I ran away.

I took the car, I stopped for a soda and some chocolate, and I drove to no where in particular.

It felt so go to drive
my car, roll the windows, turn up the radio and just go.
This is something that goes back to the summer before my sophomore year in college. I finally had got my promised car from my aunt. It was a manual so I had to practice driving it (at least that was my excuse). I was a counselor for BCUB at Barton County Community College. The weekends were the only time I had off. I spent many Friday nights getting lost in the country side. I would worship and talk to God. It was wonderful.
Sunday I was having a "bla" day Adam gave me the keys and said go take your car and drive. I am amazed at how well he knows me.

So I drove. While I was driving This
song came on:
Crazy Beautiful by Chasen
Everybody's been there
everyone's the same
but mostly we don't care
isn't that a shame
We bring us down
face after face
the inside is beautiful but the outside we want to change.
We want to change.
Chorus
Whoa you're oh so beautiful,
you don't need anyone's approval
You've got to believe in your self you know you are
You're crazy beautiful
There's no need to change
We're different but the same
In the eyes of the King
We're beautifully made
In his image we're made
Take a look it's all around you
See the world from different views
The way you shine from the inside
I know with out a doubt
It's more than what you'll be
In the world's eyes.
Whoa you're oh so beautiful,
You don't need anyone's a approval
You've got to believe in your self you know you are
You're crazy beautifulI have heard this song numerous times on
Air1. But that night I felt God telling me how beautiful I am to Him. I am His masterpiece. He delights in me. He was calling me back in to his arms.
I have been struggling a lot lately with my relationship with God. I know it is all me. He is right here with me! I just need to turn back to him. I have just felt quite distant from Him. But now is a great time to strengthen my walk with Him. The sermon on Sunday was about "life in the gaps." While the sermon was not very good, I took time while driving to reflect on my own gap. Looking at Psalm 119 I found several verses to focus on:
Direct my steps by Your word,
And let no iniquity have dominion over me
v.133
Make Your face shine upon Your servant,
And teach me Your statutes.
v.135
I rejoice at Your word
As one who finds great treasure.
v.162
Let my cry come before You, O LORD;
Give me understanding according to Your word.
v.169
PS I ended up at the county lake (in case you could not tell by the pictures).
I also found a
house I want! But is a bit out of our price range.