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[ so he's probably not in the blool but he is sitting by it and boy this is a terrible time for emotionshare because those vibes are rancid.

he's holding the letter anders sent him and clearly contemplating if he just wants to set it, himself, or the surroundings on fire ]

[ concerned vibes ]

... Hawke?

[ that grimace sure is the worse attempt at a smile. oof ]

'lo Charlie.

[ yeah, uh. yikes ]

What's wrong, Hawke?

[ where does he even start?? he silently hands over the letter in lieu of his usual sarcastic commentary.

a very tldr letter later it's the if whatever is inside of me is so terrifying to you that you cannot face it, then or now, then I don’t think we are good for one another that gets him.

:man: ]

[ charlie reads it and frowns. a lot of feelings she's tapering down for hawke's sake, it's a bit of a mess. concern is at the forefront, as always ]

... I see.

Had you sent him any letters before this? I imagine it must have been hard for both of you, since the last time you would have spoke... well... you weren't yourself, and he had to kill you.

[ miserably ]

Does a bit of poetry count? Maker knows I'm no good at it but I did make an attempt.

[ and the whole ANDERS HOLY SHIT LOOK AT THIS cackle of excitement but, ]

[ oh boy ]

I think Anders has been having a very tough time on that side of things. And I know it's not your fault you were afflicted, but I think the best thing to start with would be an apology. I saw the trial, and the... um. Fight. And it was a lot for any one person, I think.

[ and here we come to the crux of the problem ]

What do I even say to him? "So sorry I got a bit possessed legitimately right as we made amends about my own stupidity only to have it thrown back in you face, haha! Surely the third time will be the charm!"

[ the rancid emotions only intensify. sorry for the heavy dose of man emotions ]

[ it's fine, she's patient ]

Well--- maybe something along those lines, but a little... softer? Without calling yourself stupid? But I think it would be good to let him know that you care deeply for him, that you don't want to be separated from him, and you never meant to hurt him.

Because all those things are true, right?

[ grumbles something about him getting called nugshit for brains by anders first but he sighs in exasperation and flops onto his back. time 2 simply speak this letter into existence ]

"Dearest Anders,

Now that we've both killed each other and survived in some way to tell the tale, I think we should be together forever. Perhaps it will be better for the both of our survival."

[ terrible how this is him taking it seriously ]

I, er, wouldn't lead with that.....

[ is this him taking it seriously. is it ]

Is it hard to be vulnerable with him?

[ on a scale of 'probably going to get punched' to 'doing the punching' serious, it's a solid 4 ]

I don't know if you've noticed but apologizing for myself isn't particularly a learned skill.

[ just ask adolphe ]

It's never too late to learn, Hawke.

[ reaches out her hand to him, she will probably not start singing... probably ]

[ please start singing he might actually set himself on fire ]

Well then wisest of us all, teach me your ways.

Oh, I'm not particularly wise or anything. But admitting when you're wrong and apologizing is the first step to mending relationships.

Let's start a little before that, though. How do you feel about the way things happened, with getting afflicted, and with Anders?

[ slightly grimaces like he absolutely didn't just go ANYWAYS, and push his feelings off a cliff ]

Well, bad. I guess.

w4, friday

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week 7, monday

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