What's up?

Meeting friends in university just makes me feel happy. Listening to them telling me their stories or some knowledge just makes me realise how lucky I am to be here today.

Looking back to my time in semester 1, I know I was always unhappy. I didn't have a group of friends like in high school or college and I was a nobody. I hated those days where I hide in the library just drowning myself with studies to deny the fact that I felt lonely. I don't have meals in uni because deep inside I know I despise the fact that I got to eat alone. I watch movies alone and claimed that it was fun but it was just bearable because once I stepped out from the cinema, I don't know what to do or where to go that's why I always watch 2 movies in a row.

Well, from semester 2 onwards, I got to know more people and had people who I can call friends. I enjoyed my life better but the habit of studying 24/7, not eating and watching movies alone became part of my routine and till now I still have such life.

So when you ask me why I study all the time, why I spend my whole uni life in library, why I don't eat and why I watch movies alone, my answer will be

I adapted...

Out for 2 days

Saturday

Went for IELTS exam in the morning and finished by 12.15pm thanks to the people in charge of opening the door to the exam hall and the IDP people. Went to KLCC Chilis and had a nice meal of nachos, triple play and a Quesadilla Explosion which we didn't really fancy. sadly my favourite crispy chicken salad is not in the menu anymore =(

Came home, bath and went for a wedding dinner where we were shifted from one table to another then another because they arranged 2 seats instead of 3 seats for my family so 3 of us ended up having meals with the cousins and sister of the bridegroom. But so happen, the cousins were my primary school schoolmate and surprisingly they remembered me but we didn't talk much because I was tired. My mother was talking to them most of the time, asking the usual stuff of what are you doing now etc. Oh and they were nice and polite and keep serving us because according to them we are the guest LOL.

By 10.30pm before the wedding dinner ended (but after we finished our portion of the dessert), we left because we bought movie tickets for

Overall the movie was OK. I was kinda tired so I was just taking in what was happening without actually giving much thought but at the 1st few minutes, there is a scene which was kinda scary and after getting the first wave of shock, I counted to 10 then grab my sister's shoulder and she got the 2nd wave of shock HAHAHAHAHA....by the time we got home, it was already 12.30am.

Sunday

Woke up and went to uni and met up with June, Matthew, Ickes, Kyan and Yen Haw. Went to Sri Petaling for breakfast at a dim sum shop and Reza joined us. These people, don't know what is punctual tsk tsk tsk. Next, Kyan brought us to a yogurt shop and we shared 2 bowls of frozen yogurt. By 12.30pm, we dispersed so I went to the library and talked to another friend for a while and went back by train.

While walking out from the train station, Alicia called and the next thing I know we were at Mid Valley. We sat at Big Apple and had tea and talked from 3ish pm to 8pm!!!! OK, most of the time she talked I listened but when her bf joined us, I teased her bf LOL

Anyway, dead tired now and reading all the emails from the year 5 seniors is tiring because I'm using my dad's netbook and the screen is so small!!!! Can't wait to get MY laptop!!! =)

Fine, that's all for now...

FREAKING ANGRY

Stupid IMU!!! Stupid stupid stupid!!!

I just got an email from Aberdeen telling me that we don't need to retake IELTS. Great...I freaking paid RM550 for nothing!!! Wasted my time and effort preparing for the exam and made myself stressed out for nothing. NOTHING!!!!

Seriously, so pissed off!! With that RM550 I could have bought more winter clothing or spend it on some other stuff like paying my ballet fees or pay for attachment at HUKM. Blardy hell!!!

IMU, you really made my day, thank you very much. I sure am gonna go find that Imelda and give her a piece of my mind because she was the one that emailed us informing us that we need to retake IELTS and I even went and see her to confirm it!! Should have asked Aberdeen straight away!!!!

I planned to go to IMU to borrow the IELTS books from the library to prepare for this coming Saturday's listening, writing and reading and now, I don't really see the point of wasting that kind of effort and time. But then again, I've paid for the exam and exam is still exam, got to do my best. BUT I am just so angry!!!!

Grrr.....ARGH!!!!

updates

Went and watched Inception again on Sunday and I didn't really enjoy it. Reason being
1. Atmosphere of the cinema was bad as there were kids shouting , standing up and counting those who were watching the movie
2. I was tired
3. It was my second time watching it and the plot was still fresh in my mind

Anyway, I've come to a decision of
never watch the same movie twice in a cinema within the same month

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Graduation Day for my batch and other batches from other courses falls on 21.08.2010 and I don't feel like going but my dad told me "if I can't go for your graduation at University of XX, at least I can attend this" thus making me feel bad since I don't plan to go. Anyway, I got to reply to IMU before 6.08.2010 to confirm my attendance. ARGH!!

