I need to format all my liveblogging thoughts later so I can post it here, but after ruminating on the endings I have this to say: Scenes incredibly hot, but if I think about the entire context and all the endings I feel guilty about it. (Which seems to be the intended reaction after reading the dev commentary when you get all endings LOL) ABSOLUTELY BROKE MY HEART!!!!! I feel empty. I managed to get every ending "in order" by complete chance, so, I got the "good end" last and it was so painful. My chest physically hurt and I had a hard time parsing what I felt. I love it and it's one of my favorite BL things I've ever read. I'm really picky with BL / Yaoi and hate anything that leans too heavily on generic Yaoi tropes and this didn't do that. Love to be heartbroken watching the deterioration of two best bro's friendship. I'm glad I read it, but it hurts soooooooooooo bad AAAAAAAAA! .........though some of those scenes are perfectly designed for me and me alone and I'll think about them forever.

After I collect all my thoughts I'd like to read through the VN again now that the initial excitement and adrenaline has worn off. Now I can think about it with more nuance. The emotions are so painful. Revisiting some of those scenes from time to time wouldn't hurt either, it's given me hella good NSFW art ideas...