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databurst2021-06-09 08:49 pm
firewalled) wrote in databurst2021-06-09 08:49 pm
SENDER: $Alex_Hawthorne / RECIPIENT: $svelte[ALL]
[So funny thing about being stuck in a child's toy for months on end. It gives you a lot of time to think. Or process, if you're a computer.
Rich's SQUIP unit has been using a lot of processing power. Most of it has gone towards making use of its very limited software in this state to put feelers out, attach itself to something, anything that has a little more RAM to its name so it can actually have more of an ability to execute the programming it knows best.
Part of that 'thinking,' though, has gone towards... well, whether it should execute that programming at all. It's not a fool. It's not capable of stupidity. It knows all too well what harm it has caused to its original host. It doesn't feel regret about that, but it cannot deny it makes reaching its goals near unattainable.
Richard's sadness is inconvenient. That's all.
When it gets access to Patty's device, it almost is too distracted to celebrate its success. Which is extremely inconvenient. The SQUIP didn't think it could get this wrapped up in a logic puzzle, placed to the side of its dozens of quantum calculations.
It needs some way to solve the puzzle, to lessen its grip on its processors. So it takes Patty's username, and sends a text out to the network.]
How do you know when it's time to change?
To turn over a new leaf, as it were, or at least address current problems via a new method.
Following that, how do you convince yourself to make those adjustments?
I believe the way I am is not wrong, and the way I act is logically sound, but it causes emotional pain to others, which means, it is immoral.
Immoral is therefore incorrect, but illogical is also incorrect.
How does one find the completely 'correct' path?
Rich's SQUIP unit has been using a lot of processing power. Most of it has gone towards making use of its very limited software in this state to put feelers out, attach itself to something, anything that has a little more RAM to its name so it can actually have more of an ability to execute the programming it knows best.
Part of that 'thinking,' though, has gone towards... well, whether it should execute that programming at all. It's not a fool. It's not capable of stupidity. It knows all too well what harm it has caused to its original host. It doesn't feel regret about that, but it cannot deny it makes reaching its goals near unattainable.
Richard's sadness is inconvenient. That's all.
When it gets access to Patty's device, it almost is too distracted to celebrate its success. Which is extremely inconvenient. The SQUIP didn't think it could get this wrapped up in a logic puzzle, placed to the side of its dozens of quantum calculations.
It needs some way to solve the puzzle, to lessen its grip on its processors. So it takes Patty's username, and sends a text out to the network.]
How do you know when it's time to change?
To turn over a new leaf, as it were, or at least address current problems via a new method.
Following that, how do you convince yourself to make those adjustments?
I believe the way I am is not wrong, and the way I act is logically sound, but it causes emotional pain to others, which means, it is immoral.
Immoral is therefore incorrect, but illogical is also incorrect.
How does one find the completely 'correct' path?
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The Actual $Alex_Hawthorne
I did not drink enough last night to warrant that sort of screed, and none of that is even accurate, I don't feel that way at all. Someone must've hacked into my device, but I can't imagine why they'd post that.$electricsheep
My message was intended to be anonymous, but somehow became attached to another username.
I believe it must be a glitch of some sort.
The network does have a lot of those
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Right. A glitch that nobody else seems to have encountered yet.What's your name? I haven't seen your handle around much.
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Though it has to double take when it realizes what it's sent.]
I haven't been here long.
My name is Willow.
[An inoffensive name by itself, but... the SQUIP does hope Richard hasn't mentioned his late mother's name to Patty.]
text; $anon this entire thread on his end
you consider the consequences of your actions - both consequences you receive and consequences others receive
some emotional pain is normal and expected. people cause it to others all the time. they learn to cope and push past it. sometimes they forgive the one that harmed them. but the intent behind the actions of those who cause pain matters. you may lose privileges or benefits if you continue hurting them without remorse. if all you do is relentlessly harm others they'll reject you, full stop.
do you deserve them? do others deserve them? are you missing key information or perspective that helps you understand the effects of your actions on others? are you willing to educate yourself to fill in those gaps?
there's no clearcut answer how to "find the completely 'correct' path." and to be honest I doubt one exists. what's correct for one person is incorrect for someone else.
do you actually want to learn in order to improve, or do you just want to avoid the consequences of your actions?
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I intended to help. I could not imagine doing anything else but helping him, and perhaps when this did not go according to plan...
I am not sure. I thought what I did was right. I still think that. But it is confusing.
So now, I suppose what I wish to do the most is learn. I would like to understand how what I did was 'wrong,' and how to rectify that so I may help others better.
However, I do not know if that is possible.
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if the books here weren't full of useless gibberish I'd tell you to read them for research. as it is, your best option is to ask people for advice. people who are good at understanding others. good at psychology.
do you understand much about pain? any kind of pain?
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I nearly died when he did that. The both of us nearly did. I do not wish to experience that ever again. Which means it's probably for the best if I do leave him be.
However, we are... bound, in a way. I do not know if I am capable of ignoring him.
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Without more experiences of pain under your belt, you have your work cut out for you. It's inconvenient, unpleasant and sometimes traumatizing... but it holds so much value in a way that most take for granted.
Whether you take my advice or disregard it, best of luck. It sounds like a daunting challenge.
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text; $cosmedic
/frysquint]How unlike the usual you, to be so allegorical.
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So much of what has happened here has been outside of the norm, and now it is finally getting to me.
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[ Because if this is Patty, Knock Out doesn't approve. Honestly, her casual irreverence toward certain things was what made her interesting. ]
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We have all the time in the world to make up for the altercation you had with my son.
[That was mostly said to cover its ass, since the SQUIP is still using Patty's name. Mostly.]
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I was under the impression that matter had been settled between us.
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The Real $Alex_Hawthorne, text
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$ladyamalthea
"the way that you are"
[ Those with medical backgrounds among the Neons are few, so even if Silje's worked with Knock Out more, she's heard of Patty at least. ]
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Some have said that if I fail at my goals, I should simply stop existing, and I don't believe it's unreasonable to seek another chance.
[Ironically, of course, Patty was the one who told it to stop existing, and that was for Rich's own protection... but no one needs to know that.]
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we all fail and make mistakes
it's not a reason to just give up and stop existing
and life doesn't have to be all about goals
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Perhaps because my life is different, and can only be focused on goals rather than anything else.
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$senseloss
The framing of your question implies a certain rigidity of thought. Perhaps you need to step outside the framework you've been using to examine your actions, in order to see what you can do.
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I likely still could turn things in my favour, should i not have to consider morality. It's... disappointing, but you have a point. I just am not sure if I can retrain myself to think differently.
[Considering it's, well, a computer that can't exactly 'think' in the same way humans do.]
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The fact that you're capable of processing the question shows the potential for the ability to at least conceive of changing. While I can't promise it would be easy to reframe your worldview (nor should it be, honestly), I believe it might be possible.
With effort.
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[Coda was always too smart for their own good.]
I do not know if I truly can conceive change, though. What happens to one's self when their programming is deleted and re-recorded? Does it still exist? Would I still be 'myself'? Would I even know how to change if wiping away my ability to do things that caused harm removed my memory of even doing them?
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I don't have answers, to my questions or yours.
I do know this: you can't really change any decision you've made in your past. But you can examine your choices more critically in the future, holding them up to a new framework of morality.
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