abang oh abang

I'm pissed off at my brother
but I'm actually not
cause he's my brother..
but I wanna be mad!!!!
and yet I can't
cause he's my brother..
my day was crappy today
thanks to him
and I'm officially broke
all because of him
cesss betul laaa
I want to smack his head
LOL
of course I don't mean it
cause he's my brother..
no matter how hard I try
to induce some feelings of
wrath and anger towards him
it's impossible
cause he's my brother..
dammit
he's so lucky
that I'M his sister
hehehhehe yaa yaaa mari prasan

.. hahahaa.. what a lame attempt, this crap doesn't even rhyme. it's not like I even put any effort anyway, even if I tried, I'd fail miserably. ok I'm gonna stop talking trash now and go watch The OC..

The OC is so gay
But I watch it anyway
-Yours Truly-

Summer Scent

baru habis layan cerita Korea.. courtesy of Napi. i'm a sucker for romance movies.. romance novels.. romance dramas.. semua bahasa pun boleh.. kalau Hindustan, kena ada Shah Rukh Khan laa kalau tak aku tak berminat. real life aku tak tau aa aku ni jiwang ke tak.. kadang2 aaa kot.. hehehehehhehhh..

anyway.. marah betul laa aku kat cerita Summer Scent ni.. hero dia.. first few episode boleh aku boleh terima.. lama2.. eii rasa nak penampar je.. sikit2 nangis.. semua episode dia nak nangis. pastu tak habis2 buat muka pathetic.. kerut2 dahi lah. sikit2 nak cakap jiwang2 ngan heroin.. eii tak macho betul laaa! cuba lah jadi macam Takuya Kimura ke Yutaka ke.. dah aa hensem.. macho pulak tu.. takde nak jiwang lebih2.. jiwang pada masa2 yg patut sahaja muahahha.. satu lagi.. dah aa heroin ni dah ada fiance.. lagi nak korat (ni takleh buat apa laa tapi sbb tu lah main theme cerita ni). nasib baik laa heroin suka kat dia balik.. kalau tak buat malu je.. tapi last2 tak dapat gakk.. hahh! puas hati aku.. yg menyelamatkan hero ni from jadi totally bapuk kat pandangan aku is the fact that the heroin nangis lagi byk.. hahahhaa.. yg menyelamatkan citer nih adalah dua menda.. first, sidekick2 hero dan heroin.. eventho takde aa best sangat dia org tuh.. second, heroin dia cute aa gak.. tapi jgn ingat aku lesbo lak dahhh..hahahha.. tapi hero punya laa lembik.. satu lagi, awek lama dia mati 3 yrs ago.. dia still duk sedih2 layan perasaan jiwang2 ingat2 macam awek dia baru mati 8 micro-saat yg lalu.. kalau dia macho aku takde hal.. tapi sbb dia lembik suka nangis.. so aku tak puas hati.. hahahaha..

complain byk.. apsal laa aku tgk jugak cerita ni.. dah start.. takleh stop.. nak tgk sampai habis... eventho dragging nak mampus cerita ni.. tapi aku tak aa macam ada sorang tu kalau tgk cerita.. baru tgk 5 episode pastu terus tgk final episode (read: Teh Zawani, muahahahha).. but adoi laa.. just wasted 20 hrs of my life... actually 19 hrs.. sbb Napi lupa burn satu episode.. hahahha.. macam ada beza je pun tapi.

Indahnya Pahala Menahan Amarah

The emo season is here (is this a Umich tradition or what?). But here's some things to ponder on and to serve as a reminder.

...excerpts from TazkirahPurdue.

"Siapa yang menahan marah, padahal ia boleh melepaskan kemarahannya, maka kelak pada hari kiamat, Allah akan memanggilnya di depan sekalian makhluk. Kemudian, disuruhnya memilih bidadari sekehendaknya." (HR. Abu Dawud - At-Tirmidzi)

Rasulullah saw. bersabda, "Memaki-maki orang muslim adalah fasik (dosa),dan memeranginya adalah kufur (keluar dari Islam)." (HR.Bukhari)

Sabdanya pula, "Bukanlah seorang mukmin yang suka mencela, pengutuk, kata-katanya keji dan kotor." (HR. Turmudzi)

Rasulullah saw bersabda, "Berlapang dadalah kamu terhadap orang yang membodohi kamu. Engkau suka memberi maaf kepada orang yang telah menganiaya kamu. Engkau suka memberi kepada orang yang tidak pernah memberikan sesuatu kepadamu. Dan, engkau mau bersilaturahim kepada orang yang telah memutuskan hubungan dengan engkau." (HR. Thabrani)

Sabdanya juga, "Bahwasanya seorang hamba apabila mengutuk kepada sesuatu, naiklah kutukan itu ke langit. Lalu, dikunci pintu langit-langit itu buatnya. Kemudian, turunlah kutukan itu ke bumi, lalu dikunci pula pintu-pintu bumi itu baginya.

