[sticky entry] Sticky: intro post

Sep. 10th, 2024 10:31 pm
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
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hi, my name is bixbite, but you can call me bix ! i'm a nonbinary lesbian, my pronouns are they / it, and i'm 28 years old!

i like lots of things!! i haven't used any sort of journal since i was like 9! i'm probably just going to post about my daily life and the games i play, nothing too heavy.

i occasionally age regress ! if you aren't familiar,
here is a nifty little site that explains it pretty well. it's typically involuntary due to trauma, but sometimes i regress just to relax and have fun. this is not sexual in any way, shape, or form, and if you're someone who fetishizes that sort of thing, please move along elsewhere: you will be blocked.

here's a fun list of a bunch of my interests:

  • Team Fortress 2
  • Psychonauts 1 & 2
  • Fantasy Life
  • Juice Galaxy
  • Yokai Watch (especially Yokai Watch 3!)
  • Monk (TV Series)
  • Mob Psycho 100
  • The Vampire Dies in No Time
  • Undertale & Deltarune
  • Lightyear Frontier
  • Pizza Tower
  • Miitopia
  • Osomatsu-san & Osomatsu-kun
  • Dragon Quest (Mostly XI)
  • Animal Crossing
  • Pokemon
  • Octopath Traveler
  • Fallout 76
  • The Elder Scrolls (especially Online)

woof..

Nov. 19th, 2024 12:24 pm
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
apologies for not posting so much lately, i've just been exhausted.. but i had a lot of fun on sunday night!! me, the wife, the roommate, and roommate's friend all hung out for a few hours downstairs. it was really nice! we hung out and watched a bunch of goofy videos and i laughed so much my throat felt sore for a while after.. it was a lot of fun!!

oh, and the bottle i ordered finally came in a few days ago!! i was so upset at first because i couldn't find the package and assumed it got lost in the mail, but it was just somewhere i didn't look! it's so, so cute ;_; i picked the color yellow but the print was completely random. i'm happy it's dinosaurs!! it's cute and (thematically) matches the dinosaur themed paci clip i got hehe

A photograph of a baby bottle. It has a yellow cap and contains strawberry milk. The print on the bottle features three dinosaurs surrounded by butterflies and miscellaneous plants. Two of the dinosaurs are yellow and have long necks with light blue spots and pink spines. The third dinosaur is shorter and stout. It is pink with white spots and light blue spines. Text at the top reads: “Little Dino.”

i love it a lot!!! i've been using it almost every night since i got it, it's so nice for winding down and having a yummy drink before bed.. the original nipple that came with it was pretty cheap and flimsy so i went and bought a better quality one and it's perfect!! very chewable ^__^ (i am The Biter)

bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
waugh.. not a big surprise, but! i'm exhausted! i work tomorrow, too, but hopefully i won't have to work this weekend..

today wasn't too too bad, and two days ago i got brave enough to order a bottle to try out!! i've been wanting one for ages now, but it's hard to justify to myself & also not bully myself out of it.. but it'll be nice, i think! it'll just take another week or so to get here!

i've been doing better at taking care of myself and being kinder to myself, i think. got triggered kind of badly the other night, but i was able to calm myself down and feel better before it turned into a full-blown breakdown, which is.. a lot better than i usually do!! this agere shit goes crazy LOL.. i think training yourself to be kinder to the kid inside of you is just a really good way to improve how you feel about yourself in general. like sometimes i don't want to eat, or i just feel miserable and don't want to do anything about it, but then i'm like "...the kid. :-( i gotta make the kid feel better" so i'll force myself to eat & drink at least something

crazy to finally have a HEALTHY coping mechanism after this long, but it's really nice ;;

oh, after i voted the other day, we went to the local gacha place that was giving out a free token to everyone who voted! i got a cool sylveon with it, and then i bought another token to try out a mystery capsule and i got a PSYDUCK!! pokemon sweep... i was so excited hehe

A picture of two Pokemon figurines. The one on the left is a Psyduck holding a beach ball with pink and transparent stripes. The one on the right is a Sylveon with an angry expression, surrounded by whirling pink energy, ready to battle.

waugh...

