In the search for love.. you might just need a passport

Music: Let Me Fall by Bethany Joy Lenz

I finally finished reading Wolf Hall after what... 5 months? I haven't been diligently reading the book coz there's so many other distractions and stuff to do, and the book is pretty thick and the font is small.
It was good read, probably a little on the heavy side.. the sentence structure is quite difficult to follow. so i read it super slowly.. but truthfully, I am a very slow reader.
Next up, a chick lit.. I'm no fan of this genre but i need to read something light at the moment.
But a friend warned me this book that I'm gonna read next will make me bitter and cynical..
Doesn't sound like something you would say about a chick lit right..
I'll reveal the title when I'm done with it hehe.. the clue is up there by the way.

Relaxing & Reflective Sunday

Music:: Its Only Love by The Beatles

Its been a while since I get to totally and seriously chill on a weekend, wake up late, eat brunch and drink coffee for 2 hours while reading the newspaper, on a chilly and cloudy sunday morning that's so cozy for snuggling in further.
There are always plans being made, though i'm not fretting about it coz it generally means i do maintain some kind of social life right haha.
My legs are kind of sore from yesterday's futsal tournament, and surprisingly we made it into the semi-finals, which we lost on sudden death penalty.
By then i was dead tired already playing 5 matches, and then 6 for the third-placing match.
There were 19 teams altogether.
So anyway its proabably a relief that the Hard Rock Hotel Run was postponed (supposed to be today), coz i don't think i'd be able to run 5km along the hilly coastal Ferringhi road with these tired legs.
The downside though is that the rescheduled date of the run is a day before the Malakoff Run..
Larat ke tak ni.... haha. Bantai je lah.

There's a short article on Starmag today about the Five Regrets of The Dying... and reading the 5 most common regrets, I feel that I'm kinda on the right track to not have these regrets later.. hehe...

1) "I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me"

As far as i'm concerned, I've been doing whatever i want since my university days without any intervention from anyone (usually parents). This has been possible because of my parents la jugak.. they usually let me do whatever i want, as long as its not a bad thing. I remember very vividly as young as 12 years old, one of the earliest decisions my parents let me make was whether I wanted to go to a boarding school (after I got the offer) or go to a day school instead. It was totally my choice at the time, and it turned out to be one of the best decisions I've ever made. All the important decisions I've made in my life so far has been my own, some good and some bad, but all mine. Looking back the past 10-15 years, I think I have been true to myself.. and I hope it stays that way forever.

2) " I wish I didn't work so hard"

Hahahaha.. I definitely dont work hard. Not even when I was studying in Umich. Just barely enough to get grades that won't get me kicked out of the scholarship.. But of course there has to be a balance. Study2 gak, enjoy2 gak.. right? same with work... although I really like my job, I'm not married to it. So all good in this department.

3) "I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings"

This is the only part where I think I'm failing. Enough said.

4) " I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends"

This is a no brainer. I value my friends highly, its hard for me to say no hangouts and lepak sessions without any reason. Yesterday, after the futsal tournament, I had a bad case of migraine, so after reaching home I showered and all I wanted to do was sleep, then a friend called me up to ajak lepak at the Bangi Kopitiam opposite my house. At first I wanted to say no coz the migraine was really bad and I was already half way through slumberland. But I went anyway coz I thought, these were friends that I haven't met for a long time and if they took the time to invite me, i should probably go.. plus bila la lagi nak ada friends who happen to be in bangi to ajak aku lepak.. hahahahha.. then another friend ajak lepak last night at the usual mamak in ttdi which is like a 40 minute drive. Ok so before moving to bangi i didn't know whether i was going to be malas to drive all the way to lepak sbb jauh type or not. As of yesterday, I've answered my own question. Maintaining relationshipts and spending time with friends is a good investment to our future well-being. Just another point to add, for women, spending time with girl friends is actually therapeutic. Its akin to guys having a good workout playing sports with their guy friends. And who knows what might happen in the future? Family is important, and friends are too.

5) "I wish I had let myself be happier"

I think this statement is a bit vague. Ok so today I feel quite happy.. I had a good week, yesterday was a productive day, and today I get to chill. But what would make me happier? Besides getting a million dollars for doing nothing.. of course there are many other things, but generally, I'm feeling happy now and its all well. How do u not let yourself be happy? I guess for someone who is generally happy like me.. I can't really comprehend the statement. Of course I have my ups and downs, but nothing too crazy or depressing or suicical or whatever.. I guess if I have a job that sends me all over the world and if I have the money to spend for all the things I want in life.. or if get to live my fantasy to be a rockstar.. I would be happier? But I'm content and satisfied with how my life has turned out so far.. Its very subjective.. and like what I said to a friend yesterday.. don't be jealous of other people's lives.. or was it don't compare your life to others? hahaha tak ingat la.. but something like that.. so yeah, just be grateful with what u have, even though it could be better, it could also be worse..

I'm feeling really good right now.

Now im going out to watch that Harry Potter movie and then think of how to tackle point number 3.

p/s: last night I dreamt half of my upper teeth fell off.. I took them all to the dentist.. and the dentist took my teeth and simply put them back with glue..

9 Days of Awesomeness

Music: To Sheila by Smashing Pumpkins

It was exactly like the good old times when we were students.. young and carefree.. (but not poor).

I loved every minute of it.

Thanks a lot girls.. u know who u are..

Alone Time

Music: What You Give by Tesla

I think i'm badly in need of a quiet weekend by myself just to relax, read a book, sleep and rejuvenate.
But this month is already full of plans.. namely..

Sister's wedding reception (guy side).
(Window) shopping with the aunt and cousin.
Terry Fox Run.
Lunch plans.
Hangout with mommy to be.
Vacation with the girls.
Futsal tournament.
Wedding.
Hard Rock Hotel Run.

Where to slot in study time??!!

Bila la aku boleh chill ni.. I have a feeling the best to place to do it is when I'm staying in bangi.. far away from everything and everyone hahahahahahh.. i'm seeing the house in a new light now..

And why the hell am i still up at 2am? Blame it on the gladiator and volleyball matches.. PS3 Move is fun! (Thanks B).