WWF Reunion!

My weekend got kicked off to a good start when I met up with some friends from my old work place for a BYO dinner at Cafe Cuba which USED TO BE my favorite place to go out for dinner. I'm not sure if the service we got was a trend of the whole cafe or just a couple of new employees. I'm not really one to cause a fuss about customer service but since I've been living with Nicole she has pointed out many stark differences between the customer service one would expect in Canada and New Zealand.

We got there and a table had been set up for us inside- we had decided on the way that we would ask to be seated outside as we assumed we would get too loud to be seated outside... we were also relieved to have made this decision once we got there when we heard the young child screaming right next to the table we were supposed to be at. So I politely asked if it would be possible for us to move outside to the waitress that seated us. "Yeah thats ... fine" she replied hesitantly - keep in mind we are a pretty easy bunch to please and all if would take was for the waitress to move 6 knives and 6 forks from one table to another... not really rocket science. So we seat ourselves outside not wanting to cause too much fuss- I assume this is something the waitress didn't really count on because she look surprised to see out sitting outside when her and another waitress were bringing out out 6 knives and 6 forks having a very vocal bitch about us and the audacity we had to ask to be seated elsewhere...

STRIKE ONE


Strike 2 a) I ordered steak medium rare and was disappointed when I got this half-assed chewy kind of well done kind of not steak.
Strike 2 b) the bitch for what ever fucking reason gave me two forks and two knives- and not a fucking steak knife in sight

STRIKE 3- We weren't long finished out dinner and it wasn't near closing time and the staff started clearing tables around us and winding up wind breakers- subtle hint for us to leave?? I think so.

Suffice to say I won't be booking dinner there any time soon- thanks for nothing. P.S. your feeble attempts at making friendly conversation to compensate for the fact that we ALL heard you bitching about us was insulting. Next time just keep quiet and do your fucking job.

Apart from that - the night itself was a success- It was SO good to catch up with the girls. It made me realise just how much I missed them.

Awkward moment of the weekend has to go to Sunday evening when I got an email from a friend telling me that I had signed up for a drag show that I don't recall or even want to do- now I need to spend the week figuring out an excuse to get me out of it!!!

The Lazy Song

So its a long weekend here and I think if I had to sum up my life for the past three days this song would best describe it:

Its funny how a bit of alone time can make you think. I have come up with 5 random things that I have decided about myself and my life as a result of all of this thinking:

1. I want to move
2. I hate call centres
3. I want to feel pursued (at least once!)
4. I need to stop drinking
5. I NEED to get back into running

I think I like to change my mind a lot also which makes decisions about my life tricky. So I have decided I need to focus on the things I can control and work on the small things before I have any hope of tackling the big stuff.

Okay so basically I can tackle 1 & 2 at the same time- which looking at things can't be straight away.
3 I have no control over so there is no point even spending much more time thinking about it.
So through process of elimination I am going to be looking at 4 & 5 for the next month- Here is how I want this to work-

Step 1: RUN! Every day after work- no matter what the weather. No matter how much I can not be fucked. I know I will thank myself in the end (I may need help being reminded of that!)

Step 2: DRINK LESS! This is also going to help me with the 'saving plan' I bought up in an earlier post. So I say 'Stop Drinking' yes but I think this will have to be a gradual process because lets be honest- I'm only 22 and I like to have fun and no... sadly I'm not one of those people who can go out clubbing completely sober and enjoy myself. This I think stems from a lack of self confidence- now heres where things get interesting...

I figure I run more and drink less I get fitter and healthier and shed a few right- ergo confidence rises... I figure  self confidence isn't something you either have or you don't it is something you need to grow and maintain. Hence the more I run and the less I drink - Ill be out clubbing sober in no time (okay so maybe not THAT fast... but faster than if I sat here and bitched about it without doing anything).

Also funny story about number 3- so I slept with this guy I like a while back and I haven't really spoken to him since. Mainly because I was completely drunk when it happened and dont remember anything. But it's funny because its a situation that I found paralleled one Jack is going through in his most recent post at Confronting the Confused- If you dont read it let me just tell you its deffo worth a read.

Anyway the situation is this: I told Zachary I liked him a lot and what I got back was "You're a really nice guy but I feel I should be honest with you. Im not really looking to be romantic with anyone at the moment. Im too happy being by myself." - I kind of understood this to an extent because I LOVE single life but when I probed him further it seemed like that was a life plan for him and it kind of threw me. I mean I know everyone is entitled to live their life the way they want to (and Im not judging at all) I just never thought at this age there would be people making plans to be alone the rest of their life- and I dont mean no friends of family but surely there are just some things/needs only a partner can fulfil?

Anyway recap- RUN MORE, DRINK LESS!


xo

 Before you comment on what I'm wearing- it was for a quiz night... Team theme "Social Misfits". Front to back: Geek, Slut, Emo

Welcome!

Welcome to the new look me... I have been thinking about this for a while now and while I enjoyed the old Blog I think it is time for me to get a bit serious and write something with a little more credibility.

So for those of you who aren't familiar with me- I had/have a blog called 'TheDawnRave'. And while all of the writings in there were true- I want to be able to write something that I would want my friends to read. Some of the things in there are far from public knowledge and I would prefer to keep things as such... This is where the new blog comes in.

I'm not going to be hiding behind some pseudo-being who doesn't give his real name and Im way too easily confused to be able to keep nicknaming people. I'm also not going to publish anything that I wouldn't want people to know about me... for some of you you may find that disappointing- but I still hope you will want to take this journey with me.

I  guess the most fitting thing for a first post would be an introduction!

Hi - my name is Ben. I am currently 22y/o and live in New Zealand...

...Nice  to meet you :)