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I think I'm depressed working here. Got my salary yesterday and it was only for the 1st 11 days. So demotivating to see the amount on the pay cheque. Anyway, I'm saying that I'm feeling a little down working here because weeks ago when I climb the stairs, I'm filled with energy but recently when I climb the stairs I feel so weak and so lazy and I just felt like sitting at the stairway and not go back into the office. I wonder if I can last till end of October.

I've come to realise that working actually sucks the energy out of me big time. Not to brag but I usually can sit in the library for 10 or more hours and not feel tired even with just barely 4 to 5 hours sleep daily. But now waking up is so difficult and by 10pm or 11pm, I'll feel so dead tired that I just want to close my eyes and doze away irregardless of where I am. I really hate working here.

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Yesterday when I was telling my mom how people in the 9th floor have been calling me the "D" word I hate the most (for now), she asked me if it's because of the staff that wanted to introduce her nephew to me (no by the way) and guess what did she say next.

"Oh he's a neorologist or neurosurgeon right? How old is he again? Oh, not too bad what. If ngam then go for it lar."

We were in the car and I was sitting behind her with O.O"' face.
Mothers.

Library again =P

Here I am, in the library and yup it's a Sunday and it's 4.30pm now =P

I went for ACTS duty and then I came here. Anyway, I'm here to finish my last 5 episodes of Eyeshield 21 and sadly someone else was using megaupload and hence I could only read manga to wait for it to be available.

Half way through, my ex-aquarium-neighbour came into the library. I was kinda shocked to see him here on a Sunday. He's should be having his electives now. Anyway, I went and sat beside him and he just ignored me. So I turned to face him and waved at him (he was Facebook-ing) and that caught his attention. It took him few seconds to recognised me and his facial expression was so funny. It was at first -who the hell is this girl- then to -OMG!- HAHAHAHA!!

He could not recognised me and the first thing he could ask was - are you my ex-neighbour?? I can't recognise you!!!!

Later, Thomas, my batchmate came in and I know he's studying for USMLE so I went and say hi too and his expression was same like my ex-neighbour. Am I that unrecognisable??

Anyway, the sem 3 guy sitting beside my ex-neighbour is the culprit using megaupload so I don't know how, he offered to let me download my Eyeshield 21 using his laptop and within 1 hour I finished my 5 episodes!! If I were to use the desktop, it'll take me 5 hours for that 5 episodes!! The speed was 300-400 kbyte at his laptop but 100 or less at the desktop. So funny and so lucky.

My ex-neighbour wanted to bring me out for lunch but I wanted to finish my last 5 episodes so he left with a byeeee....

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I've borrowed 3 more chick lit books from the library which translates to, I need to come uni again next week to return the books =P

Now, based on the short summary at the back of the books,

This is about a girl who don't believe in marriage, Mr.Right or speed-dating but she needs to write an advertisement for the speed-dating campaign her company is banking on.

It's a bout a lot of misunderstanding.

About a few stories.

Right, I better start reading so I can return the books asap and I'm sure work will not get better because the staff is leaving on Tuesday!!! ARGH!! On the bright side, the only thing I can look forward on Tuesday is watching Inception.

EOS5 result

Ya, I just got my result.

What am I feeling now?

On top of the world?
Jumping with tears of joy?
Smiling from ear to ear?
Crying at a corner?

Seriously, no feelings at all. It's just a sign that I've completed the 1st phase of IMU. Next phase would be tougher and more exhausting I think. Not really looking forward to it.

Apparently 4 people failed the exam and out of the four, 1 failed both OSCE and the theory paper.

CONGRATES ME108!!!!!!
WE ROCK!!!!!

Little things in May and June

So how was life for me for the past few months. Easy to tell you.

5.45am - Leave house to KTM station
7.05am - Reach Uni
7.25am - Enter library
7.30am - Start studying
(8.00am - Attend lecture
10.30am - Enter library to continue studying) Before 20th May
10pm - Leave uni and head to LRT station
11.15pm - Reach home
12.45pm - Sleep

Told you it's easy to tell you. So I can tell you, my whole 2.5 years in IMU is spent in the library. Sad right? Not really actually because it's at the library that I got to meet new friends.

