It's February which means it's past time that I get around to my 2014 summary post.

If 2013 was the year everything changed, 2014 kept it up. 

I mean, come on! I started the year driving because of my internship. It's crazy! Till now, I can't believe that I've already driven for a year. Driving has to be one of my greatest challenge and yet, knowing that I conquered it (without getting into any major accidents!) has made me feel more confident about myself.

Internship was an eye-opener; it has totally changed the way I think about myself. I think I've finally internalised what Adhila and Eric have been telling me throughout our sessions together. Not only that, I've also found out what I truly want out of my life, what is important to me, what drives me. So, that has been an awesome experience.

Then, it was hectic uni life and getting back into the groove. In the midst of this was my 100 days of trial with boyfriend. It was truthfully, a terrible time. The anxiety, the helplessness, the hope, all bitter sweet but I guess, seeing that we did end up together, it wasn't too bad of an idea.

Relationships are all about ups and downs, wrongs and rights, trial and error. Despite all that, the fact that we made it to 10 months now is pretty amazing. :D There is no one (Kpop don't count!) I rather call boyfriend than you. 

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Popo Chen passed away. There are still days where I'm surprised by the fact that she's no longer around. I can still remember the day that I finally realized she was gone for good—daddy was talking about grandchildren and I thought Popo would be happy about that and then realised she isn't around to see them.

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I have finally handed up my thesis. Not my best work but it is now in the hands of God (please, I just want to pass!) and the lecturers who will mark it. Still, I am glad that this part of my life is over. I can no longer call myself a student.

Which means my next phase in life is starting or should I say, it already has? I'm not too sure about this part and honestly, I am in no great hurry to decide. I just feel like taking a break and doing what I want to do. Probably not the wisest thing but I feel like I need time to figure out what I am going to do next.

I've always thought being an adult was pretty clear-cut. Being able to drive would make me an adult. Earning a monthly income would make me an adult. Owning a credit card would make me an adult. Getting older should make me an adult. While they are milestones I am proud to have achieved, I found that none of them makes me an adult. In fact, I'm not sure I'll ever be.

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2015, I think will be a year for me. For me to learn about what I want, where I want to go, and what I want to do with pretty much the rest of my life.

I really hope I'll find the answer before the year ends.

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What is this? 

December already?

How can it be?

Alas, the calendar speaks nothing but truth for the 12th month of the year is already in its 4th day. I shall not lament about how time zooms by like a laser beam and leaves us so ever mercilessly.

I am merely here to bid hello, for I have been gone for far too long. I am here to say that things are going well, as well as change, nerves and pressure can be.

To say my procrastination is dragging me down is an understatement, I'm more like buried six feet deep and tied to something dark and heavy. I am worried, in a sort of back of my mind kinda way. Or perhaps I am just running away (ironically) because I think the answer will crush me, as it has before. I am not sure how to deal with it, the last time it happened, I somehow (Thank God) got a life jacket while drowning in my own tears. Not sure it's gonna happen this time again, actually no, don't want it to even be an option. It can't happen again. This struggle annoys the hell out of me. Urgh.

Okay, back to December and all the bright shiny things it has to offer. Looking forward to next week's escapade and Christmas! How can I be down when Christmas is just around?

This past 11 months have been a ride of new beginnings, new endings, new opportunities and new love. If 2013 was crazy, this year has been crazier (but like in a much better less-heartbreaking way).

I guess a review post will come up some time later, probably after the curse of my thesis(!) has lifted. Oh, this burden is damn heavy to carry.

Let's keep things positive yes?

 One more day to Friday! We can do it!

xoxo

And I'll write your name

hello, I'm back! I know, I know, I'm a terrible person for not being consistent. I've found that I'm not as keen as I used to be on updating and writing about the ongoing of my life. I've only blogged 7 times since the beginning of this year. ><

Its not that nothing much have been happening, in fact its been quite a busy hectic time from the get-go itself. Wow, now that I'm reflecting on it, I've really not have had the time to fully rest and just take time out for myself. From January with the internship to rushing for my internship report and getting a thesis supervisor to finishing my last semester of my degree and everything else in between, there really hasn't been a time to just breathe. Its no wonder that I feel so worn out now that I actually have the time to just let go for a while. Even that is an illusion really, I'm just stealing time when I don't even have any to spare. But I know that if I don't find rest, I won't be able to do what I have to do and it'll just be a repeat performance of the year before Korea. Okay, enough venting. Lets move on to some stuff that I've been up to.

There was a Singapore trip. Yes, again. I went with my mum and Jill before my finals started actually. YOLO right. There was also a wedding to attend, so we thought might as well make it a family trip as Jill has been wanting to go to Universal Studios Singapore. 

Jill got her USS, I got my Gardens by the Bay. :D

Finally went to Gardens by the Bay, weather was quite warm but it did not deter me! The whole place is beautiful, it reminded me of Korea and I thought to myself that if I lived in Singapore, I would visit every weekend. We did not, however go into the conservatories as they were quite pricey and we did not plan for them in our budget. I would really like to go in one day though.

