"Anyone who identifies as a woman is a woman" is an attack on reality itself. If you get something so fundamental wrong, how can anyone trust you on anything?
She's conflicted because she knows what social programming wants her to feel but she feels the opposite. The "hate" is mixed with curiosity and attraction.
Careers don't work like that. It's impossible to work a 500k job off and on. It takes years of dedication to get to that level in the first place and once you lose it you might never get it back.
