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the revival of han solo
[It's been over a year since the fateful Halloween night on which Maxxie put on his Han Solo costume. At this point, though it's one of his fondest memories, Maxxie has forgotten that the costume is still sitting at the back of his closet.]
[This is why it's such a happy surprise when he finds it while he's searching for an old pair of pants. His immediate instinct is to show Terry. Of course, given how Terry felt about the whole thing, that may be pretty ill-advised, but Maxxie doesn't let that stop him. Only moments after he sees the costume, he's pulling the hanger off the rack and taking it out to the living room where Terry's sitting on the couch.]
Hey, Terry, look at this.
[This is why it's such a happy surprise when he finds it while he's searching for an old pair of pants. His immediate instinct is to show Terry. Of course, given how Terry felt about the whole thing, that may be pretty ill-advised, but Maxxie doesn't let that stop him. Only moments after he sees the costume, he's pulling the hanger off the rack and taking it out to the living room where Terry's sitting on the couch.]
Hey, Terry, look at this.
would you believe i completely forgot about this
[Said inquisitive noise quickly turns into a stammering, "uhhh..." once he actually sees the costume.]
[Why this.]
how could you
Forgot I had it in my closet. Definitely one of my better costumes, yeah?
[He smiles at Terry, and there's something sly in his expression, despite his doing his best not to bring up... the whole thing.]
in my defence I'm awful
[OH BOY IS THAT A BOOK??? Better pay close attention to that, huh.]
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Are you embarrassed just thinking about me wearing it?
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[He's still staring pretty intently at that book.]
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Why?
[He drops the costume on a nearby chair and then throws himself down on the couch, getting all up in Terry's business by resting his legs on Terry's.]
It's not like I'm judging you for wanting to have sex with me.
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[It's embarrassing to not be in complete control of your feelings at all times okay.]
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You know, most people have to deal with it all at once. They don't spread it out over years like you get to.
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I guess I just don't get what's so upsetting about it. It felt good when we did it, right? It's not like you can't get what you want.
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[Terry puts down his book, frowning. He doesn't want to get into this, but if Maxxie wants to understand it then he's going to have to try and puzzle it out himself, evidently.]
For most of my life, I thought I was straight, okay? And then I met you. And then we got together and then I realise I'm still not what I think I am. Then there's this, and... [SIGHHHH] There's nothing wrong with any of that, but it's like I don't even know who I am.
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I know what it's like to be confused, or-- or overwhelmed. I'm not trying to tell you you're overreacting but... it's just such a small part of you. You're still you. Maybe you've just... realized there's an asterisk on this one little bit of your whole identity.
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I'll throw it out if you want.
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[He puts an arm around Maxxie and relaxes against him, sighing.] I'll get used to it.
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I'm sorry I freaked out.
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I'm sorry I don't always get it.
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[More kissing.]
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