Mostly it was like...

> okay I've mentally prepped this I kind of know what to say
> OKAY I. GUESS THE TIME IS NOW. KIND OF UNEXPECTEDLY.
> FUCK OKAY UHHH START OFF WITH THIS
> JUST LET ME START THIS RIGHT JILL POLE JFC
> ~SPIEL~
> fuck uhh what else can I say that's knightly and isn't directly involved with DO YOU SWEAR TO SERVE NARNIA crap I had this all prepped uhh
> OKAY. I KNOW THIS PART. I KNOW WHAT TO SAY HERE.
> NO GDI JILL POLE WHY DID YOU SAY ALL THAT NOW I'M THROWN OFF MY PACING D<
> Crap okay now's the whole naming thing what's appropriate
> I KNOW
> There i did it i did good i think
> /slowly mentally flop over

:U

What was Jill thinking through all of that?

Joshua is a cat rn

I mean :U ANYTHING SPECIFIC YOU'D LIKE TO KNOW ABOUT OR DO YOU WANT A RAMBLE

He's kind of settling into Aather, but he isn't necessarily invested in Aather itself if that makes sense. Joshua's only recently learned that maybe people are more complicated than they look, but he hasn't sorted out enough personal experience to determine if that's true or not, only that he's had an inkling of that possibility. He's also learned that he doesn't appreciate being pulled out of his comfort zone without his say so, ie he really really likes consent or if he's the one doing it because otherwise it results in a grumpy Joshua.

SPEAKING OF NAMES, HE HAS A RELATIVELY SIZEABLE PLETHORA OF NAMES. This includes his real name Joshua that I think 2-3 people have called him, which makes him admit that okay if there's that many people there's got to be some truth to it. But he doesn't really have any particular attachment to it. Or to any of the other names, actually. It's why he kept them all and switches them out on a whim. Some days just seem more like a Wyvern day, some more of an Ermine day. But he's been avoiding using Joshua because it's kind of fun to hold that one secret while he's still sorting out what himself-as-Joshua was like.

REALLY he's a lot like someone who's learning everything including himself in these bursts of OH! moments. He can tell there's something ulterior to what he's doing in his memories, but he doesn't know what exactly they are other than okay I am definitely scheming and that is a-okay with me. He just doesn't know the extent of it.

ALL THAT SAID he's starting to reach towards a point where he'll get really bored and then do something completely and utterly reckless to get rid of the boredom. I just don't know when that point will hit, if something will strike his fancy first, or what will happen. :U But Joshua's an innate adrenaline junkie and he hasn't had a real kick the whole time. So that's going to be a ticking time bomb of hilarity.


Susan SOTU! :U