i genuinely think dating is too painful; i am not meant to get to know someone and be emotionally intimate and vulnerable and then cut off all contact with them forever; i am a soft girl with a tender heart who struggles with departure of any kind
after a major breakup you're supposed to be heartbroken and wishing for death for 6 months and then you're supposed to spend the 6 months after that living a continued ascetic and celibate life before you start dating again