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indispensible) wrote2014-07-04 04:04 pm
twelve. spam & voice. the sound when we come running. ( backdated post-port. )
voice } helena ( backdated )
Did you die? Did you kill anyone? [These seem like the two most likely options.]
voice } lydia ( backdated )
You got separated. You should learn self-defense. [This vaguely reproachful, which is a coded way of saying god that sucked, are you okay.]
voice } elsa ( present dated )
[She waits to get in touch with Elsa, who seems as easily overwhelmed as Vin was herself, not very long ago. Still, the desire to check in nags at her, and eventually she gives in.]
I'm worried about you. [It's simultaneously frank, honest, and very forward, but it seems like the right thing to say all the same.]
spam } stark ( backdated )
[She has been texting him incessantly and, of course, he hasn't been responding. She doesn't know why she's surprised. But she knows where to find him, at least. In the bar or in his cabin.]
[The bar's almost empty and he's not in there, so she slips up to his room and opens the door before he can voice an objection. Her look is steely; she knows he's done something or he wouldn't be avoiding her, but she doesn't know what.]
Why are you hiding?
open spam } present dated
[Today Vin is in the art room - or rather, the annex off of the art room that holds the piano. She is sitting at it, but not playing it, because she doesn't know how to. Instead, she is considering it, leafing through the music that she found in its bench, and arranging it in various patterns across the keyboard in an effort to make sense of it.]
[So far she hasn't had any luck, but she seems absorbed in her work. It's like learning a foreign language with no guide whatsoever. She can't help but imagine Sazed would be fascinated.]
Did you die? Did you kill anyone? [These seem like the two most likely options.]
voice } lydia ( backdated )
You got separated. You should learn self-defense. [This vaguely reproachful, which is a coded way of saying god that sucked, are you okay.]
voice } elsa ( present dated )
[She waits to get in touch with Elsa, who seems as easily overwhelmed as Vin was herself, not very long ago. Still, the desire to check in nags at her, and eventually she gives in.]
I'm worried about you. [It's simultaneously frank, honest, and very forward, but it seems like the right thing to say all the same.]
spam } stark ( backdated )
[She has been texting him incessantly and, of course, he hasn't been responding. She doesn't know why she's surprised. But she knows where to find him, at least. In the bar or in his cabin.]
[The bar's almost empty and he's not in there, so she slips up to his room and opens the door before he can voice an objection. Her look is steely; she knows he's done something or he wouldn't be avoiding her, but she doesn't know what.]
Why are you hiding?
open spam } present dated
[Today Vin is in the art room - or rather, the annex off of the art room that holds the piano. She is sitting at it, but not playing it, because she doesn't know how to. Instead, she is considering it, leafing through the music that she found in its bench, and arranging it in various patterns across the keyboard in an effort to make sense of it.]
[So far she hasn't had any luck, but she seems absorbed in her work. It's like learning a foreign language with no guide whatsoever. She can't help but imagine Sazed would be fascinated.]

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Ben knows that Vin is not normally one of those people.
He notices her when he walks into the room with a sketchbook in his hands, intent not on playing today but on using the piano as a model, something to hang his ideas on that he can see and understand and transfer to paper, possibly. His steps slow for a moment and he almost turns and leaves again, but she's moving the music around in patterns he doesn't understand, and he remembers why he showed her this the first time.
Ultimately, he's too curious to go away, and he wants the intangible reassurance of the piano room, and he trusts Vin to tell him bluntly if she'd like for him to leave. So he steps to the door and, after a moment of determining that he doesn't understand how she's arranging the pages and she doesn't understand how they're supposed to go, speaks quietly.]
If I may make a suggestion?
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[It is not until he speaks to her, though, that she turns on the bench, spinning in a full half-turn on its smooth surface. She meets his gaze with her own, unblinking, and doesn't seem to realize that she's been caught at something strange.]
What is it?
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That didn't exactly work out for him, but he doesn't always get the choice to make that decision, either.
Now he moves forward, as good as invited, and steps up to stand beside her where he can see the sheet music; he could have read it, easily, from where he was standing. He could have read it from the opposite end of the ship, but this is better for conversation.]
Your mind does not learn best in a technical fashion, Vin. You learn instinctively, by using your intuition, your senses, your abilities as they operate best, not as you understand them to work and then applying that understanding.
[He remembers telling her that he had such difficulty connecting marks on a page to the sounds from the keys, but the truth of it is he learned to read music very quickly.]
