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51: Changes.
Getting Out More:
- The weather is getting nice. There is no reason at all that says I can't sit out in the garden and watch the cats play for an hour or two a day on my days off. Not only is it fresh air but I might actually get a bit of a tan! Also the photo opportunities of catching my cats being silly are higher if I am outside to see them.
- At least once a week I need to go out for no reason. There's a botanical garden down the road from here I can visit. I should be doing that. Go there and have a walk around. Sit down for a little while and relax in the fresh air. Watch the world go by. Look at the birds and the flowers.
- At least once a week I need to walk to work. Not only will it save me money on taxi's bit it will be good exercise.
- At least twice a month I need to go out and do something for me. Go the cinema, take a walk by the lake, do something that isn't being stuck at home. Probably going the cinema though since that's something I can readily enjoy!
- At least once a month I need to go shopping for my own food. Mum can buy what she wants for the family, but I should be buying food for when I'm at work rather than wasting money buying from the garage. What costs me almost £10 there would post me £1.50 if I went to a supermarket and bought all my food.
The Internet:
- At least one day a week I need to close my laptop, put my phone into flightmode and avoid the internet. I need to do something else. Take that walk. Catch up on TV shows. Read a book. Spend an hour in a bubble bath listening to music. Socialise with my parents even though my parents would probably be on their phones and only giving me a small fraction of their attention should I want to socialise with them.
- I need to limit my time on certain sites. Have a set time in which I go on those sites and a time when I say 'enough is enough' and put them away for the day. Namely Facebook and Plurk.
- I need to limit my time online. I can spend all day online, though a lot of it these days is sat watching anime rather than surfing the internet, but as above I should have a set time to come online and learn to take breaks. Closing my laptop for an hour here and there will not hurt me.
Roleplay:
- I need to not take this so seriously. If I have other things to occupy my mind this will help. But as an only means of distraction I can become more invested in my roleplay than I care to admit. This needs to stop. I cannot allow roleplay to be my sole source of entertainment.
- Logging will only happen with people who wish to log with me. If I feel that someone has lost interest in the log I will terminate that log... Mainly because I lose the drive for it if I feel that my logging partner is no longer interested. I don't see the point in dragging something on for months. That shows a lack of interest in my opinion.
- I will make posts when I want to make posts. I will attempt to make one at least once a week with at least four of my characters, on days of my choosing.
- I will limit my tagging while at work. Being distracted by logs while at work is not very bright of me. However, answering a tag on my break would be fine.
Work:
- I need to find a new job. That is all.
Family:
- At least once a week I need to socialise with my family more. And that does not mean sit downstairs and bitch about Ancient Aliens with my mum. This means going out somewhere and doing something. Going for a cup of coffee, down to the cake shop down the road, going out with my sister. Not doing a damn thing with my brother because he's a jackass who wouldn't be caught dead with a family member so he's out.
- I need to talk to my mum more. Recently I've been trying. Little by little letting her in. Not much because she doesn't need to know everything and I honestly don't think she is ready to know everything that's going on with me. But little things I've been letting her in on. Like how the passing of Cis made me feel. Normally I would have kept that to myself because I near broke down when I was telling her. But... I felt I could share this with her. Something told me I could and she'd understand. And shockingly she did. This makes me think that maybe I can share little bits more. Just a bit.
- I am still determined to help them with their dream of going on a cruise. Sadly that might have to wait until I find a new job, but I will put money away for them each month to help with costs.
Friends:
- I need to remember that I have friends. That despite what my rebellious mind will have me believe, these strange people actually seem to like me. Otherwise why would they stick around? I need to remember that.
- In the same vein I need to be a better friend. I feel as if I'm not pulling my weight in the Friend Department because of fear. I'm constantly waiting for everyone to fess up and admit they hate me and walk away and leave me on my own. Much the way my best friend of almost ten years did without a second thought. And if she can do that... why can't others? ... But that's my fear. And I need to find a way to get over that fear and actually let people in. This is something I really need to work on.
- I want to be there more for them. More involved! I think I need to start getting on IM's and actually talking to people one-on-one rather than over plurk. A little personal interaction never hurt!
Myself:
- Focus: I get distracted easily. I need to find a way to focus myself more. To center myself and not let my mind take me away in the wrong direction.
- Health: I'm bad when it comes to my health. Partly because of the above. I need to start getting my act together and making sure I remain as healthy as humanly possible.
- Sanity: For the sake of my sanity I think I need to get all of those things in order. But oddly I think I also want to get a radio. I want to have music in my bedroom. Softly playing in the corner of my room. Silence is deadly and I think my sanity will benefit a lot from having sound in my room.
- Routine: I think the best way to fix all of the above is to have a set routine to my day. A set time to eat, take meds, have a bath, go for a walk, watch my shows, sit with mum, so on and so forth. I think if I keep to a kind of schedule then maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to focus more?
