Spanghew

Gaberlunzie----->A beggar. Spent the whole day with 1u today with my primary schoolmates, went there by bus, spent the rest of the day there playin pool and arcade and spent the evening watvhing my favorite movie, Emporor's New Groove 2 !!! That show rules!!! Also pretty exhausted too. Been sleeping late then early the next day, waking early and late in alternate days too... Anyway it's time for New Year resolutions and stuff, since its gonna be a new year and all...

10 Years ago
1.I started kindergarden at Ringrose(I think)
2. Got my first caning from my mom.
3. Started playing computer games (Sonic 3D rulz!!!!)

5 Years ago
1. I picked up basketball and football as well as started running for my life (Catching!!!Haha)
2. I gave up on badminton, deciding that I was too heavy for the sport :p
3. I finished my Grade 8 piano!!! :) Too bad no one knew what it meant, didn't do diploma after that.

3 Years ago
1. Started listening to jazz music, which is one of my best friends nowadays (Thanx David Benoit!!!)
2. Started to realise that my brother was REALLY REALLY ANNOYING!!!! Haha
3. I had bad teeth. Real bad.

Yesterday
1. I said goodbye to my cousins which I would probably see in Melbourne sometime later. Had a picture of the 15 of us lined up in 1 row, me being the tallest :p
2. Thought about today's reunion, thinking about meeting the girl that I had a HUGE crush when I was in Primary school for 3 years (I met her!!! ;))
3. Realised how special my cousins are, and that I've to work a lot harder to be as good as them, or even as funny. Caught a cold too.

Today
1. Met up with all my primary classmates, exchanged phone numbers and stuff.
2. Decided that I should update my blog.
3. Chatted with 6 ppl at once but forgot to reply them(Oops, sorry)

Tomorrow I will...
1. Figure out when and where and how to register for AUSMAT in Sunway college, as well as book tennis court for Sunday.
2. Plan out the remainder of my holiday, have fun with my other cousins from Hong Kong!!!!
3. Talk to a good friend. Half an hour at least.

5 Things I can't live without
1. Music. It's my life. I'm without rhythm without it. Without soul. I feel like Kino in The Pearl now. Song of the Good us playing.
2. Sports. I kick a ball around when I'm frusrated. I play basketball when I'm down. I play with a tennis ball when I'm thinking. If I were to bring womething to a desert island woth me, I'd bring a football with a huge wall to kick it against.
3. Friends. Although I'm still learning how to be a good one, friends are the probably the light and the true answers to most of my questions and problems that I would face. Forgive me if I have offended anyone in anyway.
4. Family. Any questions?
5. Hot chicks. The apple to the eye, everyone loves them. And I'd work HARD to get one too.

4 People I admire
1. David Benoit/George Benson. Jazz legends.
2. My cousin Joshua. Very good control of his temper and the situation, can make anyone smile when he/she's down.
3. My cousin Chris. Super organised, cheerful and sarcastic. Tons of experience in football coaching, HOW DOES HE DO THAT?!?!?!?!?
4. Owen Wilson. I dunno why, but he does the best conman acting on screen EVER. To me.

5 Bad Habits I Have
1. Forgetting friends. I've been paying a heavy price for that, and I've learned my lesson.
2. Conveniently forgetting stuff to do. Happens between me and my mom all the time, I forget SO MUCH STUFF and everytime she points it out accurately...
3. Being messy. I'm a real sloppy person, school work, organising stuff, everyting's done at the eleventh hour. Sorry mom. Again.
4. Neglecting responsiblities. One of the reasons is that I'm afraid of them.
5. I used to bite my nails. Does that count?

5 Things that Scare Me.
1. Amityville Horror.
2. Huge marine life. Especially whales.
3. Being alone.
4. Being without music. Monotonous.
5. Everyone around me not laughing. At all. For ages.

3 Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. Pyjamas. I love blogging in pyjamas.
2. A smile on my face. I can't believe I made it this far.
3. myself out. I'm half-dead now, but I'd like to get this entry over with.

3 Of Your Favourite Hobbies.
1. Listening to jazz music.
2. Watching comedies. Loving it. Watching Wedding Crashers.
3. Playing sports.

5 Carrers You Are Considering
1. Engineering
2. Psychology.
3. Accounting.
4. Business/Any of the above.
5. My dad's career. Electriccal engineer.

3 Places you Wanna Go on A Vacation.
1. Hawaii!!!! Hula girls!!!! Sun, and probably beach soccer :)
2. Langkawi. Four Seasons Hotel. You know they have a pool table where you can play for free? If you buy a drink that is. Miss the Coffee Calypso already.
3. Old Trafford, and everywhere around it. Watch Man United play football, shop around town, what more could you want?

Until next time, ciaoz.

Gaberlunzie

Tawdry---> Something shoey but cheap and of poor quality. Like display products haha. I just came back from Cameron Highlands a few hours ago, and the hols so far are pretty much a bucket of fun, just that I don't think I am a bucket of fun myself haha... More cousins have arrived and everyone's having fun, I'm quite surprised that I have time to write this entry haha... I'm doing a Chinese nursery rhyme for our dinner reunion tuesday night, I'm so thankful that I know Chinese, as well as speaking it... I've also gained a few kilos too, someone remind me to exercise like hell after the hols haha...

Well I guess I'm gonna talk abt Langkawi and Cameron. I'll start with Langkawi, lots of pics for this trip, went with 4 of my cousins, and we stayed at Lanai hotel... Wasn't that fancy, but the scenery was beautiful... Highlights of the trip was the run up the waterfall and the trip to the Underwater World. Ooooh ahhhh but pictures speak louder than words :)

This is the view on top of the waterfall, it's called Seven Wells... Weird name , nice view, who cares
This is one of the local residents we bribed at the bottom of the waterfall to get information on the best photo-taking spots(We used Yupi jellybeans!!!) P.S. Just in case you haven't noticed, it's a monkey haha

Then, the Underwater World...
Lovely ladies struttin' their stuff here as the Flamingoes show off how good a pretty bird looks like...
Penguins!!!! Rockhopper penguins in fact, whta more would you expect? They swim funny too, anyone want a video can ask me for it... Hehe

Of course there are more pictures, but I have to talk about Cameron while it's still fresh in my mind so that I don't get carried awayw... I went with 6 of my cousins this time, but sadly went for 2 days 1 night only... we left by coach at 730 a.m., and it was non-stop shopping from there... First we went to some tea shop, bought lots of tea for my mom, then we went for night market late in the evening all the way until nine... Did more shopping the next day, went for cactus farm too, but we spent most of the two days in a bus travelling up and down the whole trip... I'll insert the pictures later, the cactuses were arranged quite nicely... Of course everyone knows I'm not the shopping kind of person, so highlight of that trip was when our bus was caught in a jam next to a fire station, and there were rhese 6 firemen playing sepak takraw... And the 8 of us were crammed up behind the bus just to see them play, it was so funny... But worth watching. Those guys were good.

Anyway, until next time, gotta sleep soon. Ciaoz.

Tawdry

Panglossian----> A person who is optimistic regardless of the circumstances. Well this week is loads of fun, but deep down I'm really really depressed. Of course sleeping at 2 a.m. everyday with my cousins isn't that bad, I'm having tons of fun... We played pool last night at the club, and it was quite fun haha... Flavor of the week is Simon Webbe and ALL his songs, but what's playing in me now is Jesse McCartney-Because You Live

Looking out in the rain with a heavy heart, it's the end of the world in my mind... I guess that line is sorta true, I'm sorta having letting go issues of a certain someone... Oh well, life goes on, I've leant that a few times already... Just that nowadays I'm pretty lonely when my cousins are out, and I've also got no one to talk to.... Kinda miss the time b4 SPM, where I actually have someone to talk to, now that everyone's either on holiday or on a shopping spree... Looks like I have to stay Panglossian so t hat things would hold up for me, what do you think? They say that the good guys always lose before winning and bad guys win before losing, so I'll stick to that... I'm also in a tangle abolut whether I should go to Taylor's or Sunway next year, but I just went for Taylor's Open Day, so my opinion's a bit bias now... Sunway Open Day is this Saturday and Sunday, so it's more finding out for me... I'm also going off to Langkawi for a few days, so I won't be around...

Another stressing issue that's staring me in the face that I have to get off my chest is about my future. I guess I should start thinking about what I wanna do in University now, everyone says it's the right time to start thinking... Well I've always had interest in psychology and engineering, but I guess the most practical is business... So I guess I'd do business first, then I'd take a second degree in mechanical engineering... Anyone knows what it's like to be a mechanical engineer? Coz Taylor's told me that this sort of engineering can be used anywhere... Everyone need them, so I won't be short on opportunities for a job :P But I guess if you wanna make it in the long run, you still have to do business... Coz first you'd start of as an engineer doing machines, then you get promoted again and again and again until you become a manager... That's where your business degree comes in lol. Of course if things don't work out then you can start your own small business. Sounds nice huh? Hope it works out hahaa....

Well that's all for this entry I guess, I think that my entries are getting shorter and shorter haha... Until next time, ciaoz.

Panglossian

Bruxer----->Someone who habitually and involuntarily grinds their teeth. I bet some of you are bruxers haha. SPM's offically over!! And I celebrated it by playing FIFA 06 unbtil 2 in the morning :p What fun!!! And best of all, my cousins from Australia, Hong Kong, Indonesia and Canada are ALL COMING this whole month!!!! Gonna be real bz though, let's see, tonight got BBQ, tuesday got game, wednesday they're coming over, thursday got prom... SOSOSO BUSY!!!!!Oh yes, all the best to Accounts students for Monday... Flavor of the week's and old school tune, John Mayer's No Such Thing has really got a jazz groove to it...

Let's see, one thing I've learnt these few weeks is that stuff on display has really really bad quality, even if it is the last one. I think two weeks ago, I went to 1u's hardware shop next to Times bookstore, and my mom really really liked this tap that was on display... And luckily, it was the last one. But when we tested it and installed it, it was like leaking everywhere haha... Damn rip off... But we tried it there la, so they agreed to ship another one from *forgot where*... And one more thing, slespeople and waiters these days are getting quite nice and friendly... I was in Aman Suria eating lunch, and we were in a BIG rush, so we started ordering even before we sat down coz the waiter was already there haha... But the waiter was so cool, he told us to SIT DOWN first, like we were in some sort of comedy show only... And he was so nice, like anything we wanna try, he'll give us a little bit free of charge, then if we like then we but some more... But didn't take advantage la, too rush haha... But when you think about it, waiters these days are either getting nicer or better in marketing so that they get more customers haha...