If you are attempting to learn, I would suggest beginning with the keys and the instrument itself, not the music.
If I am wrong about your intentions, I apologize.
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[Closing her mouth, she scoots sideways on the bench, making room for him.]
You aren't wrong. But I tried to play it earlier and it sounded like something was dying.
[Not cute. Not cute at all.]
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He sits down beside her when she moves over, though, unflinching and without another word about anything but what is before them now. He sets his sketchbook down carefully on the floor under the bench, straightens and folds one hand in his lap, the other reaching for the keyboard.]
That's because you are only beginning. When you began to read and to write, none of the symbols made any kind of sense. This is only an auditory version.
There are only seven distinct notes. They repeat, and the keys on the keyboard match. Pressing this one - [He pushes middle C, then his gaze flicks up to Vin, pointedly down to the matching key an octave lower.] - and that one will produce the same sound an octave apart.
Try it.
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I'm glad you're not dead.
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[...] Did you live?
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I was worried that the people I was with would die. But they didn't, either.
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Who was with you?
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I wasn't hurt. But all things considered, that's not a bad idea.
Are you okay?
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Tell me what you want to learn and I'll teach you.
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[It's the least she needs to know. Just to be sure.]
Basic self-defense? Just, how to disarm someone if necessary. Or stop them long enough so I can get away.
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I can teach you that. It's not - I don't know martial arts. Or anything like that. But I know how to stay alive.
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I think that will be a good enough start. Martial arts would be more structured but it'd take longer to master.
Thanks for offering, Vin.
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[She's not. She's definitely, definitely not, but she's tired of feeling like she's falling apart, and she's been lying for so long that it still comes to her naturally.]
Thank you.
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[Anyone else might miss the little details. Stark's heart rate increasing, breath hitching just a moment, and his pupils dilating. The gun he was just about to empty, disassemble, and clean to try and find that center again he had just a little shy of a week ago raises in a fraction of a second to chest level.]
It's not really hiding if you know how to find me, is it? [he asks, lowering the gun, but not his gaze.]
[Stark isn't ashamed and isn't about to start acting like a kid that just got caught out of bed well past his bedtime. The only person who could ever make him ashamed of what he is or the things he does is long gone and out of his reach. Possibly forever. Which is good. Stark doesn't think she should have to know about this ever if only because he doesn't want to think about how she would react, how he both thinks and knows she would react.]
You should knock first. Common decency or some shit like that.
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[She looks at him, gun and heart and fear and all, and doesn't even blink. It's not that she's surprised, or even disappointed. It's just that she's sort of sad. She can guess, now, what he's done, but she hopes she's wrong. Would love to be wrong.]
[The thing is, she usually isn't wrong.]
Were you expecting someone, or did you have that ready for some other reason? [She nods to the gun.]
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[It's not a lie. But that doesn't mean he wasn't still half-expecting someone. Not that he really expects Roderick to retaliate, at least not so soon. But with the exception of leading Mason down the rabbit hole, that port's been the closest Stark has come to the past eleven years of his life. There's no easy off-button for habits like that.]
[And in the end, he doesn't need a gun to kill someone. Vin knows that.]
Why don't we cut the bullshit, save some time, and you just ask me what you actually want to know?
[She can handle it and he doesn't need her to be delicate about it.]
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I want to know what you did there.
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[You just don't keep fucking going and not have it firmly be a thing of the past.]
I killed Roderick. We were going to get overwhelmed and it was me or him. So I put him down. I used him as live bait for those things down there and I got the fuck out of dodge while they tore him apart.
[He's not giving excuses, the more he explains. He's just doing just that. He's explaining.]
[It wasn't the arena, not exactly. But the echoes were strong enough, clear enough that he knew the rules boiled down to just one: kill or be killed. James Stark doesn't have what it takes to survive something like that, but the monster that crawled his way out of Hell does. When survival in a situation like that is on the line, Stark doesn't think. He doesn't care if this is what he was made into or if it's who he was all along deep down. He simply embraces Sandman Slim and he does more than just survive. He thrives in it. Every bit of the struggle, every fresh new scar, every life he puts down isn't done with any kind of glee or joy. He's not that fucked up. But he is fucked up just enough to feel at home, to feel at the top of his game, to know this is something he knows how to do and how to do well.]
[Stark has felt content these past few months on the Barge. Not much has put him in a poor mood or made him feel less at peace than usual. But that port was the first time in months that Stark's felt alive.]
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