The wedding I attended was for a really old friend who I've known since I was 12 or 13. I am very happy for her and her husband, Joseph and I wish them all the love and happiness a marriage can bring. Despite having to make the journey all the way to Singapore, I was really glad to be able to be a part of it. 

Then, we came home and I had to prepare for my finals. In the middle of that, my grandma's condition got really bad and my aunt and her family flew down from UK because we weren't expecting her to last long. This pic is with my aunt and my cousin, Dominic.

And erm, yea, she didn't. On 23rd July, Popo passed away. Doctor said she went without pain and I'm glad for that. Despite popo being in KL, I never really took time out to see her more often but I did manage to tell her that I love her, to tell her that she is surrounded by people who will remember her.  

I went back to Ipoh for Raya and met up with the girls. For the first time in a long while, we had the most complete of us, which was 5 out of 8. Lol. I missed them, missed the ease and comfort that comes from years of friendship. I'm amazed by how we've changed and how we've also remained the same. #bff (:

That's been pretty much what's been going on. Like I said, there's really not been much time to just relax. I feel so drained, an introvert thing I guess because I feel like I've been surrounded by so many people lately. I don't mean it as a bad thing but I could use some time away which is what I'm doing now. And I know that I have to go on with life and all its requirements. So you know, just bounce. ^^

Tell me how to get back to

Back to summer paradise with you

And I'll be there in a heartbeat

My last update was in April. That was a long time ago, isn't it? I apologize for not being around. Its not like I don't feel like writing anymore but perhaps I'm out living more now, breaking out of my antisocial self(?). Haha. Or its just getting a bf. Its quite fun. :D

Don't stare at the bears for too long. You might start hallucinating.

There was one time in late April where I drove my ass back to Ipoh to meet up with this beautiful woman and had a road trip up to Penang. First time driving to Penang, was a good experience.

We had our girl heart to heart talk on the drive back. It was a good time. And now that I look back, many things have changed. Or more like just one, but a pretty big one.

Moving on, I can't exactly recall what has happened. Seems like much but not really. Life went on as normal, I went for classes, started a part-time job that I disliked and ended, went out with the girls, went out with the bf, eat good food, play all night, the usual.

Most recent was celebrating Mummy's birthday in Signature @ the Roof. Not the best place to go, won't really recommend it to anyone. Food was mediocre, ambiance needs improvement but they did have creative cocktails.

"Special" Milo Ais

Nothing much else really. I'm in the middle of my study break right now, so I'm chillin'. Working on my thesis, that's the other thing I'm focusing on right now and making money (when I feel up to it).

Can't believe we're going into the seventh month already. I can still remember the first day of 2014 like it was yesterday and here we are going into July. I think I've done good so far, perhaps I have not achieved all my objectives but I'm getting there. Life is a journey, right?

and with that, I end. No, actually, I end with penguin kisses. #tgif

밤의 끝을 잡고 춤을 추다
네가 생각나면 새벽 한시야

Hieeeeee! 

its been another long stretch of time since I last updated. Can't believe time has flown by so quickly, we're already in the 4th month, already a quarter way done with the year. the struggle with time has always been a pull and push thing, sometimes I want time to pass but most times, I just want time to dawdle along so that everything that needs to be done can be done.

the first three months as mentioned in the last post has been for internship. Internship was everything good and useful and enlightening. It was a really good start to my 2014. And now, its back to school and classes and thesis(!). its better now compared to my last semester; I've sort of made friends, its not so scary or lonely to walk into class and the workload is bearable. I am still required to step out of my comfort zone, to do things I am not good at but these are all part of learning and growing, I guess.

 But I'm not here to moan and groan about my uni life or how fast time is zooming by. I'm here to write about my trip to Singapore with the girlfriends. It was only a 3 days 2 nights trip, didn't have the time to explore Singapore as much as I would have liked to but we did reach the goals we set for ourselves. ;D


Universal Studios!

it was great! I absolutely loved it, wouldn't mind going back again. the Transformers ride was the bomb! I want to live in that thing. haha.


I really liked Universal Studios, the details of every building, costume, prop. I loved how the rides incorporated the movies and I really think its worth going again. :D

after Universal Studios, we took a small tour around Sentosa.

okay, so I'm not doing this chronologically, so yea. this was on the way to Gardens by the Bay. It was too dark and too late for any proper pictures but I'm still glad I got a look at it. Must go back again though and cycle around.

I've got crazy friends yo!

I made new friends too, one who might become more? Haha. that's for another day. overall, we had a really good time in Singapore. I'm glad for the time away to just breathe for awhile, to refresh and gather strength for all the things I will face now. ^^

Also, being in Singapore reminded me of how much I liked it, the freedom, the safety, the places. I need to go there more often. Heeh.


