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([personal profile] fredxmertz Feb. 22nd, 2026 12:36 pm)
 HEY EVERYBODY!

Thanks for finding me here, again!  I hope you are all thriving

I turned 56 last month.

I had some engine trouble,  actually let's call it a catastrophic failure, my 2007 toyota tacoma blew a head gasket, and left me with a very expensive repair, in Redding.  I was headed to Los Angeles to see my brother read poetry at Beyond Baroque, as he has just released a book, of poetry!  So I had to cut my trip short, and I've been pretty anxious since then.

My pinky finger on my right hand was injured very badly on a hike, way back in october.  I'm getting therapy for the finger, but it will likely never go all the way straight again..... the finger dislocated so badly, at the 2nd knuckle, its been almost four months, the finger is still swollen and sensitive.  The Orthopedist has me in finger casts, which will progessively straighten out the finger.  it hurts like a MF

I'm back in the trailer at the broom shop.  I'm paying rent for Atlas (my daughter), so I'm not able to save any money right now, despite living simply

I got myself a full suspension mountain bike, but haven't had chance to ride it with all my running around to fix my truck, and some medical appointments, and working as much as I can.

It's been SO long since I posted an update here, I dated a woman for a few months over the summer, she got me more into mountain biking.  We've broken up, but I still have a lot of strong feelings about this woman.  That probably needs its own post.  She's a selkie, and I'm afraid I'll have to take her skin and hide it from her, if I want to keep her in my life.  She's also hardcore into astrology, and I just don't subscribe to that jive.  She's forceful about it, and it reminds me of religious dogma, I don't have space in my life for things that are not science-based 
Other than that,

Atlas graduates from Portland State University this summer, 
James is working hard at StormBreaker Brewing in Portland

I'm doing a twice weekly music object with a friend, hopefully more about that later,
and LPM is playing at Cowfish Dance Club for St Patrick's Day, for our 3rd year in a row.  I really wish they'd practice more before, but they are ALL (but not me) evolved in Musical Monster Friends, and other music endeavors.  So I will sing a few numbers at the Cowfish show again, but I won't have high hopes that the group will learn any new songs....

My cancer treatments were completed almost 18 months ago.  I am still cancer-free, and I have an update/check up with my oncologist tomorrow.

The USA is in real trouble, folks.  I will have to make a completely separate post for all of that.  Stay tuned.

Love,
Mertz
 

Posted by Adam Aleksic

In 1957, the American psychologist Harry Harlow conducted an infamous experiment where baby rhesus monkeys were given the choice between two different “mothers”: one made of wire and one made of cloth. The wire mother held a bottle of food, while the cloth mother held nothing, and yet the monkeys overwhelmingly chose the cloth mother every time.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the Harlow monkey experiment as the internet obsesses over Punch-kun, a socially anxious Japanese macaque that returns to his stuffed monkey whenever he struggles to interact with the other macaques.

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It’s easy to see why Punch is captivating people’s hearts. We’re literally monkeys ourselves. Everybody can project their own stories onto him; all of us have sought out comfort in difficult situations.

However, the Harlow experiment is a warning about how our monkey instincts can be used against us. When I look at the photograph of the wire and cloth mothers, I see the physical and digital worlds we’re moving toward. One is stripped bare of everything but the basic resources for survival, while the other is an ersatz source of comfort.

The cloth mother is an AI chatbot or a social media influencer. She looks real enough to comfort your monkey brain into feeling a minimum amount of social connection. We turn to her when we can’t find any actual monkeys.

The wire mother is the self-checkout lane in a grocery store, or the sleek grey fast casual restaurant. You get what you want, without interacting with anyone, and then the space practically begs you to leave.

The more our physical spaces are optimized and transactionalized, the less the real world will look like the real world. At the same time, the better our technology gets, the more our digital world will appear like it’s the real thing. We’ll increasingly find ourselves clinging to it in anthropomorphic consolation while everything else withers to wire.

