Hello. I'm null. You can read more about me and the stuff I'm into on my profile. Most of my entries are friends-only, so if you want to know me past the stupid crap that I make public then just leave a comment or something and I'll add you back.

I mostly journal about personal stuff and whatever videogame I'm currently playing. I draw a lot of fangirl rubbish so if you find that absolutely unbearable, don't add me. I like yaoi/yuri/etc but I like to think I'm more sensible, or at least more jaded, than most of fandom. I don't care if you don't comment on everything and I won't take it personally if you decide to un-friend me later. I don't like drama and I understand that sometimes people just don't 'click', so no worries. :)

Bad:

• Terrible wannabe Final Fantasy style intro. It takes itself too seriously but it's not good enough to be believable and this grates on me. I want pokemon to be light hearted and fun, whenever they do this epic shit it's just a distraction from becoming Pokemon League champion. ¬¬

• 3D environments = pointless showing off just for the sake of having something new to put in a trailers. Takes too long to move around certain places and doesn't enrich gameplay in any way.

• I miss seeing your pokemon following you around like they did in HG/SS, I liked being able to talk to them... it was cute. ;3;

• Your two friends/rivals are unbearably annoying. I never cared about them before, you always have stupid rivals like Gary and whatever that guy's called in Pearl and they just pop up now and again to fight you but everyone in this game is SO DAMN ANNOYING. They're always there bothering you for battles or help with something pointless all the time, they have the STUPIDEST MOST IRRITATING pokemon ever in their teams and even their sprites are ugly. Cheren is the WORST pokemon character in history. I haven't hated a character this much since Mitsunari. Someone just copied and pasted that Ishida guy from Bleach into the game but took away the few things that made him bearable and gave him a Snivy (because obviously I chose Wotter, who is a legend).

• Gym leaders are all lame this gen. I just beat some artist guy whose gym is made of honey. WTF.

• "N" is also a prick.

Good:

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...they feel more manageable. :)

1. Selling Valentine's Day cards. Selling well on eBay, went around the shops in town but no-one really wanted to know because people in Plymouth have no taste. They're in one shop in Saltash that's so out of the way I doubt anyone will even SEE them let alone buy them so thank goodness the internet is doing well.

2. "Assessment" appointment on Tuesday. I haven't really talked or even thought about it so I can't say that I'm worried, exactly. But I've been massively agitated, keep grinding my teeth and making loads of stupid mistakes on everything and I'm pretty sure it's related. I haven't made a lot of progress on my drawings because of this. Sorry~ ;3;

3. I keep dreaming that my teeth fall out. I used to dream that every night, then a year or two ago it stopped. Now it's back again but instead of just falling out normally (like when you're a kid, I used to wonder if it stemmed from the fact that I *still* have a baby tooth) like it used to be, I dream that they're so badly decayed on the inside that they just fall away and take parts of my gum with it. Inside they're black and just... ugh. Horrible. D:

4. I made a new blog just about toys so now I don't have to spam you all with pictures of my Sylvanians. It's nice. I like it. x3

1. Happy New Year! :p

2. I have reverted back to being a six year old and have spent all my money on ponies and sylvanians. I have my heart set on these guys:



The little boy in his too big shorts and the little girl in red are so cute they almost bring a tear to my eye. I'm bidding on them on ebay but someone, the same person, keeps coming along every couple days and pushing the price up a bit. Ssssstoooooppp iiiiit! You're not going to win, I put in an unreasonably high maximum that no-one in their right mind would pay! And I'm still really worried that I won't get them and I'll be heartbroken. D:

3. Mostly because of love for toys and pokemon, I have started drawing again. It's actually fun, for the most part. I still wish I was better, but at least I don't feel completely shit.

4. I am still waiting to get an appointment with the psychologist or whatever it was I was referred to about 500 years ago. Thanks, NHS! :)

5. The new DLC for Fallout New Vegas feels like even more of a disappointment than the Pitt was. I want my M$ back!

Last night I had a dream that me and my family were taken hostage by a group of cowboys who sliced me open with a kitchen knife to take out the god that I was apparently pregnant with. Then my brother and me escaped through a cave and found a weird zombie me carrying the god-baby but the belly was open so you could see it living in there. Then my brother shot me dead and I somehow "became" the zombie one.

