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roadnotesIf I were to have a gravestone, I think that's what I'd put on it. (My fantasy is to be buried in someone's garden, under the habaneros; reality is most likely cremation -- or parts donated to science.)
Anyway... Mark is leaving for England this evening for eleven days; it's a belated birthday gift for him -- time to wander through the streets of London and the British Museum at his own pace, time to see the city on his own -- his first solo trip overseas. I am taking six days of vacation during that time, to relax, write, clean the apartment, sort papers, explore other relationships ... and figure out where my relationship with Mark is going.
Not an easy thing to face -- but I've no choice.
Tonight, though, I will put the somber thoughts aside, and have dinner with Soren, then go to hear a friend play at the bar where I used to sing... and who knows? Perhaps it will snow, and we will be able to walk through new snow on our way home; or perhaps it will rain, and I will be able to look at light reflected in the drops pearling on Soren's lashes. Something beautiful will happen.
Anyway... Mark is leaving for England this evening for eleven days; it's a belated birthday gift for him -- time to wander through the streets of London and the British Museum at his own pace, time to see the city on his own -- his first solo trip overseas. I am taking six days of vacation during that time, to relax, write, clean the apartment, sort papers, explore other relationships ... and figure out where my relationship with Mark is going.
Not an easy thing to face -- but I've no choice.
Tonight, though, I will put the somber thoughts aside, and have dinner with Soren, then go to hear a friend play at the bar where I used to sing... and who knows? Perhaps it will snow, and we will be able to walk through new snow on our way home; or perhaps it will rain, and I will be able to look at light reflected in the drops pearling on Soren's lashes. Something beautiful will happen.