BTW, I have a LRT club and a sem3 weird but kind, nice, sweet guy is the president. Our club consist of 4 library furniture crazy students. Haha =P

Oh ya, I managed to donate blood on 16th May at Maha Vihara temple =)

On 27th May (Wesak day), I went and did volunteer work. My shift started from 10.30pm to 2.30am so I went to uni and study like usual but left at 9pm instead. I was assigned to register the volunteers and distribute the T-shirts to them. Those "seniors" who have been doing the same work for the past few years were so panicky. I mean, they were like so disorganised and they still dare tell me that they have been volunteering there for a long time so can call them sifu. Nah, very badly organised. Would rather call my sis sifu. LOL

So thats all for now. Will keep you updated =P

Post EOS 5 -2#

So far downloaded 6 episodes of Eyeshield 21 =)

Went for debriefing session and realised how I could have committed small silly mistakes if I did not pay attention or being absent minded. I now know what type of mistakes can be done and hopefully I'll remember and not do it.

After debriefing, went and helped out my sem 3 friends and this time I can confidently tell them what to focus, correct them and know that what I'm telling them are a definite right thing. Next, went for lunch with Jing and Monica (Monica was left behind alone because she's joining her gang to Penang on Sat and they're meeting at IMU). Really had a good time and good lunch. Sadly, both of them are not happy with the results especially Monica who seems so down and ready to burst in tears when she smile.

Came back and continued with anime downloading session and Monica found Vanishing Acts by Jodi Picoult!!!!! This was one of the books I planned to buy and it's in IMU's library!!! Yeah!! Can save money for now and it's my 1st fiction book to read after my EOS 5 =)

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Let's continue with 1st day of exam.

MEQ started at 9.30am. This exam is like PBL where they'll present us a case and ask us clinical questions. 8 questions all together and each question consist of 3 pieces of different coloured paper and there is a time limit so after that allocated time (5 minutes or 6 minutes or 7 minutes), the buzzer will sound and we got to change paper by putting the answer in an envelope and take a new question paper from another envelope. Since it's colour coded, we can't cheat. It was tiring and scary and I hope I can pass this paper.

OBA (one best answer) is like MCQ but difference is the answers are similar and we got to choose the best answer out of 5 options. For this exam, we had 80 questions. By the time most of us came to the 40th questions, we were exhausted. When I was checking, I think I zoned out for a couple of minutes LOL. Hopefully can pass this paper too.

Next day, we had OSPE and I screwed up big time. I managed to do well in my 1st stations (there were 24 stations and 5 minutes each station) but I died in my 2nd station. The hand model was on the table and I couldn't find label A. I spent about 2 minutes looking for it and I gave up hence I asked the invigilators where is label A. They told me, "You can turn the model" and there was A!!!! ARGH!! I panic and went blanked but I managed to SIMPLY fill in the blanks =( Next 22 stations, I maintained the blanked state and could not remember ANYTHING =( I really really hope I can pass. Really need this pass..... ='(

3rd day of exam was OSCE and from the previous post, you'll know that I was very relaxed and did not really study the night before and watched 2 episodes of Glee instead. Ya, so at 11.50am which was the start of my quarantine time I was still not feeling the stress. At 1.15pm (5 minutes before my 1st station) I started to feel scared. Gah!!! But overall, I did OK I think. Like I say, I have extra about 30 seconds to 1 minute to actually stand and stone or even talk to the examiners!!!! I think I missed out a lot in inspection. Please let me pass!!!! PLEASE!!!!

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So, I guess that concludes the post EOS5 posts. I'll start posting normal stuff and even include some things that happened throughout my few months of preparation for this exam. Actually a lot happened LOL.

PS: Went and google map Aberdeen and found out that it's way up North!!! OMG, gonna freeze to death!! =(

Till then, have a great day =)

Post EOS5-1#

I'll start my post with the events on the last day of EOS5.

So yesterday was the second day of OSCE (practical exam where you examine patients) and I don't know why I was worried. Funnily, I was not stressed or worried on the 1st day of OSCE. I even went home and watched 2 episodes of Glee after my dreadful OSPE (exam questions based on models and pictures) on the second day of exam and did not read or prepare anything for the 1st day of OSCE.

So, I woke up knowing what happened to 3rd episode of Glee (watched it when I came home from 1st day of OSCE) instead of OSCE stuff. Started to panic and had palpitations but no guilt though LOL. So went to uni by LRT (KTM broke down and all trains will be delayed for more than 60 minutes for this week) and started to hyperventilate every few minutes. Thankfully my aquarium neighbour Farook (sem 3 friend who's 33 years old =P) came and talked to me and de-stress me a bit. Later Azra, my batchmate from Botswana who's 28 years old came and joined me in my aquarium.