Then later on, I had another dream that I can't remember much of save for a dirty looking guy who had a hat with a hole cut in it so he could wear another hat underneath and a bit where someone said "I AM THE KING AND I AM FUCKING EXCITING!".

Lolwat.

This is what has happened/what I think so far:
( Very very minor spoilers? )

I was grumpy yesterday. To make up for it, here is a video of our new kitten.

•Cookie ran away about a month ago so I doubt we'll get her back now. I'm sure someone must have adopted her because if she was hurt or killed the RSPCA would have scanned her microchip and called us by now. I miss her though, she was an awesome cat. :(

•I've opted out of our summer shows. Mel, not surpisingly, didn't care and obviously won't miss me at all. Boyfriend is still putting his work up and wants to include our joint project despite how appallingly shit it is. I feel like I have to let him put stuff up because it's half his and he doesn't have much other work if you take out everything we did together. I really don't want anything to do with that place though and I hate the idea of people coming in and looking at stuff I've done now (especially when I know it's substandard), it's really pissing me off so... I don't know what to do. :|

•Rich got Muscle March from the Wii shop channel. It's awesome. But difficult. :p

•I am growing mange tout, runner beans, aubergines and radishes this year. The runner beans and radishes have grown massive already, the others not so much. :<

•I hate summer because I hate seeing other females long slim smooth legs when even at my slimmest, my legs are still just pudgy white little stumps. Also: don't like heat, don't like hayfever, don't like people expecting me to want to go out and enjoy the SUNSHINE and get skin cancer! So expect me to do nothing but complain for at least the next few months. :D

If the absolute worst thing you have to say about Nick Clegg is "HE WANTS TO SCRAP THE CHILD TRUST FUND, OMG" then I think it's pretty obvious which way you should be voting.

I guess people don't value things like "fairness" or "privacy". Once again, we're going to focus on unimportant details and miss the big picture. ¬¬

• My mum was taken in to hospital so for the past week my life has been: go to hospital, come back from hospital, do washing, make food, sleep, repeat. My brothers are more of a hindrance than a help. I am exhausted. Sorry if I don't reply to comments.

• Closer than ever to quitting college. Mel is a giant bitch and doesn't understand why I might not feel like (or even have the fucking time for) doing college work at the moment. She also decided to give David a hard time for, you know, supporting me. I may have to quit college just for the reason that if I see her, I'll want to punch her.

• Haven't played much of SoulSilver. I do have lots of steps on my pokewalker though and Phione loves me and keeps getting presents for me. :p

• Thank you, fastolf for my easter package! ♥ ♥ ♥ You sent it to my old address but it got redirected anyway so it's all good. XD The malteser bunny things are sooooo gooooood, I wish they sold them all year round (um yeah I started eating stuff already). And the Stig egg cup is awesome, I hope it wasn't too much of a ripoff. D: I sent you a box too but I only managed to get to the post office yesterday so I guess it'll be more likely to arrive next week now. Sorry. ;_;

I FINISHED MY DISSERTATION! At eleven o'clock the night before it was due in and I still had to finish my artifact-thing in the morning. I know I always put off important projects but I have never left anything that late before.

I hope I pass... my gut feeling is that I probably will because I knew a lot of people who were on the BA last year and they managed to pass, despite the hindrance of them being completely stupid. I guess the worst thing about it is knowing that I didn't make any real effort and won't get as high a grade as I am was probably capable of - but at the same, I've spent five years in that stupid place, three of those being taught by people who obviously couldn't care less about me or my work so fuck it. I just want to get out of there. One more stupid project to go and then I never have to go back again.

Everything else is just... meh. I play too much Pokemon and not enough of anything else. I got the shiny Pichu from a Wi-Fi thing and I'm going to an event to get Arceus next Saturday - the website says there will be balloons and face painting! Excellent. I feel very, very grown up.

