paralyzed in a sitting dance

november now.. time is going rly fast and it makes me feel sick when i think about it. october didnt feel like it was a month long. it was a week maybe

i like november though.. my brain associates things i like w it. i don't like the snow or how cold it gets though. whatever. anyway the month sounds like a dark red to me. specific shade in my brain. its a really nice one.

today was kinda bleh. woke up at 2 pm.. sad. felt weird and awful. felt artblockish, doesnt matter cause i cant draw when im like that anyway. i cant do anything when im like that it sucks

i edited my neocite a little while ago. i fixed up some stuff and made a new page. im thinking about making another new page for art and such. but immm not sure.. im never happy with how my neocities looks so i'll probably end up hating that page. i should start over but its kinda. augh. i do have fun coding so maybe doing a complete overhaul of it will be better for me

i feel weird

ill probably delete these entries later when i'm unhappy with them. i dont think im ever truly happy with anything i make