Okay so Friday was date number five with Perfect on Paper. I've really been trying to be open minded and keep on even though I don't really feel much of a click or spark, because, really, he's perfect (on paper). Sure, a little sappy, dorky and awkward, but obviously harmless and well meaning. I felt like rejecting him based on a less than stellar first impression was being
too picky and all of my friends seemed to agree and were even rooting for him. We'd gone out on four dates-- the first three I was kind of like "meh" but then the fourth date we had a lot of fun and I thought I might be warming up to him a bit more. So I agreed to a fifth date. It was supposed to be bowling, but at the last second he suggested that I come over to his house and he made me dinner and then we watched a movie. It had been a long stressful week, so that option sounded more appealing than a noisy bowling alley and I agreed.
I'm not going to give a whole recap of the date, but I'll give you some random details. This is what I am good for as the token single girl in nearly all of my social circles. Married people love to hear how hard and ridiculous it is to be dating in your thirties. So here goes-- my pain is your amusement:
- His house was really nice. He had described it as a townhome, but it was really more like a condo. He allowed me to full on snoop through the whole place while he was cooking dinner. The whole place was builders white-- not a drop of paint on the walls. He had nice furniture, and lots of random knick knacks and pictures from his travels around the world. His powder room had adult wipes sitting on top of the toilet, which is something I would have put away if I was expecting company. He had a study that was filled with fitness equipment and a huge shelf with hundreds of cds. I thought that was a testament to what generation he is from (he's 38). Other than Counting Crows cds, I can't remember the last time I bought a physical cd and put it on a shelf. The whole place was very clean and tidy and nicely decorated, considering it is a bachelor pad.
- On a plus side, he got me flowers.
- He kissed me, or attempted to kiss me, roughly 28937423 times. Not like, make-out let's-get-it-on kissing, but like kisses on the forehead, or the cheek or the top of my head. Unremittingly. Like, five fast kisses in a row the way a grandma might kiss her six month old grandchild if she hadn't seen him in a while. Taking my coat required a kiss on the cheek. Laughing about how we have almost matching Columbia coats required a kiss on the forehead. Handing me a fork at dinner required multiple cheek kisses. I'm not a touchy feely person in general, so that got old fast. Really fast. (Although I do feel like I should explain that despite all of that he didn't cross the line into getting handsy or inappropriate... just odd and discomforting).
- Referred to me as "madam" repeatedly which made me feel like I was 100 years old. Also referred to me as "sweetie" repeatedly which made me feel like I was 4 years old.
- Dinner was really nice and actually delicious. I was impressed-- salad, salmon with some kind of really wonderful gingery marinade, and couscous.
- Dinner conversation was what I now understand to be the usual-- lots and lots and lots of talk about his work. I understand that discussing your job is always the path of least resistance and an easy default to keep conversation going, but now that it's our fifth date and I'm hearing the same auto insurance stories over and over... it's just dull and tiresome.
•During the movie he put his arm around me, which was acceptable. Then he started sniffing my head and hair. I got the impression that he thought this would be a charming thing to do but finally I had to be like "Are you sniffing me?! Can you please stop?!"
- After the movie was over, he said he had a confession and told me that when we had first made plans to go bowling he went one afternoon and did a practice run to make sure his skills were up to par. I thought was straddling the border of sort of sweet, sort of bizarro.
- But THEN he said he had a second confession-- that our last date when I leaned to get out of his car that my pants had slipped down and some of my butt had ended up hanging out of top of my pants... I was so creeped out and told him so. WHO SAYS THAT?! Like really. I mean, it happened and you noticed, but why are you telling me now? That was when I figured I needed to wrap things up and get outta there.
- The good night kissing was the absolute nail in the coffin. I was trying to make the best of a bad situation, but there was no salvaging anything in that department. His glasses stabbed me in the eye, and at one point his entire mouth was wrapped around mine-- like both of my lips were inside his mouth. Then he pulled away and said "Someone's breathing is getting a little fast". I think in his head he thought that might come out seductive and mysterious, but at that point it was just comical. If my breathing was fast, it was because I was gasping for air as he attempted to perform CPR on me.
Okay, that turned out a little meaner than I meant for it to be... but.. it is what it is.
Saturday after many, many texts recapping his favorite parts of the evening and trying to get me to commit to hang out again Saturday and/or Sunday, I had to tell him that his intensity was terrifying and that I needed some space. His response was that he never meant to make me feel uncomfortable and that he would respect my wishes. I'm inclined to ignore him and hope he goes away, but I have been advised that I need to man up and make sure he's clear that I am 100% uninterested.
So I guess this is the first time that I am officially breaking it off because he has no game. At all. I don't know how to explain it, but I guess it's much more intriguing to hold a little back. My friend The TrueDeeva got to hear all about him when we met up on Saturday. She thinks he lacks swagger. You want a guy that interested enough, but still holding back some to keep you interested. Clearly-- not Perfect on Paper. Anyways, after we had a few laughs about my date we had a nice conversation about internet dating, dating with kids, dealing with the fathers of our kids and all of the drama they bring. As usual, I left wishing we got together more. She's sharp, and witty and confident and in the past year or so she's turned into an internet dating maven (quote of the evening: "I'm all about being open minded!" she declared. "I'm dating short guys, fat guys... even
white guys!"). She sort of re-energized me to get back out there and stay positive and keep having fun.
Anyways, feel free to comment. Happy Monday.