My updates are sparse lately, I've basically been avoiding the whole internet because I have work to do and I really don't want to do it and don't want to have to read emails asking why I'm not busting my ass on it when I'm not even getting paid. I guess I should have a better attitude towards it but I just can't be bothered with it at the moment. So... um... sorry. It's not like I have much to write about anyway, I haven't done anything noteworthy. That's probably not going to change anytime soon, especially now that I'm back at college, but I'll try and at least keep up with my friends page... reeeeally can't be assed with DA or Y or anything else.

Man, I feel like I owe the random anonymous benefactor who gave me a paid account for two months a massive apology for totally wasting it like this. >_<

Bunny Cafe! Look at that awesome reverse-curry thing that they're eating! DO WANT. T____T

It's been a really long, rubbish week but I finally got to see my friends again yesterday, we all went to the pub and then down to this weird little kiddie park on the Hoe to play crazy golf. I didn't join in though, me and Stu did a proper grown-up conversation while everyone else was mucking about. I was really happy to see David again, he's been working constantly for nearly two weeks and I've really missed him. >_<

Got my eyes tested this morning and I need glasses for TV and lectures etc. Yay! I got one pair with plasticky dark green frames that are lime green on the inside and these really awesome industrial looking metal ones with all holes in the side. Pret-ty cool.

We made an offer on another house, this one's a five minute walk from where I am now. It's awesome. I feel much happier about that one because the others have all felt really far away... this might be the one?! :D

I'm going to see District 9 tomorrow, based on katimus_prime's recommendation. Then I have to cook a meal because I'm too poor to keep eating out and I feel bad that David keeps having to pay for me... haha, should be interesting. :p I'm hoping my DVDs of Look Around You will arrive in the morning as well... I always manage to miss really funny/good things when they're actually on TV. It's probably to do with the fact that I never actually watch TV.

Thank you for the card, fastolf! :3 It is creepy and gross but I kind of like that, lol. I think the girl on the front is... um... special. XD I want to send something to you but I haven't bought it yet because I saw it the other day and didn't have any cash on me. It's only a little thing though. :P

Aaaaaagh, I'm supposed to go for a meal tonight and I don't want to! Eating seems like a really bad idea, I'll be too nervous or I'll be sick! I was never this nervous when me and James first started going out... I really regret saying anything now but it's too late to go back on it, omgpanicpanic. On top of feeling sick, I didn't sleep too well because I stayed up half the night watching Peep Show on DVD. Then I had a nightmare in which I lived out my dream of being the cool pilot chick from Aliens, only instead of aliens there were predators instead but either way I still died. D: I woke up thinking it was the scariest thing ever and decided that I'd never watch any of those films again, despite that I just bought the Alien box set. Of course, now that I'm awake I've come to my senses but as kind of a weird coincidence, my brother has just come down and put AVP on the big telly - apparently it was on last night. o_O

Well, at least it's sunny today. As much as I like the rain, it was getting pretty boring. Maybe I'll go in town early and do some drawing.

Oh my god we just went to a house viewing and it was AMAZING. It's not in a great area so I was expecting it to be a total dump but we went in and I was just gobsmacked because inside it's beautiful. :O

The only problem, like I said, is the area. It's not a total dive, there are good cars on the road outside and they're not put up on bricks, though it's not as nice as where we are now. We'd be on the good side of the road, but looking across you can see these really naff cornish (mum said that's what they're called, apparently?) council-looking houses. Bleah.

It's by a busy road so I'm a bit worried about the cats... but everyone else seems to think it's OK so maybe I'm just being a worrier as usual. My mum's putting in an offer tomorrow anyway but knowing our luck someone else will snap it up. Trying not to get my hopes up. o_O

I still kind of don't want to leave here though... I've never lived anywhere else. Even if it's not big and fancy here, I really like it. It's my home. I suppose that's quite a normal thing to feel when you've never moved. :/

Shit, I am so worried that our show isn't going to be ready for thursday. I have done NOTHING. D:

• Derren Brown was amaaaazin'. I did manage to pick up on one of his tricks before he revealed it at the end so I felt proud but there were loads of other things that I'm still going over in my mind and trying to work out how he did it. His bald patch is much bigger now than last time I saw him on TV but I still would. XD

• I made another mock-up book yesterday, took me all day but I managed to get it looking sort of alright. Everyone else seems to like it even if I don't, which is better than I'd hoped for really because it's quite bad. Just a couple more illustrations to do now and then I can focus on not failing self promotion. I'll probably do another artspam post soon with booky stuff in it if anyone's interested.

