a girl and her pups and a possibility!

I was watching a show tonight and someone said " my greatest gift until the day I die, is being a mom." It truly breaks my heart to know that that gift for me may very well be far off. I know it is in God's timing but I was put on this earth to be a mom. I am ready, I have been ready for years. I trust in my God with my whole being, but I feel such a strong need to have an adopted child, it pains my core. You see, my mom is my best friend. When I told her I wanted to adopt at the ripe old age of 27, she thought I was crazy. It took her a few months but boy did she jump on board. Since I officially started the process, my mom has given up herself for my adoption. All Christmas and birthday gifts became donations for my adoption. I honor her, my daughter will forever hold her name. My mom is someone who would give me the shirt off her back, her last meal, he everything, and that is why she is my everything. Today, my mom had surgery.  Honestly, even though deep down I ...

This post has been on my mind for a few days but I just could not bring myself to put it down. On the 14th I got an email from my agency that stated my orphanage was not getting ANY domestic adoptions. They anticipated my referral in the time frame of 5-8 years. To say that I was crushed was an understatement. I felt such at peace with this orphanage and the fact that it was located EXACTLY where I wanted it to be was a blessing!  With the new rule of 2 foreigners to every 8 Indi*ns it looks like I will not be getting Annie Margaret from my assigned orphanage. Also, with the next rule that dossiers need to be with the orphanages for 6 months, means I have quite a wait a head of me. Now because my agency is amazing, they applied for a special waiver too get my dossier out now and assigned with another orphanage. Please pray with me that this is granted. I know God will place my papers in the right hands but it is hard.......very hard. I was already to paint the nursery next month,...

On Sunday 3/3 I went to go see the documentary STUCK. It is all about the slowing process of international adoption. It was a very powerful, moving movie but it was honestly heartbreaking to watch. All these children who are stuck in orphanages while their parents long for them. Being as I don't even have a referral yet, all I can do is pray. I have to put my trust is God. I hope everyone can see this movie.  It is life-changing.  You can visit www.bothendsburning.com to see the trailer and sign the petition. Yesterday morning I got an email from my agency with some potential big news. Please pray that something comes to be of it. I will not go into it now but maybe by Easter I will have at least some news. No, I did not get a referral!  The fourth seems to be a lucky day for me.

Since I have already blogged about my two girls, I thought I should finish the trilogy. Finnigan O'Mally is the tiniest, most lovable, skiddish one of the bunch. A few months after I got my Scarlet girl, I contacted my breeder for a slightly older playmate. She didn't have any but for months she was on the lookout. A few days before Christmas she contacted me about a puppy who she thought would be a perfect fit. I told her I would think about it but I really wasn't in to the idea of another puppy, that is until I saw his face. I was hooked, and have been ever since. Finnigan is a momma boy through and through. He is friendly but nobody beats his momma. He is calm, and cuddly. He has a high stress level and a very sensitive stomach but to me he is perfect. To my Finnie boy, you hold my heart.