a girl and her pups and a possibility!

Last year at this time, I was filled with such hope. I just knew 2013 would make me a mom. Well that did not happen. As I sit quietly with three cuddly dogs, I reflect on the true pain this adoption has engrossed on me. These past two weeks in Buffalo have been filled with celebration. First and always foremost, the birth of our Savior. Christmas is a time to truly feel one with Jesus and I did thank him for sacrificing His life. I did get through Christmas with little tears shed. I am healthy and surrounded by loved ones and for that I am truly blessed.  My family tradition is the Polish Christmas Eve Wigilia. We go around with blessings of the new year, followed by the breaking of oplatek or Christmas wafer. Then on December 28th, my only sibling married the love of his life. What a celebration it was. The day could not have been any smoother. The temperature even rose to an unheard of 40 degrees in Buffalo!!  Congratulations Tim and Laura. It was not until the day after...

Last Wednesday Dec. 4th, at 6:30pm, several people gathering in my school gym for one cause..... To support a family. A couple of months ago, a coworker of mine offered to throw me a Zumbathon. She had recently gotten her Zumba license along with one of the parents of our school. At first, we had a very hard time selling tickets but then the flood gates opened. I ended up receiving a lot of donations. It was truly a night to remember. People of all ages and backgrounds, working out to help grow my family. Anyone that knows me, knows I am not athletic...AT ALL. That along with the recent diagnoses of planter  fasciitis, made me a little nervous. Let me just say, it was so much fun. We really rocked that gym. To everyone who come out and supported or gave a donation, many thanks. You are now part of the puzzle that will my my life story. It was an unforgettable night. It is no secret that I am struggling lately. I need a referral this year...2013. But with support like I have, ...

My mom and I have been contemplating a vacation for some time. Her job is very stressful and this adoption has taken its toll on me!  Imagine my surprise when out of the blue, my dad offered to take his girls to Walt Disney World. See I grew up Disney. My whole family loves it. We have not been as a family since I was 16. How could I say no? Of course with the upcoming wedding this month, my brother stayed behind. Ok, who am I kidding, my dad invited only the girls, sorry Tim! So when November 23rd came, I hopped on a plane for sunny Florida. Perhaps you remember my cruise last year and the unseasonably cold weather.  Well this trip was no different. Many nights were cut short due to the horrible wind and chill in the air. It didn't matter, this trip was nothing less than magical. One of my first stops was to see my beloved manatees.The parks were decked out for Christmas, we were staying at my favorite hotel, and I got to spend time with the best parents in the world. My mo...

Well my birthday came and went. No news. I guess there is nothing more to say.

As you may or not be aware, today is Orphan Sunday. This is a day to recognize the millions of orphans in the world. By the way, that is not a typo, there are hundreds of millions of orphans in this world. While I love that this day brings awareness to families about adoption, it is bittersweet to me. I have been waiting for over a year for an orphan to call my child. One orphan, that is all I pray for. There is no doubting this process is difficult, I have shared that many times over. Over this past year, I have seen everyone in my adoption world have some progress. Everyone but me, and my sweet friend Amanda. We are stuck before we are even given the chance for a referral. Today I want to humbly as all of you for prayers. Let's storm the gates of Heaven for God to make me a mother. I will be honest and share that I am very broken inside. Unlike the majority of the adoption world, I am single and have no children. I am not distracted by the day to day life of my family.  Today...

First off, my puppies are AMAZING. they will be six weeks on Friday. They have grown so big and are showing their personalities. Thankfully my breeder stepped in and took them this weekend. I live in a town home and Happy plus five babies, plus Scarlet, plus Finnigan is a lot of dogs!!  I was getting overwhelmed. The lack of sleep was really getting to me. I will admit, my house feels empty now. I hope they all find wonderful homes. Saturday night I went to Christain Music Day. I was able to listen to Building 429, Newsboys, and Chris Tomlin( my fav). What a night of rejoice it was!!  I sang loud and proud, sorry to anyone sitting near me. It was just the booth of faith I needed. Different backgrounds, different races, different lifestyles gathering together for one reason OUR GOD- how cool is that?  It was a night I will not forget. Nothing new on the adoption front. I will let you in on a little secret, I feel big things are coming my way. I have no idea why I feel ...

I am a thirty year old single gal. While most my age are out bar hopping, drinking every weekend, and searching for Mr. Right, i am busy preparing my life for my adoption. Every since I was a little girl, I have dreamt of my fairy tale wedding. And while I do hope to someday be married, ever since I was 27, my heart has belonged to an orphan. One who I STILL have yet to lay eyes on. Many single woman who chose to adopt are older than me.   Guess what, I don't care!  Yes, I know I'm young, I know I have time but my heart is in Ind*a and it will remain there until my child is home. Every week (well almost) I go to church. I sit by myself, with no one familiar. I have been a member of my church for quite some time. What I am about to tell you may shock you: my priest was not for my adopting. I had quite a time getting a letter of recommendation. The reason...... I am single and need grants, fundraisers, and assistance to make this adoption a reality. This is a long story, but t...

Anyone that knows me, knows my three dogs are my life. When Happy became pregnant in June, I could not believe that I would have little puppies come from one of my loves. Everyone warned me it would most likely not happen when I was around. Well I know my Happy Girl and she would never do that to her momma!  The problem was she could have gotten pregnant two different times, nine days apart.  I know, I know, what a Skanky pants!  On Thursday 8/22, Happy had a hard time going to sleep. I knew something was up. On Friday, I had to go to work because it was my last day setting up my classroom and I had last minute prep work to get done. I had a dentist appointment at 11:30 and knew I could get home by 1 or so if I needed. My lovely breeder went to check on her around 11. Her exact words were "she is fat and fine!"  Something told me to get home even though I was assured it could be a long wait. As soon as I put the whelping box down, Happy ran in and started nesting. Ar...