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May. 23rd, 2025 06:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
randomdropsI just walked into my bedroom and mumbled to myself, "welcome back to the palace of poor decisions."
And then laughed at my own dark humor.
My room is closely resembling one of those Before pictures in the horrible Before/After Depression Cleaning posts. It's bad. I don't think I've ever let it get this bad. The rest of the house is clean! And really my room isn't dirty, it's just messy. Things just not put away and instead piled up everywhere. I gotta do a hard core donate/throwaway/putaway session. I used to be a minimalist, but grief is weird and unexpected and apparently how my brain decided to cope was buying stuff I don't really need and just letting it all pile up.
I feel like the last year just disappeared. My dog's death so close to my mom's death just did me in. I went to work and I kept myself alive but that's about it. I am slowly digging my way out of it, but it's a slow process.
And then laughed at my own dark humor.
My room is closely resembling one of those Before pictures in the horrible Before/After Depression Cleaning posts. It's bad. I don't think I've ever let it get this bad. The rest of the house is clean! And really my room isn't dirty, it's just messy. Things just not put away and instead piled up everywhere. I gotta do a hard core donate/throwaway/putaway session. I used to be a minimalist, but grief is weird and unexpected and apparently how my brain decided to cope was buying stuff I don't really need and just letting it all pile up.
I feel like the last year just disappeared. My dog's death so close to my mom's death just did me in. I went to work and I kept myself alive but that's about it. I am slowly digging my way out of it, but it's a slow process.
