Walking Down The Memory Lane

Since the holiday started, my usual sleeping time is around 4-5am. Which makes me very lifeless and having excessive free time.

I was browsing through my old photos in Facebook, those that I was tagged. I saw many photos of me with my high school friends, the funny moments, and even the conversations that we had privately, then we screenshot it and post it in Facebook to share it with everyone and laugh at it. Even though we dont meet often but from time to time, we post a random photo in Facebook and tag everyone in it, then we have a good laugh at it and criticise each other. Those were the awesome times. Sad to say, none of these are happening anymore ;(

The distance is definitely getting further apart between all of us. I know this time would come but I just didn't expect it to be so soon... In 7 months time, everything changed so quickly and became so different.

Some left the state to further studies, some are occupied with their own hectic life, some are having other more important things to prioritise on..
Which explains why everyone (not everyone, but mostly) drifted apart.

Of course, it is also because of some of the misunderstandings that happened that causes all of these.. Which is the worst part cos small misunderstandings like these are actually able to cause such a havoc to friendship.. And it hurts me to see such great friendships weakened. If I know how to fix all the problem, I'd certainly do. And I regret for doing all the past mistakes that resulted in how it is right now.

I just... I just hope everything could return to how it used to be because it matters alot to me, friendship is a big part of my life. And seriously, I'd do anything to make everything work like how it used to..

I just wanna apologise for whatever wrong things that I did unintentionally/intentionally and hope that everything could be back to normal. It is a hard task to achieve, I understand.. I know the gap is not easy to be filled. But I just hope that things can go back to normal cos I love everyone of my friends and they matter alot to me.. ;(

*Both you and I know that we've really drifted apart very much compared to how we are previously. I can say that, we are the closest friends ever. We are the only one that can cope with the term "best friend", which is a very big term. Many things happened and it really hurts me to see the state of our friendship right now. From one of the most important ones in life, to just a very very normal friend.. And at times, I'm still sad because this is a friendship that I really really care about.. Back then, whenever we have problems we would consult each other. Whenever you or me is unhappy with each other, we would talk it out and settle it to avoid holding grudges (gunnysacking). But now... We don't even bother to talk it out anymore.. Everything just..changed... I know I might not have been a very good friend and at certain times you might be very disappointed/pissed at me.. I'm sorry.. ;( I really really want to apologise sincerely.. And it's because this friendship still matters alot to me and I can say that it is one of the greatest and longest friendship ever in my life.. ;/

At a point of our lives, we will realise that things are no longer how it used to be. And a part of us inside still have the urge to make things right.




Walking down the memory lane..

The Final Goodbye.

It was one day before Fung Soon move to Kampar. So a few of us decided to spend the last night with him =)

Our schedule of the night is go to i-City and somewhere else to chill after that ;D


For some reasons (on purpose I think), he wore this shirt with the word "Goodbye" on it LOL T___T





Anyways, all of us didnt know the road to i-City so Shin Mei used her sister's iPhone's GPS to check the road to i-City and she drew it on paper LOLL.


She used 3 papers to draw the map LOL!!

But at last, I didn't use her map LOL, I followed my own way cos before that I asked Carolyn the way she used the she went last time, which is through Federal Highway.


On the way there we were kinda doubting whether if the road is correct or not and when we see the i-City signboard, WE WERE SUPER HAPPY ;DD





That's basically how it looks like there ;D The lights are damn nice and we were kinda fascinated at first, but after walking for 5 minutes we were bored cos we realised the whole place is the same, same trees and decorations everywhere D:



Shin Mei & Fung Soon



Soon Yuen, Shin Mei & Fung Soon



3 of us taking picture with the d**k LOLLOLLL!! ;X



Biggest LOL.





*pictures are kinda blur cos it's really dark there, and the lights won't be able to be seen if we used Flash.


Then we went to Snow World to find out what's it about. When we entered the main entrance, we saw this machine that kinda looks like an air con but the 4 holes drop snow flakes LOL.


I was super fascinated by it, I stayed there for damn long just catching snow flakes and wiping it on Soon Yuen's body LOL. And soon it became a snowball war where we keep collecting ice from it and throw at each other ;X











After that we went to the Arcade right beside Snow World ;D






All of us want him to be dead ;X


After the arcade, we're already freaking bored of i-City so we went home LOL! Not exactly home, we went mamak (Barkath) to meet with Carolyn & Kai Sheng ;)

When we reached there, the first thing we did was order food cos all of us were FREAKING HUNGRY COS WE DIDN'T EAT DINNER.





