"Despair is the complete absence of Hope. Perhaps you left Hope stranded at the bus station, and you could say you lost Hope. But even in that case, Hope is somewhere, and you know you can find her again. Despair is when Hope is obliterated--not even becoming history, where she can be remembered. No, Despair is rewritten history, where Hope never existed in the first place." ~Katherine Gee
That's from one of the essays we had to read for my English class. I really thought it was interesting and decided to share.
As for an update about my life, it's, well, madness. Here's a brief rundown of my life:
Classes
Anthropology 101
This class is really strange. Our teacher does things like have essay word counts that are 2,534 words due at 3:32 pm. We asked our TA to ask him (the class has like 1,000 people in it, so most of our interactions with the teacher are like, "Oh, I think that's the teacher down there...no...that's the janitor.") if he was serious. So she did, and his response was. "Yes, I want them to learn discpline."
I think that is probably all I need to say about that class. Weird, weird, weird.
Honors Book of Mormon 121
Our teacher is one of the most difficult BoM professors at BYU, and it shows. I just took our first test...and scored a remarkable 52%. I don't think it has really hit me yet. When I saw the score show up on the little screen, I laughed. So at this point, I feel deep hatred for the class. But maybe if I change the way I study, things will improve.
Maybe.
Honors University Writing 150
This is one of my better classes. All we do is read and write and talk, and if you've ever met me you know those are among my favorite things to do. The stuff we read is really good, and I feel like I am learning a lot about writing. There is no downside to this class.
Beginning Ballet 190
I'm a little more advanced than this class is, to say the least, but I really enjoy it. It is a class intended to dance and have fun, not dance and die. Plus, the only homework is to go to World of Dance. What a difficult assignment, how ever shall I manage.
Intermediate French 201
People always say the French program at BYU is really hard. Well, they lied. It is not just really hard, it's really really really ridiculously hard. But I am honestly LEARNING french. A LOT. Our teacher is French, she was born in Nice and she speaks English with a French accent, so you know we will be learning real France french. And this is the only class where I feel an actual friendship with the class members, and know their names, because we have it every day. Although I deteste the daily homework and the tests are not cake, I am genuinely glad I stuck it through the first couple weeks. Many times I wanted to drop the class, but I am glad I didn't.
Now I just have to remind myself of this every single day when I sit down to do my homework.
Orientation to the Psych Major 101
So far I really like the Psychology major. This class and strange and mostly we talk and then are experimented on, but I feel that psychology is what I want to do and this class is required. It's only once a week, so I've only been twice. But it seems good.
Intro to Interiors 102
Well, this was a fiasco, but now I actually like it. The tests are intense and the teacher expects A LOT, but the homework isn't bad and it is really interesting to learn about. Well, the book isn't, but the class is. I am glad I ended up in it, anyways.
Work
Archaeology and the Bible
I transcribe this class for the sweetest girl in the whole world, so it's good. There are lots of crazy Middle-Eastern words that I make up the spelling of. Like Finkelstein. And Meggedo. We just make stuff up and our student laughs. The teacher talks slowly, so it really isn't a difficult class to transcribe either.
Contemporary Theory
This is one of those advanced anthropology classes. I transcribe it for the same incredible girl, but the class is so astoundingly weird, you wouldn't believe me if I told you. Mostly I transcribe, and the girl looks at me like, "Please tell me this is a typo or you are on mind-altering drugs and my teacher isn't actually teaching this" and I shake my head, make the crazy sign and she laughs. It's great. Once I slept through it, though, so my team is scarred for life. Oh well.
Biology
I will have to take this someday, so it is good that I am transcribing it. But it is card to transcribe "alpha helices" and "beta pleated sheets" that many times. And the student for this class sort of hates all transcribers. But it's fine.
Essentials of Human Nutrition
This class is really interesting, although hard to transcribe because all of the terms, and the teacher talks really really fast. But I feel like I am learning valuable information, and the boy I transcribe for is super nice. It is at 8 am, though, which is a definite downer.
That is basically all that I do. School and work. It seems to be going pretty well, I like my house and my roommates and all that's grand, and I have fun on the weekends, and Edward and I see each other every day. So mostly all is well. And exhausted. :)
Love,
Lizzy
