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It's 12 o'clock On a starless night The room's quiet There's no one in sightI wait by the phone I wait for your call I wonder where you are I wonder if you care At allIt's 12 o'clock On a sunny beach The waves crash on the shore Everything's out of reachI sit and stare at the sea I sit and touch the sand I wonder what lies ahead I wonder if I'll ever see you Again

It doesn’t seem so long ago That I looked at you from here Most of the time I still picture you nearWas it my choice to pack Or did you do it behind my back Was it your decision to give up Or did I just decide to stand upIt doesn’t seem so long ago Since I’ve been this wrong Most of the time I pretend you’re not goneDon’t break away Don’t make me say These words of escapeThere’s a time For every affair Under the heavensA time to tear down And a time to reach up A time to embrace And a time to forgiveDon’t stay away Don’t make me plan My next escapeIt doesn’t seem so long ago Since I walked outside Most of the time You’re still on my mind

I wish I could close my eyes again And for a second in the darkness See what the future holdsI wish I could watch the sun set And in that thin orange haze Pretend that I am wholeThese uninspired steps I take Misleading me at every turn Can never change my fateI’ll just keep walking forward Until I hit a wall strong enough To stop me for goodI wish I could be there again In that room where time is still And not worry about tomorrowI wish I could sleep tonight And in a peaceful dream Find the courage to wake upThis reality before me Frightens me like no other Where can I find refugeThe boat’s sailed again And I’m left on the shore Where can ...

I think I’m running out of wrong turns to take How much longer can I keep going in circles Every stop for gas is just another excuse Every mile I drive trough feels pointlessI drive past as fast as I can No need to stop along the way It would just slow me down No matter how long I keep going This trip will never endDoesn’t make much sense Always speeding towards the storms Just doesn’t feel quite right Having the sunlight hit my eyesI must be close to my reward Some sort of haven If I keep ignoring the stop signs What’s to stop me from crashingDon’t dare to take my foot off the gas pedal The brakes don’t probably work anymore If I didn’t l...

I feel uneasy about this precarious arrangement of ours I can’t come to terms with the way it all fell apart No amount of letters or presents can make up For leaving againIt’s silly to still imagine we would ever work I’m always so lonely and afraid to say so Nobody can choose anything anymore Seems a good enough excuseThe sad truth is I am just like you In every awkward, clumsy wayThis is not me, looking back Trying to keep a straight face This is not me, holding on To the things I left behindThis is not me, pretending again Another impossible fantasy This is me or maybe it’s not I don’t know anymore