So by 11.50am, went to quarantine room and started getting signatures and messages from batchmates on my yearbook/ convocation magazine. By 1pm, we went down and started our exam at 1.20pm. 1st physical examination station- PAP SMEAR.....WOOOHOOOO!!!! Finished that station within 3 minutes and had time to chill before running to the next physical examination station. Cut the story short, I think I did OK in the exam and I think I'll pass. Surprisingly I have extra 1 minute or more in every station to actually have a conversation with the examiners!! HAHAHAAA....not really a good sign because I think I miss out a lot under inspection section.

After exam, went and cheered and showed off to Farook that I'm free and his favourite phrase "HJ, Go away and die" was thrown to me a couple of times. Hahaha!! I'm sure I'll miss this funny neighbour. His EOS 3 is a few weeks away and hence he made me go down to atrium to buy 10 packets of Mamee for him since his time is so much more precious and I am free now. Well, I don't really mind and he's been taking care of me for the past few months so how could I reject such favour? LOL

Went to use the computer and read all the blogs in my bloglist. Then managed to download only one episode of Eyeshield 21 because it uses megaupload and if someone else is using it to DL stuff, you can't DL anything. By 4.45pm, Tham came and we talked and by 5pm we went down to 2nd floor to get our PMS result.

Many people were lining out and some even got their result already. I think about 90% got their top choices and some got their..let's just say they were very unhappy. Tham and I opened together and she got her 1st choice-Edinburgh!!!!! I was so happy for her!!! Later Jing came and she got Leceister. She was so sad and well, had tears because her top choices were universities from New Zealand, then Australia then UK and she got UK, so you can imagine how shock and sad she was (her BF and relatives are at New Zealand btw). So for one second I'm hugging and smiling so broadly with Tham and the next second, I'm hugging Jing and felt like crying with her =(

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Just got back from saying Hi to Farook, and it's so funny because he said he's getting use to not seeing me in the morning (we're the top 2 students stepping into the library in the morning LOL) and also getting use to the new neighbout (whoever that is occupying the aquarium). LOL!!!!!!!!!

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So how about me you ask? Well, I got...wait for it...Aberdeen!! My 1st choice. Let me tell you my real feelings. I am not over the cloud or sad or anything. I honestly was hoping that this PMS result can kinda be my escape route from ballet exam. I don't really want to sit for the exam because I suck and I know that I'll fail badly because I have been kinda neglecting ballet for studies sake and hence lost my stamina and maybe a little interest and the motivation and dedication and things like that. I don't want to have any FAIL in my life especially in exams. Besides, the thought of staying in Malaysia while seeing all my friends flying off is kinda depressing. More over, the people going to Aberdeen are people I don't really know. A girl called Janice (I never talk to her before, just smile and acknowledged that she's my batchmate) and 2 other Indians boys whom I know but never really talk to too because they well, have bad life styles and skip lectures BUT I know they are nice and good people (Tham tells me their stories all the time LOL).

On the bright side, I can save money for my dad and only study for 2 years then I'll graduate same time as my other friends at UK (their's 3 years). My friends who are going to Aus will graduate 6 months later because they start next year and need to study for another 3 years.

So yeah, that's it for now. Suddenly lost mood to type anymore and I need to go for my CSU debriefing soon. They don't want us to go to second phase thinking what we're doing are the correct technique. I seriously hope that I'll pass. I don't care about the grades anymore, just a pass would make me happy.

Tah tah...for now. maybe I'll continue after the debrief since I'll be in uni till night LOL

FREEEEEE!!!!

Well, exam just ended minutes ago. I'll update soon but not now because I want to read my mangas and watch my Glee and Dr. House and all the episodes I got from Esther dear.

BTW, OSCE for the 1st day was tough for a lot of people. It was OK for me, mistakes here and there and just hope for pass...

So peeps, expect my blog to be updated everyday and if my mood is extra good, maybe twice or thrice per day. For now....mangaaaaa!!!!

XD

Summative 2 over but EOS coming

As you can read from the title, the battle is not over yet. Instead the 2nd exam (EOS) is much harder, consist of more weightage, more to study (all 10 systems) and longer exam time/ days.

So I still won't be active for the next 3 months BUT I promise you I will be back after that. I have so much to blog about but no time. Sorry guys...

J-J go Crazy...

One early morning, J-1 woke up and watched Lovely Bones which J-2 gave.

At 10am, J-1 went to uni and learned the muscles of the upper and lower limb. Lower limb took up 3hours!!!

