indispensible: (◎ & i follow blind)
vin. ([personal profile] indispensible) wrote2014-07-04 04:04 pm

twelve. spam & voice. the sound when we come running. ( backdated post-port. )

voice } helena ( backdated )

Did you die? Did you kill anyone? [These seem like the two most likely options.]

voice } lydia ( backdated )

You got separated. You should learn self-defense. [This vaguely reproachful, which is a coded way of saying god that sucked, are you okay.]

voice } elsa ( present dated )

[She waits to get in touch with Elsa, who seems as easily overwhelmed as Vin was herself, not very long ago. Still, the desire to check in nags at her, and eventually she gives in.]

I'm worried about you. [It's simultaneously frank, honest, and very forward, but it seems like the right thing to say all the same.]

spam } stark ( backdated )

[She has been texting him incessantly and, of course, he hasn't been responding. She doesn't know why she's surprised. But she knows where to find him, at least. In the bar or in his cabin.]

[The bar's almost empty and he's not in there, so she slips up to his room and opens the door before he can voice an objection. Her look is steely; she knows he's done something or he wouldn't be avoiding her, but she doesn't know what.]


Why are you hiding?

open spam } present dated

[Today Vin is in the art room - or rather, the annex off of the art room that holds the piano. She is sitting at it, but not playing it, because she doesn't know how to. Instead, she is considering it, leafing through the music that she found in its bench, and arranging it in various patterns across the keyboard in an effort to make sense of it.]

[So far she hasn't had any luck, but she seems absorbed in her work. It's like learning a foreign language with no guide whatsoever. She can't help but imagine Sazed would be fascinated.]
warisart: (Devious)

[personal profile] warisart 2014-07-04 10:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[There aren't very many people that come into this room to play the piano; there are several that come in and poke at the keys, one or two that really play, and then there's Ben. Ben knows everyone that comes and goes, knew them even before Jesse gave him a key to this room, keeping a careful watch on who might in turn know that he frequents this room, on who is approaching something so important to him, even if he never does anything about it.

Ben knows that Vin is not normally one of those people.

He notices her when he walks into the room with a sketchbook in his hands, intent not on playing today but on using the piano as a model, something to hang his ideas on that he can see and understand and transfer to paper, possibly. His steps slow for a moment and he almost turns and leaves again, but she's moving the music around in patterns he doesn't understand, and he remembers why he showed her this the first time.

Ultimately, he's too curious to go away, and he wants the intangible reassurance of the piano room, and he trusts Vin to tell him bluntly if she'd like for him to leave. So he steps to the door and, after a moment of determining that he doesn't understand how she's arranging the pages and she doesn't understand how they're supposed to go, speaks quietly.
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If I may make a suggestion?
warisart: (Thoughtful)

[personal profile] warisart 2014-07-04 11:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ben is the last person to tell her that any activity is strange; it doesn't even occur to him, only that she is differing from the norm, no more and no less. He is one of few people for whom this bears no positive or negative connotations whatsoever, except insofar as his conditioning tells him to fear that which is abnormal and to avoid it at all costs.

That didn't exactly work out for him, but he doesn't always get the choice to make that decision, either.

Now he moves forward, as good as invited, and steps up to stand beside her where he can see the sheet music; he could have read it, easily, from where he was standing. He could have read it from the opposite end of the ship, but this is better for conversation.
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Your mind does not learn best in a technical fashion, Vin. You learn instinctively, by using your intuition, your senses, your abilities as they operate best, not as you understand them to work and then applying that understanding.

[He remembers telling her that he had such difficulty connecting marks on a page to the sounds from the keys, but the truth of it is he learned to read music very quickly.]

If you are attempting to learn, I would suggest beginning with the keys and the instrument itself, not the music.

If I am wrong about your intentions, I apologize.
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warisart: (Strategizing)

[personal profile] warisart 2014-07-05 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
[Ben waits out her near argument, still ready to take his sketchbook and go if he is unwelcome for any reason. He wants to help, not insult or annoy her.

He sits down beside her when she moves over, though, unflinching and without another word about anything but what is before them now. He sets his sketchbook down carefully on the floor under the bench, straightens and folds one hand in his lap, the other reaching for the keyboard.
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That's because you are only beginning. When you began to read and to write, none of the symbols made any kind of sense. This is only an auditory version.

There are only seven distinct notes. They repeat, and the keys on the keyboard match. Pressing this one - [He pushes middle C, then his gaze flicks up to Vin, pointedly down to the matching key an octave lower.] - and that one will produce the same sound an octave apart.

Try it.

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adelphoktonos: (and i'll live live live live)

private voice;

[personal profile] adelphoktonos 2014-07-05 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
We survived. And we only killed the creatures that lived in the dark.
adelphoktonos: (and all we know is gone)

private voice;

[personal profile] adelphoktonos 2014-07-05 03:34 am (UTC)(link)
Then they were twisted past saving.

