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Lost Once Again by AFY by lockedinside, literature

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Lost Once Again by AFY

I stand before you Head lowered And eyes all cried out Holding pieces of my torn Shattered And bruised heart Asking you for another chance All I need is the truth You've kept me in your world for so long I dont know what is real anymore I'm lost tired scared And crying I need you more than anything Will you be there for me Or will you let me fall Will you keep me locked in this darkness Will you give me some hope Some shred of anything that means you still love me Or have you come to the conclusion That I'm not good enough for your love Will you push me out of your way as you move on Selfishly Eager to be rid of my depressed love Please Te...

Again by lockedinside, literature

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Again

You broke my heart again You made me sick again You made me feel alone again All because you canI hate you again I miss you again I want to cry again All because I loved youI'm wondering why again I'm hating myself again I'm hurting myself again All because you made meI'm sitting here screaming inside Wondering what the fuck Back and forth back and forth Pick a damn directionBreak my heart again Leave again Come back again Love me againI hate you for making me feel this way I don't want to love you anymore I want you out of my life But i love you and i don't want to let go

Sad Memory by lockedinside, literature

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Sad Memory

When we first started out It was unbelievable I was truly in love with you But as the years passed It all changed Your sweetness disappeared I began to wonder if my love was still there We've been through so many things My heart kept breaking Tears kept falling But I loved you Through it all I still do After all you've done and said My love should be gone But still it remains But its time I move on You were never right for me And I learned that the hard way It's hard to breath Hard to get up each day Hard to keep living But "What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger" And I believe that I am stronger I will always love you regardless of a...

What Happened To Us by lockedinside, literature

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What Happened To Us

There isn’t enough room for the both of us here I’m in the bedroom and you’re in the living room Yet the tension is thick You can’t breath without feeling strangled We stare at each other with empty eyes Share broken dreams And tell pretty lies I stare at the ceiling and wonder where I am What happened to us? I couldn’t see my life without you Now all I want is a life minus you We stay in separate rooms just to avoid a fight I find my self screaming, “I hate you” more and more I catch you not wearing your ring a lot more Thing is I don’t even care at all anymore I catch myself daydreaming about what if… What happened to us? Where did we go...

For You by afy by lockedinside, literature

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For You by afy

I can still see your eyes Hear your terrified voice Feel your shaking hands But you said as long as it would keep me safe My heart is breaking But I’m proud of you I’m honored to have a person like you in my life My tears will fall till the day I see you home safe My prayers won’t stop Till I see you again My chest feels empty My head is screaming My spirit is saddened I want so badly to see you again Just to let you know how much you mean to me To let you know how much I think about you You are the first and last thing I think about before bed And the first and only thing the next day I am so afraid to lose you Your voice keeps playing in...

Where You Are by lockedinside, literature

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Where You Are

You are so far Yet you are so close in spirit My heart aches for you Do you hear it? I want to be where you are Despretely to let you know how I feel I'm going crazy knowing where you are The danger of it all The feeling of emptiness creeps into my chest My body aches My heart is crying But I know deep down inside That you will come home safe As it gets harder and harder to breath I try not to think about it all too much I just wanted you to know that I think about you too That you are in my heart and soul Be safe my hero Come home to me

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Holding onto You by lockedinside, literature

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Holding onto You

Holding OnI\'m chasing after the truth Running fast, walking slow Sometimes stopping completely Just to look aroundWill I ever get there? How much more longer? Sounding so much like an eager child Wanting so much at one timeFull of questions, hopes, fears How can anyone want so much from one person? When will it be safe to believe? When will it be safe to love?Desperate for truth I\'m starving for you I\'m holding onto the one thing i know I\'m holding onto you.

Skin Deep by lockedinside, literature

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Skin Deep

look beyond the skin deep into the eyes see whats there all that pain all that confusion comfort thatlook past all the pain find that little girl the little girl so lost lost in her world of tears and lost soulshelp her to realize that she is not alone help her out of her fears help her to trust again tell her she will never be hurtteach her the meaning of love tell her that she is your world teach her to know herself find that little girl give her your alllittle girl lost in her world of tears and lost souls

All alone locked inside by lockedinside, literature

My BestFriend by lockedinside, literature

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My BestFriend

Sitting here stairing at the person i used to know so well At least I thought I did We were like sisters But i guess time does change everything I\'m sitting here Were did we go wrong What? I went left and you went right There is now a glass wall between us I can see you but We will never again Feel the sister-like bond There is a void there, Some gap that cant be fixed But we have our memories of what our Friendship was about Yeah sure i miss you Sometimes i feel it was for the best We are still friends just not the best of

Meaningless by lockedinside, literature

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Meaningless

i remember that dreadful day you tore my soul into pieces whatever was left of my pride you threw away you left me there alone in the darkness no remorse no sorrow you told me that your heart wasnt here anymore you told me it was better this way how is it better i loved you with all that i had you were my world you were my light through the darkness how can you leave me how can you just reject all my love how was this love meaningless you told me that you loved me you told me forever what now huh? what now! you told me to give up everything for you so i did now you left me with nothing what now! i trusted you i loved you i put my heart out...

what would u do-- by lockedinside, literature

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what would u do--

what would you do if i said *goodbye* what would you do if i told you that i didnt love you? that you were just something that was there for the time being what would you do if i told you that you were nothing to me that you were just a joke a cruel cruel joke! that those kisses didnt mean anything that my love would never be real that i wished you were someone else someone better! what would you do? because you did it to me! you told me that you didnt love me! and i cried i tried to let you go but i couldnt you told me that you wished i were her but i\'m not! i\'m not that beautiful! i\'m nothing like her! i never will be!! you took my he...