I've also bought my prom suit already haha... Now I'm actually quite grateful and satisfied coz I'm not a girl, coz when I bought my suit I saw SO MANY DRESSES!!!!!! It's like, the whole store was selling dresses only, and when I asked for a suit, they took me to this little corner to pick the suits haha... Don't be surprised, I damn jakun one, never been to this kind of store... Went to CASAMIA in SS2 btw, and they were so busy... So many people getting married this month. I've also found out that either my shoulders are too short or my hands are too long haha, coz I was fitting and I was stuck between size 38 and 40 coz of my stupid shoulders and arms... But in the end I got this size 40 Mandarin collar(Zhongsan Zhuang) and I feel quite satisfied with it... But during the fitting I was looking at all the dresses, and there were so mamy designs and colors and designs and colors haha... And the rental was like 150 bukcs for student price, anyone that rented a tux or something like that pls comment how much it was worth... One more thing, for the footie fans, last night I heard this song on the radio which was about Chelsea manager Jose Mourinho critising his players at half time about their performance, it was so funny... It was by this Irish comedian called *insert name here* Rosenstock, anyone heard of him pl comment too... Coz it was so funny, Jose even sings and nearly fires Drogba!!

Anywayz, I'm gonna go thrash Arsenal in FIFA 06 now with my Scunthorpe United, until next time, ciaoz.

Bruxer

Honorificabilitudinitatibus-with honour. You know, these words were supposed to help me in my English essay, but I didn't use any haha... SPM went well I guess, haven't suffered any brain damage yet... By right I shouldn't, I seem to be too relaxed for this exam. I watched Harry Potter on Wednesday, the show was so glamour but no real story haha... I supposed it's hard to stuff 600 pages into 3 hours(compared to 300 last time), gonna watch Narnia soon too, dunno how's that gonna turn out...

OK just to remind any readers, I'm updating this post one day after writing it. This part of the post anyway. I bet you have heard of the saying "A leopard never changes its spots". Well I've learnt that statement the hard way today, after thinking that people can change or at least not get worse... Also, I expect a bad, bad future ahead coz MY LUCKY HAIR HAS DROPPED!!!!! Puzzled? Well, I have this really, really long silver hair on my right arm. Everytimme it drops off, something bad happens. Not that I'm superstitious and all, just that now I have to be wary. Bad timing though, Bio's on Wednesday, lol...

Honorificabilitudinitatibus

Bromopnea-Bad breath. Well SPM is tomorrow!!! Oh joy, oh happy, oh stressed, oh excited, oh everything else that I haven't mentioned. I know I shouldn't be online now, but since I'm taking a break from reading BM literature, I might as well tell what has happened this week. Study should be the main theme of the last few weeks, instead my brother has been tearing up the ps2 with Mortal Kombat-Shaolin Monks. Great game though, Me bro and dad finished it in a few days. Hopefully Shao Kahn will help me for my History 2 paper on Tuesday, haha...

A lot of people have told me that I look ABSOLUTELY relaxed for SPM. I dunno, maybe it's because I'm not worried, or maybe I don't care anymore. Go figure. But I tell you one thing, I'm not 100% ready. OH well. Just finished playing football too, feel physically AND mentally tired too... At least I can have a good night's sleep and wake up fresh tomorrow... I hope that I can enjoy myself tomorrow, seems that everytime I have an exam the next day, I wake up at least 3 times in the morning lolz... Yea, this is how "relaxed" I am. I've prepared all my SPM tools too, neatly wrapped up with 2 rubber bands(just in case one breaks) all ready in my school bag haha... I think this is the first time I've got all my stuff ready one day/one night before schoool. Once again, gd luck to all the SPM candidates who are reading this...

As promised, I'm updating this post. A few Saturdays ago, I was in the YAMAHA music store in 1 Utama for my guitar lesson. Then, this old, Jap/Korean/Chinese guy who was testing the pianos caught my attention. I thought he was like one of those old people trying to buy a piano for his son/grandson. First, he pressed one key(note that I'm telling every single detail to show how much respect I have for this guy) then he said that the piano was mellow. Now this is my own opinion, but he was playing an organ which was on grand piano voice. And that organ was loud, really loud. So I ignored him and went on for my guitar lesson. Then halfway through my lesson, my teacher and I heard this really really good piano song from the shop, and we went to check it out. There was the guy, playing like... What's that guy's name? YoYoMa? Well I was definitely just ""terpesona" with the whole thing haha... The point is, don't be overconfident as there is definitely someone out there is surely better than you.

Bromopnea

Tintinnabulation------->A ringing or tinkling sound. Man it's been a while. Tired/stressed/hopeless. Will explain a while later. Haven't been listening to new music much, that shows how much I've lost touch with my real emotions and that's why I've been quite lethargic lately(if anyone notices...) Boyzone-Picture Of You is nice, I just heard it in the car haha... But for one thing, Jamie from MTV Road Rules is HOT HOT HOT!!! haha... Oh yea MANU lost 4-1!!! How can that be?!?

You know, SPM is about 2 weeks away, and I'm starting to think that SPm is quite pointless... At first I thought that SPm results get you into universities, then I heard that SPM results just get you into college haha... And you only need 3 passes!! haha... Anyway some of my friends have already let their foot off the gas pedal and given up on SPM... Anyone have any idea what's up with that? I'm also wondering what college life would be like... All I see at the moment is driving to school on my own, sleeping at 3 in the morning.... And lots of assignments that take months to finish haha. I've asked a few friends about it, some say that it's hectic and you never rest except for Sundays maybe... Some have said that you can play all you want and rush at the last few months haha... Any opinions from you guys?

You know these couple of days, I'm actually studying less than before my trials haha... But the study sessions are quite intense. It's like I study 5 hours at once now and I play 2 hours... Seems to be working, I just finished covering my Physics haha... Big holes in Sejarah though, so I've gotta work on that... Oh yes, I just came back from Sunway lagoon, and I tell you it was FUNFUNFUN although there were quite few rides for the wet park... No time for the dry park la haha. That's one of the reasons I'm tired now haha... Alright I also heard that new movies are coming out, can't believe I haven't even watched GOAL yet... Heard it's quite fake though, oh well... But I'm quite grateful that I've watched SOME movies, I bet some ppl haven't even watched any movies yet... Poor them

Anyway, hope someone reads this blog and comments, but nevertheless I will keep updating. Until next time

Tintinnabulation

Zenzizenzizenzic----->The eighth power of a number. First of all, I would like to express my apologies if I have made any rude comments or any improper comments on certain ppl on this blog... Seems that I have been quite faux pas in the past, I sincere am SORRY... This entry would be quite short. It's been a while since I've updated, trials 2 was on... Came down with fever straight after the last paper(phew!!) and got diarrhea the next day haha... If not life's back in balance, I'm back to my old self again... I think... I've completely lost m appetite though, lost 3 kilos already this week... Skipped dinner once too. Flavor of the week is James Blunt-Wisemen. I mastered the guitar solo finally, feel quite satisfied with myself hehe...

Ever wondered what is the actual meaning of friends? Seems simple, but I've had lots of opinions on them... Some say that they won't last forever, some have told me that childhood friends are the most innocent kind that form friendships that will last for a long time... Some say that friends are supposed to be there for you all the time, giving you support and stuff... Of course I have heard some that say that friends only would betray you in life, so you can only trust yourself.... So i guess best friends would hurt you the most... Hmm... Well to me, I thihnk that friends are ppl that would want to know you, someone you know that probably share a common interest... Of course good friends are different. Good friends would be there JUST at the right time. It's amazing, so I guess I have 1 good friend at the moment... Of course I don't mind an occasional "How are you", but let's say when I'm hurt most, a good friend would come up to me and ask me how I am... Or at least asks whether I'm alright. Dont get that often anymore, seems that everyone has their own problems. Oh well, life goes on, I'll meet new ppl...

Seems that I have been underdeveloped so much that I have no topic of conversation... I've been more and more quiet at functions and parties, damn I've gotta be more sociable... How do you guys start conversations? I've read a bit, and there are so many techniques haha... Not really effective though, luckily I'm not gonna be going to any real parties soon... Haven't even got my driver's license yet haha... Ok one last thing, I think I'll share something of mine with you guys. I've found out the 7 symptoms that I'm depressed (not that I'm not depressed all the time) but just in case any of you wanna say hello we've got something to talk about =) BTW 1 is most depressed and 7 is just a little depressed

1.I become SUPER lethargic in class.(Unless after PE of course)
2.I don't hang around my friends. At all.
3.I listen to depressing music. To you I mean. Or to anyone at all.
4.I sleep in class. I never do that.
5.I look into the sky while walking somewhere... Alone.
6.I become philosophical. I haven't quoted anyone in a while though.
7.When i eat double serving of food. I've been doin that quite often.

zenzizenzizenzic

Quincunx---->Five objects arranged so that four are at the corners of a square or rectangle and the fifth is at its centre. This few weeks have been up and down. I've been lifted, suckerpunched, and I gotta admit I fell harder than i thought... No more details on that. I've already faced the devil anyway. Flavor of the week is and old favourite--> Monty--Always look on the bright side of life. That song was my best friend for the last this week. Among my songs I mean. Another song to check out is Jamiroquai-Virtual Insanity.That song's funky.

Well Round 1 of trials are over... I'm relatively satisfied, considering that I could do some of the History structure questions... I'm waking up regularly at 5 now, waking early to study... It seems to be working, History's stuff's goin in, but during my Mod Maths exam I fell asleep until 5 minutes after the paper finished although the teacher collected my paper... Not so good. Guess everything has it's side effects. I'm being thankful that everything's not in a mess, I've blocked myself from the world quite a lot these days... I feel so bad. That's all for what happened recently I guess. Nothing really sparks me at the moment unless Katrina strikes Malaysia.

