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I am trafficked
Since 3 years back
By the psychiatric system
they beat me as well
disgustify me
poison me with drugs in food and drinks and forced injections putting arborted fetal gay in the ventilation and in the paint
put spiders in my bed
the list goes on and on
i know I have no voice and this will get near zero views
they do anything to break you over and over again
and i cant escape
im moved to the woods
if you run they put military helicopters on you
to existancerape me like this costs 50000sek 5000$ per day and i wonder why whats the point they only lie about the statistics they get from you anyway
they have planned to make this smartphone explode rather sooner than later they are ultimate evil they decide on what you should think feel act i wont survive this winter thanks tiktok youve been good to me also crossposted to other places
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prompt: "daugher of isis and freyja"

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prompt: "shuddha prajnyana with her cats and dragons"

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From 2013 and two years onwards I tried my hand at Haruki Murakami's bibliography. First I bought 1Q84, then the bookstore didn't have the other parts. That was good, as it felt like that's his sellout work, #2 just repeated the same ol'. I didn't give up on him though, and went to libraries all over Stockholm borrowing his books, both in swedish and english and also audiobooks. Reading them there, or on bus-trips across the city. I'd heard about that he was nominated for a Noble Prize, and figured that maybe he was good. I was not mistaken.

All his books are in different genres, and he's written a lot of short-stories too! So much to indulge in. Eventually I started using computers more again, and for me at least... I can either read off of a screen, or from a book - both don't work. Don't ask me why. Maybe because with a screen you read it over and over again all the time, with a book, it's one word at a time, like Stephen King says. I've only read a few of his, seen some dramatizations.

As an INTP with NI dominance, I haven't really read a lot, nor watched a lot, nor thought a lot, nor lived a lot, nor talked a lot. I am good at talking though, can make anyone fall, if it's a female. Guys just pass me off as a girl that's good at talking and not much else.

Since I started smoking I've gotten both emotions and discipline though, so something was good out of Bella leaving me. Is that why you're here, that you've heard about La Belle Epoque? Then I treat you. Er. SOURCE connection lost. It's like that nowadays.

I am borderline now, so instead of being manic depressive I'm just depressive, half of my heart just went out the window, to another Bella, but since I talk about Bella it could be an Isabella or a Gabriella or a Gabbie or whoever is beautiful in any way whatsoever. Could be a dude, which I am, even if most don't think so.
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25% dalmas
25% mestis
50% tullinge
50% sierra leone
100% botkyrka

precis som min cigg
så njuter jag av
att se skiten brinna
drick upp
vrid upp volymen
och försök njuta
av det istället

i havent seen too
many around lately
things have been tough
lately for dreamers
they say dreaming is dead
no one does it anymore
its not dead its just
that its been forgotten
removed from our language
nobody teaches it so
nobody knows it exists
the dreamer is
banished to obscurity
well
im trying
to change all that
and i hope you are too
by dreaming
every day
dreaming with our hands
and dreaming with our minds
our planet is facing the
greatest problems its
ever faced
ever
so whatever you do
don't be bored
this is absolutely the most
exciting time we could have
possibly hoped to be alive
and things are just starting

I think I might have an answer, at least one that works for me, thanks to a strange and wonderful group called the Legendary Pink Dots: “Sing while you may…” (for it may not be very long). It’s a theme that comes up often in their music. To me the meaning is close, but not exactly the same as that of carpe diem – sieze the day. I think “seize the day” implies more of an ability to change things. The Dots’ philosophy is more about expressing yourself. You may not make a mark on the world, which either is or is not about to end regardless, but it’s still beautiful and it’s still meaningful. Birds live that way. So should we.

you dont choose writing
writing chooses you

what people want in theatre
is fantasy involvement
not reality involvement
anyone thinks
they can
write a play
you just write down
what happened to you
but the key is to write
from all parts
of your life

i often go to parties
where people say
"id always wanted
to write a book"
i invariably answer
"i write 1 word at a time"
and the answer is
invariably dismissed