J-2 (aka lazy bump) went to uni at 1pm and was clueless of the things at MMS even after studying at the uni for the past 1 year. Shame on J-2.

By 2pm, J-1 went crazy and started crapping. J-2 joined in for the fun of it.

The 2 J-J went crazy, making lots of silly comments and joked around.

By 5pm when the MMS closed, J-1 end up with bad headache while J-2 was frustrated with the dinner.

Evidence of J-2 molesting Charlie.
See how he tried to dissemble the body parts...murderer!!! LOL

The skeletons who saw what he was doing quickly went and hide at one corner.
Too bad, he spotted them and one of them will be the next target. I wonder who will it be...
See what happened to the unlucky ones??
Tsk tsk tsk...MURDERER!!!!

I on the other hand, am a herbivorous =P
See what I eat...
So GREEN right??

I am an Omnivorous too and I am sure I'll miss these when I'm not here one day...
-Green vegetable, Potatoes, Sambal Udang, Steam fish+ sherry tomatoes, Vegetable soup-

post portfolio completion

I finally finished my report yesterday in the afternoon but after proof read it for a few times (eyes too tired to focus), I officially end it by shutting down my computer.

Honestly I am quite proud of this portfolio. I put in so much effort and when I was proof reading, I really did feel that my portfolio is good. Hahaha

After shutting down my computer, I went and helped mom with dinner and by 10.30pm (while reading yesterday's newspaper) I fell asleep.

I woke up at 5am and went to mom's office to print my portfolio (63 pages!!) and then went stationery shop hunting. Most of them were closed BUT thank goodness mom brought me to Desa Park City and the the shop (I forgot the name but the services include boxing for DHL stuff) opposite to the Mediviron Clinic offers binding services too. After all the long hours spent at Desapark City's Coffee Bean and passing this shop when I go toilet last year, I never realise it'll save me from going to uni without a binded portfolio.

Next, we went for lunch at La Casa and the bill came up to RM98.55!! I had Creamy Mushroom Pie, sis had Carbonara and mom had Honey Chicken something and we ordered a kiwi and orange + gree apple fruit juice while I settled with a Jap Green tea. So expensive!! Later, we went to New Zealand Natural for ice cream (mom made me pay because : me need binding => came to desa park city => had expensive lunch).

Anyway, now I'm feeling a little tired and my head is kinda heavy. My neck muscle (I'm sure it's trapezius) is better but still pain when I rotate it more than 90 degree.

Thanks Yoko Yoko!!

Feeling lazy from studying even though I have so much to catch up....

Stayed up for 54 hours and counting

It's 10.20am now but I'll just count it as 10a.m.

Was up and awake since 4am of 1/4/2010.

Yesterday nearly died of fatigue and felt nausea but somehow managed to stay awake. Suddenly at about 11.30a.m., I developed stiffed neck on my right side and I can extend or rotate my head to my right. I believe the muscle involved is trapezius muscle.

I am quite proud because I did quite well in the CSU history taking session later in the afternoon. Having been in a half asleep phase is good as I didn't feel nervous or scared instead I was more focus on the nausea feeling I was having. Anyway, out of 4 stations, my partner and I split half so we took 2 each and in that 2 stations, the sp praised me lalalala~~ But honestly this is expected because we are in sem 5 already and taking history should be like walking to us.

This morning went to Ballet class and surprisingly I managed to remember the free work that was given. WOW~~

Honestly, there will be moments where the feeling of sleeping will be so overwhelming BUT if you manage to stay awake, you'll feel fine. I'll define "fine" as in awake and still can function (subconsciously sometimes).

Take this morning at 5am, I wanted to take my cup for a drink but somehow I could not aim and reach the cup holder. My hand landed next to it instead LOL

So far, I've downed 5 cups of coffee since Thursday so I can be said to be reaching the intoxicated level. I hope after 2 hours, I can finally complete my portfolio, go to my mom's office to print (it's 60 pages long!!) and hopefully sleep. Yet, I have so much studies to catch up.

Planning time I guess....where's my paper and pen. Till then =)


PS: I was feeling nausea because I was having an empty stomach and I think I was low in glucose so after June gave me a sweet, felt so much better. Besides, I had that nauseating feeling again this morning at 4a.m so I had bread and felt better (as if I'm pregnant right?). Yipee....just hope that I won't fall sick or have headache. My neck stiffness is gone too!! Thanks to yoko yoko =P

Post sleepless weekend

- - - Monday- - -
Turned into a living zombie but was bearable because I bought 2 cans of coffee and drank one before lectures and one at about 2ish. Went to Mom's office and managed to stay awake til 11ish pm.