Following the surrogate mother experiment, most of Harlow’s monkeys turned out severely socially impaired, struggling to bond with other monkeys. I worry the same will be true for us, because artificial connection can never replace actual connection.

Punch, meanwhile, symbolizes how things could still go right. His stuffed animal helps him develop social skills and learn to interact with the other monkeys. The zoo is carefully designed for him to thrive; resources aren’t separated from community.

It’s a basic human instinct to seek the cloth mother. We need to feel connected to people and things. Arguably, this is what makes us human in the first place. But the things don’t have to come at the expense of the people. It’s possible to develop both our real world and our technology in a way that cultivates warmth and meaning.

This starts with carefully building our environments to augment the best in ourselves. We can’t focus on just the online, or even just the offline. Society now depends on both, and neglecting either would lead us into Harlow’s dystopia.

Cute animal videos will always go viral, but I’m sure there’s a reason Punch resonated so much in this current moment. He’s a lonely monkey, and we’re in the middle of a loneliness epidemic. We’re all drawn to the “stuffed animals” in our own lives, but we should recognize that these are means to an end, rather than the end itself. Instead, we must use our tools to build community where we can, understanding that we are monkeys as well.

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([personal profile] atamascolily Feb. 22nd, 2026 03:40 pm)
Slayers of Old by Jim C. Hines - standalone urban fantasy about 3 veterans of various magical scuffles who have settled down and moved in together (platonically) only to be drawn into a fresh new conflict with the fate of the world in the balance. Fun, but not especially memorable; I liked this better than Hines's earlier Ex Libris series, where I only read the first two volumes.

What Stalks the Deep (Sworn Soldier #3) by T. Kingfisher - Novella following our nonbinary hero from a fictional eastern European country with an abundance of pronouns to America, where they confront eldritch horrors in an abandoned West Virginia coal mine. I saw a lot of twists coming, but the vibes are great, and the worldbuilding was fun.

Through Gates of Garnet and Gold (Wayward Children #????) by Seanan McGuire - I've kind of lost count of where we are at this point, but I enjoyed learning more about the Halls, and how we appear to be building towards a larger plot re: the doors' agenda. Also, I love pomegranates and moths, and the statues' aesthetic is great, as is its origins in "playing freeze tag so the horrors can't get you".

Emily of New Moon by LM Montgomery - Similar formula to Anne of Green Gables but even more autobiographical. Emily is not charismatic as Anne, but she's a born writer, which is its own kind of appeal. I'm not thrilled by the "guy old enough to be her father who is heavily and unsubtly foreshadowed as a future love interest" who turns up in the last third or so, even though it's also pretty clear she's going to end up with an artist kid her own age. We'll see how the other two books play out.

Manga:

-Apparently, "cute cottagecore fantasy witch" is its own subgenre these days - what surprised me the most about Aria of the Beech Forest is that the second chapter takes an abrupt turn by revealing the story is actually set in modern-day Ireland, which I was not expecting, hahaha. 3 volumes, complete, I read this mostly because it was on the library shelves.

-The Failure at God School's story is by the same person who did The Apothecary Diaries (which I loved) but unfortunately the first volume of this doesn't rise above "spunky girl gets sent to magic boarding school and turns out to be the most powerful of all" formula - no surprises here.

-Smoking Behind the Supermarket with You volume 4 introduces a few new characters and fleshes out the supporting cast, which is good because the leads' relationship is stuck in stasis (which they acknowledge) because they're scared of change. Considering how many more volumes have already been published, it's going to be a long road.
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([personal profile] altamira16 Feb. 22nd, 2026 01:50 pm)
My book group likes this mess, and I do not.

I do not want to read books about WASPs who are oblivious to the world beyond the city that they live in. And even in that city, they are about some white people striving and oblivious to anything beyond their attempt to make it.

They can discuss the trappings of wealth in detail, but when it comes to discussing people, it goes like this:

The interior was a fantasy of soon-to-be-cliched Oriental fixtures: large porcelain urns, brass Buddhas, red latterns, and self-postured silent deference of an Oriental waistaff (the last servile ethnicity of American's nineteenth century immigrant classes.)


