heii :3 i claim to be vita or something idk mrow
i like the digital hardcore band machine girl and thats my whole personality oh and old minecraft versions too i guess i used to be the world's silliest little creature but now i have scars on my arm and people in my head. i also make very loud, kinda shitty ambient noise music under the name BULLETSHELL. u can find my bandcamp here
it takes alot of effort to heal, but i know what i must do for things to become good again. or atleast, for things to pretend to be good again. i dont think things will ever be fixed, i dont think i will ever truely heal. but if i give it enough time, if i give myself enough space and if i learn to end the self destructive habits that keep me stuck in the state im in, then maybe i will atleast be mostly stable throughout my day to day life again. maybe. im trying my best, probably failing horribly but i hope things work out fine one day.
its me, woah
misery is truely a comforting goddess to worship. her opression is warm. the walls of ur cell are wearing faces. are they looking back? they say they'd let u out if u let them through. starving. screaming. playing hide and seek. there shall be no freedom of this torture, for even if u leave the room, she will always be with u. she will follow; she will never abandon u like all the other ones did. let her be ur friend, let the blankets drown u deep. u cant hurt anymore if all u know is suffering.
the sourcecode for this website can be found here, if anyone is interested. it is basically just pure html and css, with abit of php to just implement the theme switching and the currently listening thingy. trynna keep it as simple as possible whenever i add sections for a blog and for my arts/poetry, this will prolly become alot more interesting. best video on yt btw