Kemudian, berkeliaranlah ia kekanan dan kekiri. Maka, apabila tidak mendapat tempat baru, ia pergi kepada yang dilaknat. Bila layak dilaknat (artinya kalau benar ia berhak mendapat laknat), tetapi apabila tidak layak, maka kembali kepada orang yang mengutuk (kembali ke alamat si pengutuk)." (HR. Abu Dawud)

*****

Tingkat kekuatan seseorang dalam menghadapi kesulitan hidup memang berbeza. Ada yang mampu menghadapi kesusahan dengan perasaan tenang. Namun, ada pula orang yang menghadapi persoalan kecil saja dianggapnya begitu besar. Semuanya bergantung pada kekuatan ma'nawiyah (keimananan) seseorang.

Pada dasarnya, tabiat manusia yang berbagai: keras dan tenang, cepat dan lambat, bersih dan kotor, berhubungan erat dengan keteguhan dan kesabarannya berinteraksi dengan orang lain. Orang yang memiliki keteguhan iman akan menghadapi orang lain dengan sikap pemaaf, tenang,dan lapang dada.

Adakalanya, kita merasa begitu marah dengan seseorang yang menghina diri kita. Kemarahan kita begitu memuncak seolah jiwa kita hilang sedar. Kita merasa tidak mampu menerima penghinaan itu. Kecuali, dengan marah atau bahkan dengan cara menumpahkan darah. Na'udzubillah.

Seorang yang mampu mengawal nafsu ketika marahnya memuncak, dan mampu menahan diri di kala mendapat ejekan, maka orang seperti inilah yang diharapkan menghasilkan kebaikan dan kebajikan bagi dirinya maupun masyarakatnya.

Kesabarannya pun bertambah besar dalam menghadapi sesuatu masalah. Tidak mudah memarahi seseorang yang bersalah dengan begitu saja, sekalipun telah menjadi haknya.

"Pelik"

Yesterday I was talking with a friend, and somehow the topic of me not being close to my siblings came up. It was just a brief conversation but I can't seem to get it out of my system. I have a sister and a brother, and we aren't what you can say the best of friends. We don't talk about our lives, don't tell each other our problems, don't shop or go to the movies together, we don't talk on the phone when I call home.. etc. My friend said.. "kau ni pelik sbb tak baik dengan adik beradik".

I am well aware about this, talked about it before with some close friends.. but no one has ever said that I was "pelik". Felt slightly offended and kinda hurt when this friend said that. Just because he's close to his siblings and I'm not, I think it's unfair for him to brand me as "pelik". He doesn't even know half the things about my family.

It's not like I don't talk at all with my brother and sister. We do joke around, buat lawak2 yang only we would understand (obviously we do have our own kind internal jokes that dates back to when we were kids), talk about things like current affairs or the entertainment scene or what's the latest trend or the stuff on tv. What we don't talk about is our personal lives or problems, and this is what I mean when I say I'm not close with my abang and adik. Contohnya, takde nye abang or adik aku nak citer kat aku dia org tgh minat sapa ke ape ke.

Don't say I didn't try. I tried but it felt awkward, so I stopped trying. Karang boleh je abang and adik aku pk aku ni dah buang tebiat ke hape. Plus, we are just simply not the sentimental kind. Nobody ever said I love you or the likes to each other. We don't celebrate birthdays or anniversaries, no giving out presents, no good morning or good night wishes, no "wat's new" or "how are you", no mengada-ngada with each other, no holding hands and what not. But that doesn't imply we don't love and care. And we do help each other when help is needed. Family love is unconditional, and each family has their own way of showing it.

To this friend of mine, if you're reading this, don't get the wrong idea, I'm not mad at you, heheh.

Gempita Fest 2004

GF was off the hook! mmg best lah.. mmg puas hati.. upscaled by 200% compared to last year's.. both in the preparations and quality of the bands that took part. Hands down to all Gempita Managers and Crews.. especially the managers.. for putting so much effort. Saya hanya crew... jadi tolong sikit2 ja.. hanya setakat teman Teh and Shikin pi jumpa potiential sponsors.. oh yeah.. i was given a last minute assignment.. was asked to do the banner.. luckily Alisa and Deera were around to assist, and later Nali and Ali came over to help me complete it.