Holy hell. That is racist.

Then if that was not enough,


In front of me a broad-shouldered man with the twang of an oil-producing state was trying to communicate with the maitre d'


This is racist against Asian people AND white people all in two paragraphs. The character making this observation cannot be bothered to figure out if someone is from Texas or Oklahoma, but they decide that the rude person in the restaurant is from Texas because who cares about anything outside of New York City? Truly, a literary achievement.

Now, this author is a talented and capable author, but was any of this scene really necessary?

In the first chapters, there are references to so many other books, as if it is inviting you to write a Ph.D. thesis.

The most obvious thesis about how this book compares to "Great Expectations." The author invites that comparison so many times. One of the characters picks up "Great Expectations" and turns to Chapter 20 as soon as she hears from her friends to London. That is the chapter in the book where Pip, the young character from "Great Expectations" goes to London, and it is just a dirty and corrupt place to be.

In this book, like in "Great Expectations," there is a wealthy benefactor warping the characters around herself, but it is best to leave the details of that for the people who are interested in the book.

Chapter Six is "The Cruelest Month," and it starts with "One night in April" slamming you over the head with T. S. Eliot's "The Waste Land."


April is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.


There are too many characters in this book that like to read, and they like to read the type of literature that is ruined by high school English teachers. These characters are absolutely obsessed with "Walden;" and I am happy for them for being able to conceive of Massachusetts, a state outside of New York, but not really.
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([personal profile] ysabetwordsmith Feb. 22nd, 2026 03:01 pm)
Homo erectus fossils in East Asia rewrite the timeline of human migration

A new analysis dates three Homo erectus skulls from central China to about 1.77 million years ago, making them the oldest securely dated hominin fossils in eastern Asia.

That older age shifts the arrival of early humans in the region back by roughly 600,000 years and compresses the timeline of how quickly our ancestors spread across Eurasia.
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The same layer holds stone tools and animal remains, tying the skulls to a specific moment nearly 1.8 million years ago rather than the younger dates long cited.

Leo Brouwer's 'Omaggio a Tárrega' - Nuevos Estudios Sencillos No 5
And yes, it is the same thematic material he uses in 'Flight of the Lovers through the Valley of Echoes', second movement of 'Decamerón Negro'(which I have posted at some point). In a much more concise form.

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([personal profile] cupcake_goth Feb. 22nd, 2026 12:32 pm)

The background: last year MCR announced the second US leg of the Long Live the Black Parade tour, with the city/date closest to me being Oct. 24 in L.A.. The Stroppy One sighed at the inevitable, and cass404 braved the Ticketmaster queue to get us tickets. the Ticketmaster online queue to get us tickets. Then MCR announced the final two shows of the tour, both in L.A.: Oct. 30 & 31. Cue much wailing from me, because there was no way I could afford to stay in L.A. for a week. 

Last weekend, the Stroppy One suggested I ask Cass if I could stay at her place for a week, and the we head back to L.A. for the concerts. I stared, asked if he was okay with me missing our anniversary to go see MCR. He pointed out that he wouldn’t have suggested it if he wasn’t, just see if tickets were available you silly head. 

So! After conferring with Cass, I’m going to see if any tickets are available. Because spending time with Cass is something I desperately miss, and omg my precious cupcakes of bombast.

My debit card was compromised late last week, and I'm waiting for the bank to get all of the charges reversed. I've been able to cover my most urgent bills (the hotel and my storage unit), but I have a few others that are due that I'm still worried about paying. If I can come up with another $100 or so, it would make a huge difference while I wait for the bank to get everything taken care of.

So I'm going to try to sell a few things and hope for the best. 🤞🏻

First, I have a few Nintendo Switch games for sale:

Pokémon: Let's Go, Pikachu! (example on Amazon)
Spyro Reignited Trilogy (example on Amazon)
TemTem (example on Amazon)

And then a few TTRPGs that were Christmas presents so they're still in basically like new shape:

Candela Obscura Core Rulebook (example on Amazon)
Daggerheart Core Set (example on Amazon)

If you're not interested but know someone who might be, please point them my way. It would help a lot if I could manage to sell at least one or two things from this list.

