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I continue to do well in most things despite the ongoing job hunt and am keeping good spirits about everything in my life.

The main news though is that my thyroid has been having issues again over the past 2 weeks, so I've been needing a lot more sleep and thus not around as much anywhere I want to be. Also, thyroid pain again, worse than it's been in some time, which is not fun. I get test results back Wednesday and hopefully will have some idea where to go from here on the pain and what it may mean (the fatigue should be easy to treat just by upping my synthroid dose). I'm pushing for an ultrasound. I'm kind of at the point where if my meds aren't always going to suppress the thyroid enough to keep it dormant and not hurting, I almost just want to have it removed and be done with it. My biggest concern about that idea is that there's some minor risk to the vocal chords, and I care about preserving my singing voice, but it wouldn't stop me from surgery if it's the best option.

I just want this whole chronic illness phase of my life to be over, and I had thought it was, so to have a resurgence is aggravating. It's also made me uncertain about being aggressive in my job hunt when I may need to go in for who knows what in the very near future. I mean, last night I *dreamed* about being tired. And today I had an evening meeting literally across the street from my house but for a while there I wasn't sure I'd end up going, since apparently the paltry errand running I did yesterday had me wiped out. That's just not on. My endocrine system FTL.

Anyway, I'm still emotionally good, enjoying my free time and my apartment and my cat and my friends, and I'm not even actually nervous about whatever I may learn healthwise. I just want to move forward and get on to new things. Hopefully, that will be very very soon.