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Leave it all behind by blue, literature

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Leave it all behind

Depression sets in and the prozac is done the drugs don't work and they lost their fun. Forgot my name and who i am lost my friends but i don't give a damn. My lifes a waste, this feels like a joke no one to fall back on and my strings are broke.Don't want to be so fucking simple and plain want a new life and want to try this again. I am out of place and i'm ready to leave don't say goodbye, just head for release. Have a chance to make this all right make it good, make it something i like.I'm all messed up and i just can't stay need to leave the past, to remove my dismay. My broken life and my broken bones here i am as i proceed on alone. ...

Changing times by blue, literature

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Changing times

I can’t remember who I was myself before, year after year I seem to change so much more. My thoughts, my concerns, my soul my mind, they all have changed, different I find. But as things change they seem to stay the same, my heart never forgets, and for that I am to blame.So to the things unforgotten and the to things we’ll never let go. To the people we remember and the friends that we knowAnd they all come and go, has they often do, but the ones we hold on to are the selected few. They are the ones that you count on, The ones that share you pain. They’re the ones that help you out, When it all goes wrong again.So do what you have to do t...

contempt by blue, literature

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contempt

There is contempt in your Words for me. There is contempt in your Thoughts for me. You will never give me The hope i need. You will never give me The trust i need. You will never let me say The things i need. You will never let me think The way i want. You will never let me feel The way i am. There is contempt in your Eyes for me. There is contempt in your Heart for me. But when i find myself all alone... You will be the only one who will be there for me.

Downfall by blue, literature

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Downfall

My world is fading so here i go Can't stop from falling down below I cross my fingers, i don't know Level off now, and do some blow.My boredom is startin to come in I run around to give the finger to the Ritalin I can't seem to focus in on anything So to ease my mind do another hit of everything.To stay wake i have another drink If when i sobe out i start to think Head to the bar where the glasses clink I don't miss a thing man i never blinkBut now I'm coming out of this The past unravels to exist I take another hit and reminisce This life, i just can't keep up with.

I dont wanna remember by blue, literature

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I dont wanna remember

Sometimes i get to a point... Where things in my life don't matter to me anymore. Sometimes i get to a point... Where things just don't look the same to me anymore. When i don't care about a god damn thing, I don't see the point in anything I'm just this loser living in his own way, Just getting by making it from day to day.I don't wanna remember.I don't wanna remember, my life of the past. I don't wanna remember, the moments that didn't last. I don't wanna remember, all the days in between. I don't wanna remember, everything that i've seen. I don't wanna remember.Sometimes i get to a point... Where i just don't want to talk to anyone Some...

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tell me something by utro, literature

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tell me something

i can do harsh i can be violent and sick i can defy all moral decencies and cover myself with mud and spit and cum. i can do harsh.i can throw away the seed that bore me wallow in my disgrace my scrapbook of fears and my degree in hatred i can do harshi can wear a plastic mask and smile at all their petty attempts for acceptance when i can’t even accept myself or the transparent skin i don i can do harshbut can you do kind? can you do pure? can you do love?

Alive by teop, literature

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Alive

Like a bee I sleep After the hive was raided Like a tree I weep After the leaves have fadedI am unbalanced like a cliff Supported by a strand of wind I am silenced like a reef Beaten by an ocean waveAnd like a speck of dust I fly Landing in a random place And with a pinch of trust I try Standing by my faithWhen my life's an antpile under disarray And when my strife ends in denial and utter misery My faith crumbles to a rotting stump And my heart is but a crippled lumpI can't deny the harshness of this time But still I live and still I give And I will strive for I am stillAlive.

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Current Residence: Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada
Favourite genre of music: Rock / Alt Rock / Old School Hip Hop
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: Winamp
Skin of choice: My own ... :/
Favourite cartoon character: Dexter & His Monkey and Mojo Jojo.

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Empier Strikes Back

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Third Eye Blind

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blue

Dec 16, 2002

All Good Things...

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well what does one say? its been fun? I guess that this was coming for quite some time. Time to say good by to DeviantART. I think that some of you might have been able to tell from my low presents - now by no means was that from a lack of not wanting to be here or being a apart of this amazing community - but rather of a lack of time. There just doesn't seem to be enough hours in a day to fit everything in. *sigh* And so i'm afraid that sometimes somethings must fall by the wayside. And as much as i don't want to loose my connection to this place i just can't aford the hours that it has created for me (as entertaining as they have been.)...

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Oct 24, 2002

Very Un-Deviant ...

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:bulletblue: Song playing :bulletblue: None.... yeah yeah yeah ... I know it been a very long time since i've done anything here.... :no: i'm lazy... its not like i don't have anything to post just don't have the time... (too much gaming not enough DeviantArting.)I have all my pics scaned and ready to post all i need to do is clean them up and post them... but i have i have no idea when i'll get to that. Man i suck!Soon! I hope soon! I really gotta get back in. This is shameful.Ok, I will have those pic posted before next week or... or really nothing... com'on who am i really kidding... i've go on this long without posting anything what t...

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Sep 17, 2002

Devious Journal Entry

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:bulletblue: Song playing :bulletblue:None.I'm really trying hard to get back in and start being active here in DA. I'm not doing such a good job ... :unimpressed: So here goes try number 5!! (maybe this'll take maybe not...)Anyway, me and sasso have decided that we are going to be putting on an NHL regular season hockey pool this year. If you might be interested see details here Slowly but surely i'm chipping away at all the deviantMessages i have in my box :gallery: One day i will be done.... Watching 000nevermore000 , ali-d , alitax , ari-es , aristocrat , blondeoverblue , bluebutterfly , blueyedgirl , blurrysarah , cauter...