Have been busy. Will visit your blogs soon. Here are some random pictures taken in New York depicting the state of COMMON man strangled by recession. Also have updated the Short Story blog with Strangers (the link is on the right bar)
Been there Done that!
The Hope fool !
Free Wedding Invitations Open to All (guess people dont want to attend as they have to give a gift!)
Even A Virgin have Lost her Charm - No suitors. People Flock to the Almighty for Answers St. Patricks Cathedral, NYC
The last post that I tackled - as pointed out by almost everyone was very "diplomatic". I am not trying to justify anything here - the way I tackled it was:
- For what I like about women - Tried to see positive in all the things that a woman does naturally - something most guys complain about
- What changes guys should make in their lives - Here again portrayed many instances from observing many friends and couples what guys keep doing that make the woman angry......
So just pondering - if possible do answer these :
Is it wrong to keep quiet? Accept the other person as they are - or is it better to keep nagging and confront them.
Does keeping quiet all the time means that he/she could be taken for granted - and say once this he/she does loose their cool - they become the meanest people around.
Are we all tuned in to accept negative reactions towards us - so much so that when one is trying to be nice we feel that he/she has some ulterior motive.
If say you do commit some grave errors and confess or accept them - even then you are constantly ridiculed - will you keep quiet, fight it out or simply walk away from the situation.
Thus like my friend Calvin - my brain is trying to kill me too
I have had two earlier conversations with GOD'S INC. Transcripts of which can be found here. (they are a bit long but precursor to this talk - these were written when I did not have a reader base - if possible read them) God's Inc - 1 (September 2007) God's Inc -2 (November 2007)
It is almost 3 months - finally I was able to pay off all my holiday bills - so decided to call God's Inc again. (they dont have a toll free 800 number!!) Also due to the Christmas Holidays, God's Inc had doubled the price on the call for December to reduce the frivolous calls for stupid gadjets people wanted. They had to take this drastic step as HIS model Santa -11, serving this part of the world during Christmas, had contacted arthritis. (Dialed the number. After the customary chosing 1 then 3 then finally four....the customer service rep picked up the phone) Me: Hello
GI Rep: Hello, ME-74, this is Manish. How may I help you today?
Me: (Surprised) How do you know its me and isnt that an Indian Name?
GI Rep: Sir, we have your phone number on the record and God's Inc have hired Bee Pro to outsource and answer their calls.
Me: (WTF - even God Outsources) Oh Ok.
GI Rep: I see you have interacted twice before. Also from the last transcript I see that you alongwith 11 other ME-74 were upgraded for the Green Design. How do you find the changes. Me: Well (thinking - I know he is testing me - I transmit the data and he already knows it - again looking for that elusive antenna for the umpteenth time - so I play along) for starters I feel pure and energetic, have had good food supplements and am trying to use energy efficient design modules. (A loud siren in the background and hush hush noise)
GI Rep: Well, sorry to interupt but, can I put you on a hold.
Me: (as if I had a choice - and I was witnessing chaos as GOD's Inc) Sure.....(I waited for almost almost 10 mins -this is going to be an expensve call)
GI Rep: Sorry we had an emergency, there was a bunch of people who were decommisioned in Iraq. We has to take care of their soul inputs back into our system and so the siren.
Me: What do you mean - people killed by another suicide bomber. (I was a little sad)
GI Rep: Sir, since you are a model that can only transmit data and not act on your own congnizance - let me share some fascinating information today.
Me: Wow, I was feeling privileged.
GI Rep: You know that there are constant calamities happening on earth in the past few years. There was a WTC Tragedy, Tsunami, Bomb Blasts all over the world, Earthquakes...
Me: Yeah, terrible and so many people died - I hope no one of my 24 ME-74's were killed
GI Rep: Well no, all the ME-74 were positioned appropriately to avert any such incidences. But the thing is what you think as a tragedy is basically HIS way of decommisioning old, derilict, useless or faulty models. Sometimes due to lack of time some good models are also decommisioned.