This is what we ate LOL. I ate freaking alot on that night. Indo Mee, Lamb Chop & Roti Bomb ;X






Even the receipt need 2 pages to write everything xD


After eating, we didn't stay long too cos Fung Soon needs to wake up the next morning to go Kampar ;( So yeah we quickly took photos..


Fung Soon & Kai Sheng


Fung Soon & Shin Mei


Fung Soon, Kai Sheng, Soon Yuen


Carolyn & Fung Soon



T_______________T


Finally, the group photo... Which is also the last photo ;(





"Goodbye" T____T


Thus, the night ended like that.. We went back to the car and I sent Fung Soon home first cos he needs to wake up early the next day.. On the way home, we played emo songs in my pendrive, mainly from Jay Chou and it was getting a little bit emotional.

Throughout the whole night, I didn't feel anything.. I don't feel sad or anything at all.

Until when we reached Fung Soon's house area and pass by the guard house..
I wind down my car's window and told him "Jalan empat lapan belas" and closed my window.

By then, I realised... That's gonna be the last time I am ever gonna say "Jalan empat lapan belas" to the guard guarding that housing area..

Shortly after that, we reached his house.
All of us felt that we reached his house so soon, so he decided to go out after we finish listening to the song that was playing at that time, Jay Chou's 分裂 (Fen Lie). Halfway through the song, I looked at Shin Mei. She was staring at me and I could see from her eyes that she's already crying.. I can't describe what's my feeling that time cos my mood was very complicated.

Shortly after that, the song ended.. So he bid us farewell, opened the car door and went out. Then all of us walked out of the car and gave him a last farewell hug before he leaves the state.
The moment I hugged him, I told him,
"Come back more often okay?? And please please, remember to tell us everytime you come back.. Bye!!..."

Then I walked to a side and watch the others hug him. At that moment, all the feelings came up and the thought that came up to me that moment was "Oh shit, this is really the end." And I teared. I watched him walk into his house and see how he slowly disappeared from my sight. I entered my car and I continued driving. I couldn't control myself and I started crying.. Shin Mei was already crying at the passenger seat. Soon Yuen remained silent at the back. I was basically driving with one hand cos I was using my left hand to cover my mouth and nose so that no one could hear me weeping.. The whole journey home was pure silence. None of us talked.. Then I realised the last time I really cried was during form 3, exactly 4 years ago. I sent Soon Yuen and Shin Mei back. Soon Yuen pat my back and said goodbye, it was very nice of him.. Shin Mei smiled and asked me if I'm okay, then she left the car. And I head home after that...

Even though I'm not a UTAR-ian, but I already feel like I'm a part of them cos I know what's happening in their lives and I'm always interested to know about it. =)


The Memories..


Fung Soon, Shin Mei & Me. This was 2 years ago..



Fung Soon & Me 2 years ago during the Prefect Annual Dinner =')
I still remembered I went to his house early to match his outfit for him and get ready for everything =) Haha..




Approximately 9 months ago, when I'm having my Mid Semester break and the UTAR-ians were having their Semester break.
I know it is going to be very hard for all of us to gather like this and have fun again next time, but I'll still cherish every moment in the future.. =)



This was one of the best moment last year. Jia Meng's parents and sisters were away so he asked us to go to his house and have fun ;) We drank red wine, partied, went to Mc Donald to get food, banged someone's car and so much more.



Such great moments.. Hope there are still chance like this in the future =)


Every friend's brithday celebration, both of us will always be there. We almost attended all the brithday celebrations last year, which explains why we spend so much of our time together =D




















See? Every celebration, both of us will always be there ;D



We even went Genting together ;D Amazing New Year Eve countdown, the place might be boring but it's the ppl you go with that decides whether it's a good trip or not. I went with all my high school friends and it was a super awesome countdown, becos of the awesome ppl ;)





Awesome ppl ;)



We even went clubbing together HAHA!


*ignore my drunk tard face

I gotta apologise for ruining the night for you guys cos I got super drunk and you guys had to take care of me and couldn't enjoy. I'm sorry and I'll control myself next time D:




Attend events together ;)





All these great and awesome memories that are so hard to get back. However I believe that this is not the end of everything, it's just the start and we'll have even greater moments in the future. I'm sure we will ;)

And to Fung Soon, all the best in Kampar and no matter what happens, our friendship won't change! =) All of us are always here for you whenever you need help, we're more than willing to lend a helping hand to you ;D Take care and stay happy!! We're waiting for your return ;)