For payment, I have CashApp ($Settiai), PayPal, Venmo, or Zelle (nancy.lynn.foster@gmail.com).
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Movies: None

Television/Streaming: a couple of episodes of Buffy and Farscape.
Buffy:
  • "Faith, Hope & Trick" - first appearance of Faith (she's an interesting foil to Buffy)
  • "Beauty and the Beasts" - Angel comes back. Oz might have mauled some kids out in the wood when he escaped his cage.
  • "Homecoming" - Both Cordelia and Buffy are annoying as fuck in this one, but I am watching this through adult eyes and that's probably coloring my attitude with some of these episodes. (Use your words)!
  • "Band Candy" - this one had some pretty funny bits; especially Giles being an absolute fool. And Principal Snyder!

    Farscape:
  • ". . . Different Destinations" - they end up going back in time at the memorial and change the path of history.
  • "Eat me" - they come upon a damaged Leviathan and find all the Peacekeepers turned feral and cannibalistic. Also some of the Moya crew get split into two. Crichton's double makes it back on board ship with him. That would be freaky! It will be interesting to see what happens with the two of them.

    Books: It has not been a great week for books! I had two books I stopped reading: T. Kingfisher's Hemlock and Silver and Ben Greenman's Emotional Rescue.

    The Kingfisher book was a book club read for January that I never got in time. It just recently became available as I was finishing The Reformatory. I got about twenty percent or so in and I was just kind of annoyed at the book, so I stopped reading.

    The Greenman book is essays on music. I thought it would be more like Rob Sheffield's Love is a Mix Tape or Talking to Girls About Duran Duran. No. Greenman's book was rather boring and also felt a bit misogynistic, so I had to quit reading that one, too.

    I'm now reading Pylon by William Faulkner. It's a bit different than the other fare of his I've read, but I'm interested to see where it goes. It's set in a fictionalized New Orleans during an air show, so lots of talk of planes and pilots.

    Listening to: only one Rolling Stone Top 500 album this week. Number 488 is The Stooges self-titled album from 1969. On the 2012 list, this album was at 185. Rolling Stone blurb:
    Fueled by “a little marijuana and a lotta alienation,” Michigan’s Stooges gave the lie to hippie idealism, playing with a savagery that unsettled even the most blasé clubgoers. Ex-Velvet Underground member John Cale produced a primitive debut wherein, amid Ron Asheton’s wah-wah blurts, Iggy Stooge (né James Osterberg) snarled seminal punk classics such as “I Wanna Be Your Dog,” “No Fun,” and “1969,” bedrock examples of the weaponized boredom that would become a de rigueur punk posture.


    This one is not really my cuppa, but I didn't outwardly hate it (like the Suicide album). It's a pretty short album, too. I can see the influences they had on other bands. Of the songs here, I like "I Wanna Be Your Dog," which I've also heard covered by several bands, as well.

    Playing: I finished Assemble With Care; this is by the same studio that did Alba: a wildlife adventure. It's a visual novel with puzzles; you are Maria, who repairs electronics and such, and you've come to a little town for their festival. Various folks want your help, so you take apart and reassemble game systems, tape decks, watches, and more as you learn about issues in these folks' lives. It's a short but sweet game. The controls were occasionally a little frustrating (you can use your mouse on PC, but sometimes if I clicked too quickly, I'd put the piece I was working on to the side and then would have to hover over and pick it up again).
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    ([personal profile] agoodwinsmith Feb. 22nd, 2026 10:50 am)

    SPOILERS for Starfleet Academy Episode 7 - Ko-Zeine
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    Episode 7 is a cool down from the trauma/drama of episode 6, where a War College instructor and a War College student lost their lives, and many were wounded, and all on the training mission were at risk of dreadful consequences. It is apparent that the school year has continued on since the Miyazaki crisis, and there is now a short Spring Break - All Worlds' Day - and the Academy and College are emptied. We follow two pairs of Academy students as they appear to highjink their way through more life lessons.