- The weather is getting nice. There is no reason at all that says I can't sit out in the garden and watch the cats play for an hour or two a day on my days off. Not only is it fresh air but I might actually get a bit of a tan! Also the photo opportunities of catching my cats being silly are higher if I am outside to see them.
- At least once a week I need to go out for no reason. There's a botanical garden down the road from here I can visit. I should be doing that. Go there and have a walk around. Sit down for a little while and relax in the fresh air. Watch the world go by. Look at the birds and the flowers.
- At least once a week I need to walk to work. Not only will it save me money on taxi's bit it will be good exercise.
- At least twice a month I need to go out and do something for me. Go the cinema, take a walk by the lake, do something that isn't being stuck at home. Probably going the cinema though since that's something I can readily enjoy!
- At least once a month I need to go shopping for my own food. Mum can buy what she wants for the family, but I should be buying food for when I'm at work rather than wasting money buying from the garage. What costs me almost £10 there would post me £1.50 if I went to a supermarket and bought all my food.
The Internet:
- At least one day a week I need to close my laptop, put my phone into flightmode and avoid the internet. I need to do something else. Take that walk. Catch up on TV shows. Read a book. Spend an hour in a bubble bath listening to music. Socialise with my parents even though my parents would probably be on their phones and only giving me a small fraction of their attention should I want to socialise with them.
- I need to limit my time on certain sites. Have a set time in which I go on those sites and a time when I say 'enough is enough' and put them away for the day. Namely Facebook and Plurk.
- I need to limit my time online. I can spend all day online, though a lot of it these days is sat watching anime rather than surfing the internet, but as above I should have a set time to come online and learn to take breaks. Closing my laptop for an hour here and there will not hurt me.
Roleplay:
- I need to not take this so seriously. If I have other things to occupy my mind this will help. But as an only means of distraction I can become more invested in my roleplay than I care to admit. This needs to stop. I cannot allow roleplay to be my sole source of entertainment.
- Logging will only happen with people who wish to log with me. If I feel that someone has lost interest in the log I will terminate that log... Mainly because I lose the drive for it if I feel that my logging partner is no longer interested. I don't see the point in dragging something on for months. That shows a lack of interest in my opinion.
- I will make posts when I want to make posts. I will attempt to make one at least once a week with at least four of my characters, on days of my choosing.
- I will limit my tagging while at work. Being distracted by logs while at work is not very bright of me. However, answering a tag on my break would be fine.
Work:
- I need to find a new job. That is all.
Family:
- At least once a week I need to socialise with my family more. And that does not mean sit downstairs and bitch about Ancient Aliens with my mum. This means going out somewhere and doing something. Going for a cup of coffee, down to the cake shop down the road, going out with my sister. Not doing a damn thing with my brother because he's a jackass who wouldn't be caught dead with a family member so he's out.
- I need to talk to my mum more. Recently I've been trying. Little by little letting her in. Not much because she doesn't need to know everything and I honestly don't think she is ready to know everything that's going on with me. But little things I've been letting her in on. Like how the passing of Cis made me feel. Normally I would have kept that to myself because I near broke down when I was telling her. But... I felt I could share this with her. Something told me I could and she'd understand. And shockingly she did. This makes me think that maybe I can share little bits more. Just a bit.
- I am still determined to help them with their dream of going on a cruise. Sadly that might have to wait until I find a new job, but I will put money away for them each month to help with costs.
Friends:
- I need to remember that I have friends. That despite what my rebellious mind will have me believe, these strange people actually seem to like me. Otherwise why would they stick around? I need to remember that.
- In the same vein I need to be a better friend. I feel as if I'm not pulling my weight in the Friend Department because of fear. I'm constantly waiting for everyone to fess up and admit they hate me and walk away and leave me on my own. Much the way my best friend of almost ten years did without a second thought. And if she can do that... why can't others? ... But that's my fear. And I need to find a way to get over that fear and actually let people in. This is something I really need to work on.
- I want to be there more for them. More involved! I think I need to start getting on IM's and actually talking to people one-on-one rather than over plurk. A little personal interaction never hurt!
Myself:
- Focus: I get distracted easily. I need to find a way to focus myself more. To center myself and not let my mind take me away in the wrong direction.
- Health: I'm bad when it comes to my health. Partly because of the above. I need to start getting my act together and making sure I remain as healthy as humanly possible.
- Sanity: For the sake of my sanity I think I need to get all of those things in order. But oddly I think I also want to get a radio. I want to have music in my bedroom. Softly playing in the corner of my room. Silence is deadly and I think my sanity will benefit a lot from having sound in my room.
- Routine: I think the best way to fix all of the above is to have a set routine to my day. A set time to eat, take meds, have a bath, go for a walk, watch my shows, sit with mum, so on and so forth. I think if I keep to a kind of schedule then maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to focus more?
