Shanghai Film Park
Feb. 23rd, 2026 07:01 pmrequest for recipes
Feb. 23rd, 2026 06:55 pmIn return, I can offer one of my own that fits this description:
White chicken chili
Abuela's Song of the Day (Feb 23): BOYNEXTDOOR - Hollywood Action
Feb. 23rd, 2026 08:27 pmBOYNEXTDOOR - Hollywood Action
cw: surrealism, guns, aliens, flashing
CC in 9 tracks, incl ENG
I don't have the words, this is just ... insane. But in a way that my aged cheesy SF-loving heart appreciates. The fact that the song is a flirtation of pop and jazz doesn't hurt anything.
Heated Rivalry and Murderbot
Feb. 23rd, 2026 04:47 pmHeated Rivalry. It was wild watching a hockey romance on my screen after writing ~350k of hockey romance fic. Literally on the tv I could see writers addressing and working within the same logistical constraints all us hockey RPFers do! And this is a show that knows hockey. From the very beginning with the joint ad shoot, I knew I was in good hands. Maybe my favorite nerdy moment of the whole show was towards the end where they’re discussing how to get Ilya on a different team, and Shane straight up starts laying out the salary cap considerations. In bed! Extremely hot of him!
I couldn’t help but think about how it must be even wilder to watch if you’re a closeted NHL player. Like damn. I was crying at the big climactic scene in ep 5, as a queer unathletic woman in her 40s; imagine what that must be like to someone who actually plays the sport and lives that environment every day. I think I saw something about a juniors player(?) coming out recently and citing the show as being part of his inspiration, and just, man.
So did I like it? Well, I enjoyed watching it and would watch it again (except probably not episode three; I feel for Scott but the whole romcom thing about murdered me, and I have negative interest in Kip). I love Ilya to little tiny pieces, and I think Connor Storrie did an incredible job with him. That “deadpan on the outside, dying on the inside” kind of character is catnip. The show also made me cry big fat tears twice, which basically never happens. I’m weak for musical cues, but actually crying over a movie or tv or book is extremely rare for me.
On the other hand, I think Shane is a much weaker character, with very little external to react to compared to Ilya’s family troubles. The entire core of Shane’s character is being anxious about things that mostly haven’t happened yet, which is difficult to build a narrative arc around. I also don’t think Hudson Williams is as strong an actor as Storrie, but it’s honestly hard to say when the material he’s working with is so much weaker. I feel like it's particularly rough because he's so clearly a Sidney Crosby expy, and Sid is so much more interesting a person than Shane is. If Shane had more Sid in him (the leadership in the room, the thoughtful and very proactive team caretaking, the weird random nerdy obsessions), I would like him a lot more.
Also, I’m sorry to say but I got bored of the sex after a while. 🙈 When it comes to live action sex scenes, less is more for me, I guess? I do appreciate, as I saw someone comment, that the show made it extremely clear what everyone’s dicks were doing at all times, even though we basically never see them.
Overall, a fun time! Not mad I saw it. Not sure it really needs a second season, when it feels like it already told the whole story, but I guess we’ll see.
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Murderbot. I read the first book a while back and was unimpressed, but I thought a change in medium might address a lot of my issues with it, specifically a sense of worldbuilding and adding more depth to the characters, even if only by being played by real live people. And indeed, I do think the show was an improvement on that score. The live actors, the flashbacks, and the necessity of building sets all added a lot to make this feel like a real world that people live in.
To be honest, the real reason I wanted to watch the show was because I really like David Dastmalchian and because Gurathin was the most interesting character in the book after Murderbot, and I was extremely well fed on those counts. The expansion of Gurathin’s character added a lot to him, to the show, and especially to the relationship with Murderbot. Holy shit, it’s like they revamped him specifically as shipbait. ( spoiler cut for those that need it )
On the other hand, the show retains a lot of the weird tonal dissonance present in the book, and without the excuse of Murderbot as an unreliable narrator. I think Martha Wells probably has politics similar to mine, and I'm confident that her representation of the extremely queer, communal society of PreservationAux was meant to be a positive one, but what we see on screen often feels like it's making a joke at the team's expense. Ratthi and Arada are the worst, because they always feel like they're about fourteen years old, but everyone on the team frequently comes across as naïve, sheltered, and neither capable of nor interested in emotionally grappling with the reality of the world they live in. The way they are loudly protective of local fauna that has repeatedly tried to kill them or threatened their lives is a good example. They come across as parodies of people who hold their professed values, rather than serious examples of what those values might look like in practice.
