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Mar. 13th, 2012 02:15 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
squigglefishNeed to do a dump of angst. Lots of stuff has been going on that I can't talk about, and my head is at risk atm.
A huge case of the brainweasels*
A related huge case of limerence
Being linked to a triggering video that is far too much like my head (trigger warning for surreality and hellish imagery, self-harm through neglecting body - I clicked on it because of the cute start)
Wanting to just run away from everything here near where I live LIKE A BAWS
Feeling like I can't - see top two entries
RECENT EVENTS LOCALLY HARKING BACK TO MY BEING ABUSED ALL TOO DAMN WELL
Physically doing increasingly worse, becoming more noticeable to me :(
Hella stressful job
RECENT EVENTS LOCALLY TRIGGERING ME TO FUCK AND BACK
TRIGGERED
TRIGGERED
TRIGGERED
...and sleep has gone wonky due to staying up until 8am one night.
* irrationally convinced fear that someone close doesn't like you
A huge case of the brainweasels*
A related huge case of limerence
Being linked to a triggering video that is far too much like my head (trigger warning for surreality and hellish imagery, self-harm through neglecting body - I clicked on it because of the cute start)
Wanting to just run away from everything here near where I live LIKE A BAWS
Feeling like I can't - see top two entries
RECENT EVENTS LOCALLY HARKING BACK TO MY BEING ABUSED ALL TOO DAMN WELL
Physically doing increasingly worse, becoming more noticeable to me :(
Hella stressful job
RECENT EVENTS LOCALLY TRIGGERING ME TO FUCK AND BACK
TRIGGERED
TRIGGERED
TRIGGERED
...and sleep has gone wonky due to staying up until 8am one night.
* irrationally convinced fear that someone close doesn't like you
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Date: 2012-03-13 08:20 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2012-03-26 09:17 pm (UTC)I realise this is a LOT easier to say than to actually do. I have a lot of problems myself with worrying about friends and closeness and people being around and stuff, so, you're not alone there.
Hope the rest of it starts to slowly come out in the wash :(