BIBLIOGRAFI

Trollskog
Efter dig
Lædæræ
Muliebris
För att du inte ska glömma mig
För att jag älskar dig, because I love you
Bella, konsten, och konsten om Bella
The impermanence of regurgitation
Reality is more a stranger than Fiction
Tänka i Nietzsche
Yours truly, Tillägnad
DIRT
Mem! Or... Why? *Thirst*
The Miseducation of Tomas J
Soul Education
Pendlarlugn
Klotter
3 Poems & Mishmash
Buss 707
Graffiti
Photoshops 2007

D-I-S-K-O-G-R-A-F-I

A-L-B-U-M

-Nedgången-
DKDC
Betittled
The Shadow People
Live for Lies
Time's Running Out
Political Art Love
Pain Pleasure Poetry
That's Amore
Out of the Ether
Inget Hat
ASMR

-La Belle Epoque-
Med en trekant av konst musik och poesi
Wabi Sabi
Kattsjäl
Pluto & Charon
Hjärta & Amygdala
Fred mellan Islam och Kristendom
I gränslandet
Profetiska Guider & Dödsänglar
Förlovning
Återfödelse

-The Dark Ages-
Negative Feedback Loop
Caðarsis
I am Cyberpunk
Alchemy & Mars (dubbelalbum)
Etersidan & Teraluna (dubbelalbum)
4av4
Quirklings
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💉 DSM-T
2025-09-24 The psychiatric system has walls painted with mercury
2025-09-17 Du pratar osammanhängande
2025-09-17 Psykiatrin förgiftar mig med cyanid
Natural bubblegum aroma
The psychiatric system is the essence of rape culture
2025-09-15 The psychiatric system is by definition bipolar
2025-09-15 Pussy assassins
2025-09-15 På psyket kan man välja mellan 1 saker
2025-09-15 It is illegal to document
Surfa på psyk
Cointelpro of a cointelpro
Dumdum
i got COINTELPRO'd
ignobelpriset i handfallenhet
Neuroleptics are demons
Cracks in the firmament
Interview with psm
new doctor with brains
reporting to wikileaks
Psyket kan inte ta in mig utan anledning
Psyket får psykbryt
Med decode
Neuroleptics restore you
Cocaine state of mind
Re: strange update of personal rights
Psykatrin kristna alkoholister med mera
Psychiatric times
Meeting times with the psychiatric system
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2:49 189BPM Hôn
Ilu
Youth
Angel
Jullan
Oändlig
Den enda
Eftersegla
Va Den Enda‎
Gå vilse bäjbi
Vänta precis här‎
Have our hearts grown weary
Jag kan höra musik
2:59 128BPM Alla vägar bär till Malta
5:48 77BPM Ett uns av medelmåttighet
Allt jag gör (gör jag för dig)
En fri själ och sjö sand och sol
I vilket spektrum talar dina själ
I mitt sista andetag ska jag viska ditt namn
Jag älskar dig therese (jag vet vad du går igenom)
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i cant forget you

i guess i never will

we lasted such

a short time

but it still meant

the world to me
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du kan spela mig på
FORTRAN (måste va hög/full)

skriv bara in SOJ? där

allt jag någonsin skapat

är till ditt förfarande

hur du än vill

blog (livejournal/dreamwidth/devart)

(5k+ inlägg, varje har tagit

+1 timma att skriva)

photoshops (10k+)

använd det hur du än vill

poesi

(~5% av allt jag skrivit)

dans

(partikelacceleratordansen @ RTN

fred på olika body language @ demokratipiloterna)

ju mer du

använder / meme'ar / tar in det

ju mer +karma får jag

livet är ett dataspel

bräck mitt high-score

"life is not 1-bit but

32-bit floating point"

(KRSTND9+1)

reality 3d is a hackable

buggy virus infested

computer game with

hi-rez graphics

& flawed AI

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