Me: Means ( I was getting confused at this point )
GI Rep: See, to make your life easy, GOD borrowed the technology from Galaxy Automubuloma. They sent their best technicians who work in big coglomerates manufacturing cars, disguised as earthlings. So if there is some problem in the car, then the manufacturers recall that part and replace it or sometimes decommision it. Similarly HE has to do this from time to time. What he does is get the programmers to make these "extra" earthlings to gather at a place and decommisions them at a time by infusing some natural or man made event.
Me: But why in such a tragic manner?
GI Rep: See when GOD leased this planet Earth from Galaxy Inc - the lease says that no more than 7 billion models can inhabit it at a given time. So HE has to take these drastic measures. Me: So, you are telling me, that these tragedies are planned. (damn). But then why did HE infuse this emotional gadjet in us. Why do we feel sad?
GI Rep: Well that is where the problem is. When earthlings were being designed - there was a brilliant engineer Emostein - who designed these two gadjets. One for the male earthlings and one for the female. Both have subtle differences.
Me: So then why cant he reprogram and RECALL the gadjet - so that atleast we dont feel this pain
GI Rep: Well its all corporate politics. Due to certain early faulty designs like the Mussolini-1, Hitler-1 and Stalin-Jr, stock of God's Inc dropped. Seeing its great potential, Saturn Corp wanted to buy the earth. In an effort to avert control of HIS company, HE traded Emostein to Saturn Corp.
Me: So are you telling me there are more ME's like me on Saturn.
GI Rep: That is exclusive information, I cant divulge. Well so in short Emostein took his programs with him and GOD was stuck with these dual emotional gadjets that he cant recall.
Me: Well, ok....(did not know what to say here). My credit is almost getting over. Just one more question.
GI Rep: Go on...
Me: As discussed last time, Bush-2 will be decommisioned, but why this neck to neck battle of Clinton-2 and Obama-1.
GI Rep: Well that again ME-74 is classified information. In time to come you will see his MasterPlan.
Me: Ok...then, Manish, hope all is well in India.
GI Rep: Yes it is. As usual do not divulge this information to anyone. Thank you for calling God's Inc. (click!!!)
Was on a short break - have posted a long comment on the last post for everyone - there were interesting inputs and queries from some readers that I have addressed - do read it.
Another one of Calvin's little antics. Makes me think and wonder - as an exercise - think if you can write an autobiography of yourself in a page or two. It is a difficult task - writing about ones life - I cant seem to fit my resume on a page anymore - let alone about life. Which leads to another question - what is it that we have done that is significant enough to be included in a biography for someone to read it. Or does everyone have to do something really significant to tell their story. Does elaborate words and prose indicate a persons acheivement and greatness or a simple quiet demeanour - "I am happy with the flow of life" - an indication of a persons strength. Just like it is important to make the right choices in ones life - it is important to have certain role models or mentors - to get the best out of you. Just like Eklavya had Drona.
Remember this scene from the epic Sholay. This is a scene where Jay (Amitabh) approaches Mausi to talk about possible marriage of Veeru's (Dharmendra's) and Basanthi (Hema Malini)
Just my take on it - What if it took place in the current internet era. The basic assumption is that Veeru, Jay, Basanthi and Mausi!!! yes fan wielding Old Mausi are all internet savvy and Ramgarh is technologically connected to the world. Mausi : Son, I have this huge pressure on my mind, I wish I can get Basanthi married. Then I will be at peace with myself and dont have to put her profile on Shaddi.com Jay : Yes, you are absolutly right, you do have a lot of pressure on your shoulders. Mausi : But, I cant simply get her married to any stranger, can I ? It is very important to know which Tech Company he works for, his internet browsing hours and habits and his per hour billing rate. Jay: Per hour rate, well once he is off the bench he will start to make some money and then once he has to take care of wife and the kids he will actually go out and seek a job. Mausi : So, it means he is does not have a job and is not looking for one!!!!!!! Jay : No, no, where did I say that, he sits in the internet cafe all day and keeps posting his resume. Mausi : What, all he does is post resumes!!! What about going to these new offices that have spurted on the outskirts of Ramgarh. Jay : Yes, Mausi, he will also do that, once he gets time in between blogging and commenting, his long chat sessions and scrapping to girls on Orkut, Facebook and MySpace. Mausi : Scrapping girls!!!!! Jay : Yes, Mausi, you