Randominity

Wow, it's really hard to update this thing these days.... so this will be all over the place.



I'm just carrying on these days, nothing exciting. I'm not enjoying this cold spell here at all, and sleep with the heat on which will cause my electricity bill to be ridiculous. I am getting some refunds from overpaying a couple of my monthly billing statements, though, so instead of $20 to get me through the rest of the week I now have $120. Whooooo, big money.

My parents are coming to visit in a week's time and I will have a week off to spend it with them. I'm not sure how that will go, exactly; we've been getting along better since my bout with depression, but I've also been restricting my contact with them to one phone call per week (therapist's orders) which has been LOVELY on my end but has caused my dad to start up some major guilt campaigns on me. Including an e-mail in which he brought up my GRANDMOTHER and how he was going to make a point to visit her because he is her first-born son and he appreciates her, blah blah, read: WHY DON'T YOU APPRECIATE ME BY BEING AVAILABLE WHENEVER I WANT YOU TO YOU HORRIBLE DAUGHTER. So that makes me kind of miserable, but I'm trying not to let it get to me. Also, at some point the Nerd King is going to meet the parents, which should be interesting.

I've been napping a lot in the evenings due to being back on meds that make me drowsy, which sucks, but at least I don't feel like I'm not getting basic living things done. I've done a ton of grocery shopping and my nutritional needs and those of my cats are being taken care of, so I can't really ask for more. My car is acting up, though, with my Check Engine light on and some part I'm supposed to replace that my local garage says isn't urgent.... but still. Also, I'm due for my 90,000 mile check-up. My parents have now started in on me for replacing this car with a new one. Because I can so afford another $100+ monthly payment after just paying this one off! I'm hoping it holds together a little longer: please, universe.

NK and I did go to see The Golden Compass on Saturday for the matinee, though there were a rather lot of children in attendence - we weren't counting on that. I won't spoil it here, but I enjoyed it with reservations and am glad I read the book first. NK liked it, but not as much as he had hoped he would, which I think is a fair assessment, having both read the book and seen the movie. I'll give myself a break before starting in on the next book, since there's no real hurry there. Unless I get really bored with my parents here, or something :).

The weather is really wreaking havoc on my sinuses; my nose is either running or painfully dry due to the indoors heating. Taking allergy pills and/or my nose spray doesn't seem to make much difference. I really HATE my sinuses sometimes.

As for my hair, it's still there. I can barely see any of the parts I made for my braids anymore, and they're slipping like crazy so I am latching more braids than not. I hate having to wash my hair every 3 or so days or else feeing grungy, and more elastic bands drop off every time I do that. But oh well! NK still likes it, and so do I, so I shall persevere. He's kind of amusing in how he doesn't understand the dreading process at all; he keeps asking how long it'll take, like as if I could potentially have a head full of dreadlocks by Christmas or something. Oh, educating him is fun. He's like a sponge, learning new things every day :P.

Speaking of Christmas, I have no idea what I am going to get him for Christmas. He had it lucky because I have an Amazon Wish List, but he doesn't have one, so I have to think long and hard and I still have no clue. Plus, his birthday is in January, so I'll need to do something then, too. SIGH! Still, I wouldn't trade it for anything. His confession of love to me opened up some floodgates I didn't know I'd had, and it didn't take long for me to realize I feel the same but had been holding back... because I've been there, loving someone who didn't love me back, and I couldn't bear it happening again. Now that I know that won't happen, I kind of feel like shouting it from the rooftops. I love this boy so much. He is wonderful to me.

And what made me cry that weekend....? NK is in the running for a fairly nice job prospect early next year which would bump his salary up to livable wages and enable him to move out of his parents' home... and so he floated the idea of us possibly moving in together. Yeah. I kind of burst into tears. I've never... been in this position before... with someone who was serious about doing it... and me in a position to actually go along with it... and the fact is that I would love to live with him.

This is some scary emotional shit going on right here.

Media-wise, I am still enjoying DS-9, and I have S1 of Farscape and Babylon 5 set aside for when I get bored with that. The Nerd King really wants me to see Babylon 5 because for some reason he thinks I'll enjoy it a lot, so we might sneak a few episodes in here and there, unless I really do love it in which case I'll inhale it all as quickly as possible. Reminder to self: I really need to give Eureka a try. I've been thinking about it for some time now.

In closing, my virtual iPhone puppy is dying. :( Oh, and my older boy cat Simon has been a pain and a half recently. He's constantly hovering around, bleating for attention. I'm not sure what's gotten into him. I do pet him and it just seems like he can't get enough. He doesn't really like to be held and he doesn't sit/lay still and just let me pet him. He needs to get up and pace and circle me and headbutt my hand and it's just all very frenetic and kind of crazy. I sort of worry that he might be uncomfortable and that's why he needs to move around so much, but mostly I wonder why he is so STARVED for attention all of a sudden. I can't even get a good night's sleep or nap sometimes because I can hear his little cries as I drift off. So, a bit concerned about my baby.

Okay, done for now!