Saturday, October 18, 2003

Humans will be the death of themselves. We are in our own God. We can do anything if we have faith in ourselves. We are the masters of our fate(some may disagree). We can and will, control our own future. This is in my personal opinion.

You see, people, go around smoking, driving cars and so on, harming the enviroment. As we all know, ciggerattes is bad for health....................................BAH. I GIVE UP. LAZY. NO INSPIRATION.

Anyway, today went to Aaron.k.'s house early in the morning, spent the whole day there palying war3. All the way from 10am - 5 Pm. Pro boh? Anyway, did all kinds of lame stuff there. Got aaron addicted to FFA also. he is pro sia. Thrashed 5 people on one game. now level four. Pro.

Came home and stone, read book then go to sleep lorZ....

Friday, October 17, 2003

OMG. What a tarded day. Esp today. Just had to go to school to waste time. Just my luck to have that lousy dickhead of a lecturer Nathan. Irritating bastard.

Anyways, went to school today for some Sec4 farewell thing. More like sleeping lessons. Then right, it was supposed to be at 9:15. Then somehow, they managed to get it to start at a fricking time of 10:30. Waste so much time liao. Then crap about until 11:55 like that. Anyway, during that period of time, I went to play with a bottle of paint, then afterwards I lazy to walk all the way back so I just kicked it. PiacK!... The cover flew off. One whole corner of the classroom all white paint... LameZ.... Haiz wtf lor. Then had to clean it up. Was my fault anyway. Rahardjo is a really nice guy. Although it doesn't really concern him, he sitll help me to clean. Then the others just laugh. WTF. No wonder he got mad chairman and the others didn't stand a chance against him. What a loser.
Anyways, after the talk, we had lunch/recess/break. Whichever way youw ant to see that as. Until 12:30.. then later report back to the hall for briefing on the ACE camp. WtF Nathan is such a losuy presenter. And to think he is head of PE department. Anyway, I seriously think that he needs help with that problem of his. So. Back to where we were. He was like spending 10 mins at every SINGLE slide. So it's like there was literally close to a million slide and then a million times ten is like 1x10[to the power of 7). So basically, you get what I mean. So. Finally finished at like 2:45. And towards the end, Bernard teo had to repeat what he said earlier so. Fuck you. AND NATHAN HAD TO REPEAT WHAT HE SAID LIKE 2 HOUR BEFORE. And he was also stating the obvious. "You don't bring sunblock you get sunburnt","You don't bring cap your problem." AND TO THINK THAT EVERYTHING IS ON THE PAPER HE GAVE US IN THE MORNING. What a dcik. Not like we cannot read. Orh yar. He also had to like stop every one minute or so and think of what he want to say. What the hell.

Afterwards ran to Nicholas house and play war3. Got raped. Bad. I cancel 75% warmill, 95% grunt. So yar. you get the idea. Got raped by CY. Mad. Not used to his computer anyway.

Hmm ok. Came home and started Nerdi-fying myself. How? By reading a book. How unique. What the Hell. And that stupid kok up brother of mine had to complain about me for something i didn't do. So I just whack him up. Buai tahan. Now still feeling dan angry. What to whakc him somemore. Want to release my temper. I think I got PMS. LOLz. That is so lame. So. what the heck. Off to sleep sia.