know how these internet meeting places are. Allows for ample free speech and e flirting. Mausi : So he is flirt!!!! Jay : He and flirt, no, no, he simply wants to make some good friends there. But once he sees a cute profile and some nice posted pictures, what is he supposed to do? Its not Veerus fault is it? Mausi : You are right son, he scraps women, flirts with them online, but it is not his fault. Jay : Oh you are getting a wrong impression,.......he is very naive and straightforward.....get him married to Basanthi once and he will simply cancel all his online profiles. Mausi : Oh!!!!! You are trying to explain this to an Old lady. Has anyone ever been able to give up his online addictions. Jay : Mausi, you dont know him well, he is not that kinda person, once he gets married he will stop seeing porn and have live sex chats. Mausi : Oh!!!oh!!!!.....now this was the only thing left. So he also frequents these kind of websites. Jay :Yeah, whats wrong in that? So many people frequent these websites to increase their libido and add spice to their personal lives. Mausi : Ok, so atleast tell me how does he manage to pay for all this when he does not even have a job. Jay: Oh, he is smart, he has it all figured out, he is part of a group "internet fraudsters", he uses other peoples credit cards and information. Mausi : Oh well, one thing I noticed, your friend does all the crazy things online but you still are all praises for him...... Jay: Now, now, what can I say Mausi, I always try to portray my online avatar - BigHeart. So should I consider this marriage fixed. Mausi : FIXED !!!!! Are you crazy, I cannot marry Basanthi, to such an online deliquent. I am a real aunt not her step mother. Jay: Sigh!!!! it is so sad, even though i tried to explain to you everything in detail....you still refused.
(this is my own repeat post - from when I only had few readers - but want to share with more people and get more inputs)
The views put forth may not go very well with many readers - but this is something I do beleive and want to share it. I am not immune to emotions but I think I have the strength to overcome it. All our lives we are somehow morose or sad and are always finding a reason Why somethings did not go the way we wanted it to or assumed it to be. Why do WE have to face these sudden changes. What have I done to get this and so on and so forth. Happiness goes in a blink but sadness stares at us forever.We trap ourselves into a cycle of self "mental molestation". What happens is that we tend to forget the great moments of our life, or just remember them as a sad memory, and also at the same time loose all this current precious time in our lives. Everyone faces this quandary in all walks of life - career, family, relationships, friends........Sometime ago I read this little quote "I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become." and in my solitude I mulled over it and it got me thinking (something that I do naturally every moment of life). Arent we all slaves of our own doing. We want freedon from every aspect our our lives but dont have the strength to gain freedom from our very sad self. Freeing yourself from sadness to live those little moments of happiness that you experienced is what I think makes you fortunate in the most unfortunate circumstances. I think one should feel fortunate that we have LIFE and try hard not to waste its nuances by going on celebrating sadness. Instead celebrate those moments that were really exhilerating in , relationship, career, family, friends - that you currently miss - feeling lucky that you had a chance to experience those great unforgetable moments. (many people dont ever get a chance to experience it) Try hard to take that as a positive experience - Enrich the SELF, strengten your SOUL. A person who you are not aware of exists within you.... It is easier said then done and many people think that this is a selfish unemotional approach - I agree but I am trying hard to be responsible for what I become henceforth and not blame the circumstances and the world for where I am currently -
"Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift, that's why it is called the present." -- Elenor Roosevelt
Yesterday following up on that call - I got a call back from GI Rep. Last time I was speaking to Travis - a rather stern character. Today my luck I was talking to a chirpy Stacy - something was not feeling right (a hunch)
GI Rep (Stacy) : ME-74 this is Stacy, calling on behalf of God's Inc. How are you doing today, hope you are having a wonderful Thanksgiving!!!
Me: Yes, thank you (in my mind cut the chase tell me the reason for you call fast.....)
GI Rep: I see that you had called a few weeks back and had asked to see if any peripherals were available to upgrade your model ME-74. At that time when you called we were having a secret research going on and did not want to leak out the news. So GOD told you that there is no upgrade availaible.
