Silver Wind

Yeah, feel free to label me oversensitive or FOMO or whatever, but I DID cry all through the 2nd half of the film. :) Started crying during the chemotherapy part, for sure. I WENT THROUGH A WHOLE PACK OF TISSUES.

First of all, I'm a Chinese-Indonesian (4th? Or 5th generation?) who no longer can speak the language. In fact, I think my grandparents from my mom's side were more... Dutch-influenced than Chinese. ^^;;; My dad's family was the more Chinese traditional, but I wasn't as close to them as I was to my mom's family, so.

ANYWAY, what a long intro. What I want to say is that I relate to M so much. Hmm, I don't think I've ever talked about this before on twitter, not even in RL talk. I didn't act as caregiver of my grandparents, but I was... a bit for my parents? Not my older brothers' fault, they were already out of our family home at that time.

I DID experience helping my dad with the cleaning etc, although we did have a dedicated home nurse (?) for him. But when my dad passed away at home, I was the one who was next to him, because my mom couldn't bear the situation and refused to come inside his room. I was the one who finally whispered to him, "If you want to go now, it's okay. We'll be okay, you can go now."

I was also the one who was next to my mom when she got heart attack, and then passed away in the ER. In both situations, I cried my heart out after that... in the bathroom. ^^;;; So during both of my parents' wakes in the funeral home, then at the actual funerals, I was completely dry-eyed while both my older brothers cried in front of the coffins. The extended family and guests even commented about how strong I was because they didn't see me crying. But no. I cried until I was satisfied, unseen by everyone.

...What kind of ramble was that above.

The bottom line is, all through the movie, even though M's employment, finance etc situation and mine aren't similar at all, but the family atmosphere is VERY relatable. I forgot what scene it was, but there's a moment where I just went, "Fuck, I miss Mami." and then I cried even more. ^^;;;;

EVEN DOWN TO THE INHERITANCE DISCUSSION IS A BIT SIMILAR. :) :) :) And also similar: 'daughter takes care of everything but gets nothing' part. ;) ;)

Anyway, sorry for rambling about my RL instead of the movie. But in conclusion, IMHO this a very sincere movie, the cast is amazing, and I salute the director for being able to touch a lot of people's hearts with how genuine this movie is. Thank you.

And if you have a chance to watch it, please do!