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randominityI was just thinking back, trying to remember the last time I had a truly, totally awesome day from waking up til going to sleep. Can't remember one. There is always some shit going on, or wrong. Weekend? Oh, I have some crappy assignment I have to work on that I don't understand. Convention? Oh, I need to take a day off from work that I won't get paid for. Fandom? Creativity? .....ahahahaha.
Look, I don't think of myself as a typically down person. Pessimistic, okay, yes, I'm pessimistic, but that's my low-grade everyday kind of Eeyore-ish self. I've been depressed before and generally I feel that if I'm still getting out of bed every day and talking to my friends, I'm doing about as well as ever. It's the outside crap that's killing me. School stress, work angst. I'm actually sitting here trying to do things to better my situation, to get myself out of the funk I'm in, and it's just that in the meantime I'm being worn down. How much longer? How can I think about staying upbeat through this? It's been so damned long.
Okay, now that I've spewed that out, on to Guild Wars!
I was feeling bored and apathetic last night, as I tend to do while waiting to get kicked out of grad school, and I hopped on to Guild Wars for the sweet, sweet distraction. I wanted to get some missions done with Neriah, anyway, and get her closer to level 20 than her current level 17.
First off, I did the Frost Gate mission. I've never done that one by myself before, and it kind of... sucks? Hahaha. I never knew which way to go, even though for the most part the Stone Summit and their cohorts were no match for my level 17 ele and her two brawny heroes. The only time things got hairy was during the final part with the gear lever (which I have never understood how that worked) and I couldn't for the life of me figure out where the third mechanism was, and Rurik died literally like, 0.5 seconds after I put the gear lever into that final mechanism. Hahaha WHEW. That farking mission took me like 45 minutes or something. Insanity. Hate the Frost Gate. HATE IT.
Next I did Gates of Kryta, which I have also never done by myself. That one was surprisingly easy, though (of course at my level, etc.).
Also completed were Blacktide Den (the Frost Gate of Kourna, I swear to god if I never see another Rinkal Monitor it will be too soon), and then it was on to Consulate Docks, baby! I wanted to get Masters for that one for both the money and xp, but I went and forgot which mob was the third bonus group for some reason (I am never sure which is which!) and only got Experts. GRARRR. Finally I went on and rescued Koss and am now at the quest leading to Venta Cemetary. I did another Prophecies quest or two for the skills/gold, and that took a good handful of hours all told. Neriah levelled up from level 17 to 19, so I feel pretty good about the time spent. It makes me sad that if she were a Nightfall character she would have ascended already, and meanwhile I haven't even got a run to Sanctum Cay yet. Hahaha SIGH.
Doing all of these missions/quests again for Prophecies just makes me weep all the more to think that I need to do them all again for my monk Takai (level 8!). I don't know if I can do it! I mean, blah blah learning blah blah but oh my god. That's four characters I need to get ascended now: Neriah, Fairuza, Takai, and Bleh (which, really, if I just did Vizunah Square and Nahpui Quarter, that would be done). STILL. >_>
When I get to a place where I feel I can let Neriah take a break, I think I'll go back to my FF series.
Look, I don't think of myself as a typically down person. Pessimistic, okay, yes, I'm pessimistic, but that's my low-grade everyday kind of Eeyore-ish self. I've been depressed before and generally I feel that if I'm still getting out of bed every day and talking to my friends, I'm doing about as well as ever. It's the outside crap that's killing me. School stress, work angst. I'm actually sitting here trying to do things to better my situation, to get myself out of the funk I'm in, and it's just that in the meantime I'm being worn down. How much longer? How can I think about staying upbeat through this? It's been so damned long.
Okay, now that I've spewed that out, on to Guild Wars!
I was feeling bored and apathetic last night, as I tend to do while waiting to get kicked out of grad school, and I hopped on to Guild Wars for the sweet, sweet distraction. I wanted to get some missions done with Neriah, anyway, and get her closer to level 20 than her current level 17.
First off, I did the Frost Gate mission. I've never done that one by myself before, and it kind of... sucks? Hahaha. I never knew which way to go, even though for the most part the Stone Summit and their cohorts were no match for my level 17 ele and her two brawny heroes. The only time things got hairy was during the final part with the gear lever (which I have never understood how that worked) and I couldn't for the life of me figure out where the third mechanism was, and Rurik died literally like, 0.5 seconds after I put the gear lever into that final mechanism. Hahaha WHEW. That farking mission took me like 45 minutes or something. Insanity. Hate the Frost Gate. HATE IT.
Next I did Gates of Kryta, which I have also never done by myself. That one was surprisingly easy, though (of course at my level, etc.).
Also completed were Blacktide Den (the Frost Gate of Kourna, I swear to god if I never see another Rinkal Monitor it will be too soon), and then it was on to Consulate Docks, baby! I wanted to get Masters for that one for both the money and xp, but I went and forgot which mob was the third bonus group for some reason (I am never sure which is which!) and only got Experts. GRARRR. Finally I went on and rescued Koss and am now at the quest leading to Venta Cemetary. I did another Prophecies quest or two for the skills/gold, and that took a good handful of hours all told. Neriah levelled up from level 17 to 19, so I feel pretty good about the time spent. It makes me sad that if she were a Nightfall character she would have ascended already, and meanwhile I haven't even got a run to Sanctum Cay yet. Hahaha SIGH.
Doing all of these missions/quests again for Prophecies just makes me weep all the more to think that I need to do them all again for my monk Takai (level 8!). I don't know if I can do it! I mean, blah blah learning blah blah but oh my god. That's four characters I need to get ascended now: Neriah, Fairuza, Takai, and Bleh (which, really, if I just did Vizunah Square and Nahpui Quarter, that would be done). STILL. >_>
When I get to a place where I feel I can let Neriah take a break, I think I'll go back to my FF series.