Semua band mmg gempak lah.. The Public Hardies from RPI being my favorite of the night.. The crowd were shouting like crazy after their performance. Me and Deera were next, aku jadi lemah semangat and cuak gila and nearly wanted to back out. LOL. Performing is simply not my cup of tea sbb aku stage fright, tak pandang audience langsung lah aku.. but everything went well, thanks to Deera.. hehehe.. nyanyi sedap gila so dapatlah kaver aku yg main gitar ntah pape nih.. nothing great. Tapi puas hati lah dapat main lagu Ella.. ngehahaha.. since dulu kecik2 selalu berangan jadi Ella.. yes lahh!

at the end of the day.. Tel aa best.. masa nak intro band.. Rock panggil nama Tel atas stage.. org datang jumpa aku and Deera and tanya.. "U guys are Alisa right?" .. errrr... nak jawab apa? yes and no? hahaha.. siap nama ada kat baju lagi.. tulis gaya eLLy lagi.. aLisa.. cesss.. Tel, kena belanja aku ngan Deera makan woi!!!

But lastly, thanks to Khairi of Purdue who initially came up with the idea to start this BOTB thingy last year.. and Mazran handled it. So they both started what might become a new tradition here, in addition to the Midwest Games). Idea and determination tu penting. Idea sahaja or smangat sahaja.. tak ke mana..

...

I had fun today, thanks to the raya celebration. Hontoni. but not as awesome as last year's though.

somehow i ended the day feeling absolutely miserable. unpleasant news were pouring in one after another, out of nowhere. the fact that i can't tell anyone about anything doesn't help either. and i can't even call my mom since she's still in Perth.

what a crappy way to end a perfectly wonderful day. i wish i can be devoid of all emotions.. for now.

Unlucky Me..

First time in history family aku tak raya kat Malaysia. dia orang pi raya kat Perth. and aku tak dapat join. aaa tak aci! Direct quote from my mom bila aku duk bising2 pasal tak aci masa balik Malaysia haritu "haha shadap lah Kirah.. too bad for you.. jalan2 in US is enough". cisss. takpe laa..

aunty aku kawin ngan one Aussie guy. he's a scientist. dia kagum dengan Islam and Quran (sbb dia byk buat research), so dia convert masuk Islam.. before he met my Aunty i think. so anyway, my family.. including nenek and aunty2 and uncle2 and kazen2 yg lain, pi lepak kat sana.

planning tak ingat dunia punya. through yahoogroups mailing list. muahahaha. our family sebelah penang ada mailing list sendiri. uncles.. aunties.. kazens.. semua masuk. tinggal nenek aku je tak masuk. hahahhhaha. we call ourselves.. the TD Clan.. TD means Tok Dis..our late grandpa.. my mother's father.. dulu he had a Mercedes.. so kami cucu2 semua panggil lah dia Tok Dis.. lol.. so despite tak dapat join the trip, i had to bear reading tons and tons of emails.. jealousss akuuuuu.

now my father, brother and sister dah balik. got to get back to work and classes. but my mom is still in perth. extended cuti. cikgu laa katakan..

next january org2 perth pulak nak datang malaysia. they came earlier this year, coming again next year. and i won't get to meet them!!!! aaaaa... tak aci lagi.. i want to meet my Aussie kazen.. we used to write letters dulu masa kecik2.. there's two of them.. Fatima and Amina.. Fatima writes to me.. Amina writes to my sister.. my aunty writes to my mother... hahahahha.. lawak gila... zaman takde internet... tulis laa surat..

The Price of War

One of the hidden costs of the war in Iraq is that, a large number of the soldiers involved (mainly US and British) in the war were either sent back or opted out and came back from the war because of mental trauma. A research done by the US Army revealed that 1 out of 5 of US soldiers suffer serious mental health problems associated with post-traumatic stress disorder.

So let's see, roughly 300,000 US troops have been deployed to Iraq since the war started.. that makes it about 60,000 whose suffering mental problems. After some surfing, I found out that it is not uncommon for soldiers to come back from war and become mentally disordered. However, the numbers are more extreme in the case of the war in Iraq compared to the Vietnam war, mainly because more than half the world population do not support the war - they feel ashamed. But personally, I feel that what they did was imperative because they are soldiers and it is their job to serve their government and nation. Nevertheless, going to war exposed them to horrors that will live with them forever.

