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three point five years ago my marriage fell apart and i met you.three point five years ago you made me a crossword puzzle themed on our then short-lived time togetherwe locked eyes and i could not-- no matter how i tried ex-husband-to-be at my side-- look away.as surely and meticulously as you drew the squares of the crossword you drew me in. as calculated as the clues, some tricky, some fun, some senseless, some beautiful- you became all these things to me.we were one of those equations (the ones you love so much) that could never make sense to me no matter how long i stared at it, trying to figure it out.But like the numbers and the x's ...

I miss this place.

I woke today with a determination.  One I hadn't felt in some great time.  A determination to regain my creativity, my inspiration and motivation.  To regain my life, thus leading to (hopefully) a happier future.  I won't go into details, but it's been a difficult 6 months for me, and an uncertain several years.  I don't know what lead me to wake with this energy today.  But I did.  And throughout the day I've thought about how to obtain what I want, what I need to make these changes.  I've reminisced about my past, wrong and right choices, as well as the involuntary circumstances that lead me here.  I played around online, searching for a...