- - - Tuesday - - -
Started to feel the effect. I did not manage to buy any coffee so decided to survive on my own adrenaline because today is a loong day!!

After lecture at 10.30am, I had PBL and it was OK. At 12.20pm, I had to go to Hospital Seremban and I did not manage to sleep in the bus because there was a heated discussion among the people seating around me (June, Vidya and Zia). They were discussing about IMU and SRC and stuffs...

Hospital Seremban was not that bad and surprisingly I was the one who approached the patient and did most of the history taking. Luckily and sadly it rained. It was good that it rained because it was so cooling as the hospital was not air-conditioned. Unlucky because we had to get wet when we cross over to the clinical school.

On the way home in the bus, I was busy talking to June and Zia again and the people who sat behind us (we were in the 1st row) were impressed that we could talk non-stop for almost 1 hour LOL. Reached uni by 6.30pm, went to Mom's office again with Subway as our dinner and died off on her office table at 9.30pm. We left the office at 10pm.

- - - Wednesday - - -
I totally could not wake up but forced myself to do so. After finishing my house chores (sweep and sometimes mop floor, boil water and wash clothes), I went and took a 5 minutes nap and by 5.45a.m. left house for the train. Dead tired in the train and fell asleep a few times.

Totally could not concentrate in lectures. Was fidgeting around to stay awake and felt like the lectures took an eternity to end. After lectures, had CSU practice and I managed to stay awake. Most of the time I did not know what I said or did and just relied on my friends to correct me.

By 12.30p.m, I could not open my eyes. Walking out from CSU was a miracle so I decided to go home instead of staying back to TRY to study which I know would fail.

Sat the 1.15p.m train and when I was in KTM, I nearly fell 3 times because my knees gave way (no place to sit). Thank goodness I was holding onto the hanging belt (don't know what is it called). When the train reached KL Sentral, only did I get the chance to sit BUT when I was about to shut my eyes I heard someone calling my name. There MJ was, walked and sat beside me. I was so relieved when she told me "sleep la, I also want to sleep." And I really had a deep sleep and suddenly woke up when I reached my station. Salute my brain!!

- - - Way to rejuvenate- - -

Walked home, bathed, washed lab coat (stink after wearing it the whole day at Hospital and was damp when kept it on Tuesday) and slept from 3.30p.m. til 5.30p.m. Woke up, studied a bit then sleep again from 7.30p.m. til 9p.m. when my dad woke me up for dinner. Had to skip ballet =P
Slept again at 10.30p.m.

- - - Thursday - - -
Woke up at 4p.m. and did house chores. Tried to mug up as much anatomy and pathology notes because there's an exam at 10.30a.m. after lectures!!! Was sleepy already by 5.30a.m. so took a 5 minutes nap. Went to the train station at 5.45a.m.

Bought the can coffee and drank it before lectures and BOY I WAS SO AWAKE and felt SO FRESH!!! Was awake throughout lectures and did fairly well in the test too!! Went home by 4p.m. after I did some studying and had fun in ballet class. Currently, energy level is about 65% out. Planing to stay up to TRY to finish the portfolio again BUT tomorrow after lecture, having MMS then PBL then CSU!!!

Another long day....so should I stay up??


PS: Some people should just avoid library because they just don't know how to SHUT UP!!!! Grrr....

record

- - - Thursday night- - - - 11.30p.m.- - -
Decided to take a cup of coffee to stay awake to try completing as much Snell as possible....

- - - Friday morning - - - 3.30a.m. - - -
Persuade myself to go to bed for the sake of Friday.

- - - 5.30a.m. - - -
Woke up and did the normal house chores. Took the 6a.m. train after drinking another cup of coffee.

- - - 6.30a.m. - - -
Still awake and managed to read some notes in the train.

- - - 8a.m. - - -
Had JP for 1st lecture and Dr.Nilesh for the 2nd lecture. Surprised that I managed to stay awake and even grasped quite a lot of info from the Dr's speed talking.

- - - 10.30a.m. - - -
Went to Student Representative Council room to complete the ECA form.

- - - 12p.p.m. - - -
Went and helped out the Community Service Club Welcoming Party. Had-all-I-can-eat-pizza as lunch.

- - - 2.30p.m. - - -
Had CSU and had a great doctor teaching spine movement.

- - - 4.30p.m. - - -
Continued with Snell.

- - - 5.00p.m. - - -
Took a cat nap.