     

    Caleb and Genesis do what appears to be the standard Disrespect the Place and the Equipment, but turns out to be a full reveal of how far Genesis will go to achieve her goals. In previous episodes we have seen her natural leadership, and lateral thinking under pressure. Here we are shown that she is a candidate who is following in the Kirk-rules-are-just-guide-lines attitude.

     

    Derem and Jay-Den face the old Trek Trope of the Political Betrothal in Childhood. We learn more about who Derem is and who Jay-Den is becoming. Derem was promised in childhood to a royal person, Kaira, who will inherit the responsibility for a whole planet.

     

    Derem is surprised by the timing of the marriage. He was expecting to complete Starfleet Academy, serve a number of years, and then return to take up his duties. Things have sped up because Kaira is inheriting earlier than expected.

     

    Kaira tells us that Derem's selection as her future consort was decided by a "birthdate lottery". Derem tells us that he was raised with her, almost like a sibling. Other things we learn from both of them show that Derem is being treated as female human consorts are often treated - their interests and vocations are not only secondary, but expected to be relinquished as needed.

     

    And Derem meets the moment, and gives up his interests and achievements without a second thought. As we discover, he has regrets, but he is determined to put them aside and, as he says, "make it work".

     

    Kaira is happy to accept his obedience, as royalty often does, without really understanding that it is a sacrifice - willing, but nonetheless a sacrifice. It is only when Jay-Den gives the Ko-Zeine's (Best Man) toast to the new couple, that Kaira understands what Derem's willing obedience is costing him.

     

    And then she immediately rejects Derem, and ejects him, forcing him to abdicate so she can have the marriage annulled. She then makes the rejection his fault because he had personal interests that he put aside for her. She effectively says that he shouldn't have had any interests that were not the same as hers, and that willing sacrifice was not enough, and, in fact, insulting. Then she notes that she will be the first woman to rule Khionia alone.

     

    This puts new light on Kaira's previous actions. She obviously has not been communicating with Derem or he would have known about her mother's health scare. She arrives with her own Ko-Zeine, Quill, apologizing for not being present when Derem arrived - although she was apparently aware that the matrimonial abdustion was occurring. Kaira is holding hands with Quill, and it is obvious they have become very close in Derem's absence. Considering that she is envigorated by the challenge of being the first woman to rule Khionia in her own right, and that Derem would always have been an ornament to her life, and not a partner - not even a junior partner - it is likely that she was looking for a reason to put him aside all along.

     

    It appears that the audience is expected to believe that, as brutal as the process was/is, Derem will be "better off" returning to Starfleet. However, we are not shown a shot of Derem gazing happily/dreamily/wistfully at the meteor shower, unlike Kyle and Jay-Den, Genesis and Sam, and solitary Caleb.

     

    Derem has experienced a crushing rejection. He can't return to his previous groove because his goal is no longer available to him. Will he ever be able to return home, or will he always be known there as the Failed Consort? If this calcifies his experimental asshole persona it will be a tragic waste.

    In exchanges news, Candy Hearts exchange had reveals- I wrote an angsty triple drabble for S.C.I.谜案集 | S.C.I. Mystery (TV):
    - To Banishing Memories Summary: It wasn't a bedside vigil, it was more that Bai Yutang just couldn't make himself leave.

    [community profile] hurtcomfortex also announced it would not be running this year :( but will be back in 2027 :)

    Since the beginning of the year I got it in my head to teach myself nalbinding (an incredibly ancient technique, while now thought of mostly as a Viking era thing it actually predates the Vikings by thousands of years, with textile fragments made using the technique found at the Nahal Hemar Cave (modern Israel) dating back to 6500BCE and from 4200BCE in Tybrind Vig (modern Denmark) but there's lots of evidence from many places more "recently" like socks from 4th C CE Egypt and hats and shawls from Peru from 300BCE to 300 CE) and post-Birthday Bash really threw myself into figuring it out. There are SO many different stitches and techniques and very little standardization and there's very, very little out there about it (i.e. NO patterns basically whatsoever). After watching approximately eleventy billion videos and trying to muddle my way though some articles and books I have sort of figured out a few different styles/stitches but who knows if I'll manage to actually make anything. It's been fun (and frustrating but whatever) to attempt though!