Me: OK..... (So even GOD lies. Hmmmmm)
GI Rep: As you are aware that we have been constantly monitoring data coming from you and are happy that you have been selected alongwith 11 others out of the total 24 in your design group. (started again poking my ears, checked my eyes and entire body...to see if there are any probes that are transmitting the signal...) This upgrade is to make you fellow ME -74's compliant with the future research that we are going to conduct here.
Me: Why are you asking for my consent this time - why like last time am I not told that I am simply designed to transmit data.
GI Rep: This again is confidential data that we cannot divulge. Let me go through the process and you will understand. Tonight post Thanksgiving dinner at 9.30 please go to the balcony and face East. Close your eyes and tap your head three times. We will then start the process of upgrading your database.
Me: Ok....as if I had a choice. (just to be smart) Stacy, thats your name right?
GI Rep: Yes
Me: What if I dont go to the balcony? What then.
GI rep: Sir you are aware that these design desicions are not in your hand. We implement the entire program. Here is what can happen if you dont comply. Thanksgiving dinner is as you know heavy and you will have had wine. You will start to feel nauseous and caustrophobic whereby the only option for you is to be on the balcony outside. Also we will activate the code for severe headache whereby you will have no option but to tap your head. So in short simply just comply.
Me: Ok (damn - why did I open my mouth. Now I understand why this polite girl is talking to me today - Marketing man, marketing - hope she is as hot as she sounds :))
GI Rep: So the update is based on the current technological advances implemented by an Intelligent Design Model Gore-1. We are trying to make Me-74's green and energy efficient. This way the data collected from you will help us design a better versions of Green Models and updates for the ME85-95 derived from you.
Me: Ok. Is there anything special that I will have to do.
GI Rep: No dont worry. Everything has been taken care off. You will do exactly as planned.
Me: Hmpfffff. Ok. Hope it is an useful update. ( I have limited control as I was made to understand before)
GI Rep: Tommorow then we will forward you the relevant documents that you can email back to us - have to make sure that there are no bugs and the upgrade was sucessful.
Me: Ok, thank you, will do as PROGRAMMED. (again I felt all quesy and started to look for that stupid antenna)
GI Rep: And by the way you are not supposed to divulge any information that you email back to us to fellow ME. We understand that you have started a BLOG.
Me: Yeah I kinda know, secret right and if I dont comply I will get a flash and will loose part of my current memory and........Oh!!! One more question, last time you mentioned that you guys were figuring out what went wrong with Bush-2, can I know if there was any progress.
GI Rep: Sorry again confidential, but be assured that we are upgrading and constantly reprogramming Clinton-2 and Obama-1 so that everything comes back to normal. Also we are looking into the possible recommisioning of GORE-1 to head the state as his work to implement Green Design is almost over.
Me: Ok, Thank you. I feel good as there is hope and maybe then my being reprogramed will make sense.
GI Rep: Have a nice day. (Click)
(just sitting here wondering - there are some obvious signs on me after this upgrade, but I cant divulge - GOD's INC gives us all the necessary programs and operating systems but it is left upon us to make them useful and if you stray you stand a chance of being decommisioned)
I was flippin thru the few days ago and landed on a channel of a motivational - Joel Osteen. I want sure at first about this thin frail looking guy - being an inspiration - but his spirit and the way he adressed caught my attention. He spoke about some interesting ideas about how people and events are juxtaposed and how it is all a masterplan.
I gave it a serious thought and wanted to share them. When we are sad, dejected and basically down- we do not want to seek out to others - do not feel like interacting - blame everyone including GOD for our miseries and the state of affairs - we FORCE ourselves into oblivion, self disdain and reproach. It affects every part of our existence - mind, body and soul. Sometimes we have no CHOICE - either we force someone into a sad situation or someone forces us into one. In the first instance if one is sensitive we keep feeling guilty and in the other the guilt is forced upon - thinking constantly what the heck did I do to get this. But we all have within us that little power to break that choice. Move on with vigour and face life. Can you imagine how have you survived physically so long without any effort ( sometimes you do need elixers). It is a process of survival that is ingrained in us. Can we use it to survive emotional upheavals. I dont know the answer (but its worth exploring) Coming back to his speech where he said this interesting thing - when we are lost - there is always a new door that is waiting to be opened or opening. In circumstances we meet certain people who pull us out of this - this is what he called the master plan. You have to meet somebody or get something - it does not pop out overnight - they were put into action way before - going through their own growth and understanding - and when the right moment comes you meet them. So dont despair as there will be something or someone already planned for you and you will surely meet them - FORCE yourself to look at the options - make that a positive CHOICE and it may eventually turn out that all that you are going thru is a BLESSING.