Thursday, October 16, 2003

Hmmm lets see.. had chemistry today.. omg.. I screwed it up real bad. Anyway, after chem was like weet. Go celebrate. Went to Thomson plaza with john and nigel.. then later back tot J8 went there to stone and wait for nich and aaron and the rest to come.. later just play MTG the whole day and walla. you get my day.. Came home at around 5, then stone on msn, chat-ted to a lot of people and then insult some guy on MZ's BLog. the guy got so pissed that he spam the whole board. What a loser. Anyway, this is from one of my friend's blog. I do not posses any of this charestics... Just liked the way he wrote it so here goes.
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School's out. Chronic depression is very bad today, i guess my work load became apparent to me... sigh. been the first time ive had such dark dark thoughts since.. before this summer. If only i were allowed to give up on life, but as always, i cant. i have to think of others, i have to do what others need to be happy. i need to live for everyone but myself. but there is one person whom i live for upon my own will, but as always, i shall name no names. she is just a great person, and i love her a lot. anyways, if ur wondering why i dont get treatment or something, well... to be truthfull, nothing anyone can say to me will make me feel any better, or make me want to live anymore. my problem is with humanity. we as humans have destroyed ourselves, and we continue to diminish ourselves every day. we dont care for our species, our studies are enforced upon us and over rule the basic rule of nature, bondage, friendships, living in peace. everything we should do. i think we'd be better off as still being monkies. we would fight for each other, we wouldnt value anything that may seem insignificant to another animal. i think dolphins have it made. they learn by themselves, they dont have strict rules and they stay in a pack. they are intelligent, they even have sex for pleasure, as we do a bit too often. i would love to be reincarnated into a dolphin. no more worries about what i HAVE to do to live, i can just live off food i catch. money wouldnt be in my way, i wouldnt have a care in the world, and everyone would love me as i love them. there would be no discrimination... wow... sounds perfect to me. but no, humans are selfish pitiless morons, too thick to see how stupid they are. i know for a fact that im a moron, but at lease i know how to minimize my natural human instinct. that nasty disgusting habit of only thinking of OUR pleasure, what WE want, OUR future, not giving a damn about anything but succeding in life. but are we really succeding in life if we lose the value of life itself? are books and knowledge more important that ourselves? this just makes me more and more mad as i think about it. i guess its not just depression, its rage against the world and what i am. i guess this sounds a bit like an essay, but its just me explaining what i think, and my reasons. i would suggest you dont take a passion in my views as much as i do, but at least consider yourself, and maybe try to change your outlooks, try to fix things , our faults, what makes us so human is what makes us despicable. im not telling you to jump into the ocean and start emitting high freq. noise and flap around and swim along side your dolphin "brother". i merely hope that you understand what im saying and maybe contribute to the solution. fix this ugly thing, change it, you know u can. and for the love of god, if u do change, do not turn out like me, do not contract a chronic depression. i have amazing will power, and i use it to live another day and then another, but not everyone can do it alone. if someone who can make a difference, which is definetly you, cause i can make a difference, so can you, please pass this on, let other people know how to improve themselves, not for me, but for all those insane geniuses who think they make up for all of humanities faults. they dont, they create one, themselves. anyways, i dont know why i want people to change other's outlooks, i think its cause im not a normal human, and ive changed more than half of my putrid instincts.
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None of these apply to me
Credits: Yazz
Website: not allowed to tell
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So yar, you get the idea. The nature of the human being.

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

Hmm maths today.. i want to get a* but then i already got 42 for paper one so i must get at least 48 for paper two which is close to impossible considering the fact that I already lost one mark to clareless mistake >.< hopefullyu i get 48... Please God. Help me!!.

Okok.. today spent the whole day looking up on chem and studying chem. Cannot believe that CY is only going to be studying chem. tmr morning. If he really like that then. GG, no re, Thx for him liao. Stupid bastard so lame. I think he seriously Obsessed with War3. God. help him. Thank you.

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

Yes, yes I know you avid readers of my blog are probably expecting another flame for the MoE... Well, if you are really looking for it, then well, I guess, too bad for you then... Anyway, today was a pretty average day.. plenty of ups and downs...

Well, had Physics and chinese paper two today... Didn't really bothered to study for chinese to tian sia han ji I never even fill in any word... then Zao Ju.. I never do any, I just did 2 out of 3 of the huan zhen ju ji.. did i get that right? Anyway, Physics was super fun.. but really tricking.. Of course, How else would you explain a paper set by Mr Chen Linguag himself? The guy with the bad english. So. nothing much today. Just stone and study chem. Shit chem so hard. I'm done for. My chinese sucks. My lit sucks. And some one says i am showing off. Hmm Oh yar, the only up is like i got 42/50 for maths paper one? that's all.. so pathetic...

Monday, October 13, 2003

Woah cao.. CB.. Fucking fucked up day. Why? Because of the fucking tarded MoE..[MoE as in ministry of education, not anthony moe.]AnywayZ, I had Lit today, pretty screwed up.. didn't know what to study so i never study at all lorZ... Anyway, i managed to figure out Brother Jason's clues and managed to do pretty well for section C...

Can't believe what ahppened today sia.. Came home and talk to Dus, talk talk talk some more, then play war3.. SLACK LAR.. surf the web for Phys related stuff... sianZ...