    And, as always, [community profile] recthething recs (tumblr art for Bridgerton, Doctor Who, Merlin and Under the Skin):

    Bridgerton
    - Sophie at the ball (gorgeous)

    Doctor Who
    - Sillies (cute doodle of Ten and Thirteen interacting)

    Merlin
    - Happy Valentine's Day!! (adorable modern!au doodle)
    - I once read a fanfic with a modern AU where Arthur is a restorer. Now I think about it all the time (I haven't read that fic - it's in Russian and incomplete - but I really like this art for it)

    Under the Skin (TV)
    - Cuddle (adorable Du Cheng hugging Shen Yi and settling in Shen Yi's lap)
    - uno reverse of the cuddle (so gentle and sweet of the two in reversed positions)

    If, like me, languages interest you, I thought these two Old English/Middle English/Modern English story telling techniques were a fascinating way to show the way English has changed through time. How far back in time can you understand English? (posted story) and From Old English to Modern American English in One Monologue (video).
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    ([personal profile] olivermoss Feb. 22nd, 2026 11:41 am)
    This was not the outcome I wanted, Canada

    Silver lining - the big stories out of the gold medal game are about the Hughes bothers and Hellebuyck.
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    ([personal profile] ysabetwordsmith Feb. 22nd, 2026 01:23 pm)
    Today is cloudy and cold.

    I fed the birds. I've seen a large flock of sparrows plus one female and two male cardinals separately.

    I put out water for the birds.

    EDIT 2/22/26 -- I planted 3 peonies 'Sorbet Mixed' under the apricot tree. The mix includes white, light pink, and dark pink. These cost $14.98, so about $5 a root. That's a great bargain for peonies, which average $20-30 each and catalogs and the high end is downright exorbitant. So if you want peonies, look for cheap ones at home or garden stores this time of year. Due to the unseasonal warmth, the ground here is unfrozen, so I was able to plant them immediately. \o/

    EDIT 2/22/26 -- I labeled and mulched the new peonies.

    I put out a fresh cake of peanut suet.

    EDIT 2/22/26 -- I did a bit of work around the patio.







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    Title: in the darkness with you
    Word count: 4,233
    Fandom: 镇魂 | Guardian (TV)
    Pairing: Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan
    Rating: Mature
    Content tags: Blind Zhao Yunlan, First time, Hand-Feeding, Finger-Sucking, Clothed Sex, Zhao Yunlan's oral fixation, Episode Related, Episode 21, Missing Scene, Blindness Arc

    Summary:

    Zhao Yunlan woke to the smell of citrus, sweet and strong in the air. Without fully turning his face out of the pillow, he slitted open a sleep-heavy eye - to complete, unchanged darkness. Reality came crashing down like a landslide. Right: still blind.
    [personal profile] candyheartsex author reveals have happened! And here's the fic I wrote for [personal profile] facethestrange:

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    Title: in the darkness with you
    Word count: 4,233
    Fandom: 镇魂 | Guardian (TV)
    Pairing: Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan
    Rating: Mature
    Content tags: Blind Zhao Yunlan, First time, Hand-Feeding, Finger-Sucking, Clothed Sex, Zhao Yunlan's oral fixation, Episode Related, Episode 21, Missing Scene, Blindness Arc
    A/N: Many thanks to [personal profile] china_shop for beta-reading.

    Summary:

    Zhao Yunlan woke to the smell of citrus, sweet and strong in the air. Without fully turning his face out of the pillow, he slitted open a sleep-heavy eye - to complete, unchanged darkness. Reality came crashing down like a landslide. Right: still blind.
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