- - - 5.20p.m. - - -
Woke up and felt fresh so continued with Snell.

- - - 10p.m. - - -
Continued with Snell in room then went and did PBL.

- - - Saturday morning - - - 1a.m. - - -
Fell asleep.

- - - 5.30a.m. - - -
Woke up and did house chores and then went for a short jog with Frog then ballet class.

- - - 12p.m. - - -
Started/ continued Community Medicine Portfolio.

- - - Sunday morning - - - 12a.m. - - -
Still in front of computer with the portfolio.

- - - 4a.m. - - -
Still in front of computer with the portfolio, progressing slowly.

- - - 6.30a.m. - - -
Went for jog to release the pent up stress.

- - - 8a.m. - - -
Started/ continued with the portfolio.

- - - 2p.m. - - -
Felt like it was already 6p.m. Weather was hot and humid. Felt a little sleepy.

- - - 7.20p.m.- - -
Still in front of computer with the portfolio. Mentally tired. Came and blogged. Remember about decorating Jon's board in conjunction with "Save the earth Week". Feeling stress.

- - - 7.40p.m.- - -
Will ignore the board's decoration for now. Will publish this post and continue working on the portfolio.

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How long can I stand before I fall sick/ get more crankier than the current me?

Bad day

Had replacement class at 8am by Dr.Nilesh. FYI, Dr.Nilesh is from India and his Indian accent is still quite strong and he speaks very fast YET he's the best anatomist I've known so far. He's so knowledgeable that he just want to tell you everything he knows hence the speed of his sentences. I would die if I ever miss his lecture and hence this post.

KTM has been improving BUT on the replacement class day, it was late and was stopped between Segambut and Putra for 1.15 hours!!!! I take the 6.08am train and will usually reach uni by 7am if the train is puncture. That day, at 7am, I was still in the train 2 stops away from the station I was at and it was Dr.Nilesh's lecture!!!

I was so worried/ anxious/ scared/ pissed that I put my earphones on, increase the volume to maximum and listened to MCR shouting and singing away. It was helping at the beginning but after 30 minutes, I was so worried that my whole buccal mucosa's epithelium was being chewed on.

Thank goodness, I arrived in time for the lecture and I even managed to release the pent up anger before he started his lecture LOL.

Today, I retired from my club's post. Yeah!!! Had all I can eat Domino for lunch. Satisfying!!!

Today, had 2 hours of winks before I went to uni and surprisingly I survived til 5pm. Had a 15 minutes nap and here I am still awake but tired.

Got to do PBL, Com Med portfolio, study....
I was so stress yesterday that I felt like crying but couldn't. Ballet classes are taking up a lot of my time. Kinda feel like giving up sometimes =(

Welcome back??

OK, it's my bad and it's my fault for abandoning you for the past 1 month but I was busy hence limited/ allowed myself to use the computer only during the weekends.

There are quite a few issues that I would like to blog about. Don't say I didn't pre-warn you (any readers left? LOL) that it'll be a LONG post.

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Community Medicine week is over and MSK (musculoskeletal) system has started. It's interesting as we need to learn about the bones and parts of it. Spending time with Bobby was fun and it was better when he allowed me to touch him =P I'll post his picture up when I have the free time.

As I enter the second week of MSK, I'm starting to feel burned out. Sleeping less than 6 hours and trying to stay awake in the afternoon is just testing my mental power. Every time I enter the train (KTM), even though I am standing I can actually fall asleep and I nearly fell a few times. Ballet is also taking up quite a lot of my time and energy. I sometimes kinda dread going for class BUT recently I found out that it can be a place to release all the pent out stress especially when frog is around =)

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For PMS (partner medical school) students, we were required to write a narrative entitled "Your future plans and general career aspirations after graduation from PMS/IMU Clinical School (typewritten, not exceeding 250 words and in Font 12)". So after getting less sleep and more tired that usual, I managed to produce a not-too-bad narrative.

Now the issue I would like to address here is how some people would only approach you when they need help. So on the day we have to submit our narratives, there were some who have not talked/ approached me for some time appeared and asked for my help. I honestly didn't mind but after helping them, only did this thought sunk in "why ask me and not your other closer friends?" When I told my mother about it, she was a little unhappy that I offered to help because this narrative is quite important as (apparently) the PMS choose/consider us based on our narrative (besides our results). Quote her:

"this is a competition, everyone should do it by themselves so that it's fair."

BUT there were some who had their family members writing the essay for them so is this still call fair?

