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Oh also I am re-working my entire neocities site... it's very bare-bones right now but I'm building it from scratch. You can view it here

https://softwareangel.neocities.org/

softwareangel

hiiii today is my last day before I officially go back to work for the summer... so here's what i did!

After doing errands, I went out and got two new games [Dragon Quest 1+2+3 HD 2-D remake]! I had no idea they rewrote all of Hargon's story... and added more to the original game.. its wild, Im looking forward to playing through them! Even if I don't really vibe with Hargon's new backstory... I'll still give it a chance, and explore the remakes for what they have to offer.

I also got myself new shoes... my old ones were pretty old and falling apart [like, holes in the bottom of them lol]

They're so cute.. reminds me of Zig...

Also a couple of days ago I thrifted a really really nice digital camera... a Sony Cyber-Shot dsc-wx150 !

The photos it takes is really nice. I can't wait for this to be part of my everyday carry...

i alsooooo ordered myself a flip phone from japan <3 its a kyocera digno 3 902kc/903kc ! i got it in black <3

i'll be keeping my current phone as a work-only/gps phone with a different number, so its strictly for work only. my flip phone wont have any social media or youtube or anything like that... just messaging and music and pictures. im really excited to get it in the mail!

i took an edible so now im just chilling and am going to collect some new music before bed... gotta wake up early tomorrow.. goodnight

Current Mood: sleepy

softwareangel

Hello again... redid everything and aiming on coming back to posting on Dreamwidth. I need a place to dump my thoughts lol

seaglassgarden

this past winter, my favorite podcast network, ranged touch, released a free bonus episode for their podcast about genre fiction. the episode is about a christmas-themed murder mystery hallmark movie, but it goes off the rails after they discover a hilarious string of projects on a contributor’s imdb page. it’s one of my favorite podcast episodes because of its chaos, but what stuck with me about it was something one of the hosts said in response to their unexpected deep dive: “the world is so big”

that’s been such a comfort to me since then. the world is so big. there are huge expanses of information i haven’t learned. there are too many people in the world to meet, or even imagine meeting. the history of human creativity spreads endlessly in all directions. there is expertise everywhere, depth in everything, nuance in every possible topic, limitless complexity to all people.

whenever my world feels too small, too constrained by the petty details of my current heartbreak or my past trauma, too boxed in by an anxiety i can’t seem to shake or an ocd compulsion i can’t get out of, i remember: it is always an option to turn to the hugeness of the world and make my own life a little bigger.

i have a tendency to shrink my world down to make it easier to manage. i focus intensely on my desire for one (unattainable) person, or i put off things i want to do out of fear of doing them wrong. i have a history of playing it safe. other people’s lives seemed to go off on so many tangents, and i resented myself for not being able to compare. im learning not to do that anymore—both the resentment and the habit of barricading my life in one small, predictable room.

my life is bigger now. ive become part of an online friend group that’s everything ive been dreaming of since i was a teenager trying to find a digital home. i discovered that there’s a covid-safe group in my area, so ive been able to safely meet new people for the first time since the pandemic began. ive let myself be influenced by passions of my new friends, and ive discovered so many new things as a result.

it’s a struggle, learning to let my life take a more complex shape.

but the world is so big. and my life is growing to meet it.

Current Mood: pensive

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dw_maintenance

Olá de Lisboa! (I'm in Lisbon right now for work...)

Thank you everybody who has tested on canary - I'm about to push the code up to stable. I know that not everything has been tested and there's a lot in this deploy, so I expect some things to break or be weird. We have ported a lot more of the "older" pages to the newer formats, so there will be some UI changes in a few places, but it shouldn't be anything too major.

Watch for: One thing I know will require tuning, we now have added rate limits (which basically allows us to control how rapidly DW pages are loaded.) This is a protection mostly designed against bots, but any time in my career I've rolled out new rate limits, I've learned someone is hitting them and they have to be tuned. So if you see them, please let me know!

Anyway please do comment and I'll work to fix things today. We also have a rollback ready in case we need to (and I'll be honest, I expect we may need to... we really should do more frequent deploys.)