Let's see... I think that everyone deep down has a devil. Something that they can't face, although it's a part of themselves. Like me, I'm quite afraid of my own future as well as taking responsibility. I mean I can imagine myself in the future, but I don't feel really really confident enough... Oh well, that's life. What would yours be? (You don't have to comment here, email me at extrava2020@hotmail.com) I suppose when we confront these problems, we get enotional and we totally change... It's not easy facing the devil, especially if it's yourself or your parents or whoever you really really care about. Of course you can do something about it, but even when you're doing something good you don't feel comfortable doing it... I think that one day ppl actually get the courage to face it, and things get quite rowdy... But that's all. At the end of it all, you'll look back and you'll feel good. I think. What do you readers think?

You know Monty Python once said "Some things in life are bad,They can really make you mad,Other things just make you swear and curse,When you're chewing life's gristle,Don't grumble,Give a whistle,And this'll help things turn out for the best." I've found that to be quite effective, you should try it. Not for long term though, it's quite addictive and you become ignorant if you do it too much... But it at least calms you down so that you can handle a problem or life's difficulties rationally. We people shouldn't be influenced by our emotions all the time, so for me it helps me get my grip especially when making important decisions or when I think that my world is so sucky... Looking at the bright side of life really opens you up to other opinions and new ideas, I guess. For me it works la, don't know whether it works for you guys. I'm a person that's really attached to my music, not the lyrics, so I really appreciate my music...

And let's see, before I end, a little bit of my heart... If you know what I mean ;)

You're beautiful, it's true.

But I have to face the truth.

I will never be with you.

That river becomes an ocean,

My heart's back on the floor.

so much for having faith.

Listen to your heart,

when he's calling for you.

But you told him goodbye,

And now,

I'm looking at life as a piece of sh*t,

life's a laugh and love's a joke it's true,

But I'm always looking on the light side of life.

Last time I saw her,

I didn't dare to look,

for she had already said goodbye.

P.S. I know I'm a sucky poet, but it's just how I feel so forget how corny the lyrics are. =)

Quincunx

Rhinotillexomania--------->Habitual or obsessive nose-picking. It's been a while since I last updated, my com's real slow coz server has a problem, in school now lol... SPM Trials 2 starts tomorrow, luckily it's only EST... But quite unfair la, other schools only have 1 gerak gempur, and theirs is over already... Haihz... Let's see... School's been quite empty, a lot of ppl have been skipping school to study... I've skipped a few times myself, but still going to school for fun la haha... And to see my friends too of course.

Alright let's see, patriotic run was on the 9th and I got 4th hehe... Was so tired, I just collapsed as soon as i crossed the finish line haha, but after that I helped out with a car wash which was supposed to raise funds for our prom night, but we only raised like 100 bucks, still money I guess... However my birthday was really unforgettable. Me and my family went for my annual dinner at San Francisco Steakhouse the night before, man I missed my T-bone steak... Had cake for dessert too, the people were nice enough to sing for me!!!! Had friends over the next day, we just watched a movie at my place which was quite funny la... Got to spend some time with someone too ;) ANYWAY it's kinda funny how people manage to see other people's borthdays as more important... My mom was making quite a deal out of it because it's like "the day that I was born" and it was quite special to her... But to me it's just another day, except for the free gifts of course hehe. I'm not gonna show off what I got for my b'day, but they were quite special hehe... My 5-year-old cousin's birthday was a week later too, and he was SO excited to see his friend come over... He was a hyper little fellow, and so was his friend, it was so funny and cute at the same time... MY aunty said that everyday after school both of them would shout to each other through the window(coz they live opposite each other). Yes, that's how eager they are. I wonder if I was like that when I was a kid. Hmm...

You know, the other day I was talking to my dad(who was originally from Terengganu) and he was telling me about how he used to suffer when he was a kid, coz he wasn't as rich as he is now... Then he told me that actually my family was quite wealthy, and it was his dad that spent all the money on gambling... He also says that the money cycle within a family goes as far as 6 generations, where the first one builds up, the second one preserves it, the third one continues...... And so on. Until the sixth generation where the family is so wealthy that he spends everything and it's back to the seventh(first) generation to start and build up again. Any of you readers heard of this before? so it's like I'm at the second generation... So by "theory" I'm supposed to be quite wealthy, but not as hardworking as my dad la... And that's because (or so he claims) that the generation goes on, the family members tend to enjoy their wealth more... So it's derived that my granchildren or thei granchildren would flush all my dad's hard work( and maybe some of mine) down the toilet... Haha... Quite sad la, but the theory might just be true.

Anyway that's all for now, until next time.

Rhinotillexomania

in silico---->In or by means of a computer simulation. Wow it's been more than a week since I updated, busy studying for SPM Trials 2... Thank goodness my Trials 1 results were just par, was SO scared when my Physics got B... Heard the school's gonna raise our grades by one, so all I need is to get a B or A for History and I'd look good for my Trials results... Oh yes I'm busier than ever now, directing an accapella(if that's how it's spelled) performance of the song Mamamia by ABBA made of about 50 PPL!!!!! Looks like duty calls again. Oh yes I think flavor of this week os Greenday- Wake Me Up When September Ends; the song rocks man, took one whole night trying to remember the lyrics AND the tabs as well as the notes... Oh yes I've gone nuts over George Benson and his guitar skills too, it's too awesome for my ears to put into music... Even if the songs don't have lyrics.

Let's see... Someone special's birthday is coming up next Monday, damn excited... hehe... But for one thing, it's a school holiday, so I can do whatever I want!!!!(Just in case some of you are too blur to remember whose birthday it is next Monday, its mine!!!!!) Problem is, I have NO idea how to celebrate... It's like, I don't want a BIG party, coz ppl are gonna be all over the place, and I've no fireworks or limbo sticks lol... Few like taking a few friends out and having some fun, but no idea where and who, as I did the same thing last year and it wasn't really worthwhile... Hmmm... Hope you bright commenters out there would have GREAT ideas on how to celebrate birthdays, Oh yes, and RANDOM HOPPER PLS IDENTIFY YOURSELF!!! Nice comments though. I think I didn't talk about the Drama & Cultural Festival too. You know I was wearing FULL GOLDEN and I looked like an Arabic robber haha... At least everyone had fun, although most of us screwed up... my partner was slow, so she panicked but at least we finished the song haha.. And worst of all, the photos of the PTA dinner and the D&C are out and posted on the school message board!!!! AHHHH I looked so retarded, haha... You know it's weird, I'm really really un-photogenic while everyone else is... Don't think I'm gonna order any of those photos lol, and even if I did, I would make sure anyone that sees it won't see sunlight the next day, except for a few ppl ;)

Ok glad I got that off my chest, now about what I've learned over these past few weeks... For one, I've just learned how to change a light bulb. Yes, it still takes 1 Luxian to change a light bulb, not 3 Sherns or 6 Irishmen but I've also learned that it takes a lot of hard work... Coz the light bulb I had to fix was the one on the gast posts outside my house, so I had to install the bulb-holders and all... and turning the light bulb into its place ain't easy either, even with a screwdriver... Let's see, I've also played basketball for Sri KDU against Methodist Klang, and it was DAMN fun... Someone even went there to support me ;) ANYWAY the patriotic run's coming up for our school on Saturday, we had the trial run yesterday haha... 5 of us we sprinting down the home straight Walkathon style, it was so funny... We even tormented a few runners by running alongside them in a line, thank goodness I still had the stamina to catch up... Hope Saturday goes well too, that's why I skipped school today to take some timeoff(don't tell anyone k? hehe) Oh yes any of you who has read the paper enough would have known by now that the 1 ringgit coin is gonna be redundant from December 6th... so empty your wallets, ransack your house and spens every Ringgit coin you have until you have 1 left to keep as a souvenir haha... I've heard from a few friends that the SPM questions have been leaked out at several tuition centres, so pandai-pandai la kamu semua...

Finally, I've found something productive to do with my brother. Instead of watching TV and playing computer games, me, bro and neighbour have decided to come up with some garage music... He came over yesterday, so we did Mr. Bean's theme song... And the 2 guys were SO good on the sound effects, came out just right on my bro's phone... Think we're gonna add my other neighbour for the drums, so the 4 of us would be jamming in no time... And trust me it's damn fun to jam although it sounds horrible, yesterday we spent 2 hours just to make 3 thirty-second songs... Hope to make more in the future though. Ok that's one problem solved, now how do you people study for your exams(SPM History to be exact)? It's like, I read read read and study study study and exercise exercise exercise and nothing goes in in in and it's so weird weird weird haha... At least I'm teaching now, so whatever I teach I have to understand and study first... Learnt quite a lot too, as well as revised for my Form 4 Chemistry... I just wonder what would be the best way to prepare for SPM lor, I mean although we should be doing exercises now, I'm pretty sure that I don't know enough to do those questions... And I'm starting to feel the pinch that I've got not enough references and knowledge... Comments on this pls, very very important hehe

Recently I've encountered a few situations where people are judgemental and opiniated at someone or something... I suppose when we meet someone or experience something new, unless we're really really narrow-minded, we would make our judgements based on what happens to us, an of course what happens to other people. I've talked to some people about it, and some have said that people get second opinions or third views to get a better perspective on what's going on because what happens around us would indirectly affect us as well right? I'll tell you what happened. The school's just invited a renowned tutor to teach at my school, which takes up a few periods after lunch for a few days every week... Now this teacher's at first gave me the impression that he was well-known for a good reason and would give good tuition, but as I heard opinions from my friends, they said that he was arrogant and inconsiderate... At this point I argued that he came to teach for a reason, because the school knows he's good and he has to be good for a reason... If not he wouldn't be so well-known... But my friend said that he's a conman and is quite arrogant in a sense that, when he teaches he thinks that we're quite stupid and underestimates us and stuff... Of course my friend says that because my friend had asked other students under this "conman"s teachings and what the tutor's teaching isn't really in our syllabus either... I suppose my friend's quite prepared to face what's new, because my friend's really concern about studies and wants the best from a tutor, even if the tutor's a conman... Bottom line is, what should we base our judgements about something on? Should we judge them by what happens to us, or we should base our opinions on what other people have experienced? More food for thought I guess...

Well I think that's all for now I guess, everyone reading this pls STUDY HARD FOR YOUR SPM!!! And do tell if you've found out anything about the soalan bocor thing. I need to trust myself, but I need insurance as well. Until next time. Ciaoz

In Silico

FLOCCINAUCINIHILIPILIFICATION------>>The action or habit of judging something to be worthless. *BIG SIGH* Finally the PTA dinner's over... What a relief, but SPM Trials 2 are coming mid-September and I've got Drama and Cultural Festival coming up... Gotta get practicing!!! hehe... How are you readers? Seems that the week has cleared up afer the performance, and I'VE TOOK OFF MY BRACES YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!! No more painful teeth and ulcers, more details after this... Once again I'm addicted to Blue's new single--Only Words I know, it's got a Spanish beat to it... Charlie & The Choc Factory is quite an interesting movie, though the Willy Wonka theme song is DAMN annoying...