I wont reiterate my love for Calvin and Hobbes. I have mentioned about them in August (here is the link to the previous post). This is one simple cartoon but as always I like to analyse the smallest of things. For me this has lots of life lessons embedded within. Firstly the childhood innocence - you do what you feel like, when you feel like and where you feel like. Nothing, absolutly nothing besides having fun and getting tired and delerious matters. In this case Calvin is enjoying the task of simply nailing the coffee table. Secondly the apathy when you grow up - you start possessing things - that are valuable in kind but these actually bound your spirits and self as you are always worried about them. Here the apathy on the moms face is evident as her possesion - the table - maybe prized - is being damaged. Lastly the question "Is this a trick Question" - the ultimate quiz - that we all have in life. In all our daily grind, emotional shrouds, and physical labor to make a living - we do not see what is apparent - we forget how to live - we keep trying to coax, cajole and try to find answers where sometimes none exist. Some people might see this as a losers attitude - but I differ, I see it as self pride - you can only do so much - beyond it just let it all go - it will come back if it is meant to be - if not like the old sufi song "सितारों से आगे जहाँ और भी हैं " (there is a world beyond the stars) " - there will be another door open. One should always ask that kid within you - the simple questions -it does not mean that we have to behave like one just keep that spirit alive - I experienced it first hand recently what it feels like to be a child again. Let me know your input while I play with my dear friend Calvin
Am back from my E-sanyas (retirement/sabbatical). Took the reins of my life to reinvigorate after some very personal setbacks in the last one year.
I had a friend visiting me and so I decided to travel - something I love.
First stop was walking all over New York city (umpteenth time). Have done it rigourously for the past few years. I love the spirit of New as it reflects my urban true self - life coming from Bombay (Mumbai). Many say its a concrete jungle - but I like it anyways as it is full of vibrant people and buildings and things to do.
Then I went to Las Vegas - another man made marvel in the middle of nowhere - there is a lot to do there besides gambling. One can experience New York, Paris, Venice, Rome, Egypt and many other places as casinos are designed to replicate these major cities. It is an epitome of kitsch. One can experience the American way of life first hand-loud, excessive and debauchary. But even then it is a great place to visit.
Next stop was Hoover Dam - yes a real engineering marvel. Then a natural wonder Grand Canyon - it is a captivating space - one feels so small in front of the massive chasm. I walked to the edge of the cliffs and felt the cool air raising me. Wanted to jump off and soar like a bird and assimilate this wonder.
Next stop was back to Joisey and then upto Boston - another city I love - met a good friend Jaggu - a FOB (fresh of the boat) - but a very good host - and roamed the downtown - Quincy Market. My friend wanted to see the Boston Tea Party - but it was undergoing renovation and repairs. Also visited the campuses of MIT and Harvard - what a treat - saw and experienced some great modern buildings - Stata Center by Frank Gehry, Simmons Hall by Steven Holl and Brain and Cognitive Science Center by Charles Correa
Took a drive through Exeter - stopped at Exeter library designed by a famous American architect Louis Kahn. Drove upto a historic town Portsmouth, from there took a scenic drive along the Atlantic Ocean on route 1A. It was a very beautiful drive along the sea on our way back to Boston.
Finally the travel bug ended and back to blogging and "real" life after a short but necessary E-sanyas.
Being an Architect - I simply love to see places - all kinds of places. There is no intention to reach somewhere or do something - the intention is to glide and let the roads guide you.
I love to explore any place I go, driving around almost the entire day tirelessly.....just love to view the world from the front, frame by frame as it exposes itself - manmade structures or natural surroundings. The enigma that is this earth has so many flavors, colors, sizes and shapes......
I shared these journeys with a special person......but now she is around no more...