Most of the soldiers who are affected are too ashamed to seek for help, for they might be deemed as weak (askar2 ni sure macho2 dan tough2 ye tak). But dude, mental problem is detrimental in the long run. How are you going to live a normal life if you suffer from major depression or substance abuse etc... And the side effects? Impairment in social functioning and the ability to work, general distrust etc. Obviously there's more, but hey, I'm no doctor.

Sigh, I never thought of this before. This war in Iraq should not have happened in the first place. The initial purpose of this war is so fucked up. Who's to blame? You know who. Tapi semua yang berlaku ada hikmahnya.

Anyway, here's a link to read regarding the battle for Fallujah. It's news from 5 days ago. Some facts are already more updated. Such as, the number of civilians remaining in Fallujah is between 50,000 - 100,000 people instead of 300,000 sbb ramai dah lari selamatkan diri, and the insurgents are now cornered to the south of Fallujah by the US and Iraqi forces, instead of their initial base at the north of the 'City of Mosques'.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/middle_east/3993809.stm

Eid

Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin everyone.

If Only..

If only I'm able to not give a damn about anything and anyone in this world..
Except my religion and my family..
If only I'm brave enough to adopt such attitude..
Will I be a much happier person?

Maybe..

Maybe not..

Most probably not.. how more obvious could the answer be? The answer lies in the definition of Islam, Iman and Ihsan itself. Pi baca balik buku Panduan Lengkap Fardhu Ain kalau tak ingat.

But for now, I feel like shoving my foot in everybody's aR$e.
(gaya Red Foreman from That 70's Show, LOL)

**Currently emotionally unstable.. for no reason at all**

GempitaFest '04

In the spirit of having GempitaFest '04 organized in Umich this Thanksgiving, aku letak tepi dulu Naruto. He's a cool dude, he'd understand. LOL.

The managers are doing such a good job in organizing GempitaFest, this is the least I could do. With passion comes greatness. Keep it up dudes.

Very Cool Advert

Courtesy of Dy

Mawlaya

Got hold of this nasyid/zikir about 3 days ago.. pk punya pk apsal laa familiar sangat part chorus dia. Last2 baru aku teringat, everytime habis mengaji Kitab (ikut ayah aku), Ustaz Hafiz akan lead semua orang baca zikir ni ramai2 a few times.. actually, even the melody of the zikir sounds pretty much the same.. sigh.. ni yang rasa nak balik rumah ni heheh. Enjoy.

Post Election 2004

So, Bush won. I somehow expected this. I think I even mentioned this to someone, Hakam maybe. It was a gut feeling, eventhough I clearly wanted Kerry to win. Wonder why?

About a month ago, while waiting for the bus at CC Little, I found this newspaper yg basically cakap pasal election sahaja. There was a list of the different policies between B and K. I agreed to some of B's and some of K's. For eg, B opposes the idea of same sex marriage, dia nak ban mende alah tu, which is obviously good. However, K supports lesbian and gay ppl kawin. On the other hand, I agreed to K's war and foreign affairs policies, and not B's. So after reading the whole list and making the comparisons, if I were to ignore the things that B has done in the past (I'm not, hence the reason I want Kerry to win), I would have had a hard time choosing who to vote.

Then yesterday, I got to know (from my American classmate) that B is kind of a conservative Christian, and you can say that K is pretty much more liberal, and he's a Catholic. B is more concerned with social illness and welfares, as opposed to K, who is more interested in international relations and the likes. So that explains everything. It also explains why K won nearly all of east and west coast states' electoral votes, and some states in the midwest region. Tempat2 ini lebih byk bandar2 besar, ppl are 'modernized', hence the way of thinking of these ppl is not so 'old-fashioned'. Whereas B won most of the other states, yg lebih byk org2 redneck, org2 kampung, except maybe Florida. In the end, everything boiled down to swing-state-Ohio, the Florida of the 2000 Election, lol.

In response to one of Deera's entry in her blog, if all the Malaysians in the States were to vote for K, B would still win. K was down in the number of electoral votes by a margin that is not recoverable(?) by the number of Malaysians in the US. Furthermore, B lead K in the number of popular votes by 3 million. K had no chance at all. Mathematically impossible.

I heard that a lot of students mmg deeply affected with the election results, particularly K supporters. Some tak nak keluar bilik, some won't even talk/sit with those who voted B, some could not concentrate in class langsung because dia orang worry too much about the election. So I guess it is true that there really are B-haters out there, somehow I used to think the Americans don't really care, especially students. I thought they were just hyped up about the election because it was 'in', with P.Diddy promoting the 'Rock the Vote' campaign on MTV and all. If I were an American, or if I were able to vote for that matter, I wonder how the election would have affected me. Heh.

