologizing language like "Autism Spectrum Disorder"
  • A focus on "fixing" you by curing autism or trying to make you more neurotypical

Online Resources

amphobet: Portrait of Ralsei from Deltarune. He has a pentagram on his forehead. (Default)

Notes on Self-Care for Autistic People by Dr. Megan Anna Neff

Emotional Awareness, Literacy, and Resilience

Thought Mapping

  1. Jot down a central theme or problem in the center of a sheet of paper and circle it.
  2. Identify subthemes or factors contributing to the main theme or problem.
  3. Connect each related subcategory to the central circle with lines
  4. Add more bubbles to each subcategory, trying to pinpoint specific issues.
  5. Keep expanding the web
  6. Reflect on your completed map and notice any patterns.

Grasp difficult emotions

Practice Gratitude

  1. At the end of each day, list 3 good things that happened.
  2. Replay them in your mind
  3. Put visual reminders in your environment to reflect on something you're grateful for

Self-Compassion Statements

  • "This is a difficult moment. It will pass."
  • "I'm not alone in this. Others have felt this way before, too."
  • "I'm human, and it's OK to feel the way that I do."
  • "It's OK to feel what I feel right now."
  • "I trust my capacity to grow and learn from this experience."
  • "I'm going to get through this. I've faced tough times before and survived."
  • "I'm doing the best I can with what I have right now, and that's enough."

Emotional Regulation

Emotion Labeling

  • Develop emotional awareness by identifying the physical sensations, thoughts, and behaviors that coincide with various emotions
  • Use an emotions matrix or feelings wheel
  • Track your mood with a worksheet or an app
  • Practice mindfulness
  • Journal about your emotions and the sensations that went with them
  • Talk about your feelings with trusted friends and family
  • Talk to a therapist to process emotions

Anxiety vs. Sensory Overload

  • Sensory overload is caused by external stimuli, such as loud noise, bright lights, or crowds
  • Internal thoughts, worries, and emotional triggers can be a sign of anxiety or other emotions

Take steps to stop and prevent sensory overload. "Sensory Dread" may feel like anxiety, but can be helped by planning ahead and using sensory blockers

Set a Worry Period

Worry more effectively with this technique

  1. Set aside a consistend 10 to 20 minute time period each day as your official Worry Time
  2. During this period, write or type out all your worries
  3. Identify the worries that are in your control (vs those you have no control over) and create actionable steps you can take to address them.
  4. If you find yourself worrying throughout the day, remind yourself that you will address your worries during your next worry period.

Raw Spots and Triggers

  • Think about past experiences that triggered a strong emotional response. Document the events' context, reaction, and associated thoughts.
  • Note how your mind and body react when encountering triggers
  • See if there is an associated story you tell yourself
  • Mindfully acknowledge and name the triggers when they activate

Alternatives to Self-Harm

  • Holding ice, putting your face into a bowl of ice water, or using a cold pack can create a jolt and release endorphins
  • Try grounding techniques
  • Try rapidly changing temperatures, such as a hot shower followed immediately by a cold one
  • Intense movement like running, dancing, or jumping
  • Soothing sensory self-care practices such as a warm bath or calming music
  • Try using a TENS (Transcutaneous Electrical Nerve Stimulation) unit.
  • Support from trusted friends, family, or therapist
  • Put together a distress tolerance kit containing items such as stress balls, fidget toys, soothing lotions, meaningful objects, or your favorite book.

