Chill Day
Feb. 24th, 2026 11:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
disappointed_lesbianI've barely slept in the past few days, yet I don't feel as tired as I normally would.
I think I've been having hot flashes. They're actually flashes now; they're sudden and brief. I'm dry, then I'm sweating seconds later.
Today was a fairly productive day. Started off with another headache, but breakfast got rid of that. I found the second smoke detector I'd removed, so I contacted the property manager about the apartment repairs the housing authority wants. I knew the property manager would ask about the smoke detectors, so I put off contacting him even though the repairs are to be finished fairly soon. The housing authority will stop paying the rent if they don't receive documentation to the effect that the repairs have been completed, so this situation is kind of an axe hanging over my head. That's not the correct saying; it's something other than an axe, but I cannot remember what. Some kind of weapon.
I also finally got the speech to text service working. At first it wouldn't transcribe Taiwanese Mandarin, and I thought I'd have to upgrade my account. Indeed, Microsoft's AI customer service said that I needed to upgrade. MS services are the most confusing shit ever. I loathe having to log in and even look at all the business-speak on my account dashboard, and the help articles are full of overly complicated tech-speak as well. The AI did give me a code sample that I eventually made work.
It's fantastic! I just type in a file name and watch the transcription of whole podcast episodes cascade down the screen. This opens up a whole new world of study methods. I can feed the thing kpop songs and get the lyrics transcribed. With all these tools, learning a foreign language is almost too easy. If I ever go back to czech, that'll be significantly easier to learn as well.
I quite appreciate being able to stay home and recuperate when I'm ill or in pain. I'm thinking I don't really want a job now. Maybe I should just stick to my comfortable poverty, enjoy my free time, and take care of myself instead of putting myself in a more stressful and inflexible position in life. The effort required to simply apply to these jobs is already too much.
I know what the problem is: I've been so set on becoming employed that I've all but abandoned my plans to work remotely and to work part-time. Having to commute to and from a job site is what's going to kill me (assuming the job itself is doable). There aren't a lot of remote or part-time work options, but I need to continue to look for them anyhow. I need to be committed to finding a job that won't burn me out because I'll just end up unemployed again in a few weeks.
I don't want to study applied math in grad school either. These past few days of migraines have kind of tired me out as well as underlined some of my needs and wants, in particular, how I'm willing to spend my non-sick time. I don't want to spend my non-sick time on an applied math degree. The purpose of this degree was a career, not so much interest or desire. I can at least try to fill my life with enjoyable and desirable things.
I've been taking three or four times my iron pill dose, and it's been working, without me crushing the pills. I just need to get the prescription filled more often. If I ever being sleeping through the night, I'll have to figure something else out, because taking the pills in the middle of the night is how I have them on an empty stomach.
The pants I recently bought are already loose. I would like to go down a size, but I need to lose a couple of pounds or the pants will be too tight. I'm afraid I won't ever loose those last few pounds. Losing weight is so difficult now.
Today has been rather chill. It rained heavily, so I didn't go out to exercise. I felt somewhat more peaceful than usual, probably largely because I had the coding to focus on.
I think I've been having hot flashes. They're actually flashes now; they're sudden and brief. I'm dry, then I'm sweating seconds later.
Today was a fairly productive day. Started off with another headache, but breakfast got rid of that. I found the second smoke detector I'd removed, so I contacted the property manager about the apartment repairs the housing authority wants. I knew the property manager would ask about the smoke detectors, so I put off contacting him even though the repairs are to be finished fairly soon. The housing authority will stop paying the rent if they don't receive documentation to the effect that the repairs have been completed, so this situation is kind of an axe hanging over my head. That's not the correct saying; it's something other than an axe, but I cannot remember what. Some kind of weapon.
I also finally got the speech to text service working. At first it wouldn't transcribe Taiwanese Mandarin, and I thought I'd have to upgrade my account. Indeed, Microsoft's AI customer service said that I needed to upgrade. MS services are the most confusing shit ever. I loathe having to log in and even look at all the business-speak on my account dashboard, and the help articles are full of overly complicated tech-speak as well. The AI did give me a code sample that I eventually made work.
It's fantastic! I just type in a file name and watch the transcription of whole podcast episodes cascade down the screen. This opens up a whole new world of study methods. I can feed the thing kpop songs and get the lyrics transcribed. With all these tools, learning a foreign language is almost too easy. If I ever go back to czech, that'll be significantly easier to learn as well.
I quite appreciate being able to stay home and recuperate when I'm ill or in pain. I'm thinking I don't really want a job now. Maybe I should just stick to my comfortable poverty, enjoy my free time, and take care of myself instead of putting myself in a more stressful and inflexible position in life. The effort required to simply apply to these jobs is already too much.
I know what the problem is: I've been so set on becoming employed that I've all but abandoned my plans to work remotely and to work part-time. Having to commute to and from a job site is what's going to kill me (assuming the job itself is doable). There aren't a lot of remote or part-time work options, but I need to continue to look for them anyhow. I need to be committed to finding a job that won't burn me out because I'll just end up unemployed again in a few weeks.
I don't want to study applied math in grad school either. These past few days of migraines have kind of tired me out as well as underlined some of my needs and wants, in particular, how I'm willing to spend my non-sick time. I don't want to spend my non-sick time on an applied math degree. The purpose of this degree was a career, not so much interest or desire. I can at least try to fill my life with enjoyable and desirable things.
I've been taking three or four times my iron pill dose, and it's been working, without me crushing the pills. I just need to get the prescription filled more often. If I ever being sleeping through the night, I'll have to figure something else out, because taking the pills in the middle of the night is how I have them on an empty stomach.
The pants I recently bought are already loose. I would like to go down a size, but I need to lose a couple of pounds or the pants will be too tight. I'm afraid I won't ever loose those last few pounds. Losing weight is so difficult now.
Today has been rather chill. It rained heavily, so I didn't go out to exercise. I felt somewhat more peaceful than usual, probably largely because I had the coding to focus on.
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