Now its me and my car. We have a special relation that a man and machine can have. It understands my moods, my ecstacies, my deliberations and drives accordingly. It is a zen like experience exploring the world sitting inside as it tirelessly rotates, takes the brunt of all kinds of weather, surfaces and other fellow cars.
I will end this with a song that I remember by Tom Cochran "Life is a Highway" (You Tube Link)
(Ringing, Ringing.....Choices, pressed 1 then 3 then 4 finally....my turn to talk to customer service representative from God's Inc.....Am on hold......(this message will be recorded for new born integration purposes).....waiting...click)
Me: Hello
GI Rep: Hello, this is Travis from God's Inc. How may I help you today....
Me: Hi, I have a question regarding ME, have some operating problems.
GI Rep: Sir, before we proceed I would like you to confirm certain things....
(He goes on to confirm my dad's, mom's name and place of birth - he gets my record in their database @ God's Inc.)
GI Rep: Ok sir, now what seems to be the problem
Me: I need to upgrade my operating system and memory to relate to other people.
GI Rep: Let me check your record sir....will be with you in a minute (puts me on a hold)
GI Rep: Sir, the model that ME-74 is built of is an experimental model. There are only 25 such models that were designed by Mr. God. Right now all those models are functional and active in different servers of the world. ME-74 are not allowed to upgrade or have any changes.
Me: Hold on, so you are telling me I am a Guinea Pig. A mouse !!!!!!!!
GI Rep: I cant say that sir, after we all are still HIS creation, but I do beleive that in your case it is somewhat like that.
Me: Damn, no wonder then I cannot proceed with simple daily functions as I am still primitive in my actions while all other BIOSes have been upgraded. Is there anyway I can attach a peripheral device to enhance what I have atleast instead of replacing it.
GI Rep: Sir, I am sorry that cannot help you. You are put there to undergo certain life events that we are monitoring constantly. The data received from you and 24 others put in different servers helps us design the future parts. ME 85-95 are ungraded versions of ME-74 and you mignt find them to be congrous to you but not similar.
Me: So without my consent I am helping others while I cant be helped. I have to undergo this trecherous journey without any respite from the INC.
GI Rep: Sir, I dont think you have a right to give a consent, you are programmed to transmit the data.
Me: (started poking my ears, checked my eyes and entire body...to see if there are any probes that are transmitting the signal...)
Me: So you are saying that virtually I have no warranty whatsoever on any of ME-74. It is a limited edition experimental model. So is there any possibility of ME-74 getting any help to make things a little easier.
GI Rep: Sorry sir, but you are an absolute. You were derived from experiments of ME58-68. And are an advanced version of those but a primitive version of the current. The only way you can get upgraded is that one of the other 24 ME is deactivated and their parts are reattached to you. But currently you are going through a phase where you might be shipped to a different server from the one where you were first transplanted and so are the others.
Me: Now I started to feel oblique. I am special but at the same time I am common. What luck!!!!!! So I will go, but is there any way I can leave a message for Mr. GOD.
GI rep: Sir you are lucky as he is in the office today, trying to figure out what went wrong with the model BUSH-2. He is in a meeting with the engineers to see how to decommision this model or atleast change its system. Hold on let me get him for you.
Me: Whoa.....I was going to talk with the master himself.....man I started sweating and became nervous. (after a long pause)
GOD: Hi, ME-74, this is the master speaking. You wanted to tell me something.
Me: In a fit of nervousness, yes Sir, I just wanted to thank you for this journey on earth but wanted to ask you why was I chosen for the experiment.
GOD: First of all, I appreciate you thanks. Dont despair though, atleast you have a journey that is exciting. There are many rejects in my office here. There is no special picking of you, it was random. So enjoy it while you can or else I will have to decommision you.
Me: No, its fine, now I know my place in this whole wide big world. I will carry on this exciting journey and keep transmitting you data to design a better ME in the future. (again I fidgited with myself to see if there is any probe on ym body)
GOD: Great, have a wonderful life and please dont hesitate to call us if you have any doubts or questions. Click.......