Anchor in the Present Moment

  • Physical grounding: Focusing on physical sensations like cool water or gentle movement
  • Mental grounding: Counting, mantras, cognitive distractions like puzzles
  • Sensory grounding:
    • Calming music or soothing textures or aromas
    • 5-4-3-2-1 Grounding Technique
      • Notice 5 things you see
      • 4 things you can touch or feel
      • 3 things you hear
      • 2 things you smell
      • 1 thing you can taste

Acceptance, Not Avoidance

  • Journaling about thoughts and feelings to gain insight into your emotions, patters, and triggers to find clarity
  • Mindfulness practice
  • Therapy
  • Express your emotions through art or music
amphobet: Portrait of Ralsei from Deltarune. He has a pentagram on his forehead. (Amphobet)

Notes on Self-Care for Autistic People by Dr. Megan Anna Neff

Emotional Self-Care

Autistic Burnout

Signs of Autistic Burnout

  • Constant Fatigue
  • Heightened sensory sensitivity
  • Decline in skills such as:
    • Focusing
    • Organizing
    • Problem solving
    • Speaking
  • Increased anxiety, irritability, and feelings of overwhelm
  • Decreased tolerance for change and more reliance on sameness and predictability
  • Social isolation
  • Loss of interest in hobbies and enjoyable activities
  • Reduced ability to Mask

Avoiding Burnout

Identify methods of restorative rest that work for you, and prioritize them. Do not let internalized ableism lead you to burnout by attempting to "push through" or trying to live up to allistic expectations.

Engage in a Sensory Detox when overstimulated. Determine what kinds of sensory environment is healing and restful for you, and use it as needed.

Prioritize

Drop unnecessary demands when feeling overwhelmed. Before burnout strikes, develop a list of things that can be skipped or deferred when the situation demands.

Try making a 3 tiered list of responsibilities

  • Green: Can be skipped or defferred with little consequence
  • Yellow: Can be skipped or delayed sometimes when needed
  • Red: Necessary responsibilities difficult to skip or defer without consequences

Comfort Media

Familiar, comforting media can be restorative in times of stress. Keep a list of favorite books, movies, music, etc, and turn to them when needed.

Brain Dump

You may find it helpful to clear your head by getting all your thoughts onto paper so they're not taking up space in your brain. Try the following:

  • To-Do Lists
  • Free Writing
  • Write down all your creative ideas
  • List the sources of your stress
  • List things you are grateful for
  • List your current emotions without judging them
  • Write down anything on your mind before bed to help you sleep

Boundaries & Self-Advocacy

Manage Hyper-Empathy

  • A consistent routine can keep you grounded
  • Engage in your special interest to tune out overwhelming emtions and the world's problems
  • Spend time with people who positively influence your mood.
  • Set and maintain healthy boundaries
  • Manage your news consumption
  • Use rituals such as visualization to release the weight of the world's pain and suffering
  • Find ways to create positive change in areas important to you

Evaluate your personal relationships for toxicity

  • Are there recurring instances of criticism, manipulation, and control?
  • Do they make you feel unsafe, anxious, or doubt your self-worth?
  • Do they make you feel comfortable and safe?
  • Do they openly criticize or ridicule you?
  • Do you feel manipulated?
  • Do they use affection as a control tactic?
  • Do they try to control you?
amphobet: Portrait of Ralsei from Deltarune. He has a pentagram on his forehead. (Default)

Notes on Self-Care for Autistic People by Dr. Megan Anna Neff

Body Care

Interoception

If you have trouble with interoception (noticing the signals your body is sending you), try these.
  • Use a visual schedule or visual reminders for eating, drinking, bathroom breaks, etc.
  • Set alarms and timers to remind you when to take a break, check in with your body, etc.
  • Set a hydration goal for the day.
  • Use a checklist
  • Simplify your routine when possible
You can also improve interoception by practicing a body scan.

Food

  • Keep frozen food on hand for low-energy days.
  • Set up predictable meal routines, like "Taco Tuesday."
  • Work from recipes with visual instructions
  • Identify and stock up on safe foods (foods that you know you tolerate well)
  • Many people with Autism benefit from taking the following supplements:
    • Vitamin D
    • Omega-3 Fatty Acids
    • Magnesium
    • Zinc
    • B Vitamins

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Preferred Pronouns

Even attempting to speak my true pronouns would shred your tongue to bloody ribbons and drive you to gibbering madness.

So feel free to use whatever pronouns you have lying around!