Devastation

This post has been on my mind for a few days but I just could not bring myself to put it down. On the 14th I got an email from my agency that stated my orphanage was not getting ANY domestic adoptions. They anticipated my referral in the time frame of 5-8 years. To say that I was crushed was an understatement. I felt such at peace with this orphanage and the fact that it was located EXACTLY where I wanted it to be was a blessing!  With the new rule of 2 foreigners to every 8 Indi*ns it looks like I will not be getting Annie Margaret from my assigned orphanage.

Also, with the next rule that dossiers need to be with the orphanages for 6 months, means I have quite a wait a head of me. Now because my agency is amazing, they applied for a special waiver too get my dossier out now and assigned with another orphanage. Please pray with me that this is granted. I know God will place my papers in the right hands but it is hard.......very hard. I was already to paint the nursery next month, now who knows. I may still do it, just to show God that I out my trust in him that Annie Margaret will come home sooner rather than later.

This was not the news I had been hoping for. In fact. This was very far from how I thought my spring would look. At this point I feel numb. I don't even have the energy to tell my friends. Those who are not in the adoption world do not understand the longevity of this process. Blogging is therapeutic so I am putting this news out there. I am asking my prayer warriors to come together. Lets pray that CA*A assigns me a new home before the required wait time. One this is for sure, I am not giving up. Annie Margaret will come home, I love her already!

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    CristyMarch 18, 2013 at 3:05 AM

    I'm so sorry. It's a long wait. Longer than any of us ever thought it would be. Your day will come. :)

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    MiaMyIndianAngelMarch 24, 2013 at 5:29 AM

    I came across your blog and I'm sorry to hear of this news. What a devastating blow. :( You are so right in that those outside the adoption circle do not understand and it is hard to explain the complexity of international adoption. I will pray that your dossier is sent to the perfect orphanage with the perfect little one meant just for you. I was curious, though, about the 6 month rule for dossiers. I have been matched and accepted a referral for a little one but have not heard of this rule. Could you elaborate - [email protected] Thank you - and may God continue to bless your journey.

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