Tell Me 3-15-03 by lockedinside, literature

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Tell Me 3-15-03

I look into your eyes and wonder, What do I have to do To get you to love me? The real me. Not some old memory. I want this love to be new and real, Not something that is old and taintedI mean its great that you\'ve Found love before, But she\'s gone! She can\'t come back! Move on!You tell me that you love me, So mean it! Don\'t just say it Because it makes me happy. If you don\'t love me, tell meNo matter how much I hurt, Leave Don\'t just stay for me, Go be happy! I love you enough to let you go. I love you enough to let you be happy. I want you to be happy!So If you aren\'t finding happiness from my love, Then leave! Don\'t mess with my...

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Letters by alannalivandra, literature

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Letters

Turned to talk to you today But no one was there I'd forgotten againWent to your funeral today They had your favorite flowers It was prettyYour mom came over for dinner today She left before dessert I think she criedFound the sweater I had borrowed today Did you know how much you'd hurt us? I know you didYour boyfriend talked to me today He said he understood how I felt I just walked awayWent to your house, found my pills today Did I tell you your parents are moving? They can't take the memories anymoreWanted to hurt someone today Make someone share my pain But I couldn'tStarted killing my pain today Maybe if I can punish myself God will f...

Fields of Hope by Silver-Rage, literature

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Fields of Hope

In my dreams I never thought to meet someone like you In a field of hope I walked with you by my side as an equal You are the one whose soul understands mine The deepest part of my soul which no one else sees With you I can be myself I can be all I want to be Holding nothing back I am whole againMy friend you are my dreams and hopes The one I would die for Just lying in your arms Comforts me beyond all else I love you soul deep and with you I am free

Confessions of a Poet by bloodykisses05, literature

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Confessions of a Poet

Confessions of a Poet Poetry, pain, It's all the same. Both hurt, both drain, drive me crazy make me insane. I hurt myself for the pleasures of others. They read, I suffer. Pull me up, only to push me under. I hate myself!!! Read my stuff, You'll know. With this ink, my blood flows. Killing myself slowly, You watch by reading. I can't stop writing, or stop myself from bleeding.--hft2004

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Where Are My Wings by AFY by lockedinside, literature

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Where Are My Wings by AFY

Dare me to jump? Will you let me fall? Do you want to see me fly? I'll stand on this ledge facing you, Tears rolling down my face Tired Alone Afraid Forgotten I'll explain to you all my confusions I'll tell you I'm sorry I'll say good-bye All of this with my head bowed slightly Eyes cast toward the ground No trembling Just tears No hesitation Just relief I'll explain how this is better, Than slitting my wrists with a jagged knife Or taking a bunch of rainbow colored pills This way, I'll be flying I'll be an angel But where are my wings you ask? They are invisible They are made of my tears My pain, my scars, my memories They are made with m...

Where Are My Wings by AFY

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About lockedinside

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Deviant for 23 years
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Current Residence: Minot, ND
Operating System: my confused little mind
Shell of choice: my hermit shell
Wallpaper of choice: blendable
Skin of choice: invisible
Personal Quote: AJ--Sierra Renee--Kyle--Grandpa Bob--Baby Jake Preston R-I-P

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Three Days Grace-I Hate You

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the blaming game

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lockedinside

Apr 12, 2007

Its been a long time

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damn i haven't been on this in a long while...so i'm sorry ya'll, i'll try to post somethin in the near future...but yeah for now i need to get back in the swing of thangs...

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lockedinside

Sep 9, 2005

hmm...i miss him

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well last night i got an unexpected, sad yet happy phone call from timmy and he informed me that he is getting deployed to iraq and he's gonna be there for about a year to 18 months...thats the really sad part I couldn't help but cry i'm so scared...i can't lose him i just can't he's one of my best friends and he's friendship means so much to me and i miss him so much...but i was so happy to hear from him...i was hoping he was home for a visit but sadly not...i can't wait til he gets back...i miss him so much...i just miss hangin out with him and talkin with him...after the phone call i started to remember all of our conversations that we'...

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lockedinside

Jul 11, 2005

blah...blah

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Well not a whole lot is going on just waitin on my mom to move she's movin to Helena with my brothers and sisters and she gave me her house and i can't wait to fix the thing up...and i can't wait til school starts....starting to gravitate towards the psych program...lol

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Feb 23, 2010

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Feb 23, 2010

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