What happened today that really made this day sucks is the fact that my mum just came home and started to bitch around.. kNN.. wtf lorZ... Because i go play computer after dInner then she bitch about.. Fucking tarded MoE's fault... I mean, who else can you blame for this stressful enviroment, this competitive Singapore, And the SO boring Singapore... I know, it is for our own good. What nonsense is this if Singapore is going to create stero-typical Singaporeans who run at the sight of trouble, migrate to other countries to study because of whatever reasons, operate services in other countries to save cost, doesn't help when Singapore is in trouble AND, recently, there was this lecturer[Who is a singaporean, need i say anymore?] who talked to the Sec fours and crapped about how Singapore is going to have a great depression and will only get back to it's 1995 state only if there are no more crisis, he also advised us to leave Singapore, I heard that Mr tan stood up against him and do dunno what. I RESPECT that. Also, My friend, Dustin, recently wrote this quote on his essay " Fightning for peace is like fucking for virginity". Seriously, I admire the fact that he actually has the courage to do that, besides, there are no rules that do not allow that. Besides, SM Lee[?], recently also stated that Singapore is now a "everything can do, only if we say cannot" country, and guess what, the markers are bringing Dustin's case up to the principal. WTF. Anyway, i am straying out of point. So, back to where we were, the singapore government is simply creating a sterotypical society that will be of no use to the country. It is already evident in the fact that primary school kids are not so responsive, For example, When a teacher asks for some one to volunteer to answer a question, how often do you see kids raise up their hands to answer? How Often do you have to see kids being called up by the teacher, without the teacher even asking for volunteers? SM Lee[?] Views that educational services is important, but how much does he know that the MoE is actually creating a bunch of sterotypical people designed with a robotic function?? How much of this does he know?? He should really give an unexpected visit on a school. I know he might be busy, but wtf? At least he knows what to do, and what to not do.

Not only that, the MoE are giving a misleading view to parents as to how their kids should do in school and excel in studies to be a successful person. Accoding to my humble point of view, a child can also excel in other areas, like look at " I not stupid", An em3 student goes to the US to study because of his art. Now, Why would anyone, a group of people who are like robots to choose from, we all know that robots do what they are designed to do, so, what I am simply saying is that, Why would employers want to hire robots, when they can hire people with initiative, and blah blah blah , and at the same time, cost less becasue of the certicficates. OMG, I mean, what good do people see in just PAPERS? I mean at least have some sense to instill some sense of purpose into the students, of course this is all up to the government to do, after all, I am just a 14 year old kid who is being pressurised because I "can study" but "don't want to" [Quotes from my mother].

There was also a recent poll on what employers are looking for in their Employees, cannot remember where/when it is liao.. Most of the employers stated that Singaporeans are now like robots, they do what they are assigned to do, nothing more, Why? Because "you are paid to do this"[Alvin Chua, English lessons]. They would rather hire workers are who are "keener, hungrier and are willing to work for a lesser pay"[History/ Sm Lee's speech].

So to conclude, the singaporean government should change it's policy, educate parents that studies are not the most important aspect of life. Having a deprived childhood is NOT GOOD. This is of course from my point of view and scince I am only a 14 year old, helpless, deprived kid, I do not believe that any one would actually borther to have read my post. Besides, if any parents did, I am that sure that 75% or more would disagree with my point of view. This is my point of view and i am not asking anyone to adhere to my point of view. So good luck, Have FUN.[The most important of childhood if you ask me]

Sunday, October 12, 2003

let's see, today is a super boring day with me doing nothing about as much as 1/2 of the day. I like wake up at like 11++ play computer a bit, just playing war3 with myself, then later after lunch do the same thing again, then later at four like that i went to sleep then kok ming come home then i cannot sleep so what the hell, go to my room at like4 pm, wake up at like 421 knn. Nevermind, after wards watched mtv then after MTV play some more war3 with myself, then later i got bored of playing war3 with myself so i came online, and guess what, there was no one to chat with.. so more playing of war3 with myself, i was feeling lame then i went to use NE and then eat through the trees then use some moon wells to hide there, damn funny, took the computer more than one hour to find me... lolZ lame sia.. Oh yar.. then later i play UD and Hu i go sucide. use militia and unsummon, damn funny sia...

Anyway, the best tatic for UD is the just unsummon your buildings at the start of the game. The best strad ever create. By me lolZ.

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