Election Day 2004

Bush and Kerry are giving each other a good fight. At this very moment, Bush is leading and Kerry is not far behind. Aku tengok update Yahoo! News.. they are not official results, but the projected results are close to accurate. I don't really understand the technical details though.

But I pretty much care about the results of this election. I want Bush to be kicked out from the White House, why should we want this guy around when he clearly caused thousands of innocent Muslims to be killed? Takkan kita nak sokong orang macam ni? Plus, the US is so-called the most powerful nation in the world.. betul laa jugak tu. Since US ni sungguhlah power dan terrer, kita kena lah kisah sbb nak tak nak affect kita jugak sooner or later.

Eventhough Kerry is said to be a flip-flopper, he is the next best candidate since there's nobody else running for president, at least nobody as significant as him and John Edwards. If Kerry wins, kita tgk laa mamat ni macam mana pulak. We have yet to see what this guy is capable of. Takyah nak comment lagi dia bagus ke tak bagus ke. Let's just hope for the best. Whatever it is, kita tak boleh sokong orang yang terang2 telah menganiayai orang Islam.

Evidence and Interpretation

Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson went on a camping trip. After a good meal and a bottle of wine, they lay down for the night and went to sleep. Some hours later, Holmes awoke and nudged his faithful friend. "Watson, look up and tell me what you see."

Watson replied, "I see millions and millions of stars."

"And what does that tell you?" Holmes asked.

Watson pondered for a minute. "Astronomically, it tells me that there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets. Astrologically, I observe that Saturn is in Leo. Horologically, I deduce that the time is about a quarter past 3. Theologically, I can see that God is all-powerful and that we are small and insignificant. Meteorologically, I suspect that we will have a beautiful day tomorrow. Why, what does it tell you?"

Holmes was silent for a minute, then spoke: "Someone has stolen our tent."

Dis Pic, I Like

Love Hate Relationship

This kind of relationship is the most frustrating kind of rship of all. Kau suka.. tapi kau benci.. tapi kau suka sebenarnya.. tapi siot ah benci pun ada gak.. pastu confuse sorang2.. LOL. This particularly pertains to me --studies-wise.

i like computer architecture.. eecs 270.. eecs 370.. eecs 470.. serious best blajar pasal how the computer works, and i enjoy the classes (but don't ask me how to fix one.. itu kerja technician.. a common misconception about CE majors, hampeh). i don't like signals and systems. eecs 206.. eecs 306.. so uninteresting.. belajar sbb terpaksa.

however.. i hate computer architecture classes aku punya exam.. susah nak mampos.. study like crazy.. and ur result still sucks no matter what.. signals and systems exams are wayyyy easier to score.. naturally, my results are better for the classes that i hate..

so, which is better, take the classes u like at the expense of hurting ur gpa.. or suffer through ur college years learning stuffs u don't enjoy but able to get better grades. masa zaman muda2 tak tau satu haprak pasal engineering.. of course choice #1 seems like the correct choice, semua sure pk yang tu lah choice paling bagus.. paling rational.. skarang after 3 years in Umich.. to hell with it. suffer kejap je.. in the end a good cgpa is what u want.. choice #2 is the most logical choice.

Battle of the Sexes 2

eLLy, ni baru start je. baru 3 episode. so takde crisis2 or gaduh2 yang extreme lagi. but, seems like this time ada click.. the new people and the veterans.. so u know la who the veterans are.

Veronica tak gaduh ngan Katie.. cam takde cerita lagi.. Katie lak cam tak suka tgk ada click.. so dia planning nak buat alliance ngan the newbies, tapi takde pun lagi aku tgk.. Rachel cam prasan ketua aku tgk.. Coral so far behave ok je.. pastu actually ada sorang newbie nama Tina ni.. dia cam ada gaduh sket ngan Tonya.. ke Tanya.. ke Tasya.. apa tah nama dia.. pastu gaduh2 jerit2 ada laa carut2 semua.. pastu Coral cam.. "wah first time bukan dia the first person who cusses ppl out" .. hahahaha

Mike kan dah dua pernah kali team up ngan Coral.. Inferno and Gauntlet.. RW vs RR. tapi sekarang since guys vs girls.. dia cakap aa.. "Coral is going to be screwing the girls mind like crazy". ahahaha.. betul gak tu..