• I am seconding jyuukoi's recommendation for Detroit Metal City. If you have a childish and slightly twisted sense of humour like me, you will love it. XD

• I am being eaten alive by fleas. The cats have had their frontline but either it's not working or all the fleas have escaped them and are now living off my blood. D:

• I just got an email from the dentist people - what the hell, man?! You can't leave it this long and expect me to still care! I was just starting to put them out of my mind and stop feeling bad about it. I'm extremely paranoid about what it will say but can't get anyone else to read it until tomorrow afternoon so I'm just going to try and put it out of my head and get some drawings done instead.

I went to London yesterday and it was pretty good. Whenever I go there I always think it's a really weird place, almost like another country (the underground + people trying to shove newspapers in your face + really crowded = scary ), so I'm glad that the others knew what they were doing because I would have gotten completely lost on my own. Hell of a lot of travelling to do in one day though, the drive up when we go to see NIN is going to be a piece of cake compared to that.

I bought the most beautiful graphic novel and I saw an amazing fabulous wonderful handmade storybook at the exhibition we went to and now I feel really bad about myself. I think these things are supposed to inspire you but I just look at them and think I'll never be that good. D:

I know I shouldn't think like that, I have way too much work to get done to start again now. At least everyone is away this weekend so I can concentrate on that and hopefully catch up on some of it.

Memes from fastolf.
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I decided to do this old meme again because I'm bored (I think the last time I did it was on GJ!). Listening to less harsh stuff than usual this week, mostly synth but there's some other stuff in there as well.

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your spring. Post these instructions in your blog along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.

1. X the I's and Dot the T's - Ultima Bleep
This reminds me a bit of Apoptygma Berzerk. It's good, but it keeps getting stuck in my head so I'll probably be sick of it soon. I want to open it up in audacity and clip the movie(?) quotes from the start and the end because they're so unnecessary and they really, REALLY annoy me. More than the stupid sounding guy in "Afterfire" by VNV Nation and I really hate him.

2. Blue Lights - Fictional
I've only just discovered this band - they're like Funker Vogt's synthy side project or something? I think this is their best song; the live version makes me jealous because it reminds me that I missed seeing Funker Vogt AND Grendel in Birmingham this year. :(

3. Nothing at All - Rob Dougan
Ahhhh, I really overplayed this when I first heard it but now that I haven't listened to the album for ages I'm totally into it again. The intro to this one sort of reminds me of FFVII and Silent Hill and it's like nothing else that I listen to, so it looks weird in my last.fm. The whole album's really epic though and it has the bonus instrumental CD that I always hear on Top Gear. XD

4. Return (Imperative Reaction mix) - Bruderschaft
This one sounds quite clubby at the start but it's not Ibiza shit, OK?! D: I like pretty much anything that Ronan Harris does because I am a sucker.

5. Endless Skies - VNV Nation
Matter and Form is one of the albums that I overlooked when I first got it and I don't know why because it's really quite good. I'm glad that I did though, because it means that I didn't play this song to death. It's just a nice, quietish sort of song... I sort of prefer it to Illusion now because I've listened to that song way too much.

6. Get Off - The Dandy Warhols
I can't remember why I decided to dig this up again... I used to really like it when I was a teenager and spent my life glued to MTV2. It reminds me of cowboys but I think that's because there were cowboys or something in the video. Ahaha, good times. XD

7. Super Trouper - Somegirl
lol omg sometimes I listen to utter cheeeeese. This is one of those songs that I shouldn't admit to enjoying, isn't it? I don't even like ABBA but it's so happy (at least, it is compared to what I usually listen to o_O), can't resist! D:

I'm not tagging anyone, if you want to do it, do it, if not then don't. XD