Oct. 30th, 2024 10:46 pm
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
today and yesterday have been such LONG work days.. it's good for money, y'know, but god, it hurts so bad.. having chronic pain is so miserable sometimes, it's hard to not let it get me down and just ruin my mood but i do my best..! gotta keep on truckin even if it's hard.. i work tomorrow, too, but it should be a short day!! which i'm excited about! means i get to enjoy the rest of the evening & night even more :-) halloween... i hope i get home early enough to hand out candy!! i love halloween so much it's the BEST holiday!

also, at work today i was putting away some merchandise and i saw a big blue dragon plushie that looked like someone had changed their mind about and just tossed aside.. it's reeeeally soft and was only 6 dollars, which is crazy for the size!! so i kind of caved in and got it, lol... a little reward for surviving the last two days

Two dragon plushies sitting side by side. The one on the left is small and pink with white horns. The one on the right is at least triple the size, and a darker blue color with gray accents.

bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
one of the funny things about age regression is that when i'm feeling smaller, i have completely different tastes in food. i still enjoy A Few of the same things, but i'll really strongly crave sweets & snacks that i Can't Stand as an adult. like come on kid dont do this to me…..

when i gently tell the small gremlin in the back of my mind that i am NOT buying those disgustingly sweet iced cookies with the HORRIBLE texture no matter how much they yell about it:

A photo of a chubby hamster sitting with its face against a wall. It looks very grumpy.

bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
so this past sunday was REALLY fun! shan's friend frank came over and we all hung out. we went to see the comet, which was beautiful!! and then we went home and played a really goofy game for the GBA on his emulator called "Pocket Dogs". it's such a weird and charming little game, and i think it can easily be considered "bad", but i had a LOT of fun with it and now i'm gonna start playing it on my own, lmao. it's SO precious ;_;

i had a long day of work today & yesterday so i'm really tired and achy, but i'm off tomorrow! i can catch up on laundry and relax :-) yippeee
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
god my job pisses me off so bad sometimes. got a message in the group text listing who works tomorrow, i wasn't in it, so i assumed i'd be off tomorrow and would be able to hang out with friends at the blocktoberfest thing the neighborhood is having, but i just got a text THREE AND A HALF HOURS AFTER the initial one letting me know i work tomorrow, too. ok. thanks for letting me get my hopes up UGHHHHH
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
finally went to the doctor today about the rash on my arm that i've had for about 2 1/2 weeks.. on the plus side, she agrees that it seems like i'm on the tail-end of it, and she said i was doing a good job taking care of it :-) i make sure to wash & disinfect it a few times each day, and i keep it wrapped up / bandaged if i'm going outside or going to bed so no bacteria gets in it. she prescribed me some antibiotics that ill be taking twice a day for about 10 days!

hopefully this'll clear it up.. i'm so ready for it to be over. it's been so itchy and gross and annoying :-( it's been making sleeping that much more difficult ughhh... but i will survive!!!

oh, and one of shan's friends is gonna be in town this weekend which is excitng! we're gonna hang out with him on sunday! we're thinking of going to the cat cafe that just opened up, but you have to schedule ahead of time, so if that doesn't work out, we can just find other cool stuff to do :-)
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
i went to hang out with my wife & roommate in VRChat last night!! shan invited a bunch of his friends and it was a little scary but everyone was very nice and funny.. shan's friend to-chan even showed up!! they live in japan and they're very sweet but they don't speak english so i was worried about them feeling overwhelmed, but they had fun! they hung out for like an hour and a half, i was glad :-)

when i was using my larry (pokemon) avatar, they got me on stage to do the song Tequila but i forgot the third "Tequila" because i was zoned tf out... it was so funny LMAO

someone turned into a star wars battleship in the back of the club and the singer was the first to see it bc they were facing the audience and they were like "STAR WARS BATTLESHIIIIIP?!?!?" in the middle of their song i fucking criedd

i'll have to ask shan if he has any good screenshots from last night so i can post them here!! hehe. i'm glad i went :-)
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
my roommate shan invited me to go hang out in VRChat tomorrow night with some friends.... they're gonna be doing karaoke but i don't Have to sing or anything, he just wants me to join and hang out.. i'm so nervous but he said there's a quiet room downstairs in the room where the sounds from outside are very quiet / muffled so it'll be nice if i get overwhelmed .. i'm just!! so anxious!! i used to be so much braver about this kind of stuff, especially online.. i was a lot more outgoing and excited to meet new people, but now i'm just this anxious mess waugh

i'll do my best!!! i think i'm gonna use a model of larry from pokemon as my avatar, so if i'm awkward it's at least in character (LOL)
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
i had the last few days off work, so i've just been chilling and letting myself rest :-) i've been so tired auuugh... not for any real reason, just chronic pain bleugh