about Abram dengan Coral lak, this time they are very 'intimate' so to speak. hahaha.. cam masa mandi2 kat pool sama2.. keluar makan kat restaurant pun duk sama2.. main2 kaki gitu.. hahahaha.. org lain cam perasan aa gak.. hahahha.. so we'll see how this goes.. Abram said, the only girl yg dia rasa setaraf ngan dia dari segi bla bla(apa tah aku tak ingat) is Coral.. hahaha... Abram mmg suka prasan smart.. tapi dia competitive.. so aku boleh terima lah dia hahaha.

apa lagi aa.. aku pun dah tak ingat, nothing interesting.. oh yeah.. kali ni.. for every mission, kena pilih 3 team leaders.. utk team yg kalah, the ppl yg bukan team leaders will be the inner circle and ada power to vote off one of the team leaders.. utk team yg menang, the team leaders will become the inner circle and get to vote off others. and stakat ni, all 3 missions guys yg menang.. tak puas hati betul aku..

Semua TEL Punya Pasal

nah TEL, nak sangat aku update. heheh. gambar pun aku dah tukar. this is Sagara Sanosuke from Rurouni Kenshin. sorry aa readability kurang.. too lazy to find the right color. tapi lantak lah, bukannya aku nak baca balik apa yang aku tulis ngehehehehe.

>DISCLAIMER: fan art ni bukan aku yg lukis ye<

nothing interesting happened for the last 2 weeks.

tapi aku masak tomyam. TEL tak nak tolong siot. tapi nak mandi kat toilet aku. bila wey? jgn lupa buat appointment. nanti clash ngan ayun. muahahaha.

p/s: eLLy, apsal aku takleh shout kat tag board kau aa?

Bold Everything that is True

Nah Usagi.. this update is specially for you, LOL. Got it off Farah's website.

01. My hair is still its natural color
02. I have yet to lose my virginity
03. I get annoyed when I don't get to finish telling a story.
04. I like to wear pink
05. Sometimes I wish I could do something really, really amazingly well.
06. I drink a lot of water.
07. I've never taken a hit of a cigarette.
08. I like musicians.
09. I'm such a health freak.
10. I love taking pictures.(tgk mood lah)
11. I have really tiny wrists.(comparatively)
12. I can identify some close friends by smell.(actually sorang je)
13. I'm far too nice.
14. I hate when people confuse "your" and "you're"
15. I think dorkiness is attractive
16. I've never had a fake screen name.
17. I wish I had a pug.
18. I miss middle school.
19. I have pretty good eating habits.
20. I have a hard time making up my mind sometimes.
21. I wish my hair naturally curled.
22. I can't live without chapstick.
23. I wish I could sing
24. I like classical music. It's not bad.
25. Striped pants are hot.
26. I think Schylar is a really cool name.
27. I usually don't get sarcasm. (tp yg main2 biasalah)
28. I wish I could look in a mirror and constantly be satisfied with myself.
29. I shift between being sleepy and awake when I'm really tired.
30. I hardly ever vaccum. Meaning I personally don't vaccum, other people do..
31. I hate racism and nazi's.
32. I want someone to hold me.
33. I like watermelon flavored things.
34. I'm a snob about grammar.
35. I am a terrible liar
36. Axe deoderant smells WONDERFUL
37. I wish I knew how to speak in Italian.
38. I tried to kiss a member of the opposite sex when I was in kindergarten.
39. I am learning to be happy wherever I am.
40. I have no idea what my school musical is about.
41. I appreciate honesty. honesty is the best policy
42. I need a manicure.
43. I love Dr. Pepper.
44. I twirl my hair.
45. I like kissing (*sigh*)
46. i don't own a cellphone
47. I want to learn to play the harp.
48. I'm not old enough to vote.
49. I live in the past far too much.
50. I need to remember to be a teenager sometimes
51. I want to see most of the world.
52. Sometimes I wonder what's going on in other parts of the world.
53. I hate being lied to.
54. I believe in a thing called love.
55. I go shopping usually once a week.
56. Today is Wednesday.
57. I've read more than a 100 books.
58. I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
59. I like feet.
60. I like getting compliments.
61. I want the world to see me.
62. I think it's funny when girls wear so much makeup that their faces become incandescent.
63. I hate seeing kids that think they're different because they like Slipknot and shop at Hot Topic.(couldn't care less, do whatever u wanna do lah)
64. I have a fear of wearing too much perfume.
65. I wear pants more than I wear shorts
66. I am tactful most of the time.
67. I'm afraid of spiders
68. I get too attached to some people.
69. I'm usually on time.
70. I forgive but I don't forget.(the 'forget' part, depends on what happened tho)
71. I think way too much for my own good
72. My current relationship is teaching me a lot.
73. I like salads from McDonalds.
74. I read for at least two hours every night before bed.
75. I talk to a lot of people I don't like because I hate being rude.
76. I talk to myself in the shower.
77. Funny guys turn me on.(funny = lawak)
78. I wish I were asleep.
79. I love Reese's peanut butter cups.
80. I never have enough energy.
81. I have a friend who has an outtie bellybutton.
82.I have driven a car.
83. There is no nailpolish on my nails.
84. I am unafraid to change, but I don't think I realize the boundary between change and utter transformation.
85. I wear brown, thin-rimmed glasses.
86. Goodbyes make me sad.
87. Cold Stone is so much better than Baskin Robbins
88. I love cuddling.
89. I run when I'm bored.
90. I wish I were more attractive to others.
91. I worry too much sometimes about what people think.
92. I'm a billion times better than I was in junior high school.
93. Compliments make me happy.
94. I like long car rides with certain people.
95. I hate when people incorrectly label me. in general, i hate labels
96. I wonder a lot who I'm going to end up marrying.
97. I listen to the things no one else cares about.
98. I can't draw from imaginiation.
99. TyPiNg LIeK diS anNoyes mEeeh.
100. This took too long