The exception, for better and for worse, is Gurathin, an outsider who has joined their community only recently, barely buys into most of their practices, and notably is never the butt of the joke.
And like, I recognize that this is a relatively light-hearted show! Some of my very dearest tv shows and movies are ones that mix silliness with heart, like Buffy the Vampire Slayer and the Guardians of the Galaxy movies. I think I still haven't fully figured out why this rubs me the wrong way, when those don't.
All that didn't prevent me from enjoying it overall, though. I laughed a lot. I also thought Skarsgard did great. I've not liked him before, but tbf that was in Infinity Pool and The Northman, and it's possible I hated those in general and not because of him. Anyway, I think the more he gets to be a weird little (big) guy, the better he is, so he's great as Murderbot.
And unlike Heated Rivalry, this is clearly dying for a second season. I'm glad it's been renewed.
Me-and-media update
Feb. 24th, 2026 12:44 pmIn the Fourth walls poll, 68.2% of respondents said "the one-way glass that stops TPTB seeing fannish activity" is important to them; 65.9% said "the one that shields fandom from public/media attention", and 61.4% said "the wibbly-wobby physics-defying thing that means celebs and fans exist in separate universes that just happen to occupy the same space-time". About one in five respondents love ALL the walls.
In ticky-boxes, ballooooooooons and golden sparkles won 54.5% of the vote, coming second to hugs (77.3%), but the other tickies made pretty good showings too. Thank you for your votes! ♥
Reading
I finished Courtney Milan's The Marquis Who Mustn't and enjoyed it very much. Such a kind, good-hearted series with a lovely sense of community and a spark of mischief. I'm looking forward to the next one.
Then I ploughed through one of my randomly selected library books, The Bookish Life of Nina Hill by Abbi Waxman. I found this a delightful read and very moreish. It's voicey, with a distractable, occasionally omniscient 3rd POV scattered with pop culture references. I appreciated it's acceptance of introversion and valuing of alone time. Also, the main character has anxiety, and it didn't really try to fix her.
Andrew and I are still slowly listening to Barrayar by Bujold, read by Grover Gardner.
Kdramas
Juuust enough has happened in One Spring Night that I'm into it. I mean, it's still going around in circles, but I'm most of the way through episode 14, and I'm definitely going to finish. The story relies heavily on respectability, parental authority, and conservative attitudes for its conflict (the leading man is a single dad, OH NO!!), which took me a while to get my head around.
Other TV
Our journey through Middle Earth continues. We're on the second disc of extras for The Two Towers, and the actors seem a bit punchy in their interviews, lol. Other than that, just The Pitt. ♥ (My brother watched a few episodes of The Pitt and said it doesn't have a plot, and I... don't know how to answer that. There are mini-storylines with the patients. The capital-P plot, maybe? such as it is? has kicked in at episode whatever-we're-up-to. I feel like it totally works without a driving plot arc, because there are character/relationship arcs, and rising tension/pacing, and theme. Maybe that's all you need?)
I'm amused that I have three streaming service subscriptions and we're spending so much time watching DVDs.
Audio entertainment
More Better Offline, Tech Won't Save Us (the one about humanoid robots), Writing Excuses, Letters from an American, Pod Save America, Cross Party Lines, Fansplaining.
Online life
From you I have been absent in
Writing/making things
I'm subsisting on alibi sentences. My creativity is sitting on a bench somewhere, staring blankly into the sky.
I keep failing to post the meta about adverbs in speech tags because it's so prescriptive, and who am I to say anything?
Life/health/mental state things
I don't know what I'm doing with my life. The world (mostly as presented by the above podcasts) is freaking me out. Yesterday I made fifty chicken dumplings and talked to my brother in NY.
Good things
Dumplings. Creativity is a tide. Sunshine. Grapes. Library books. Black cat lying on the very edge of a sunbeam. Independent media and reporting.
How often do you check your spam folder?
daily
4 (12.9%)
weekly
3 (9.7%)
maybe once a month?