The next few weeks are FULL of birthdays, I just celebrated one last night and one last week... After taking off my braces, I don't really care if there are 10 more birthdays tomorrow. (Of course mine is in 2 weeks too, so I'm quite excited too) Of course the celebrations and all have made my wallet ALOT lighter... Haha... And I've to eat less too, at least I get to lose weight. Prom arrangements haven't been too well either, I think having it in the school's a good idea isn't it? I mean the Form 5 has only 70 students which only more than half would probably turn up(I'm assuming,don't get me wrong) and the ice-creams are starting to melt... Coz the ice inside the iceboxes have melted and seeped into the cone wrappers, but I haven't ate a Drumstick in a while, so I wouldn't know how soggy it is... Selling them was fun though, worth the experience la... Oh yes the braces are off and I've to wear retainers for the NEXT 6 MONTHS argh!!! Oh well at least I'll have less teeth cleaning to do haha... But strangely I'm licking my teeth a lot more, anyone commenting pls tell me how you guys cope your teeth after taking off your braces and putting on retainers... Holiday extra classes were fun too, too bad only less than one-third of the students showed up only... Class WAS fun!! Well sorta. No Trials 1 papers handed back to us yet, but the prospects do not look promising... Oh well just gotta study hard for the next exam, got 2 more shots anyway. But one question to all of you: Should I skip school to study at home? Food for thought... For me at least...

Let's see what else is new? Oh yes... I bet everyone reading this had the feeling before that we should be doing something that we really don't like not just for the sake of it, but because it's something we would have to do it eventually... These kind of thing take patience, and I suppose in the right mood, we all won't mind doing it... Of course there are times where we just wanna shut ourselves from the world for like 2 days and cool down before we go out again(if only that would happen, sigh...) So I ask you readers, is this kinda feeling good to us? The sorta feeling that really irritates you so much that you either wanna get it outta your chest or you just ignore everyone else... For example(not related to anyone): playing golf with your dad, going shopping with mom(this goes out to the guys), studying when we shouldn't or when a party is going on, studying while there's football on TV(guys again!!) and so on... I suppose there is a bright side to everything that we do, such as we learn something everytime something happens, you never know what can happen out there... And bering interactive with people you don't really go out with could also be a treat... I suppose it all comes down to tolerance, don't you think? Of course there are things too that we don't mind doing, but when we really don't feel like it, we just use 5% of our attention to it... Such as being a listening ear to an annoying friend, or listening to old people talk about their olden days and such... I think you readers have AT LEAST listened once to your friends' moaning or helped your friends even though you're inconvenient... I mean would friends know, especially really really good friends know if the have a problem and you're in a good enough mood to listen? Or should we all be ready to listen 100% of the time? That would sound unrealistic though.

Well I'm off to tuition. You know Dumbledore's actually a type of bee? Until next time, ciaoz.

Floccinaucinihilipilification

eke ---> to squeeze out. Man trials 1 are finally over. And I tell you I've got MAJOR problems and things to do. Let's see... Trials are over(for the moment) oh yes I just got back from Actor's Studio in Bangsar, watched a drama called Odd Couple(female's version)... Damn funny, I would recommend it to everyone... Trials 2 are coming up next month, and I have to get my driver's license too. Apparently a few of my friends' fbirthdays have reminded me that mine is near too and I would be elligible to take my Bengkel(September 12!!) Anywayz I've got a big performance tomorrow night, which I am playing piano for the PTA dinner... Lots and lots of preparation to be done, not forgetting that I haven't passed my Undang-undang =P and I've to STUDY FOR BIO AND CHEM AND HISTORY ahhhh.....

I thihnk I'll start with the PTA dinner. First of all, I think this whole thing was DAMN last minute and IS damn disorganised. The date's clashed with the SPM Trials 1, and they ask me to perform JUST before trials start!!!! But I thought it would be nice to perform anyway(since I'm performing again at the end of the month) so I'll get the hang of it. I think this is the first time in a LONG time since I went upstage to perform anything at all... The last time I even went near the stage was the few times in my old school where I did the Rukun Negara haha... Anyway, the practices were quite messy too. But I am grateful that the teacher in charge was so nice to take the trouble and come all the way to my house early to fetch me to school... (Coz my mom fetches the neighbours' kids as carpool) And I had to stay back after school to practice too... Poor me. Not that I'm complaining or anything, just that I'm just wondering why I joined in the first place... I guess that I just love playing piano, and I don't mind playing for an audience. Of course my mom grumbled about it too... You know at first I would be playing a grand piano, then the PTA decided to reduce cost(WTH?!?) and so 2 pianists are sharing one Clavinova haha... And to think that my mom let me join the performance was because she heard about the grand piano. Of course those early and late practices just reminded me how commited I have to be if I decide to perform in something, so I guess I have learned something from all this... I had to sacrifice my studying time too because I had to use up some time to make the notes for me and my other pianists. Goodness. Hope that all that are reading this and watching the performance tomorrow won't grumble that much haha.

However, as playing and performing in front of a HUGE audience for the first time, I didn't really expect to prepare much... Until I heard about the clothes that's everyone's wearing. For all those who have not performed before as I am about to tomorrow and those who have no clue on what to prepare, brace yourselves. There was a big rush on the clothes, guess I wasn't prepared for that... My partner's wearing a tux and I'm like, wearing a coat with a bowtie haha... Quite lame la, maybe I'll wear a flower tie. And can you believe that the performers will get CHAIRS only during the performance while we have our dinner?? We'll be sitting at the back of the ballroom too. Hope that works out.

Another thing I wanna talk about this time is on responsibility and independence issues. I think one of the flaws I have is that I am DAMN irresponsible and I tend to be quite ignorate on what is needed to be done. I'm still learning I guess, and I'm quite sure that number of you are too... I sorta lost my jacket last week and I'm still on the lookout for it, coz trials kept me occupied, so i paid the price and I froze at some of the tests... But the most frusrating thing is that I haven't been able to take care of stuff that's NOT mine.. Sometimes I think other people's stuff are VERY VERY important, even it's a small amount of money. The fact that they lend it to you or let you use something of theirs for a while shows that they trust you and you are responsible of what happens to that book... So last week, to study for my Physics test, my mom borrowed a Physics reference book from the TTDI library... So I was studying it until Tuesday I think, where I studied for my Chem and I lost track of the book... Of anyone's seen it PLSPLSPLS return it or tell me ASAP... It's a 1999 version of FOKUS Physics... So I felt damn bad about it, and this got me wondering" How would I change my self and rid of this habit? "I think that this is a symptom that I won't be able to really survive in another country or something like that... I suppose the fact is that one of the main reasons people "rebel" against their parents so much is because that they have their own freedom and know what to do... They have learnt enough that they are able to survive on their own, even if it means sacrificing their wealth and stuff. I suppose it's because of my parents la. When I moved to Tropicana, I was still in Standard 6, so when I reached Form 1, my mom and dad REALLY restricted me from cycling anywhere outside Tropicana... Coz they were scared I'd get kidnapped and stuff. Of course there were a few occasions where I followed my friends everywhere between school hours and co-curriculum hours, but that was all... Most of my old school friends cycle to school because they are... less luckier than me I guess. But they know more and are able to do things on their own. Does that mean that being rich mean being un-street-smart? My dad came from a poor family too, so he had to depend on his instincts to live when moved from Terengganu to KL... I guess it's time to think that life's not a fairytale anymore, and that when you walk out from Secondary school, the world suddenly becomes messier and darker and a lot more uncomfortable... Even things that are happening in front of me aren't what they used to be anymore. Nothing goes as I think it would be, and few would be there to listen ot hear me out... Guess that's why I have this blog...

Guess it's getting kinda late, gotta sleep so that I'll be ready for tomorrow's big day. Ciaoz, nite

eke

outre------>highly unconventional, bizzare or eccentric. This week has certainly been eccentric... Haze has struck Malaysia from Indonesia, so masks and the song "Smoke Gets In Your Eyes" should be in fashion. Schools around KL are closing too, that means more time to study and less extra classes!!! I'm also running out of words... So bite me if you know the meaning of the next word. Don't think that the haze will last long though... But won't stick around long enough to affect SPM. Hopefully the haze clears faster... Wouldn't want any complications for SPM, after some of us has already worked so hard... Not me of course, I'm planning to get my driving license before SPM...

With all the haze and SPM round the corner and not going away, I suppose hobbies are good at times like these when parents are banning games(especially for ppl like me), inevitably we WILL get bored right? Let's see... Listening to music is fun, but I do it when I'm studying anyway, ah yes, a hobby recommended for everyone, even is you can't read Chinese... Calligraphy, anyone heard of it? It's what Chinese subject students write on 9-block-papers with ink and a brush... Helps calm me down sometimes, but the mess made really is troubling... Especially when the ink gets stuck in the basin haha. Technique is also required, so impatient ppl BEWARE haha. I'm also reading Harry Potter's sixth book(finally, after waiting for so long from the Tropicana library) and I'm reading it like non-stop since 8 last nite... excluding sleeping of course, I think ive been reading it for 7 hours now(I borrowed the book yesterday!) guess I'm really jobless now... But the nagging thought of Physics 1,2, AND 3 on Monday is definitely gonna get on my nerves... Probably gonna take up Saturday and Sunday too. Good luck to everyone on that too. Hope I'll get lucky again, teachers have beeen saying I did pretty well... I think its to boost confidence only la, oh well might as well just ride the wave... And land hard on my face afterwards when the results come back. I'm expecting an sms about my good results in one paper and flopped in the other for Maths... I'm jinxed that way, can't help it. Just can't wait for my results already!