Memoirs of a Geisha

Warning: May contain spoiler.

I finished reading this book approximately 2 weeks ago. I bought it when I was back in Malaysia during summer, out of boredom. It is a true story about a renowned geisha in Japan, Nitta Sayuri (formerly known as Chiyo) during World War 2. The book cleared the misconceptions I had about geishas. Like most people, I used to think that geishas were equivalent to prostitutes. But as it turned out, that's not the case at all. Senang citer, diorang ni pelayan. Sayuri became a geisha not by choice. Some guy sold her and she had no other way of earning money except by becoming a geisha. To cut the story short, during her course of life, she stumbled upon a Chairman of a prominent company and fell head over heels. She kept her feelings to herself for like more than 20 years I think. Lama gila minat orang, power gila tu. LOL. As it turned out, the Chairman confessed his feelings for her after all these years of being just aquaintances. Basically, they have been haboring feelings for each other, but not a soul knew about it. Apparently, the Chairman did not confess earlier because he knew that the President of the same company liked Sayuri too. He was putting business before pleasure. Gila lah, too good to be true ey? Eventually they got married, and Sayuri ended her career as a geisha. She was over 40 years old by then. She went through a lot of hardships, predicaments and miserable times though (kawan aku nangis doh baca buku ni). So I was rather shocked that the story had a happy ending. We'll see how the movie turns out. Michelle Yeoh is one of the casts. I can't wait.

I read quite a number of books this past summer. More than the past 3 years combined since I came here. The Da Vinci Code and Angels&Demons by Dan Brown is a must read! Once you start, you can't stop. Best gila tak ingat. Also read Trading Up by Candace Bushnell (author of SATC). It was okay, but I did not particularly like it. Pretty much like the SATC series, and I'm not a fan of that show. The book contained lots of swearing and vulgar words, and not to mention the number of sex and blow jobs (don't worry, explicit descriptions of the 'activities' were close to nonexistent). Kinda reminds me of Samantha from SATC. hahaha, but still budak kecik macam Badak takleh baca.

Apart from that, I reread ALL the Judith McNaught novels, my mom has the whole collection. LOL, it was my mother who 'brought' me into the world of romance novels. Started around F4. Heck, I used to gelakkan mak aku because she's so jiwang. I did not even like boys until F4, that was when I started to have guy friends anyway. Up till then, I only read mystery novels. God knows how many RL Stine, Christopher Pike and Enid Blyton books I've read. Too many. Most of my friends were so into Sweet Valley (teenage romance). I tried reading one book, and I hated it!. Stupid story lines, typical. I was an avid fan of Enid Blyton, and my favorite series was The Mallory Towers. One of the reasons I decided to go to college (read:TKC) was because I imagined my life would be like the twin sisters in Mallory Towers. Boy, I was totally misled. But of course, I would never exchange the fun and experiences I had during those 5 super-duper-cool-awesome-best-nak-mampus years in college with anything, LOL

I am currently reading To Kill a Mocking Bird by Harper Lee. I bought the book 2 years ago and forgot about it, a great method of collecting dust. I was either too busy, or too lazy to read it when I had the time. Plus, there were always some new animes to watch.

Heh, boring entry. But it beats doing my stupid programming assignment.

Distorted Conversation

excerpts from a conversation between Guy 1 and Guy 2, while I was in the bus coming back from Central. Guy 1 was sitting, Guy 2 was standing.. and I was stuck in the middle...