7 (22.6%)
only when I'm looking for a specific thing
17 (54.8%)
never have I ever
1 (3.2%)
other
2 (6.5%)
ticky-box full of prescriptive writing advice
3 (9.7%)
ticky-box full of blanket cocoons and comfort food
19 (61.3%)
ticky-box full of putting clutter in boxes instead of sorting it
16 (51.6%)
ticky-box full of koalas in gum trees, chewing eucalyptus and judging us all
19 (61.3%)
ticky-box full of hugs
23 (74.2%)
all your flaws are aligned with this mood of mine
Feb. 23rd, 2026 06:26 pmAnyway, have some brief thoughts on recent TV:
- Shrinking: ( spoilers ) This show remains hilarious and endearing.
- Pluribus: I finished it and I don't love it but I am interested in seeing where it goes. ( spoilers )
- The Pitt: ( spoilers )
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Language Quirk/Definition Poll Time!
Feb. 23rd, 2026 03:13 pmOpen to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 12
In your opinion, when something is listed as "the primary" of something, it is....
the most important or well known
10 (83.3%)
the first (timeline-wise)
2 (16.7%)
something else
0 (0.0%)
Okay, so recently I was doing a survey and it asked "Who was the primary drummer for The Beatles?" and while I am not a Beatles fan, via osmosis I knew that there were four of them (George Harrison, Paul McCartney, John Lennon and Ringo Starr) and that Ringo was the drummer but then scrolled down only to find it offered the following three choices: John Lennon, Paul McCartney, and Pete Best.
I had never heard of Pete Best but knew the other options were incorrect so clicked him and was told I got the answer correct. After googling I learned Pete Best was the first 'official' drummer for The Beatles ('official' in the sense that it seems like they'd played with random drummers here and there but he was the first to actually join the band and *was* a Beatle from 1960-mid 1962 when they fired him and hired Ringo just before recording the record that catapulted them to fame and remained with them until the band broke up).
All the dictionaries I looked at gave multiple definitions for "primary." Amongst the definitions were always something to the effect of 'first in order of events/sequence' as well as 'most important or well known' although where those two were placed in the list of definitions wasn't always the same.
So, technically, Pete Best was the primary drummer for The Beatles using the 'first in order' definition but probably not if using the 'most important' since I think most people would consider Ringo Starr the better known Beatles drummer.
So that leads to poll #2:
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 7
Who would you consider the primary drummer for The Beatles? (either by previous knowledge or as their history is described above)
and then poll #3
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 7
How did your response to #2 compare to #1?
Most important or well known + Pete Best
0 (0.0%)
Most important or well known + Ringo Starr
6 (85.7%)
Most important or well known + Don't Know/Unsure
1 (14.3%)
First (timeline-wise) + Pete Best
0 (0.0%)
First (timeline-wise) + Ringo Starr
0 (0.0%)
First (timeline-wise) + Don't Know/Unsure
0 (0.0%)
Something else + Pete Best
0 (0.0%)
Something else + Ringo Starr
0 (0.0%)
Something else + Don't Know/Unsure
0 (0.0%)
I was honestly a bit thrown by their use of 'primary' in the poll. While, of course, it *can* mean first in a question like that I interpreted that they were asking for most well known instead and was curious about what others thought of this.
Anyway, thoughts?
Birdfeeding
Feb. 23rd, 2026 11:39 amI fed the birds. I've seen a flock of sparrows.
I put out water for the birds.
I am done for the night.
Wu Xie's Private Notes
Feb. 23rd, 2026 05:27 pmWe see how Wu Xie, Xiaoge and Pangzi first met, and Wu Xie's Third Uncle is present in the first half of the story, before his mysterious disappearance.
Casting-wise, this new Wu Xie was introduced in the flashbacks of Tibetan Sea Flower.
You can watch it legally and for free on YouTube.
Just two things
Feb. 23rd, 2026 02:15 pmBut Candy Hearts Exchange had authors reveal, and I wanted to show off three treats I wrote.
Our perfect dance (757 words)
Fandom: 10 Dance (2025)
Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Tajima Aki/Yagami Fusako
Characters: Tajima Aki, Yagami Fusako
Additional Tags: Girls in Love, Feelings, Smut, Sexual Overstimulation, Treat
Summary:
Aki and Fusako - from strangers to lovers in two scenes.