There was also a short trip to Malacca with mummy and sis. We did nothing much because it rained quite a lot and Jonker Street wasn't open, so it was just some time spent together as family. (:

That's about the update for now. Have a good week ahead!

tra la la~
as always, its pretty guaranteed i'll be here whenever my finals are around the corner (and my first paper is literally 12 hours around the corner).

got myself some colorful feathers. :D this year's Christmas deco in Sunway Pyramid is real pretty.

took a few pics the other day when mummy came down to visit. 

there's been some changes that happened over a very short amount of time. i've got 20/20 vision now thanks to daddy. Lasik was a very interesting experience, the surgery itself was painless and fortunately, i did not suffer as much compared to all the stories i heard. in fact, there are no side effects and i could see quite clearly after 5 hours of sleep after the surgery.

another change was my phone. haha. yessss, a new phone! thanks to Daddy again. i am very blessed indeed. got myself a Sony Xperia C which has been serving me very well. 

the last change would be the fact that i've got wheels now. lots of practice and experience needed before i consider myself competent. sorry but i won't be driving anyone around till i can trust my own skills. :/ but all in all, i feel that this is a significant milestone in my journey to adulthood. ^^

these are all the latest updates in my life. like i said, finals start tomorrow. i'm starting to feel nervous now. /squeaks. prayers are appreciated. (:

be back soon!

사랑 같은 소리 따윈 집어 쳐,
오늘밤은 삐딱하게

on to part 2! 

there was a week in October where i traveled back to Ipoh to attend a friend's wedding. is he considered friend ah? lol. he was my officer when i was in Boys' Brigade. really happy that he tied the knot. ^^

i'm looking forward to all the weddings i'll be attending next year. :D

and then, early before that, there was graduation. supposed to be my graduation too but yea, Korea and everything moved the plan back a little. still, i'm very happy for my batchmates! they've done it, they've completed another part of their journey and now ready to move on to bigger better things (i hope haha)!

with the proud graduates, Alice and Andrea. 

with Charles.

with Nurul.

one day, it will be my turn (in 2015 ><)!

and earlier that day before heading to the graduation ceremony, i had a photoshoot with my group members for our Leadership magazine. its an assignment for our Leadership class where we design and make a magazine based on leadership stuff. yea yea, leadership? really? but still, kinda fun because its not the usual research paper assignment. plus we get to take pretty pictures of ourselves!

i can't help but put all my fav pics here. they're so pretty! we're so pretty! :D

and a random day where i helped my friend act in her advertisement which was also a class assignment.

with Charlie, my co-actor.

i think there is a part 3 coming up. lol. this is the update for now.

more coming soon! ^^

이 눈물이 잠들 때까지 더 있어줄래요?

been gone for too long, haven't i? it has even started snowing in Korea. i do apologize. i would say i was out living life but erm, that might not be accurate. haha. still, the past month and the half have been somewhat good, much better than my pre-Korea time (only because instead of being a hermit, i'm going out more often).

lots have been happening; Daddy's birthday and the fact that he's back for a while, meeting up with my girls and only realising very belatedly that we should have gone out more often when we were still students together, traveling back to Ipoh to attend a wedding, lending my face and terrible acting skills to two productions, school stuff, graduation, going out and meeting new people, yeap, all that. busy busy busy. i'm not complaining, no, i think i quite like it despite the dent its putting on my wallet but there is no price to the times i get to spend with my family and friends. heeh. ^^ plus plus all the good food that i've been gobbling. so blessed!

i guess i'll let the pictures talk. its easier that way. mind you, there's gonna be a few and not chronologically arranged at that too. they go all the way back since September. gosh, i'm such a terrible blogger. i didn't even find time to blog about my birthday. i'll have a separate post up for that later.

first up; my girls and food. they go well together. :D


idk why but the picture shows a very unflattering image of us. they blame my camera. D:


seafood!

no idea what we were laughing about but isn't that what happens when girls get together? talk, eat, laugh, get a little crazy.

with Andrea's big-eyed pink lemur.

Daddy's 55th birthday where we went out and had dinner. 

 family picture.

gonna miss Daddy when he goes back to South Africa but he's gonna come back for CNY so yay!

i'm gonna stop here for now because its getting too long (a bit OCD la) and move on to the next post aka part 2. no idea whats with the gif below other than its cute. /grins

you and me against the world.
with you, I ride or die tonight.

hi, people. i know, i know, where have i been?

just been readjusting to life here, to a life of attending classes, having assignments and meeting new people (or more like avoiding new people whenever possible). it hasn't been easy and i think i'm just trying to go through it day by day. i don't mean to be all emo about this. oops!

anyway, other than uni and non-existent friends, life is pretty much the same way as it was before i left. not a very good thing actually but i'm going to ABC it. haha. its a psychological term sort of. lets hope my experiment works although its actually failing now.

right. i'm gonna head to bed. just want to give a heads up; i'm surviving and eating well. 

goodnight. God bless~