i feel bad for not posting in a few days, but it's ok!! not much has really happened, except a few days ago me and my wife went to a really cute TCG shop that had gacha machines! they even had a cute little gardening corner with little plants and plant pots for sale, plus a bunch of cool toys and cards and stuff!! it's really cozy, and i definitely wanna go back sometime :-) the staff were super nice and they said it's cool for people to just come in and hang out... wow...
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
whew this has been a busy week so far, and i probably work tomorrow, too.. working 4 days in a row isn't really much for most people, i know, but my chronic fatigue & pain make it so painful.. i also hit my right foot (my bad foot OTL) against a metal bar today and it hurt so badly i felt nauseous. but i survived!! also, i got to play my music over the bluetooth speaker in the warehouse near the end of my shift, so that was fun. :-)


i've been thinking about pokemon legends arceus so much lately that i.. may have started another playthrough on a different account. because i am absolutely NOT wiping that save, i still have a bunch of stuff i wanna do, i just want to re-experience the story SO badly!! it's so good! it's fun and silly and sad and exciting and heartbreaking!! i'm gonna fuckin cry over every major story beat again!!!!!!!! YEEAAHHH!!!!

for my new file, i picked the "boy" character because i wanted to see if the girl's dialog would be any different, but so far it seems identical, which i appreciate, honestly! i've hated the rivals/friends having different gendered dialog since like RSE days, lol. i vividly remember how annoyed i was when the boy rival was always really mean and condescending to you, but the girl rival was soo sweet and friendly. blegh ptooey yuck!!!!

but i'm already having so much fun!! haven't even fully explored the first area yet bc i'm training up my little baby team, but i'll get there >:-) here's my character & team so far! (i don't name pokemon immediately, i like to let a nickname come to me naturally while training them, so that's why a few may be unnamed)

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bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
today has been nice.. just relaxing, resting, and playing some ESO :-) i go back to work tomorrow and might have a long week ahead of me, but i'll survive!!

and this is a little embarrassing but i figure it's my journal, so i can post about whatever i want!!! it's really fun & comforting for me to like.. imagine comfort characters as either age regressors or caregivers.. like hassel from pokemon, i can see being both! i don't think he really had much of a childhood with his incredibly strict & traditional family, so it makes me happy to think of him regressing and brassius taking care of him and letting him experience the kind of fun, gentle childhood he never got to have.. ughh ;_;

it just makes me happy but it's like.. a hard thing to just share with people, so i usually keep it to myself. i don't want people to assume i'm like Weird about it, you know? there's already so many people who think "age regression" is like, a fetish term, and it just feels bad inside to always preface stuff with "not being a freak here, but-" aghhh

i wish there was more fanart & fics of stuff like this.. i've found some really really sweet ones with pokemon characters (and honestly i have a partially-written one of my own that i'm likely never sharing with anyone besides like. one or two people)

but it's just something i wish i could talk about & share more openly, you know? it sucks to have to feel so much shame & fear around something that's mostly involuntary, but i'm trying to let myself develop a better relationship with it so i don't beat myself up over it so much anymore.. progress is progress!
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
my COVID & FLU SHOTS!!! HAHA!!! anyway yes i told my roommate "i'm gonna go get shot at baker's" because i do think this is a funny joke to make when getting shots every single time. it never stops being funny. i will stop making this joke when i am dead

anyway, i'm off today and it's the beginning of my 3 day weekend (saturday, sunday, monday) so i figured i'd just go and get my shots so the worst of the side effects (like arm soreness) can mostly go away before i have to go back to work. i'm definitely due for these, but i was putting it off bc i didn't want side effects to make work harder lol. but now i am PROTECTED. or i will be in the next few weeks once its had its time to like. work in my system

playing more pokemon legends arceus and training up my shiny sneasel bc i really want to try the path of solitude stuff... i wanna show off... i wanna show ingo how cool i am (choking back tears) (i like him a normal amount)

here is my shiny sneasel, his name is totty :-)

A picture of a shiny Sneasel standing next to its trainer, a pale-skinned child with red hair and green eyes.
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
today wasn't so bad! only worked just under 6 hours. i was cramping a little throughout the day, but nothing too bad. i should work tomorrow, too, and then be off all weekend. yippeeee!!

i've also started messing around with pokemon legends arceus again... it's such a good game... i wish i could re-experience the story with my own character without having to beat the game all over again, because WOW... i LOVE PLA, but ohh my god. it takes so much time and effort and WORK to unlock the ending. you have to do thorough research on every single pokemon in the game (excluding arceus, including other legendaries) and it takes soooo long. don't get me wrong, though, it was a lot of fun and did ultimately feel very rewarding! but i think it's gonna be a hot minute before i feel emotionally ready to undertake that task again, lol..

