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making decisons can be difficult - we're trying to work out what to do after the end of the textiles corse, which is a bit scary because we've been working towards it for about 7 years. And everyone has there own opinions - which is fair enough. Only i end up as referee, trying to be fair to everyone and tryinig to put my own views forward - when i can actaully work out what my own views are beacsie they do get kind of blurred with everyones elses. I never seem to be as definate as say dwoucke or judiff
As the only adult, the one who is always on standby to deal with outside people, decsions about how we are in the world effect me more than the others. But i can't ignore everyones elses opinion (i don't want to ignore everyone elses opioin i just want to have the casting vote over ther things that i end up having to deal with). Sometimes it feels like i have the least choice and the most resonsobility (yes i'm in a bit of bad mood at the momment - we are all feeling stressed right now and maybe i'd see the dynamic a bit differntly somewhen else - but proabably not very differently)