Anyway what's been really bothering me is how realistically people are nowadays... I suppose in a highly competitive enviroment like Sekolah Sri KDU, everyone has to be independent in order to "survive"... Quite sad la, some people I know have turned soft in all these challenges, like Carrots in hot water... Saw people who reacted like eggs too, eggs turn hard when boiled in water(for those who don't know)... I suppose ppl have turned hard/stubborn or soft/weakened by all these tough times, and it's hard to be optimistic... I've talked to my mom about this, and she says that it's because people are wary and not trusting anyone really. Kinda explains everything I guess, like why I have been called last minute to perform for the PTA dinner without real notice. Or practice haha. Never really thought about performing in front of parents and students alike, but it's just too... Sudden I guess. And the performance is one day after my trials anyway, so I think I'll pass on that, since I'm performing on the 30th anyway. Sometimes I think that I'm the most optimistic in the class(except when I'm troubled) but come to think of it now I seem like a naive kid... Kinda makes me grateful for the friends I have now in my class. I see my friends almost everyday and they sometimes talk about the worries and troubles, and I think to myself:' Isn't that just the tip of the iceberg? ' Anyway only time will tell how people will cope with reality. Haihz. Much to learn I still have. Sometimes I wonder what funny people like and how they think too. You know, those kind of people that stand out in a crowd or party-starters which brings out the fun in you... I think you see a lot of those people these days depending on the enviroment, but all with different purposes. Some just wanna run away from their troubles, some just aren't in a bad mood, some are just... happy/not sad yet. Oh well, what's important is that we must ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE. Look for dark clouds have silver linings, and we should always remember the "Always look on the bright side of life" by NIKE which had Ronaldo and Zidane whistling haha...

For those SPM students, anyone has experienced exam anxiety yet? I know I have. I've already got past my mood swings, now I'm just trying to outwait them, hoping that I can turn the tables on my fortunes... Personally I think that we determine our own destiny, unless a certain situation is inexplicable. Pls give views on this. Anyway back to exam anxiety, I think most of us break down when it comes to major exams, such as panicking, mood swings(as proved by yours truly) and eccentric behaviour which people don't normally do. Suddenly the world is just not a wonderful place anymore, knowing that exams are knocking on the front door and such... My mom says it's normal, but the most important thing is to anticipate, plan and CALM DOWN before doing anything... I have found this ability to chill greatly with the hobby called calligraphy. I suppose music(especially rock) does help, but however we cope with exam anxiety, it shouldn't affect our studies. And we shouldn't be afraid to express it to other people as well. If we shut out, something's bound to happen, surely...

Well that's all I guess for the moment, thanx for reading! Until next time

outre(with the French e, again)

blase---->bored or different. This weekend has been disastrous, I'm gonna make this damn short. Maybe I'll write a better entry tomorrow. My mom cut her throat during dinner on Friday coz she ate a fish bone, then my dad picked me up from tuition and talked about me growing up and all and that he's not needed anymore and all that crap. Then on Saturday, mom's throat got worse, the whole family got lectured by dad coz of the bloody fish bone incident( I wasn't even there!!) And my mom has gagged a few times coz of the fish bone thingy. Then today my dog got hit by a car. To make it worse, it happened in front of my dad, which then got SO mad that he locked the dog( Zoey) out of the house. Now she's unable to move, dunno whether she'll be alright. Dunno whether my dad CARES enough to send her to the vet. He says that she deserves it. FUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

blase(with the French e)

Au fait----> conversant. Dunno why i felt like blogging today. Guess I missed out a few things in the weekend. Let's see... Yesterday was ok, thrashed some ppl in tennis haha... But now I'm so bloody tired, some more I swam AND played football just now haha... I'm coming down with something definitely, so if any of you find me lethargic you know why...

For some weird reason the pinching feeling, you know, the one that comes around when you miss someone and you just can't do anything about it coz they're with someone else/just not in the mood, yeah it's been around... I'm depending on my will power(which is relatively weak) and my songs to keep me company, seems that everyone else is in their own world now... So it has been quite a rough week, still can't believe that trials are this Friday... Quite scared la, considering I promised myself to ace the 3 Science subjects... Oh yes Counter Strike is being very very popular nowadays especially in my school, where the people play non-stop... I've seen it being advertised on HITZ TV too, hasn't that game been around for a while?!? Anyway, I'm not looking forward to that OR the trials, just wondering what to do after the trials... Let's see, gonna try and pass my undang-undang test this time, take bengkel, and take up Physics tuition haha... Don't get the idea of tuition though, since everyone(teahers I mean) says that I don't need it... Problem is that I can't disciplin myself to study on my own haha. Well I got a few A's in the bag haha.

Let's see, what's going on in my mind that irritates me SO much that I decided to blog... Hmm... Oh yes. Parents are weird altogether, whether they're mine, yours, or George Bush's. This weekend has been full of TALK, TALK, and TALK to my parents, especially to my dad... And it all started because a girl invited me to the DJ school prom. They're like, still a weeeeeee bit over reacting and telling me about stuff like getting drunk, sleeping with gils and stuff like that. I mean it's just a school prom, what could be the worst case scenario? Apparently they listed the WORST worst case scenarios. Looking from their point of view, I guess they're just being really really really concern, but then again they could just be testing my patience and checking whether I like this girl and really really wanna go with her( as if). But in the end she had financial problems and couldn't go, and I have yet to tell my parents *gulp* How ah?

Anyway that's it for the moment. I think I'll be jobless enough in the future to blog some more this week. Til' then, ciaoz

au fait

ad lib ---> improvised. How have you readers been? This week has been quite hectic, so has been my head. My SPM trials are in a week, and I am sosososo SCROOED/SCREWED. At least I get to see what SPM questions standard's like, but my teachers said they set the question paper a wee bit harder... So good luck to all my Sri KDU schoolmates la. :) I've been invited to the DJ school prom too, that should be fun... but it's at 6th of December, and my school's prom is supposedly on the 8th, so things are gonna be a bit rush la... Otherwise everything else in life's been fine for me.. I'm also learning simple magic tricks and the Russian Shuffling trick... So next time you play Cho Dai Di with me, you'll see me looking like a magician haha... Oh yes if anyone has the score for the Mr. Bean cartoon theme song, pls let me know...

Let's see... Monday and Tuesday's been boring, and to make things worse only one person went for P.E. haha... and thank goodness it's not me. Learned a bit about CPR though, next week we're doing the "real" thing, plus water polo(yay!). But the rest of the week was quite, deserted as a portion of us Aristotlians didn't show up... So I was like, in the middle seat, second row from front haha. The guys are playing CS in school more than ever between periods, but at least we get more attention from teachers... Finally finished understanding Electronics for physics, thanks to 2 free periods and the patience of my lovely, lovely Physics teacher... But i've got more stuff to ask her now, coz my mom just borrowed an old version of the Fokus Physics text from the TTDI library, so there were tons that I just stared blankly at... You know sometimes I wonder why students don't come to school before exams. people pay the school enough for 10 years of government school education and they wanna skip it. Quite weird the way I see it. But looking from their point of view, I can't blame them either, coz the school IS pretty disorganised... And the teachers have been pretty slack. Except Physics ;) But when I talked about my teachers yesterday to my friends in tuition, our school teachers like or Math and Add Math and Physics teachers seem to be far better compared to other school teachers...So is our syllabus. In my old school (BU3), the History teacher just walks in and tells the students to make their own notes and then just sits there doin nothing. But, I only heard that from my close friend from that school, so information can be a bit biased most of the time... But for one thing, Sri KDU makes unneccesary charges sometimes i.e. RM200 per semester for using the library, which students hardly have time to use. Quite sad.

I'm still wondering what I'm gonna do before and after SPM. Certainly 75% of my time before THE BIG ONE is gonna be with Nabi Muhammad and all that crap... But I intend to take my driving test too. Some of my friends seem to be taking it already, I feel so, degraded haha... Hope I'll be able to drive before the DJ prom, then things will be easier haha... I've got a new guitar teacher too, and it has been an eye-opening experience for me... I'm learning so much, again. Sometimes I wonder why we get to learn so much, but when we don't know about something, it's like we still have a billion and one facts to learn and explore... Do you think that everything's a learning experience? I certainly think so. I believe there's a positive side for everything too. My friends have told me before:"Every cloud has a silver lining, always look on the bright side of life". You think so? Pls comment on this pls. I'm not saying that I dislike negative people and attitude. I had my negative thoughts before too, like how I would really wanna move out and live independently after receiving a HUGE lecture from my parents about small matters... But I've learned to talk to my parents, as well as the mammoth task of APOLOGISING to them... haha... Don't know why I find it quite awkward to talk to them.

Anyway, Friday I found out and confirmed that when you spend time to nurture someone like a student, eventually they will overtake you and "betray" you... I learnt that from third person's view, as my good friend now berpaling muka with the basketball captain... The cap says that he feels betrayed because he trained my friend until he was so good, but he's like not even respectin cap now... But you can't blame my friend too, he's like, one of the best on the court, elected as president for 2006, he just hooked up with a girl, so I guess he's top of the world now... My mom says that he deserves to be like that, coz the cap isn't going to be around next year, so he's the 'succecssor' now... Quite sad la, coz they were quite good friends with each other too...

Anyways ciaoz, wish all you readers the best of luck in the Trials, whenever it is!!!

Ad lib

Billet-doux ----->love letter. School bites. Thank goodness this week was much more eventful. The week has passed splendidly I think, compared to those after weeks where you just hope that Friday suddenly smacks you in the face... And I think for the first time eveer, so many ppl didn't come to school (in my class) that the guys outnumber the girls haha... Oh yes expect a longer entry, this week was damn fun... But I'm typing after a long Saturday and a tiring Friday(which got my chest, abs and thighs all aching in basketball) haha...

Now that the school's syllabus is coming to a close for all the subjects, everyone's ready for preparations for SPM la... Seems that students have the freedom(and the excuse) for not coming to school, can't blame those who skip school, although the teachers seem to kinda nag about it... I sometimes wonder why I go to school, and in the end it's the people that keeps me going... Friends are fun to have around, especially when the pinching feeling comes(I've been a bit agitated lately by myself, miss my ex) and friends also make your day more colourful... Which kinda reminds me, there was one period where class was REALLY REALLY boring, and my friend Nichol(name edited,duh) was playing with an "imperial shuttle" made of a paper swan... Then he rolled up paper and colored them with highlighter and named them Anakin and Obi-Wan and Darth Vader(wth???), it was so cute and funny haha... Kinda reminded me about when I was 7 to 9 plus and all over Ultraman, those were the days... nothing to worry about, except for passing up homework to satisfy teachers haha...