but god. what a phenomenal game. it's so heartbreaking & tragic at times i had to just put down my switch and go "... Man." i cant WAIT for whatever the sequel is going to be ohh my god UGHHHHH
bixbite: (yucky)
  • Content Warning: mentions of some medical stuff, menstruation, emetophobia

oh boy. it's been a rough day today & yesterday... got some news that my mom was rushed to the ER because of an abcess on her kidney, but they managed to drain it and are gonna keep her in the hospital while they run some tests and keep an eye on her.. i hope she feels better soon. my mom seems to have such bad luck medically, there's always something going on :-( i just wish she could catch a break..

and then today i woke up, my period started, i felt like garbage but tried to go into work anyway, but that resulted in me 1. throwing up in the bathroom 2. throwing up in the breakroom (trashcan) and 3. having to go home because i was shaking and sweating uncontrollably and felt like i was going to burst into tears. so then i came home and managed to nap for about 2 hours and i'm feeling Slightly better, but still hurting and feeling generally bad. eughhhhh... what a day.

i just made myself some instant tonkotsu ramen and a nice hot cup of tea, so here's hoping the rest of the night will be a little more peaceful :'-)

bixbite: (sleeping)
i ended up spending almost all day playing elder scrolls online, lmao. it was fun though!! i really love northern elsweyr.. it's so fun to explore and some of the quests are so damn funny... i hope razum-dar's exes take turns throwing tomatoes at him. i love raz, but he does deserve it. LOL

im off tomorrow, too, but then after that it'll be back to work. bluuugh. i mean, money is good, but god it's exhausting. especially with chronic pain & fatigue. but i'll just do what i always do and keep on trucking along..!

having a journal is kind of fun.. i don't have a great short-term memory, so having a little place to write down daily occurences (even if they aren't anything too special) is pretty nice. something to kind of look back on and go, "ohh, that's when i did that!"

anyway, i'm gonna go lay down and start getting comfy :-)
bixbite: (playing)
today was really nice! i hung out with my roommate & my wife in the living room and we all played games together. i was playing pokemon scarlet and shan & my wife were playing splatoon 3! :-) also shan made some potato mochi and it was soooo good..  waugh

i also found two more shinies today! this time it was a shiny Tyrogue and a shiny Espurr!

A picture of a shiny Tyrogue.A picture of a shiny Espurr.

it's starting to feel more like the shinies are hunting me instead.....

bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
last night while i was casually playing some pokemon scarlet, i randomly encountered and caught two different shinies! and they're both girls!! one is a shiny Houndstone, and the other is a shiny Comfey! they're so cute ;_; here's how they each look, respectively!


A picture of a shiny Houndstone.A picture of a shiny Comfey.

i named the houndstone Sandy, and the comfey Marina! they're so cute.. i want to level them up...

ALSO i found & befriended a Fuecoco in pokemon sleep!! surely we are getting closer to befriending a charmander... surely...

bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
hi, i woke up early to go get my car's registration updated because i kept forgetting to do it, but it took over an hour because google maps is Wrong about where the dmv's are. it lists state drivers licensing offices as dmvs, but you literally can't renew your registration at a licensing office, because it's for GETTING your license, not doing actual car stuff -_- aughhh.

still, it was kind of nice to just drive around for a while on a chill morning and listen to music. i treated myself to a gas station soda & some pizza slices on the way home :-) i'm off work today so i'm just gonna chill and probably play some more ESO. i've been questing in northern elsweyr lately, and it's SOOO FUN. one of the first quests i did was helping a guy find his pet guar, who he named gordon. gordon was very cute and he was returned home safely!!

happy 9/11

Sep. 11th, 2024 08:47 pm
bixbite: A headshot of Hassel from Pokemon Scarlet & Violet. The background is the lesbian flag. (Default)
today was a pretty nice day! had a short-ish day at work and it went pretty smoothly, but i'm so sore agh... but at least i'm home now. :-) i took a nice shower & got myself a treat from the gas station (coca cola slushie i love you deeply)

i've also been playing Pokemon Sleep lately because my roommate got me into it. it's honestly a nice little incentive to sleep and it's sooo cute to see all the pokemons' little sleeping forms... i saw charmander this morning and nearly burst into tears LOOK AT IT

An image of a sleeping Charmander. It is curled up on its side.