This is how you want me to love you (1542 words)
Fandom: 10 Dance (2025)
Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Sugiki Shinya/Suzuki Shinya
Characters: Sugiki Shinya, Suzuki Shinya, Yagami Fusako
Additional Tags: Feelings and Realizations, First Time, Hand Jobs, Possessive Behavior, Dom/sub Undertones, Treat
Summary:
It wasn’t just love or desire. It was so much more. Before he even knew it, Sugiki needed it, needed him. Needed so badly, pain and longing filling his lungs so much that he could barely breathe.
Three is a magic number (1919 words)
Fandom: เขา...ไม่ใช่ผม | Not Me (TV 2021)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Relationships: Black/Eugene/Gram, Background Sean/White
Characters: Gram, Eugene, Black, Sean, White
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Getting Together, Feelings and Realizations, Kissing, Threesome - F/M/M, Treat
Summary:
“I want you to be the reason I smile often,” Eugene had said. And: “I’m giving you a chance. Don’t blow it. Got it?”
And Gram didn’t. For six months he didn’t blow it. He loved Gene and made her smile often. He stayed out of trouble and reported to a probation officer according to schedule. He still met with Yok, Sean and White. They still had hope and they still wanted to fight.
And then Black came back from wherever he had been holed up for the last half a year. And Gram’s relatively stable life started shaking; it just took him a while to notice it.
And finally the official trailer for my most awaited GMMTV GL drama is here, and it looks so good. It starts airing on March the 9th.
The Zon is up to more nonsense + romantasy authors resisting
Feb. 23rd, 2026 02:09 pmFirstly, I subscribe to the I Heart SapphFic newsletter. They spotlight sapphic fiction and queer authors, and keep the lights on through user donations, author ads, but mostly Amazon Affiliate links. Well, turns out that Amazon has recently taken to removing queer books and books they guess are steamy from their Affiliate Program.
Amazon has also "suppressed their findability" as I found out via a newsletter from Lissette Marshall, a romantasy author. Lissette and several other romantasy authors made a charity anthology to fight book bans (the proceeds go to PEN America) in response to these changes at the Zon and other tech giants. The anthology, Romantasy Rebels, was banned twice by the Zon, and the second time, they terminated the KDP account of the author uploading it.
Not only was Romantasy Rebels unavailable a second time, but my good friend Vela Roth, who had volunteered to host the anthology on her account, lost her entire livelihood between one moment and the next.
Between you and me -- I don't think I've ever been so angry in my life.
The upside is that, as always, the bookish community stands up for each other! Thanks to friends with helpful connections, from Amazon reps to legal advice, we've managed to reverse the (unfounded) decision on their end and get Vela's books and our anthology back 🔥 (But my goodness, it was a long, long 24 hours that I hope to never experience again.)
Reading that and imagining myself in Vela's shoes, I feel indescribable. Anger, terror, and I don't know the words for what else. Vela Roth is in Kindle Unlimited, and she's a full-time romantasy author, which means her entire livelihood was on Amazon. And Amazon just deleted it all, just like that. I'm so relieved that the bookish community was able to help her and that her books and livelihood are reinstated now. Quoting Lissette again:
Amazon fuckery took down our charity anthology twice, and almost ended a wonderful author's career in the process. In addition to all else, the experience has been a frightening reminder of just how dependent indie authors are on a very small number of tech companies who don't particularly like spice, or marginalised people, or, you know, democracy.
So, yeah. That's what's going on. I feel better about having to unpublish Bloodhunt Academy now, because it was a queer book and Amazon is clearly not a home for it.
As for Romantasy Rebels, it's being sold wide (so it's on all the major ebook retailers, not just Amazon) and will be available until the end of the month. Proceeds will go to PEN America. There's also a charity auction organised by romantasy authors, called The Books They Can't Burn, and its proceeds will also go to PEN America. The charity auction has a variety of items that one can bid on, including ebook omnibuses, signed special editions, Zoom chats with authors, etc. I even saw a fight scene consult with a martial artist, how fun. It looks like several people are bidding on everything so I'm glad it's going well!