You know this kinda reminds me of my old schools. No typo error, I said schools as in primary and secondary... I was in SRJK(C) Damansara, the one near seksyen 17... Miss that school, graduation year was also the last year for the school before politics destroyed the school and the school moved twice, first sharing with Puay Chai 2(my bro made quite a fuss about it) and then next to Riana Green... The memories in that school was really really stuck in my head, can imagine what everything was like, even my friends' faces... I remember there was once in standard 3, I was a prefect and I was really really late for class and I tripped on the way to class.. And we were wearing short pants haha, so my knee went STRAIGHT into one of the stones and when I lifted my knee, I saw white... I mean there was a hole in my leg, so I panicked more about that, and I went straight to the office to get treatment...... Didn't realise until I got home that I saw my bone haha... I also remembered that every Monday one of the classes had to make a presentation and one of the classes did a dance with NSYNC's "it's gonna be me" and I was dancing in one of the classes(I was the flag raisers) so it was quite fun la... The primary school photo(year end) was SO long compared to my brother's, go Dragon Years!!!
Then came secondary, where I was in BU(1) and I met a lot of ppl... But the school was so disorganised that my mom transfered me straight out of the school end of the year... But I remember playing Ice And Fire every single day, so fun... I think that's where I got my leg strength.Then i got transfered to BU(3) with my friends(I think 20 of us transfered at the same time) and things were SO much better from there... Made true friends(I still talk to them) and was assistant head prefect... But I was damn nerd haha, you should see the photos... I also finally got to show of my piano skills by performing piano solos at school concerts(after being totally annonymous at BU(1),Grade 8 at piano and no one has a clue, can you believe it??),composed my first song ;) and I picked up basketball and football haha... Man basketball was fun, miss my coach too... But the end of Form 3 fell on me like a ton of bricks, I got only 3A's for PMR... That really stinged, and everyone else was like at least 4a's in my class...
Then I got transfered to Sri KDU by force by my mom, coz the school's office wire tripped and the whole school got burnt... Still miss my frens, but after a lot of fuss, I finally accepted the decision to come to Sri KDU... There's when love starts to hurt. Puppy love was OK in Form 2 and 3, had a "puppy love" gf, but when I came to Sri KDU, first thing I noticed is that most of the good-looking girls are taken, and the basketball standard is WAY higher... So are the student's results. I was the only guy in pure science that had 3A's, where everyone else was like, straight or 6 or 7 A's... But the people are so, different. No biggy, it was government school to private school anyway, so everyone's as lucky as me in terms of finance... Or so I thought. Well at least I got to show my ability in sports,, made it into the basketball AND football school team in the same year haha... Then I miraculously made it into the tennis school year the following year, but got thrashed in MSSD duh haha... But the people are a lot more open, bitchier, meaner, they hurt you more, but the good people really stick with you and do what they can to help you... As in they're more sincere. I guess. I'm just saying this based on my exxperince, so don't argue with me on that point... Results were also more important, although the school didn't have 1st in class or stuff like that coz' the school's a SMART school where everyone is just as smart haha... Seriously, the teachers said that. Thankfully I'm leaving this hellhole next year, but dunno how my brother's gonna cope, considering his studies isn't really good to begin with...

I think I'm blabbing to much haha, see you readers next time.

Billet-doux

Go figure out what that means. I'm gonna come up with a word like that every entry. Let's see.. Week was ok overall, ulcers FINALLY gone after so much pain lolz... Highlight was probably Friday, where I played football in a friendly against Sri Garden...Drew 5-5 haha...Week was ok I guess, but a lot's been going on in my mind...

I just came back from my 7-year-old cousin's b'day at my old house... Man I miss my old hse... Brings back a lot of memories... I can remember how tall I was when I was a kid... Which shelf I could reach... The days I used to wait for the school bus to arrive at 12 midday while I fasten my shoes... Now that I visit my ex-house since God-knows-when, it kinda seems like a miniature house now... Even my rooms seem smaller. I could touch the ceilings, but the memories were as new as ever... Coz my auntie didn't really renovate the house when they moved in, so the house still has some sentimental value... Just like my grandpa's house in Terengganu. Sigh. But I moved to Tropicana when I was about 12, so everything's like a vague memory now... I like to visit my old hse on Saturdays to play football, I can imagine those afternoons around 3 before I go off for football I can just SLEEP on the couch... Can't do that in my current hse now unless I'm sick or something, miss my old hse la...

Recently my school's been sellin ice cream for (fill in the blanks) and its been makin quite a lot of money... Other than that school hasn't been really interesting, despite on of us ice-cream sellers would wear a Mat Kool monkey outfit to advertise... Quite funny la, especially when we knock on other classes' doors, scarin the teachers... Haha... Half the class was absent on Friday, coz the prefects had their installation(thank gdness secondary students didn't participate) and the "Computer" students(trust me, they're as smart as computers) didn't show up... so class was kinda empty, (ya think?) but after school I had the chance to have lunch with... Someone la. Had to wait until 3 to get her out of extra class, but it was worth it. Went to A&W's haha, then rushed back to school for football...

My neighbour recently pierced HER tongue, wonder what's that like... She said it was damn pain, can't eat solid food... But pierced yesterday la, can't blame her... Wonder y ppl pierce their tongue, don't see the logic in it... Don't see it yet I guess. Sorted out my photos in my phone too, took me like, an hour plus to get them in their proper folders... Oh yes my dad also screwed me HARD for my recent, sudden shoot up in SMS sending haha... So i'm like counting my SMS everyday, limiting myself to like 20 a day...

I suppose as a Form 5 student, you kinda start to wonder about your future.. I bet most Form 5's who are reading this probably have their life planned out already, but I haven't la... Quite worried. It's like sometime this week when teacher asked the class"How do you see yourself in the future?" My first thought was a lovely and faithful wife, kids... But my job's a blur. I start to ponder on what I SHOULD do and what I WANNA do. I mean, if I decide on my life now, would it be too late after this age? I'm starting to take up my father's business, considering that I would have a HUGE advantage in the future if I do succeed him... I'm thinking realistically. Coz' the world's gonna be ugly once you leave University(but then again, my teacher told me that once you enter Uni, the nightmares begin) so it's still kinda hard for me to decide on my future... And I am interested in doing sports psychology, so we'll see how it goes la...

Oui vey

Hi everyone. This week was painful and slow coz I had this ulcer since Tuesday that made my lips swollen purple for the first time in my life, but I guess I'll be talking and complaining about how tired I was this week. But there was a carnival at KDU college celebrating Australia week, so I'll talk about it too.Any remedies for ulcers would be useful on this entry except for salt, salt water, green powder and bonjella coz they all didn't work haha. Oh yes, one moment of silence for the London bombing's victims, expecially after their city was chosen for the 2012 Olympics...

Let's see... The week was OK overall, Friday was a total waste of time... What was thought that something that could ACTUALLY be fun(after the bm seminar last week, anything would)turned out to be a BIG dissapointment. We left in the morning, as soon I stepped into the bus, i knew that it was gonna be my bad day. Three steps into the bus and DONG!! I hit the roof. To make it worse, I've got to sit with 2 chairs coz I couldn't fit in 1(and I was reserving it for someone!!) So the carnival was a bust, we spent 9 to 11 plus stuck at chairs as spectators for some australian general knowledge quiz. But for one thing a lot of schools turned up, including my former school bu3, but only the form 4 showed up (argh!!) Hmm wat else... yah took photos, then headed back for bball... Came back poofed, slept like half an hour(the cartoons kept me up somehow)then went for tuition... Some ppl just won't notice me... Ulcer hurt like HELL, couldnt sleep for like 2 hours... couldn't talk during tuition either, what a pain...

Anywayz hoped that Saturday would be better. Woke up at seven, and slept back again. Can't be blamed for that, after all the pain I've been through... Then woken up by my dad at ten, gotta get ready for wedding lunch haha... The ceremony was supposed to be cut short, but it started late so I guess it didn't matter anyway... It was a Christian wedding, so it was the first time I saw the newlyweds take their oath, but the reverent was going on and on and on about his speech... Quite interesting though, if you bother listening to him... But I pity the translator the most, she had to translate his every word into Chinese haha... And the reverent kept interrupting her, quite funny la the translations... The food was quite nice too, though I had to bear with my ulcer... The only thing I noticed really, that when the bride and the groom kissed, the groom just gave a peck on the cheek haha... Must be Asian culture to do so la. Didn't get to have a piece of the cake boohoo... Rushed of to dental after that, then realised I have another crack at the side of me mouth OUCH.... Then after that rushed to OU for guitar, then met up with my classmates for photo shoot for class page... The 'directors' were quite creative this time, making captions/taglines for us to hold up while they took our photos... I got BIG FRIENDLY GIANT haha, didn't really look like one though... Came back exhausted, went to bed so early didn't even get to say goodnight to my 5 year old cousins haha....I think that's it for the day la, hope tomorrow is better one... PLSPLSPLS comment on my blog abt ulcer cures, really really desperate hehe

Perth

Hi readers,
First of all, I would like to thank the ppl that have reminded me TIME and TIME again what the world is like, I really appreciate the views of wise and knowledgable ppl like Shern and Mush, so I'm gonna write my blogs based on what I've "learned" from them so far...

I think there's something i owe, this blog, and it's my trip to Perth haha. I tell you there's so much to see and do and take pictures of I caouldn't believe that 5 days wasn't enuff. Ok first of all, the weather is GREAT/weird/special/funny. It's like, on a rainy day, no one's wearing a raincoat OR carrying an umbrella coz the rain lasts like only 5 minutes haha... It's amazing I tell you, I can recall there was one morning I walked out of the hotel and I could see there was rain on m left but clear sun on my right haha. But of course you only see this kinda weather in winter :( And not to mention the temperature is like 10-20 degrees C, and it doesn't feel chilly of course i was wearing two layers of clothes AND my jacket la haha). Now where my hotel, Duxton hotel was is in the middle of the city, so at night it was quite bright haha. And I tell you Perth automatically closes at 6 can you believe it? Even the sun sets at that time, so I've no time to go to any of the nearby parks to play football(not fair!). And one more thing, Perth is like FULL of sidewalks... you don't see that everywhere in KL, I did so much walking that when I went walking in KL, it's like"Where's the sidewalk? And what's that smell?" haha I think on the first night we went to this really old fashion restaurant, the food was like.... truly western. And that night after dinner, we decided to WALK back to our restaurant haha.... we left at 7 plus but reached home 9 something haha... Strangely our legs didn't really hurt, quite fun actually walking in the middle of the city, where there is no smoke to be smelt in MILES and its around 15 degrees coldness...