(If you like this fictional writing you will surely enjoy the movie The Truman Show)
The views put forth may not go very well with many readers - but this is something I do beleive and want to share it. I am not immune to emotions but I think I have the strength to overcome it. All our lives we are somehow morose or sad and are always finding a reason why somethings did not go the way we wanted it to or assumed it to be. Why do WE have to face these sudden changes. What have I done to get this and so on and so forth. Happiness goes in a blink but sadness stares at us forever.
We trap ourselves into a cycle of self "mental molestation". What happens is that we tend to forget the great moments of our life, or just remember them as a sad memory, and also at the same time loose all this current precious time in our lives. Everyone faces this quandary in all walks of life - career, family, relationships, friends........ Sometime ago I read this little quote "I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become." and in my solitude I mulled over it and it got me thinking (something that I do naturally every moment of life).
Arent we all slaves of our own doing. We want freedon from every aspect our our lives but dont have the strength to gain freedom from our very sad self. Freeing yourself from sadness to live those little moments of happiness that you experienced is what I think makes you fortunate in the most unfortunate circumstances.
I think one should feel fortunate that we have LIFE and try hard not to waste its nuances by going on celebrating sadness. Instead celebrate those moments that were really exhilerating in , relationship, career, family, friends - that you currently miss - feeling lucky that you had a chance to experience those great unforgetable moments. (many people dont ever get a chance to experience it) Try hard to take that as a positive experience - Enrich the SELF, strengten your SOUL. A person who you did not know exists withing you.... It is easier said then done and many people think that this is a selfish unemotional approach - I agree but I am trying hard to be responsible for what I become henceforth and not blame the circumstances and the world.
Hope you have heard about Murphy's Law. As it states that "whatever hads to go wrong will go wrong" - but what if that wrong is your right your way of life.
What if you are put into situations and choices you get are "right" for the moment, feel the best thing to do - but actually are an apparition.
Amitabh had a friend "Tanhayee" in his famous song "mai aur meri tanhayee"....similarly I have a dear friend Murphy.
Every stage of life I am faced with choices that basically make me select them forcefully - as they are choices that are a result of another wrong choice I have made earlier - I know they are wrong but I am basically helpless. And so the cycle continues and the wrong has become right.
In life some people have to make adjustments - completely change themselves or simply fine tune their current position. But what do you do if someone related to you has to constantly make adjustments because Murphy has decided to be your best buddy.
Do you force them to make Murphy a part of their life..........
I saw a French Movie yesterday - "Romance". There was a very interesting scenario. The girl who is in love - says that she is miserable because she is either in love or hating her partner. The only way out of this misery is to be "indifferent" towards the other person.
It got me thinking of how true this is in all phases of life not just love. We are always questioning why a certain thing happened - good or bad - this shows our love or hatred for the situation. And all our future actions or worries or enjoyment are based on this one thing that is already history. Instead can we become indifferent - step back for once and see how things were before - not in the future - can we become that person - with whom this episode never occured - so that there is no love or hatred - just indifference. It is difficult to comprehend - even for myself what I am asking - but maybe the key to lot of world problems lies in this little aspect. Imagine countries went back in time and reinvigorated past friendships rather than solving current problems one after the other - as a retaliation to others actions. Or life before this advent of cars - it is not impossible to revert back to it. This way solving global warming will not be necessary. Well I may sound absurd and be dreaming of Utopia - but hey guess what like Einstein puts it
If at first, the idea is not absurd, then there is no hope for it. ~Albert Einstein
I am sometimes sad for my self and also sometimes amazed. I question a lot - and there are sometimes no answers as the questions asked are never thought about or are not allowed to be thought about. We lead our entire lives safely comforting everyone who is involved or connected with us - at all levels - family, profession, education. We want to prove our worth and also get appreciation for what its worth. We become comfortable with life and its daily routines so much so that we mechanize ourselves. Lead a robotic life who has brains - cognitive and intellectual powers but only to be used within this safety zone or net. For once in my life - I was aware of myself - I questioned - I fumbled. The foundation shattered. Now there is no one to prove to and no one to appreciate. One mistake is all it takes...........
The Hope fool !
Free Wedding Invitations Open to All
Even A Virgin have Lost her Charm - No suitors.
People Flock to the Almighty for Answers
But even He is Clueless!
So one lights A Candle 