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Last month, I joined the Eco Friends Club because I thought the club needed people since one of IMU's policy in forming club is that there must be at least 20 members to start off. Besides, the founders are Jo Yee (a HELP friend) and another batch mate. Innocently I went there to increase the number of members but end up being in the committee board. I am willing to help out and commit myself BUT there were so many meetings and most of the time, I'll be sitting there quietly listening to the founders and the teacher-in-charge discussing about certain issues. The feeling I had was "I could have used this time to study."

Point to note- our club is not official yet- hence most of the time in the first few meetings were discussions on how to persuade the lady in charge of clubs to make us official. HOWEVER, I am glad that FINALLY we have something that I can help out!! The Student Representative Council is organising the Earth Day and they wanted us to help out in handling the poster competition. Yeah, at least in the meetings I can contribute a bit and not waste time =)

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Recently or I should say this year onwards, I have been feeling very annoyed with my family members. Everything they did just irritate me and make me feel angry (for no reason!!). I feel bad but after a while I would justify my feelings and the guilt just evaporated. This week, I have not had dinner with my family as I buy my own dinner and eat while study in my room while they go out for their dinner. Reasons for my actions are:
1. We have to wait for my mother and brother to come home from work and they usually reach home by 8ish and by time we go out for dinner, it would be 9ish
2. I wake up VERY early hence I got to sleep earlier but late dinner is just making me fat and unhealthy!!
3. If I have my dinner at home, I only need maximum 15 minutes while I'll waste almost 1.30hours if I join them for dinner
4. If I spend more time with them, I'll feel more irritated and annoyed =P

There you go, my valid reasons!! I sometimes just can't wait to fly away...

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Yesterday, my sem3 juniors asked me to help them at the CSU (clinical skills unit) and I gladly went and help since I understand what they are going through. I am happy that I actually took the initiative to teach them what I know because besides refreshing my memories (sem5's OSCE exam also include sem3's stuff), I got a SP for my future practices!! Yeah!!

In addition, I got praises from the juniors which helped me a little in my inferiority complex which I have been experiencing since I came to IMU. I always felt that everyone around me are so smart and I will be expelled anytime soon since I am not as good as them. I confess that this is one of the motivation that keep me studying all the time. I know feeling this way is bad and maybe I am not as bad as I think I am but I actually feel it deep down that I am a no good. Reaching sem5 is honestly a huge surprise for me but standing in front of me is another hurdle that I got to leap. I must pass sem5 and I will try to do it without putting so much stress on myself (which was what happened in sem3 and hence that result).

Pray for me people...

Hopefully I'll resume blogging by next week =)
Til then, take care people...
My favourite study place- the aquarium =)

Desperate measures

A week ago, I went to KKB (a VERY rural place) for my hospital rotation. Hence I went with
1) A lack of knowledge
2) A huge bag (4 days 3 nights)
3) 6 apples
4) Cereals with 6 soya bean milk
5) Macleod
6) Handphone that can watch TV (dad bought it from China)

So on Sunday night I watched Merlin with Mobeljin. On Monday night, 2 of my friends and I were cramping to watch the TV (NCIS and Criminal Minds) then on Tuesday night (Ghost Whisperer). Besides my friends, there were others who accompanied us such as mosquitoes!!

This picture was taken by my friend's iphone

The other 2 gals who came down to check on us because we were missing from the room. (8 beds per room and it's hot before 12am and cold after that.)

Melbojin =P

It's kinda funny because the TV uses aerial so it took us time to find the right spot but it rained so we moved into the laundry room (we were watching at the laundry room) and when the show was at the exciting parts, we practically walked right in front of the TV and try to make the sense out of it LOL

My GP Posting

One word to describe her--- CUTE!!!

She is so funny and hilarious!!!
She is so nice and fun to be with!!!
She makes Jing and I laughed non stop all the time but knows when to be serious.
She is always checking her FB account and made Jing and I add her LOL!!
She treat us her style of nasi lemak and on the last day treated us to bak kut teh =)

I seriously enjoyed being with her and I miss her already.
She taught us a lot of stuff and she has lots of emergency cases.
I saw a lot of cuts and blood and gory stuff such as this guy who came in with a huge 12cm long laceration at his head. The cut was so deep that I can see the parietal bone!!

BTW, she is my ballet teacher's cousin in law!! LOL
Such a small world.

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Usually people will not add their parents in FB BUT I just finished creating an account for my mom!! Hahaha XD

PS: Got to be careful with what I write in FB now =P

PPS: She's reading this blog and correcting my grammar HAHAHAHA

I love you mummy =P