OK now I'm gonna talk about the hotel. The receptionist was as big as Jonny Wilkinson(rugby) AND half a head taller than me... So I was quite intimidated, mind you. And the TV channels SUCK!!!! haha... there are only like 10 channels I think, and the good shows only come like once a week, and there's no cartoon channel in the hotels haha... So my brother was like bouncing all over our beds, and every night my parents would go to the nearby casino and then I would be stuck with my extremely bored/annoying bro haha...

Next morning, however, we went for this Pinnacle tour, which took up the whole day(no football again haha) but the tour was kinda worth it... Except in the morning. We went to this koala/kangaroo zoo, and they were DAMN cuddly... note that i said cuddly, not cute. round, furry and warm, but not cute. The kangaroos look SOSOSOSO slumber haha... but it was morning la can't blame them. and I didn't have enuff time to take pics!!! :( There was this owl which went WOOF WOOF can you believe it? So by 10 we were heading for the little town of Lancelin(nice name)... And I tell you I had a taste of... THE FUTURE>>>MAGNUM PEPPERMINT MUAHAHAHA... Got the pic i swear, can't wait for the future haha. Reached there about 12, and the weather was crazy... It was raining but the driver INSISTED that we went out, so being the typical Malaysian which our storms last at least half an hour, most of us in the bus stayed until our geng-ho family followed some Taiwanese out into the rain and follow the bus driver walking la haha... Surely enuff the rain stopped after a few minutes, and we reached this really really open space with lots of limestones implanted to the ground... Looked like a meteor shower of stones hit the Earth, damn cool... after that we left for(4got the name) for SANDBOARDING YEA... but of course first, the bus driver drove over some HUGE sand dunes, and everyone was sososo scared... it's like the whole bus was gonna tip over, but damn fun la... No fun running up the 30 foot tall dunes though, damn tiring... Sandboarding was fun, but due to the cold temperature, my hands were practically frozen solid haha... and my pants were full of sand too. Reached the hotel about 7 plus, ate Chinese(Chinese in Aus?)and did MORE walking... about same distance also la, damn fun...

Now about the ppl, there were SO MANY countries they were from. I think we met taxi drivers from Afghanistan, Armenia(where's that?) China South Africa and Poland haha... It's like everyone all over the world come to Perth to work or study. And one DREADFUL secret(might not be true though). Some Aussies think we are really, really weird by my opinion. You know there was once, we bought tickets for the train ride from North Fremantle back to Perth. So me and my little bro bought tickets at student price, and my mom(of all ppl) was keeping our student cards, so they bought adult tickets la... Halfway through the ride, the ticket checkers came by, and seeing that I was holding a student ticket, they asked for my student card la. So I pointed to my parents, and of course they handed out the student cards, and they STILL asked for my student card haha. Some more they were buying adult price tickets don't 4get, so they thought my parents were the students and so they got even more confused la(plus our SRI KDU cards were not exactly like the Aussie school ones, so they got even more dazzled) then finally after much moaning they let us off, muttering 'at least they bought the ticket' haha. As if that wasn't enuff. Next day we went to the Hilary Aquarium, and of course we opted for family price la. so looking at my height((and dashing looks, hehe :9) of course the cashier didnt believe me la. (coz the family price need two adults two children aged 4-15) So naturally my mom asked whether i can apply for student price, and once again we were asked for my student card. I instantly pointed at my mom(she's still keeping my student card, wth?) and my mom began fishing for our cards. So when my mom presented the cards, the cashier got VERY confused(she looked at the back of the card only haha), so she thought that MY MOM AND DAD were the students lolz, and I was the adult(naturally :p) so we got in for one adult, two student and one child haha... But the aquarium was magnificent, the seals were SO cute haha...

Ah yes not forgetting to mention about the trip to Fremantle. It's a very busy place, but we were DAMN busy shopping, so quite boring also haha... Also we went to the place where it had the self-proclaimed BEST,#1 FISH AND CHIPS IN THE WHOLE WORLD...world...world... and we ate so much LOBSTER AND OYSTER haha. Can't believe we didn't eat the fish and chips. Crazy la my family. In the morning we went to this really really HUGE park, and there were so many trees, but so no flowers... Not in season haha.:( But luckily it was misty that morning, so when we were at the hill of the park, we saw the rest of the town... In the middle of fog. Technically we saw fog only haha. Wildflowers weren't in season, so no pictures... So sad...

I think that's it for the moment. I'll keep updating this entry. Kinda 4got some stuff hehe...

Top 10

Hey just thought of putting this up, haha

Top 10 Fav Foods

1. Chocolate mint(bar or ice-cream)-->Merry Mint!!! Swensens RULZ
2. Won-ton mee
3. Mushroom Soup (Yum!!!)
4. Grandma's Homecooked Meatballs(My granma)
5. Onion Rings!!!!!
6. KFC Chicken Nuggets'
7. Grandma's Chicken Soup(Heats up my stomach haha)
8. Meat patties/Burger patties
9. Otak-otak
10. Garlic Bread

Kinda thought this up b4 tuition, so I kinda forgot some, I'll update this post when I remember haha

June.... Hmm...

Wow time flies... Can't believe it's June already. How have you readers been? Exam's over, so is the football season... Hope you guys are enjoying your holidays, I'm going off to Perth 4th to 8th so expect some nice pics on this page sooner or later :) Good luck to all the guys who are joining Adidas bball competition on the 12th... I'm finally getting my chance to show something after not going for 3-on-3 tournaments for so long haha...

Things aren't going so well inside though. First of all, I'm really, really thankful for the friends I have at Sri KDU. Being at this school is tough, not to mention full of lies, deceit and jealousy. Unless you're at the top of course, or you're a babe magnet or something. You get what I mean. There are a handful of ppl who are really really honest sometimes, but 99.99% of the time they're sarcastic. Maybe I'm the one that's slow. But among the sarcasm and laughter, there are lessons to be learned. I suppose I'm just one of the "less heard" voices in Sri KDU, so if you do object my opinions, pls feel free to say how you feel. Well it seems I've been too honest there past few years. I suppose it's better than lying sometimes. Maybe I just don't dare to lie. I do bluff ppl and twist the truth sometimes, but I think when I lie I feel really really bad... Maybe I should start learning though. I'm getting a lot of opinions on when to lie and not to, but it's like when you don't, you hurt ppl indirectly... yah that's why some ppl hate me I suppose. I've broken down a few times over this kind of thing, sounds pathetic ain't it? I suppose I have to change... Or don't I? People have told me to be myself, but if I stay myself, I would still be stuck hurting people... I'll tell you something about myself, I hate hurting people... and I really really feel uncomfortable when someone hates me for no reason. Because I'm the kind of person that tries my best to reason with people. Hey what if I could change myself? I would still be myself, and I won't hurt other ppl... of course it is easier said than done. Haihz. I think sometimes that the only time I can be honest without hurting ppl is online, here. Unfortunately the Internet is also the best way to lying and cheating ppl(sms and telephones come second) so up to you whether you all wanna believe me la... Those ppl who really really know me would know whether I'm telling the truth.

Sometimes I think we LIVE to live up to our expectations or we live to impress... Especially in an enviroment where there is a lot of pressure involved. Having fun and being hardworking is ok when you're doing something, but in the end, it's the results that counts... The world doesn't care whether you're good, coz everyone's good... Of course from the ppl i've mixed with there are people who are satisfied with what they have, such as Shern and so on... But We as human beings would be progressing non-stop... I don't think it is possible that we would ever be satisfied, let alone complacent. Because those "complacent people" are the ones who don't make it to the top... And I think that people at the top would always want to go higher... Staying static is the road to going down, that's how the world works, I think. Another thing is about competition. If we all as human beings live for the same purpose, why are we competing to be the best? In the end, everyone's gonna be using it, and all the "best" gets is "oh that guy used to be the best at this kinda thing". Kinda pointless if you ask me.

The views above were made by me due to what I think of parents, people's and mine. I think for certain teenager's parents, they would find it hard to communicate with their children like one of my friends... He calls his mom "stupid", and what kind of child would call his/her mom stupid? I'm honest. Unreasonable is a good word, but when you're claiming that your mom is stupid, you're probably the biggest fool, and if they(parents) were stupid, their biggest mistake would be having you as a child. It's normal to argue with your parents, but if you think that you're right and you deserve a lot more, then you're wrong... Put yourself in their shoes, how would you feel? I try to look at my mom's point of view everytime I let her down or do something wrong, and up to today I can't find out how EXACTLY parents work... They don't just feed you and take care of you, they're your one true friend who understands you, if they know you well enough. Yes, times have changed, for example when I talk to my mom or teachers about my friends' relationships, the adults would "underestimate" us and say that we're not commited enough compared to what they've done or stuff like that.. They may not know how we feel when we love or have a crush or someone, but what parents have done before we were born took huge decisions... and a lot of mature thinking. Shit I've been typing for half an hour, better sleep now... Nitez...

Lalalala....

Heya it's been so long since I've updated my blog... How are you readers? Wish you all the luck I have(which I use in my Cho Dai Di) to aid you in your coming exams.... You'll need it I trust. Quite a lot happened over the weekend, Mother's Day passed too... Happy Mom's Day to all the momsies out there... Be the best. Anywayz I've got sososo much to talk about.

Hmm let's start Saturday. Oh yah I desperately need soeone to find a gap in my head so he/she can stuff all the Sejarah facts in... Haha It's like I get bored with History, then I get even more confused with Physics... Luckily Mr.Teh cleared that out on Monday. Oh yah I'm still stressed, dnno whether it's over T or not... Oh well. Took one of my SUPER RARE afternoon naps, sent off my dad to Germany... Sosososo dissapointed MU only drew.

Then came Sunday. Mother's Day. Me and my bro were like hugging mom's hand from 9 to 10. You have no idea how hard it is. :P Finally watched Robots in the afternoon, it's damn funny... Seems like not much happened over the weekend. At least Kimi Raikonnen won... Yay... Yes I also finally got Jesse McCartney's She's No You!!! Kinda hooked on it now... But still addicted to Gorillaz.

