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Here is a very blatant example of my writing ennui of late, and to me it's actually a little scary because it's so UNLIKE me.

I got a flash of inspiration while I was driving home for lunch today. Actual dialogue, setting, description! A direction for a story I never thought I'd write two words of! Awesome! I didn't write it down right away - didn't have time - but when I got back to work I thought, "what the hell, I'll just type it into LJ, since I never know if I'll finish it, but at least it'll show that my brain DID work for one shining moment."

I typed a line and a half and got bored with it. Like, MID-SENTENCE.

Whatever, man. I guess I'll just sit here and take up some more space, then.

Current Mood: disgusted

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From:

vandonovan.livejournal.com

God, you must be super depressed. Because I've felt like that before, when I've opened notepad or whatever, and not even been able to type. But, I usually get over it pretty fast. I mean, within a few months, at least. ;_;

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randominity.livejournal.com

I just don't know! I mean, usually my depression is marked by my flunking out of school pretty dramatically, but I'm still making As and Bs. Instead I'm flunking out of writing and sleeping, I guess. @_@;;. I seriously feel like if I just had some time off - not a day or a weekend - to just not work, then I would get all caught up on sleep and laziness and start to be creative again. NOT THAT I CAN TEST THIS THEORY. Augh.

From:

vandonovan.livejournal.com

Yeah. @_@;;; You need like, a super vacation. But, seriously, if you ever want to just stay home some weekend, let me know. I know it's stressful doing stuff every weekend. Even though we just hang out and stuff, it's not quite the same as loafing and doing stuff for fun. It's not a week off, but it could help. :/ I dunno. Blaugh.

I guess I'd rather you flunk out of writing than school or work. But, man. It'd be nice if you could balance the two.

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randominity.livejournal.com

I have thought of that, really, but I don't think a weekend would be enough! I imagine I'd mostly sleep and hang around in my underwear and play on the internet for the whole two days (which is nice, but that wouldn't lead to productivity on the third day). I'm pretty sure I'd need more like a week, because then I could sleep/piss away the first two or so days, then get bored of sleeping and doing nothing, and then, like, take a shower, ahaha, clean up the apartment a bit so that I feel good about it, and then once I got back into a general sleeping at night/being awake during the day/eating meals and not Doritos, I would feel up to sitting down and being creative. But that wouldn't be til like, day four or five, you know?

Sigh.