Guy 1: Fuck you.
Guy 2: Fuck you too.
Guy 1: Hahaha ok.
....
Guy 1: Dude, why do you have a pink folder?
Guy 2: Why DON'T you have a pink folder?
....
Guy 1: Where did you get that cap from? It looks cute on you..
Guy 2: I bought it somewhere.
Guy 1: But you're cute even if you don't have a cap on.
Guy 2: Yeah I know.
....
Guy 1: Where exactly is your room?
Guy 2: Above Sara's. You can hear funny noises from her room every night. I'm not kidding!
Guy 1: No way! I gotta drop by your room sometime. We should reimitate the noises.
Guy 2: Yeah..maybe we should reenact it too, haha!
....
Guy 1: Fuck you man.
Guy 2: Go fuck yourself.
Guy 1: Okay.
....
Guy 1: I gotta get a haircut. >insert name< says he's gonna help cut my hair.
Guy 2: Oh, there's this girl named Alla at my hall..
Guy 1: What? Who?
Guy 2: Alla.. not the Muslim Alla. She said she could cut my hair for me. She's hot, so I let her do it.
Guy 1: She's hot?
Guy 2: Yeah.. she said Steve Breaston once wanted to hook up with her.
Guy 1: Cool. I gotta get a haircut from her too then.
Guy 2: But she's stupid though. It's funny that she's an RA but I treat her like crap.
Guy 1: Hahahaha.
Guy 2: I used to have long hair that's up to my ear.
Guy 1: Like the sexy kind?
Guy 2: Yeah, it was kinda sexy. Yeah I looked sexy.
....

Cess, penat gila aku tahan gelak.

Birthday SHOUTOUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the October madness... happy birthday rakan2 ku.

5th - Sharooney
6th - Ayun the Porn Lover
7th - Epol yg __?
22nd - Junthegreatest
28th - Hakam si Jambu

Updates from Mom

Called home for the first time since 4 weeks ago. Whole family is doing fine. First thing we talked about? Malaysian Idol! hahahaha.. yes, my mom is fan. I wanted to know who got into the finals, but the results aren't out yet. But no doubt the finalists are going to be Dina and Jac lah, who else? I'm all out for Dina.

Ayah sudah pencen for good. Right now he's just lepaking at the house, keeping himself bz. Now mama has to cook lunch everyday, in addition to dinner, with no help from Syahida (my sister lives on campus at Uni. Malaya). The funny thing is, it seems like ayah is making himself bz by taking care of our cat! Kucing kami nama dia The Cat. hahaha.. everybody's too lazy to give him a name. The Cat came down with a flu or something, after I left for US. Awww.. he missed me. hehehe, ya laa... aku yg jaga dia hari2 masa kat rumah. The vet took care of him until he became well again, and the fee was rm100! Damn the cats nowadays, living in luxury. Now we have 2 cats, ayah's friend gave us a kitten a few days ago, so I guess ayah is getting busier, lol.

Nak sunat pun dah terrer skarang. My cousin had his sunat done with laser! Can you imagine that? hahaha. Remember the Siti hate-mail scandal? A lecturer from Penang was taken into custody. The culprit's a lecturer? Must be one helluva mereng lecturer, as my sister put it. And Melody's host is ain't Aznil no more. It's Wahid from Scenario.

Mama told me all this? You bet she did. LOL.

On a side note, Umich won! yeahhh baby. I did not watch the game, but I saw the half time report when I was at Target, we were leading by quite a margin then. So it's all good. But we definitely need to improve a whole lot more if we want to take down the Gophers next week. It's going to be a tough homecoming game. Minnesota has a (5-0) record since the season started, if I'm not mistaken.

Yare yare.. it's late.

The Inevitable Has Begun

After more than a year.. here I am blogging again. Shit. Why the bloody hell lah? Ini semua Teh punya pasal!! heheheh.. I was bored, so I did some blogskin browsing and came across this one. I like it. Except for the 'nandek' on the minah's forehead.

Damn Comcast. My cable was blurry for 2 weeks and god knows how I pestered them to get it fixed. Now it is, except for the only channel that I absolutely need to watch today. The Umich vs Indiana football game on ABC. Maybe it's a sign. I should be studying rather than watching the game (urghh.. not a very appealling idea), plus having to endure watching Michigan's unimpressive offensive team play is quite a pain. Defense is good, no doubt about that. But come on! No matter how good or bad the Wolverines are, I need to watch the fucking game.

Go Blue!