Monday was interesting. T still refuses to talk to me. Hmm oh yah ot to meet new Sejarah teacher... That guy looks like, young. Found out today that he was in the business 10 years.*Gulps*But he went to Newcastle to do his studies... oh Well he seems friendly. Just don't get on his bad side. PE was a bust, postponed to after assembly today(1500m)for PE test... Did quite good today though. Managed to just nick it(6min57sec=A haha) so I was like damn tired... So of course out of instinct I went to play footie after school. So came back tired, and played MORE football with my bro... goodness. And after that my mumm was like, screwing me head to toe to head again... seems that I'm not spending enough time on studies. Oh yes seems that we have a new aquarium in our class. With 40 fishes and lots of stones. And(not suprisingly) we named all 40 of those fishes... haha, I think one was named A.K.Chan, and it was sideways today... Haha... Wonder how they're gonna keep the fish alive on weekends though.

Oh well. Now this part is slightly more important than the rest. I've decided that since I get so worked up/sad/upset/pathetic over girls in Sri KDU, I've decided to stop myself from... uhh... how to say... Look for partner la. Haha I have talked to some of my most trusted/loyal/sarcastic friends, and I think I'll go with it... Save myself for U. Sri KDU's a hellhole/advertisement. So I've got an imaginary headband over my head now... Just like Son Goku.

I don't think anything that happened lately brought to this decision. I think it's because I have lost T as a friend. She won't even say hi to me anymore. Is it that bad??? Haihz... Oh well, game over. At least for this round. Gonna try to get her to forgive me though. So to whoever that's reading this be my witness... If I ever break this rule(until I get out of Sri KDU) you can kick me in the balls... Swear I won't dodge. SPM's around anywayz. Oh yah heard there's gonna be a farewell thing going on for Mr.Teh,Tana and Ms.Loy... so sad... A fond farewell to them, wish that Ms.Loy didn't leave though... wondering who's gonna teach us Physics THIS time. It's like the 5th teacher in 2 years. Lam, Yong,Teh ,Nicole,NewTeacher yah. This school ah...

Oh well I think that's all. I'll keep this updated. Ciaoz :)

A Friday Blog

Heya updating my blog as promised... Today seems like a nice day. I suppose.

Seems that everyone's touching up on their websites, and mine doesn't look anywhere as near as nice as theirs. Man Mid-year exams's coming... Miss Julie gave those ppl who showed up 4 her bio extra class :p so good luck to all those that gonna take her bio test... Today was normal I guess, everything in order, Shern being the usual sarcastic guy, I think that's what makes him Shern... Good la at least he's funny and unique in that way. Perhaps it's the way he thinks about his problems. Oh well.

Kinda miss my old school friends... Haven't contacted them in a while. Never reply me on MSN also. One of them's birthday just passed yesterday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZE WEI..... Anywayz still unable to calm down... Thankfully I can still concentrate, just that now I can't relax... Hope T talks to me soon... I've got to confront her somehow and get this problem fixed. Can't seem to sleep well either. One of my closest friends said the best way is to not get involved. I guess that's one way. But I think some ppl would like to just "get in the mess anyway". It's like doing something for the fun of it, and when you finish it, or even if you don't you might feel hurt or sad, but you would most likely be satisfied... I know I sorta have.

Oh yes tell you what happened yesterday... You know I have a neighbour/friend called Lucas... Now I think Tuesday he came over for football at my place la. So obviously the ball got out of the house somehow and ended up in the drain under my house!! Haha... So Lucas, me and Luter had an "expedition" under the drain haha... It was quite fun, although quite cramp la... Coz the drain was covered by wood planks... So the boys had to crawl under them to retrieve the ball la. And I was the bloody cameraman who was bz taking pics if the two of them( Lucas and me bro Luter) from front, back and above haha... They had admitted it was damn fun( killing spiders and more spiders with old slippers) haha so they decided to do something wacky everytime Lucas came over...

And we did. Yesterday Lucas came over for football(again). This time, however, we walked out of the house and explored tropicana... Wow... I mean for them la. :p Mind you, Tropicana is quite a big place, and there are lots of different designs of houses... And of all the places we went, the two boys, went to look for "secret tunnes" which were actually the little gaps between houses full of plants and so forth which just cuts across two streets... Oh well. Then we went into half-constructed houses and thankfully (again) we didn't get caught by anyone. And we managed to get a good balcony view too. Of Trop's golf course. Damn nice. Anyway on the way back we were walking by the main road and out of nowhere one of the boys(guess who) came up with the idea of WAVING TO ONCOMING CARS. I dunno how... argh *fill in word here* they could get, so of course I waws the cameraman again as the two waved to every single car that passed by the main road... Took a few nice pictures too. Luckily we weren't wearing Sri KDU T-shirt, can you imagine if someone read our name tags???? haha... Didn't get too lucky though. This morning one of the F4 students came up to me and asked me what was my bro doing haha... So ppl PLS no matter how retared you feel, DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME. Haha...

See I didn't mope arond about how sad I am this time. HAH! So until next time... Ciaoz... Miss T alot alot alot

When will I find peace?

Heya haven't been really good lately. Seems that the whole fiasco I'm going through is taking it's toll on me physically, mentally and emotionally. Liverpool beat Chelsea yay...

Anywayz that's not the point. These last few days I haven't got much sleep. I'm quite stressed out now... T's not talking to me anymore. Not replying my sms either. My health is affected too. I seem to sleep in school a lot, and I don't really have the mood to do much homework anymore... Even when everyone's ICT project looks so great and all, I don't think I'll have interest in that for a while... I now have a constant but annoying headache on my back, so if you find me stressed out or if I have sudden tantrums don't blame me la...

Anywayz the past few days ain't so great. Can't seem to find anything interesting to do anymore. No one to really talk to anywayz. Everyone's got their own life now... Shern's still hooked onto my jacket haha. Maybe I should lighten up abit... Shouldn't open up my heart to much though. I've got to confront T somehow... If not I won't be calm enough to face my coming mid year exams... Even the house's fridge is spoiled haha.

Well can't write much now, in school, so I'll update my blog later today la

Depressed...

Hey there burning the midnight oil for History test next Thursday, waiting for football to start... Hope liverpool beats Chelsea tonight, after losing 3 times to them this season already... Oh well. That's not the point. In this blog I'm gonna make everything official.

A week or so ago i asked .....e to be my girlfriend. (Hope no one recognises the name, but just to confirm for those guys who know) Seems I got turned down quite heavily. Didn't know she had a boyfriend already either. Man did Tristen screw me hard. Yes, Tristen. I'm quite upset now, but then I wasn't coz I was expecing this kinda answer. Guess even the strongest of walls have cracks. I crumbled earlier today, unfortunately no one was there to hear me so I got sosososososo stressed out... Feel so bad now, nearly screamed at Shern today... So sorry Shern... Seems that I've complained quite a lot already. Listening to my compiled list of David Benoit jazz songs.

Recently this girl, T asked for my number. She seemed lke a nice girl, and her timing was "perfect" as I started to become friends with her nearly before I asked .....e. I was, indeed quite interested in T when I saw her perform for Open Day, but I never got to know her better coz, I dunno I was still hooked on to .....e I guess... Now I'm still friends with her (I guess) after the fiaso that happened earlier... See last weekend she was away, so she passed her phone to her cousin... So of course I talked to T's 14 year-old cousin who I have never met... And out of nowhere she asked me whether I liked T. At that moment I panicked. I knew that I was still cleaning up the pieces from .....e, but it's like I had sudden urge to know T more, maybe it's puppy love I don' know. But after the weekend I was insane about T. Sounds not right, but I was over the moon. Just earlier under my uncontrollable emotions, and being the naive me, thinking that I always had a chance(since she asked for my number haha), DUH she turned me down... Now I'm really heart-broken.

Now I feel wronged to myself, .....e and T. I wronged T coz I caused her unnnecessary panic... Seems that she was damn panicked when I asked her. I...I... :'( Nvm I felt like I wronged myself coz it's like wrong to fall in 'love' with someone straight after a heart-break... Sounds bad huh? Well you know what, I waited for .....e through her first bf, and now Tristen?!?!? Good luck to the both of them. I'm just here, still alone.... You know I had just hung up the phone with one of my closest friends, she said I deserved someone better... Hard to believe though. Seems that I have crushes too easily. Man.... And this song I'm listening to isn't helping much either. Just got to wait and find the perfect girl... Maybe I'm gonna go for a second shot. So whoever that reads this Shhh la. I trust you. Enough to not reveal their names.

You know some people have asked me why I would like to have a girlfriend... Some people think that I make it look like a necessity. Well I can live without one. Just that it's nice to fall in love with someone... The feeling that makes you wanna know more, and it sorta makes you look at life a whole lot better. You know it's like I always wanna know how she feels... And up to this point, I have been rejected, loved, lost, suceeded in puppy love, loved for the first time, manipulated, used, lost, and used again for some reason.... Then confronted, loved, and rejected again.... Seems complicated, but when you think about it, it's kinda normal... Ironically the relationships that I had was probably the most "perfect" one, which I had almost totally commited my soul into doing... Although I did not lose time, family and friends, I had lost all sense of awareness... It's like when I was with my ex, it's like I'm in a room with just the 2 of us... nothin else. It's a wonderful thing sometimes... Of course I make it look like a drug also. Seems like love is he only way for temporary happiness for me. I doubt that. I don't think I'm afraid of getting hurt, I mean 'no pain, no gain' rite?

Sorry if I'm moping about how I feel too much. Let's see what did I do today? Went to school, life's normal I guess... Although our class got 2nd for the inter-class skid thing, CONGRATS GUYS!!! Oh well nothing new really, tomorrow's the New South Wales test for Science... Good luck to those ppl taking it. T is takiing it too. Oh yah our mid year exams were BROUGHT FORWARD TO NEXT WEEK ARGH?!?!?!?! I mean it's already bad enough we just finished getting our marks back, but now we have another 2 weeks to cover f4 and f5... OMG... My mom says that it's good training for SPM... Haha... Oh well... Hmm let's see oh yah came home got really really stressed out dunno why... Went up to Mayang Mas up the hillto eat Indian... Yum... Had a portion of mpm's mee mamak too. Came home and I was like Zzzz..... Haha

I think that's it for today la. Still waiting for the rain to stop, hope it stops b4 the match starts... I'll keep updating...