[...] Did you live?
adelphoktonos: (humming to the same old song)

private voice;

[personal profile] adelphoktonos 2014-07-07 03:48 am (UTC)(link)
I am glad you're not dead as well.

Who was with you?

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lydiascreams: (mock questioning thoughtful neutral)

private voice;

[personal profile] lydiascreams 2014-07-05 03:34 am (UTC)(link)
[There's a delay before she answers, because no one reproaches her. But they helped each other and they were in a terrified situation, so she takes a deep breath before answering.]

I wasn't hurt. But all things considered, that's not a bad idea.

Are you okay?
lydiascreams: (worried open questioning upset neutral)

private voice;

[personal profile] lydiascreams 2014-07-05 08:35 pm (UTC)(link)
But not hurt?

[It's the least she needs to know. Just to be sure.]

Basic self-defense? Just, how to disarm someone if necessary. Or stop them long enough so I can get away.
lydiascreams: (Hmm soft smile)

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[personal profile] lydiascreams 2014-07-07 05:34 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad.

I think that will be a good enough start. Martial arts would be more structured but it'd take longer to master.

Thanks for offering, Vin.

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bothfoulandfair: (I get the feeling just because)

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[personal profile] bothfoulandfair 2014-07-05 03:50 am (UTC)(link)
I'm fine.

[She's not. She's definitely, definitely not, but she's tired of feeling like she's falling apart, and she's been lying for so long that it still comes to her naturally.]

Thank you.
bothfoulandfair: (I'm only a man)

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[personal profile] bothfoulandfair 2014-07-05 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for helping, during that port.

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[personal profile] outofclothes 2014-07-09 12:01 am (UTC)(link)
[Stark is on edge. It's going to take a while to come down from port where every little sound could be the next fight. He didn't sleep much either, bone-tired as he is, he hasn't even attempted to get any sleep after the port either. So when Vin just opens his door, Stark is instantly alert, tense.]

[Anyone else might miss the little details. Stark's heart rate increasing, breath hitching just a moment, and his pupils dilating. The gun he was just about to empty, disassemble, and clean to try and find that center again he had just a little shy of a week ago raises in a fraction of a second to chest level.]


It's not really hiding if you know how to find me, is it? [he asks, lowering the gun, but not his gaze.]

[Stark isn't ashamed and isn't about to start acting like a kid that just got caught out of bed well past his bedtime. The only person who could ever make him ashamed of what he is or the things he does is long gone and out of his reach. Possibly forever. Which is good. Stark doesn't think she should have to know about this ever if only because he doesn't want to think about how she would react, how he both thinks and knows she would react.]


You should knock first. Common decency or some shit like that.
outofclothes: (✝ i will not break)

[personal profile] outofclothes 2014-07-10 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
I was going to clean it.

[It's not a lie. But that doesn't mean he wasn't still half-expecting someone. Not that he really expects Roderick to retaliate, at least not so soon. But with the exception of leading Mason down the rabbit hole, that port's been the closest Stark has come to the past eleven years of his life. There's no easy off-button for habits like that.]

[And in the end, he doesn't need a gun to kill someone. Vin knows that.]


Why don't we cut the bullshit, save some time, and you just ask me what you actually want to know?

[She can handle it and he doesn't need her to be delicate about it.]
outofclothes: (✝ your soul is able)

[personal profile] outofclothes 2014-07-12 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
[Stark doesn't believe much in his own tenderness anymore. He thinks at some point, it was carved or burnt out of him either by his own hand or someone else's. He can't deny it was never there, but he will often deny that it exists even in a small capacity anymore. You don't last long enough to look the way he does to not have that sort of thing stripped and torn away from you.]

[You just don't keep fucking going and not have it firmly be a thing of the past.]


I killed Roderick. We were going to get overwhelmed and it was me or him. So I put him down. I used him as live bait for those things down there and I got the fuck out of dodge while they tore him apart.

[He's not giving excuses, the more he explains. He's just doing just that. He's explaining.]

[It wasn't the arena, not exactly. But the echoes were strong enough, clear enough that he knew the rules boiled down to just one: kill or be killed. James Stark doesn't have what it takes to survive something like that, but the monster that crawled his way out of Hell does. When survival in a situation like that is on the line, Stark doesn't think. He doesn't care if this is what he was made into or if it's who he was all along deep down. He simply embraces Sandman Slim and he does more than just survive. He thrives in it. Every bit of the struggle, every fresh new scar, every life he puts down isn't done with any kind of glee or joy. He's not that fucked up. But he is fucked up just enough to feel at home, to feel at the top of his game, to know this is something he knows how to do and how to do well.]

[Stark has felt content these past few months on the Barge. Not much has put him in a poor mood or made him feel less at peace than usual. But that port was the first time in months that Stark's felt alive.]

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