EsTur

In a single existance complacent daylight washes and intrudes with feeble rays on overcast hours, amid which I live to learn... Yes. I live to learn And I do. More than ever I do. Slowly slipping into rest. Long nights of wading through pitted dreams, I sleep. I assume that's true when I Awake... Slowly, but surely. And I'd speak a little If silence permits me If it helped you some And if you cared to ask I'd answer still. But it's not alot And I realize that But, it's something I can do yes, it's something I can do... So, if you feel the need I'd give chance for cure And I'd let you linger In a better light better, than this one here. On ...

I wait alone to confide in silence as thoughts turn back in hollow hope (I shouldn't have come) What an idiot... Pathetic sentinel so stupid... I wait alone even though I shouldn't and I hate my dependancies my need my subtle ache this pen... And the words I write useless... meaningless... dead. as I wait alone.

Come closer... beneath this black umbrella held above our heads. Our velvet covering. Riddled canopy of pin prick lights. That sprinkle themselves like silver salt that shivers and slips on ebony chrome. Watch closely now... They flicker and falter just like our words. Scattered and few so many unsaid. S p r i n k l e d  stars... That spread and suspend. For you. Lingering above a frosted horizon. Unattainable. Elusive and secret. So silent and wonderful... Beautiful in their shy appearance, as they perform for you and I tonight...

Don't ask me why I never knew It's just my job to let you throughSo pass on by and smile for me Give us a kiss and make it freePlant it here on pallid skin to warm the chill of the space I'm inYa, it's been so long Their faces are dead Please touch me now with words unsaidThen breeze on past and don't look back Hand me the moment I'll make it lastI'll savour you upon my tongue then spit it out Cuz we're so youngAnd bitterness is no relief So set it free release the thiefBut...Give love a chance one just like here Defy the skyline Don't mind your fearAnd don't hate the one that falls through They're making their way Just like youAnd hate wa...

Honey, it's no secret So let's not try and keep it. Look straight ahead Don't drop your eyes for anything. Such a waste of wells as honest as yours... Green depths of consistancy. In a shallow sea of seekers... Lovely let's not waste the time spared just for us Ours this once... Just hold on tight with knuckles white and jaws locked. Like bolted gates relentless in their holding. Faithful... Just like you... B e a u t i f u l  Y o u here with me... Holding the moment so quietly. In those endless eyes that hold me loose me. Drown me... As I crawl back to You.

Beautiful beginning so forgiven, young and New Shrouded virgin of innocence whispering white Goodbyes To past pain... Goodbye to longing and lacerated lonliness... Farewell exhaustion and festered fears leave me now... You have no place Here On the mantle of my Hope On the doorstep of my Expectation Leave me to revel in this endless Freedom... To linger a little longer On the edge of this Change This day Labeled "mine" And please Just let me be. For I have found my New beginning Here... Devoid of You. Forever

Try to loose the curdled silence in relavence of lyric and s K I p p I N G silk of tuneJust.  Loose. Yourself... Run away...Into this barbed sweetness of song... And sedate the sickness Here. In these grainy shadows that spread webbed fingers to conceal the  d i s t a n c e of unseen s p a c e s between you . . . and . . . I. Each malicious mile between our inches And I Feel Nothing... Just vacancy and barren room S o . . . R e m o v e d . . . Lost. In sterile silence.And it's strange to think That I knew you once...

S l e e p l e s s Because my thoughts ....won't....stop..... Colliding Beneath the bloody glow of digital time... So precise and structured Sensible. Unlike my present state of mind... And it's Useless To fight the dark Because the morning is her revenge... But, maybe I've forgotten Perhaps... To dream like I once did... When it all seemed so natural... So timeless Maybe... Maybe not. Unclear It's getting colder... But the prospect of sleep just feels so useless... Rather h o l l o w Just like the way you make me feel... Tonight... But I won't voice my secret thoughts not now No... Not even to the night. Not even to myself. Not now... No.....